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I am back for another BLC(-14) challenge

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

This is tough, so much has happened since my last blog.... I will start by listing my goals for the next 12 weeks:
1- To get my new pedometer working! (needs a battery)
2- Drink 8 - 10 cups of water a day.
3- Use the nutrition tracker, stay in my recommended calorie range.
4- Move!!! I want to get back to 10,000 steps a day, pass 8 miles on my elliptical machine, complete the GOYB and GOYBD challenges....
5- Lose 25 lbs...
6- To get my numbers in line, (diabetic) I want to get to 6.5 to 7, and keep my blood sugars 70-120, then to be able to go OFF my meds, AGAIN!!!
7- To have my liver functions improve.
8- To be able to work more hours, and keep feeling better! To function better in All areas of my life! I stay busy, but to not have it be such a chore to get up or down! Little things like that are something we should never take for granted!
9- To wear a size below 20w, (I have some 18 jeans hanging around for incentive)
10- To feel life more, I have been so sick, it's been hard to see beyond the here and now. I am improving, and feel it's time to dive in and save my life!

* To get all of the hardware out of my left ankle... that is a story in itself! I cancelled the needed surgery that should have taken place Aug 14th, because of all of the overwhelming health issues I have been dealing with... it will be nice to not be in pain all of the time!*

I need to get below 220, for personal reasons; ok I will tell you, I haven't weighed that since I have had my baby... 22 years ago. Ouch, that hurt to admit! I have been known to say; as I am patting my belly...if I would just have this baby I would look so much better! It's real over due!!!

Then it will be the wonderful goal of getting to 199!!!!!!!!!! Then to take it 10 lbs at a time.

My big goal is to get at my healthy weight, and maintain it for a year, then treat myself to some much needed "body tucking"!! My Husband knows just how much I HATE my belly area, and has said he will make that happen, so, we will see!

It is scary, I have found that the thought of losing weight is uncomfortable, it sounds strange, but, to lose one's security blanket is freighting! I have never felt like this was me, I had never had to watch my weight when I was younger, with life happening; I subconsciously built a barrier, and need to like myself again!

So as my user name says it all....HEREWEGO!

  
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DEBORAHE58 9/22/2010 2:36PM

    It was good to see your blog. I haven't been in touch for quite some time. Great goals and you can do it. I just got myself back to SP. It has been awhile, but I need to do this. I can understand so much of what you wrote in this blog. If you have time - please connect with me. I could use a SP buddy with similar goals - would love to help motivate each other. I am getting ready for a big move in 6 weeks - moving from NW WA to the Boulder area of CO - I have some time before the move to concentrate on me - husband is already in CO and I am here in WA packing and selling the house and almost everything in it! Take care and keep moving!

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WALKERSSS 9/9/2010 12:51PM

    Great list of goals. Nothing better then writing them down. I too struggle with diabetes and keeping the numbers in check is a constant challenge. Wishing you success in every ave. Always remember you are never alone in this journey. So many of us have the same issues and we'll keep pressing forward. Onederland here we come! emoticon

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REBUILDINGME 9/9/2010 8:39AM

    I am so glad that you are here and ready for our new BLC. I too have so many issues I can not afford to failure! Come on lady...let's see 2010 out with a BANG and welcome a new decade with our success! emoticon

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*MADHU* 9/7/2010 12:18PM

    emoticonS.M.A.R.T goals emoticon

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CANBDONE 9/7/2010 5:09AM

    We have to give ourselves permission to release these extra pounds...and that is a scary change! Why? emoticon

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I am feeling like it is just a dream.........

Monday, June 08, 2009

WE all go through different highs and lows in our lives, I love to read about all of the people that have been successful with their weight loss. I go along so good for awhile, and I want this so badly, but then I hit a brick wall!!!! I do always do seem to get back on board again, and I think that is what is different this time with me getting healthy, and am not giving up! It's hard to not feel angry at times about all of the lost time being fat, and slipping off of my program, because it would come quicker if I would stay the course!!! It gets old losing the same 10-15 lbs over and over.... but I am continually going down at the Doctors office, that is one good thing!!! I asked a fellow Sparker once about what she felt about the 300 lb plus person she was...."she said, she loves her, and it's a reminder of where she was at, and incentive to stay where is is". I want to burn all of my "fat" pictures from the last 20 years, I hope to one day accept the person I let myself become, and love her too, maybe that is the key to being able to change!!! I love that there are so many people who can understand what I feel, and not judge me. This is a great place to vent, and come to grips with ourselves. That is needed to change! This picture is another one of my moments of, wow, look at what I have become......

  
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CANBDONE 6/19/2009 7:36PM

    I see a person surrounded by love....Sweet Sister!

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VICKI103 6/8/2009 11:29PM

    I'm familiar with that brick wall and I just keep trucking along and refuse to give up. I don't love the body of the person I once was but the soul is the same and I'm thankful for that.

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JUSTSTARTINGOUT 6/8/2009 11:17PM

    Jill - I'm hoping that seeing the brick wall in the road ahead will make it easier for you to go around it (or through it). And it sounds like you've figured out a big piece of it - working at being healthy instead of just thin. ("just" thin - listen to me!). As for your picture - you look like a happy, sparkling woman surrounded by friends/family. How lucky we are to have you here!

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KYLIEMC8 6/8/2009 11:15PM

    I agree with your friend. And don't lose or destroy those pictures. They will be a reminder of that woman you were! You can get this done! emoticon

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COVEREDH 6/8/2009 7:01PM

    Jill, you are so right!! emoticon for posting this wonderful blog, YOU ARE DA BOMB GIRL emoticon I miss ya, I'll be back to sparking soon......
Petra

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LESIA2478 6/8/2009 4:50AM

    Thank you for your words they mean alot to me. I don't know if I can be any help to you. I so know how you feel to. I don't know how I don't see that brick wall headed my way. I seem to hit it every time, and it throws my off my path. It is always hard to find my way back to the right path, but I always find it. I know you will to.

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I think I am the biggest saboteur!! So, here is a letter to myself!!

Friday, February 20, 2009

This as follows, is the challenge, I felt I needed to put it exactly as it appears on our team thread....

DAILY CHALLENGE, JANUARY 20, 2009

None of us are able to travel this journey by ourselves. We need help along the way. But we don't always get that help from everybody. We all have saboteurs in our lives. Identify your biggest saboteur. Write a short letter to this saboteur telling them what you are trying to accomplish and why, how they can help you, and thank them for what they have done for you so far. BLOG it on your SparkPage.

I have given this so much thought, I think I pulled a muscle in my brain!! I can't think of anyone who is my biggest saboteur, other than, ME!!!

I have nothing to thank myself for, other than thanks for being willing to make the much needed efforts, to get to a healthier me.

I am at a difficult time now, and this challenge comes to me as that; a challenge, a BIG one!! I have become aware of what triggers me to eat out of control, sweets, excusing a holiday, or gathering, of a time to indulge, and self medicating. It sure hasn't worked for me in the past, now I am aware of it, and shame on me if I don't do anything with that knowledge!!

What I am trying to accomplish:
1-Get healthier, be able to play with my Granddaughter, (and future Grand kids), feel good about myself, get off of more medications, have the confidence I have lacked, to enjoy my relationship fully with my Husband, let ME come back;..... in public! I loved to dance, dress fun, and embrace life!
2-Lose the rest of the 140 lbs I started out with.
3-Learn portions, calories, self control, motivation.
4-To physically feel good, and get back my love of exercise.
5-Not be the FAT Mom when my Daughter gets married!
6-Get back the feeling of validation that comes with self confidence!!
7-Wear skinny jeans, own the boots I have always wanted, tuck my shirt in, get into that size 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8-Put my resume out to work movies again (doing hair), I have loved my experiences doing that!!
9-Get the book compiled I have wanted to write!
10-To get through my bucket list!

This is a heartfelt letter to, ME! When it comes down to it, I ultimately am the one who has the responsibility to take control of my life. Yes things have happened to cause me to get where I have been, but I can choose to stay there, and roll around in the misery, or get up and step forward, learn from the past, and get to a better place in life! I have the choice to be a victim, or prevail over adversity, and I chose to divide and concur!!

Sincerely, My ex- Saboteur, Jill



  
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TURNABOUT4KRIS 3/10/2009 5:00PM

    You are beautiful Jill :)

Truly,
Kristen

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MCAUDI 3/3/2009 8:41AM

    Jill,
They say admitting things are half the battle - you have great insights in to how your mind is working. Just work on it one day at a time and you will succeed. You sound very motivated and that is what it takes. I love the picture too.

Marcy

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JANR4719 2/23/2009 10:28PM

    WOW!! Were you in my head when you wrote this? They say hind site is 20/20. Sounds like your hind site is working pretty well. Thanks for being an inspiration.

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COVEREDH 2/23/2009 5:13AM

    emoticon letter Jill!! YOU CAN & WILL SUCCEED!! I have faith in you!! I love your picture!!! emoticon Petra

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LESSOFME2B 2/22/2009 11:07PM

    My biggest saboteur is myself also. I like the way you addressed this and wrote the letter. We can do this. We are important enough to care about us. Let's do it together!

Love your new pictures! Little Riley is an absolute sweetheart!! Give her an extra big hug from me.

Vicki
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KYLIEMC8 2/22/2009 11:30AM

    Another great letter! You're wonderful and will get it done! Good job! Hugs, Kylie

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SCOOBYINWY 2/21/2009 2:42AM

    What a great letter! You have a great attitude, and you are well on your way to those skinny jeans!!!! emoticon emoticon

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VICKI103 2/21/2009 1:24AM

    Fantastic letter to yourself. Self realization is a great motivator! You will get to that size 10 and wear those sz 10 jeans with that sexy shirt tucked in! Vicki

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WYOBZM 2/20/2009 9:50PM

    YOur pictures are beautful. Your letter heartflet. Now, GET OFF YOUR BUTT AND ADD AT LEAST 30 minutes of activity a day. Drink that water and work hard! I lost 50 pounds in 5 months because I wanted to. YOU CAN DO IT TOO!

(I will be here to kick you in the butt when you need it, just let me know!) emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MABELL1WFTX 2/20/2009 8:28PM

    emoticonThis is a wonderful letter. Shows a lot of insight into your being. Read it often and remind yourself often of what you realize, what you want and how you are going to do it. You are a strong lady and you will learn to be stronger and do this for yourself. emoticon


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I am Making the Deadline for my BLC-9 Assignment for for Jan. 26th

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I am wanting to fulfill all of my assignments for this challenge. I don't even know if this is the correct place to do my BLOG for the assignment, but I don't know where else to do one....so here I am!

This challenge is hard, but, I am learning so much about myself along the way. I know with this knowledge it will be possible to keep off the weight, because of the awareness I have brought into my life. It was mindless eating, and not moving enough that got me here to begin with. Accountability is a good thing, and I don't mind for the first time since I have been overweight, answering to others. I feel this is impart from, the understanding that other Sparkpeople have shown me, and I don't feel defensive or belittled. It helps having the same goals, wither it is to lose over 100 lbs. or take off 10 lbs. It is all hard, and challenging.

I am experiencing some depression of sorts right now, but it doesn't worry me, for I know how to get myself out of this, and doing positive things for me is the best thing for it.

I will have a loss for my 1st weigh in this week, but I need to step it up quite a lot to succeed at my goals for the challenge.

  
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OLDSCUBACHICK 2/12/2009 11:57AM

    Honestly, Jill, I am so stinking proud of you. You are amazing.
Cathie

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COVEREDH 1/25/2009 7:05PM

    JILL - YOU GO GIRL!!!!! I know you CAN & WILL succeed!! I'm so blessed to know you. You are an amazing lady. I love your blog, it's so true......100 lbs or 10 lbs - it's the same struggle for all, but we all WILL succeed!! Have a great weekend. HUGS, Petra

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KYLIEMC8 1/20/2009 4:40PM

    I loved your blog, the idea that you will be accoutable and that you know you need to step it up to reach those goals!! YOU CAN DO IT!! If you need me I'm around..just email me! Hugs, Kylie emoticon

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VICKI103 1/20/2009 4:05PM

    Putting yourself out there and doing the challenge is fabulous. I've been on this weight loss marathon for 14.5 months and I joined Spark 13 months ago. It took me awhile to get the hang of SP but it all comes with time. The team support and all the great info from team members and SP have made a big difference in my continued commitment. You are taking big steps and looking at yourself for self improvement and that is all part of staying on task. Loosing pounds is pretty much in the gray area and you will probably find yourself looking at different strategies as you go along. I'm so glad you are part of the team. Vicki

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Alright I just made a commitment to my 1st big challenge.... BLC-9

Sunday, January 04, 2009

I feel excited, scared, intimated, confident, wow so many emotions!! It's a New Year, and I want to be done with my weight loss goal this year, and working on maintaining my healthier body and mind, next year at this time!!

One of my biggest obstacles is: the intricate working of the computer, and feeling self assured that I am doing it correctly! Of course there is the; whole lose 30 lbs. in 12 weeks thing; and all........ I know to accomplish this I will need to move a lot more, and watch everything that goes into my mouth!! There are so many rules, and I want to accomplish my goal in the worst way!! Heck, I did my 1st cut-copy-paste tonight!! Now to do it again, we will see....

So, here is to putting myself out there even more, and facing a challenge that will be very good for me, failure is not a option!! I have done this in phases, and as I have felt in a comfort zone, I shake it up, and add even more. This is huge for me, and I am so happy to have sparkfriends for that added support!!

So, HEREWEGO!
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DETERMINEDSARA 1/13/2009 9:13PM

    Looks like we are buddies for this challenge! Woohoo! Let me know if you need anything.

I am going to need help just getting on the boards. My schedule is crazy busy right now and I had a hard time last week just logging onto Spark. But I'm going to make it a priority.

Go Teal!

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KYLIEMC8 1/9/2009 7:19PM

    I BELIEVE!! I know we can all do it together! We all have the same goals..right??!!!! emoticon emoticon

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VICKI103 1/4/2009 3:46PM

    It is awesome that you are committing to loosing 30 pounds in 12 weeks. That means you will be looking for some new summer shorts. YEAH! The more you use your computer, the easier things will get for you. Keep notes on some of the new stuff and before long you won't even need to look at the notes. You are so up for the BLC Challenge!!!! Vicki

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BIGGIRL2082010 1/4/2009 10:55AM

    You can DO this! Don't worry about the computer getting in your way - copy and paste works JUST FINE! :)

The challenge tends to be a whole lot of fun - I joined up for BLC-8, too, and I've been having a blast. You can pretty much go at your own pace, but in order to lose the wieght, I've actually found it's very helpful to be chatty on my team thread, exchanging little 2-minute exercise challenges (GOYB is an acronym you'll see, it stands for Get Off Your Butt!), encouragement, commiserations, whatever is needed at the time! Sometimes, just reading the other posts is enough to get me motivated to do the workout I've been delaying, or to otherwise just get active!

Welcome to the team! :) I think you're going to LOVE this challenge!

Cheers,
MayaR>

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JUST_BEACHY! 1/4/2009 3:33AM

    You have made a good decision. I just completed round 8 and it was the kick in the pants that I needed to get me going. I accomplished a HUGE goal of getting below 200 pounds and I owe a large part of it to this challenge and the support and motivation I found there.
You won't regret it!

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