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Rethinking my goals

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

I guess the question I'm asking myself is-what is really bothering me about my life right now? What is my real motivation for being on Spark.
I'm 53 now, getting older. I don't want to be one of those women who gain a little more and a little more, keep meaning to do something about it and then one day realize that your body is so heavy and out of shape that its making your life miserable. I don't give a damn about looking like Barbie or wearing a bathing suit, my husband actually likes my curves right now, but I don't want to get fatter as I get older.
I want to do a lot of things with my life but I'm out of shape and get tired so easily. I want to be strong enough to have an interesting life. (Actually, I want to go hang-gliding).
My family has a history of depression, alcoholism, bipolar, you name it. I already have issues with anxiety. Exercise and a healthy diet help all of the above. I can't help what I have but I can try to make intelligent choices to keep it from getting worse.
So there are my real goals. yes, it would be nice if the scale went down but my real desire is for a balanced, healthy life.


Strange things to be thankful for

Saturday, November 08, 2014

Work has been so fast-paced that I barely had time to think. All day. I barely had time to go in the break room and eat, but that was ok. I had packed lunch and a healthy snack and water so in spite of the stress I was taking care of myself. Mood was ok too. On days like that I have noticed that first I am TOO BUSY and later in the day TOO TIRED to get anxious, so it's actually therapeutic in a way.
On break I noticed a coworker who had brought her lunch;she had a chicken breast and a container of Brussels sprouts, and I commented something like"we have to give you the prize for the healthiest lunch today. " she smiled and said,"thank you, I try to." Nice to meet someone with a similar interest!
I did yoga before work and will try to again today-that's all I can squeeze in but hopefully I will learn from Sparkpeople how to fit more exercise in on work days.

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HENLADY11 11/11/2014 9:35AM

  Thank you both, I appreciate the support.

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    Glad to read that you had a good work day and you definitely are on the right track... keep moving forward and pushing yourself to success!

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Feeling the anxiety

Friday, November 07, 2014

Had a paper due for school and it took ALL DAY LONG. I'm still fuming. It wasn't that deep or difficult a paper; I was just worked up and anxious and kept looking up one more resource, adding one more thing. School tears me up that way. I want to stop doing that and just focus and get it done, so badly.
Because writing the paper took all day, when my husband texted and asked me to meet him for dinner after work I didn't have much time for exercise, but I hopped on the treadmill and stepped up the level and did a fast 15 minutes. I really needed it and it helped. We ate at Cracker Barrel, which has a "healthier" selection on their menu, so I could get something not so heavy. Barbecued chicken breast, a cup of broccoli and a sweet potato-yum!
So I had 5 fruits and veggies for the day, 8 cups of water, 15 minutes of exercise. Not going to beat myself up for not meeting all my goals. My real goal is to stop the anxiety from messing up my life.
I'm at work the next 3 days.


Alright now-let's get serious

Thursday, November 06, 2014

I have been taking it pretty easy for the last few days of my startup/return to Spark. Today I want to set some goals and see if I can manage to achieve them. I can't keep pampering myself along doing the easy stuff-I lose my self-respect. I also don't want to set myself up for something not doable in my current state. Hmm...
1-Exercise at least 20 minutes..treadmill and strength training.
2. drink 8 cups of water.
3. Plan meals/buy food for healthy meals for next 5 days.
4. Don't eat after 8 pm. this will be the hard one. The Hub loves to snack. If he has a snack I'm going to make a cup of hot herb tea, sweeten it with stevia or Splenda and drink that.

I work the next 3 days so that's a challenge.

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EVILCECIL 11/6/2014 7:43AM

  You can do it! One step at a time.
Good luck.

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Moving On

Wednesday, November 05, 2014

Did not work out yesterday; I ended up getting up at 5 a.m. so I could get the Hub up for work (his first day back at work on new job-yay!) and then get animals taken care of and go vote before work. Polls close too early for me to vote after work, but if you go early you don't even have to wait in line. :)
Work was the usual; a constantly changing stream of stuff to do. Mood stayed pretty good. I have noticed that as the day gets longer, I start to get tired and slow down and it can get pretty backed up. Wonder if getting in shape will help that-I hope so.
One good moment: our manager announced that it was "Med/Surg Nurses' Week" and so she had arranged for bakery cookies and punch in the break room. I tried a cup of the punch and passed on the cookies. They smelled good but I just knew that the sugar high would wreck me. I'm glad I did because the end of the day was pretty hectic.
I guess the things I'm pleased with are 1) I didn't eat the free goodies and avoided the sugar crash and negative feelings later and 2) today I kept on with my Spark, ate fruits and veggies and did treadmill and some Pilates. Oh, and 3) I DIDNT kick myself for not working out yesterday-I just made it a priority to work out today.


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