Thursday, August 22, 2013
Hi again! I'm feeling so fantastic! I've been telling myself that a month before the wedding, I was going to get serious about eating less, but on Sunday, which was a month and 3 days before the wedding, I decided I just couldn't feel so icky anymore and I was going to get down to business.
Last week I started the Coach Nicole's old-school NewYou Bootcamp Workout, which is basically cardio and strength training with a stability ball. I cut down my Nordic Track workout from an hour to 45 minutes, and then I do two sets of whatever her strength training workout is for that day. MAN, can I feel it! I LOVE it. I'm so sore the next day which means I know it's working! The stability ball makes it more fun, somehow. I like having something to work with and think about.
I've really been able to control my eating. I felt a difference after the first day of cutting my calories - just feeling lighter and healthier. It's so mental. I felt like a different person. I felt like healthy, controlled, energetic Elyse. That's who I tell myself I really am, and I like when I feel that way!
But like my title says, motivation makes a difference! I bought a dress I fit and feel good about myself in, so I'm not worrying about that. (What a relief, right? Woohoo!) But I want to give my new husband the best of me, I want him to be proud of his new wife, and I want to feel beautiful on his arm. I want to look good in my wedding pictures because this is a day I've dreamed of for a long time
Today is also one month from the 5 year anniversary of the very first gold star I gave to him when he joined Spark, and my very first comment on his second blog on his second day of being a member here. Isn't that amazing? We both joined Spark for similar reasons. We both felt our lives were out of control and we needed to get healthy and happy, and find our way. And after years of support and friendship and finally love, we're here together. I love it!
So here we go! Wish me luck with everything I gotta do!!!
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Yes, it's true! The best part is that I met this wonderful man here on Spark! Isn't that wonderful? He became my best supporter, then my best friend, then my best sweetheart.
Getting married not only means that I'm packing up my life here in Arizona and moving me and my kids across the country to New Jersey and planning a wedding in 37 days, it also means that I need to do some slimming down! Even though my 90 day challenge wasn't the overwhelming success I was hoping for, I'm starting another challenge for myself and I'm doing it differently.
I've been doing this Spark thing for five years now and I know what I'm doing. I also know that I'm planning to keep my calorie limit under 1299 per day until the wedding, even though this isn't a lifestyle I want to keep up and is specifically to get me to lose weight. It's not a crash diet, it's not an unhealthy number of calories, but I am acknowledging that this isn't the way I plan on living forever. I already work out an hour every day, and the only thing I'm changing with that is adding strength training five days a week.
So wish me luck and I know I'm going to be needing a lot of encouragement while I pack up my house and stress out about everything while fighting my emotional eating demons!
Saturday, June 29, 2013
I made it my 90 days! Well sort of. There were a few off days there at the end but I basically proved my point to myself. Honestly, I didn't have the kind of success I hoped I would. To get any smaller, I need to either work out more (not gonna happen) or eat less. And I just don't think I'm going to eat less. I think there were probably a few days when I actually ate more than I would have if I wasn't so desperately conscious of my food. Ugh. Whatever.
So the lesson learned is that, although I'm sure I lost some weight and I did feel better in my clothes, I am where I am. This is me. I need to be happy with me. My sweetheart is happy with me, and as long as he is, I should be too.
There you go. It was worth it. Like I said before, it's not like I'm off on some binge. I'm very careful about what I'm eating, as always, and I still work out an hour every day, but if I go out to dinner I don't stress so much and if something special comes up, it's not the end of the world if I have dessert.
Thanks for sticking with me! It was fun!
Monday, June 10, 2013
Hi! So I'm still hanging in there. Still frustrated that I haven't seen more noticeable progress but hanging in there nonetheless. I know that next week I'm not going to decide hey, I can eat 2000 calories a day and stop working out. I always have and always will work out six times a week (maybe five if I have a bad day or something comes up). I know that this is the limit of calories I can really consume with my metabolism and lifestyle without gaining more weight. It's frustrating because I am addicted to food. I have to cope with that every day. I wish I didn't. I wish it wasn't a problem for me. But it is and that's life. I know that I'd rather put the work into staying this size than give up and balloon in weight again and struggle with my health and self-image. I am where I am and what I am.
I was dealing with palpitations every single day, all day long. It started gradually and then became a bigger problem. I figured it was one of the many and varied ways my body decided to deal with stress. I got a biorhythm thing as a birthday gift and tried to use it to learn how to stop the palpitations. Strangely, the opposite seemed to happen and using the machine made me MORE stressed out! I began to link hooking myself up to it with increased stress and palpitations. I put it away with the hopes that I would wait a while and try it again later.
Anyway, so a few weeks ago I realized I was terribly tired and I decided to start taking iron pills and increasing my iron intake. It worked great. Coincidentally, the palpitations went away too! I didn't know if the two were related, but it didn't matter because I was SO happy they were gone.
Suddenly, a couple days ago, the palpitations started again and now they're back to constantly, 24 hours a day every single day no matter what I'm doing. It's upsetting and I hate it.
I had stopped taking iron pills in the morning but I started taking them again, hoping that the two are related. So far, no change.
Other than that I am super healthy and fine. I don't mean to complain but if I can't complain online to a bunch of perfect strangers then what's the point of these Spark blogs! :)
Ok gotta go back to work. It's been pretty slow here, so I decided to take a minute to check in. Have a great day everybody!
Monday, June 03, 2013
Hi! So I had a three days where I probably went over my calories. Well, one where I know I did. I was upset with myself. I tried on those jeans that started it all and they were still tight. I was so mad, and frustrated, and freaking WHATEVER after all this work and all this attention to not have made a difference. I just said forget it and probably went 300 cals over my limit.
That was probably last Wednesday. Then on Thursday was my oldest daughter's high school graduation (I know right? How old am I???). I tried tracking but I'm not sure if I was really as careful as I could have been. And then there was yesterday. I might have gone over. I didn't track carefully, because I was on the verge of giving up.
But I am NOT giving up. I have fifteen days left. I'm still working out every day. I'm going to stay under 1600 calories for the next 15 days. I'm going out with a BANG on this and I'm going to feel good about myself!
I loved that I got to wear my dress the other week. I felt really good in it. I'm going to wear it again when I go on my celebration date on the 21st or 22nd. I'm going to get my nails done. I'm going to get some fake tanner. I'm going to have a fun night enjoying myself and my figure and who I am and what I have accomplished in my 39 years on this earth so far, and I'm going to feel beautiful and I'm going to have fun and I'm going to just be ME.
So that's where I am. I'm sorry I haven't written much. I want you to know I haven't given up, even though I got close. I'm still here. And the funny thing is, I'm sure I'm going to keep at this. I believe that this is a calorie range I need to stick in just to maintain where I am. Sometimes I dream about getting liposuction or something, just to get rid of some of this excess garbage around my middle, but with my luck I would die in surgery and be headline news for my vanity. So I won't!
Ok everybody. Have a wonderful first week of June! I'm sure going to!
Elyse, aka Miss Fabulous
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