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The Old Barn

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

The Old Barn.
1880s-Nov. 29, 2011. A heavy snow yesterday took it down.
Oh, the memories......my whole childhood revolved around this old barn.
My Christmas ponies: Punkin and her colt, Sir Prize, my 4-H horses: Classic's Serenade (Saddlebred), He's a Rascal (AQHA, on loan), Charlie O'Neil (AQHA), Riding hunt seat, flat seat, western, and side-siddle, getting ready for 4-H horse shows, learning to use clippers, being greeted every morning by whinnys, bouts of colic in the middle of the night, waiting for the bus, Sluggar, Lady, Lady's puppies, turkeys, my cousin Gina vs. the fence, Classy vs. the fence, Heidi vs. the fence post (the fence and post always won), unloading loads of hay in 90* weather, stringing fencings through the woods in the Jan. for Christmas ponies, my 4-H leader Bert, jumping out of hay mow onto piles of straw, mucking stalls, walking a board barefoot like a balance beam and driving a rusty nail into the arch of my foot, day-dreaming while lying backwards on a horse while he munched his meal.

RIP Old Barn. Home will never be the same without you.

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ONESPOTLEFT 12/6/2011 6:30AM

    hopefully you salvaged the wood...old wood is the rage now in remodeling projects. On HGTV they do floors with old barn boards and even furniture

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WILSON425 12/4/2011 11:10PM

    So sad to lose your barn. I know even though I no longer have horses, my barn is still like an old friend. emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 12/1/2011 9:36AM

    Awww . . . you have the precious memories.

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CINDHOLM 11/30/2011 4:46PM

    Sorry for you loss.. BUT keep those HAPPY memories..Always.. emoticon

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FITNFUNJEN 11/30/2011 4:42PM

    So sorry to hear about the demise of your old barn. What wonderful memories you had there! I grew up as a city girl and I would visit my country cousins in the summer. They have a big barn and they had horses all the time I was growing up, but no horses now.

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STRNGNGRNDED 11/30/2011 3:35PM

    I'm always sorry to hear about old buildings coming to their end. Sorry for your loss.

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DRAWNTHISWAY 11/30/2011 9:08AM

    Home will never be the same without that barn. It sounds like you had a lot of great memories with that building. I can't say I have the same memory bank of any one location... I'm sorry you had to lose it....

... but with a new barn comes new memories.... Maybe a spring summer project of building new memories with the family?

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One year makes such a difference!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I had such a wonderful birthday yesterday. It has made me look at what a difference a year makes!

One year ago, I was just getting back to eating solid foods and relearning how to swallow after a drug-resistant bacteria attacked my throat, swelling it nearly shut. It took several antibiotic/steroid mixes to find the right mix to kill the bacteria. I was in bed for 7 weeks. It was a horrible way to lose 20 lbs.

But that 20 lb loss (regained it by May) taught me that I COULD lose weight after age 40 so maybe I could try again. The 7 weeks in bed left me so weak, I couldn't lift a pan to empty the food into a serving dish. I'd need a nap after grocery shopping. Actually, I needed a nap every day. Not one of those 10-20 min cat naps either.......2-3 hr naps!

One year later, I am stronger and healthier physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

My 20yo daughter took me smaller clothes shopping yesterday for my birthday to make sure I'd spend my gift card on me and on clothes. I am still flabbergasted---I squeezed into a size 12 pair of jeans! I bought them, of course!
I can't sit in them yet, but I bought them for incentive and as a goal--to get in them and not only be able to sit in them, but also to be able to sit on the floor in them by my son's 15th birthday in Feb.
I haven't worn a size 12 in 17 years!!!!

My cousin and sparkfriend, Erin, wished me a happy birthday and said, she hoped I felt younger this birthday.

I do-------17 years younger!


p.s.--I also used my gift to myself--the Fit, Firm, and Fired Up dvd yesterday. LOVED it! And my family got me the SparkPeople Cookbook for a gift! It was a SparkyBirthday for sure and certain! emoticon

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SERENEMOM71 11/30/2011 11:28AM

  Heidi, I'm so sorry that you were so ill a year ago! I have been there (long story I won't go into it) so I do understand how you felt. I celebrate your weight loss - emoticon emoticon and not you can do it but You DID IT !!!!!!! You are such a sweet, sensitive, caring, and a blessing to us all!

Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for blessing us with your precious daughter Heidi. Also, God, thank you for healing her this past year and helping her to lose weight! Please continue to surround her with your unconditional love, grace, and Your enthusiasm that enables her to live a healthy, holy, healing lifestyle. Continue to shower your blessings upon Heidi and enable her to meet any difficulties with prayer, Bible study, discussion with another Christian friend(s) and then with Your wisdom, discernment, guidance, and direction. I ask forgiveness for any transgressions. I praise You God as You are the Almighty One, Lord of Lords, King of Kings, Our Most Highest One, Our Only God! We ask all of this in the name of Your only son, Jesus Christ, who died on the cross, and is our Savior and Redeemer, Amen, Amen.

Love, Your sister in Christ,
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WILSON425 11/30/2011 8:06AM


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ASOBFALLS 11/29/2011 9:51PM

    emoticon And you have only been a Spark for 6 months...by 2 years you will be impossible!! emoticon It is so great to read reports like this!
Thanks for sharing. Joyce emoticonRejoice in Jesus

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PEPPYPATTI 11/29/2011 8:19PM

    Happy belated Birthday! emoticon

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FITNFUNJEN 11/29/2011 7:24PM

    What a wonderful and healing year this has been for you! Happy Birthday!

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DRAWNTHISWAY 11/29/2011 7:18PM

    Happy Birthday Heidi! I'm glad it was such a wonderful day!

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WENDYLEE15 11/29/2011 6:20PM

    Wow have you come along way in the past year!! Glad you had such an awesome birthday !!

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JALEEVAN 11/29/2011 2:25PM

    That is awesome

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Thoughts on worry.

Friday, November 25, 2011

"Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow. It empties today of its strength."

- Corrie Ten Boom, author

Corrie Ten Boom is one of my spiritual heros of faith. What an amazing woman! What an amazing depth of faith! What an amazing life!

When I look back on the times I allowed worry to take over my thoughts, it also took over my emotions, health, and spiritual life as well. I can clearly see it drained me of my strength and my joy. I was left unable to deal with today let alone all my tomorrows.

I need this reminder. Often.

Another of my favorite quotes about worry is.....

"Worry is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere."

I have no idea who the originator of this quote is, but I like the humorous picture it creates.

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FITNFUNJEN 11/28/2011 4:58PM

    Corrie ten Boom is one of my heroes too! Her books have had a profound influence on my life. I constantly think about Corrie, Betsie, and their whole family when I am trying to make decisions in my life. My teenage daughter just read the Hiding Place and it was such a healing book for her. I think she'll read Tramp for the Lord next semester. That's one of my favorites. Love the quote about worry! Stress and worry has really done a number on me over the last few years. I'm trying to get rid of those destroying habits and replace them with joy, laughter, gratitude, and good clean fun!

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SERENEMOM71 11/27/2011 7:46PM

  Ditto Dorcas9! Thanks for sharing the quote! I love Corrie Ten Boom, too. She has been an inspiration for me!

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1CRAZYDOG 11/27/2011 10:20AM

    I have loved this quote as well. Thanks for sharing.

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DORCAS9 11/26/2011 7:24PM

    That is so true, more often times than not we needlessly worry, as Jesus teaching in Matt. 6:25 to 34 shows. If we only put God first in our lives then all our needs will be taken care of. Corrie Ten Boom lived & illustrated this throughout her life. She was indeed an amazing woman.....a woman of deep faith in her Lord. We too can be amazing women if we put all our trust in our loving, caring & faithful Lord. TYL!
Thank you for sharing & reminding us of this truth!
God bless you.

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WENDYLEE15 11/26/2011 8:36AM

    Awesome !!So true.so hard at times !!

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DEERLADY45 11/26/2011 8:07AM

    Ive learned to just let go and let GOD Do wonders in our lives! I think it just comes from being in GODS presence every day! Just you and him! He brings me such comfort and believe me no one was more of a worrier than me!! Chronic problem really! emoticon emoticonBONNIE

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PRAYINGSUZIE 11/25/2011 11:25PM

    Thank you so much for the reminder!


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MORTIZ8234 11/25/2011 9:21PM

  Worrying is actually a sin. God will provide for your every need. Just has the sparrows do not reap or sow, God provides for them and how much more are you to God.

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TXBEST 11/25/2011 9:10PM

  What a great quote! I am a worry wart. Don't know what my life would be like if I didn't worry. I wish I didn't worry so much!

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What I have learned doing the 8-Week Diabetes Weight-Loss Challenge

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

My dad has Type 2 Diabetes. I have watched him for the past 20 years go from the diet, to a pill, to pills, and now to insulin shots. He has issues with his feet, skin, and healing. My mom has had to call EMTs when she found him unresponsive due to his sugar dropping too low after working outside in the heat.

10 years ago, I was told I was insulin-resistant after one of the fasting 8-hour glucose tests. I ate ok for awhile but saw no difference in my health or weight and didn't keep it up.

It was this past winter when my dad had to go to the insulin shots. This past May is when I decided to change my life into a healthier one and joined SP.

Although SP's philosophy is you can eat anything you want, in moderation, and has it's own menu plan for diabetics, I choose to follow my own meal plans following a diabetic meal plan given me and making adjustments for my own tastes since I've been a picky eater my whole life and have a milk intolerance.

I did really well from May to Sept and then hit a plateau. A month-long plateau.

So, I joined the 8-week Diabetes Weight Loss Challenge on Oct 1.

My main goal was to get off the plateau. I did.

My next goal was to lose 10 lbs in the 8 weeks. 9 lbs so far and my challenge ends Sat. so there's still time for that last lb.

My next goal was to stabilize my morning glucose numbers. They now range from 93-109, which is pretty good.

Nutritionally along the way, I've learned
1. no fruit after 4pm (so I can sleep and don't have sugar spikes and drops during the night)
2. get creative with salads - add different combinations of veggies each day for variety.
3. I CAN eat chicken for several meals in a row and only have beef 2-3x a week
4. Craving Salmon is a good thing (albeit, strange! LOL)
5. Eating supper out, even when making a healthy choice, WILL result in an elevated glucose number the next morning (and higher blood pressure numbers.)
6. I can have sweets...as long as I plan for them and don't eat them after 7pm (or they keep me up at night and cause wide glucose fluctuations)

Physically I learned
1. There's a sweet sounding little workout here on SP called the 15 Minute Desk Workout. WOW! What a workout! It's now one of my favorite workouts.
2. I also enjoy workouts with elastic bands and workouts with a ball.
3. I can walk 1 mile 4 days a week without causing a fibro flare-up.
4. 15-20 minute workouts are very effective for me.
5. A day with no exercise is good for me and won't derail my journey.
6. I now have a variety of exercises to keep my workouts interesting and varied and productive of the long haul.

Great Challenge! I will be repeating this challenge in the spring.

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ROBINC821 11/22/2011 6:25PM

    You did a FABULOUS job!!!!!!!!

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YICHE12 11/22/2011 12:00PM

    I am glad that you have found something that works for you. emoticon

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CINDHOLM 11/22/2011 10:24AM

    emoticon emoticon and ARE doing it!!!

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FITNFUNJEN 11/22/2011 9:56AM

    Sounds like a fabulous challenge! And you learned so many things that are helping you in your journey! Woohoo!

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WELLNESSME09 11/22/2011 9:39AM

    Great challenge! emoticon emoticon

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MPLONDKE 11/22/2011 9:25AM

  It sounds like you have made great progress. I had gestational diabetes during my pregnancy earlier this year, and that indicates a higher risk for Type II eventually. I'm trying to bring my weight down to a healthy level. Maybe I'll try this challenge in the spring too!

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6 Month Sparkversary and reflections on my journey

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Whoohooooo!! I've made it 6 months!!

Definitely time to look back and celebrate how far I've come, how I've done on my goals, and time to set a new ones.

So here are the goals I have posted on my SparkPage.

My Goals:
**I want to gain control of my insulin resistance thru healthier eating habits**

This goal is on-going and I've learned a lot about what I can and can't eat. No fruit after mid-afternoon. Healthy whole grain breads and pastas are a must. 3-4 servings of veggies...as much raw as possible is best. Water, water water, water, water, water, water, water. Limited hot tea with Splenda is ok, but no more bottomless mugs of hot tea.

**I want to walk or do yoga each day to make my fibromyalgia more manageable**

This one is also an on-going goal. I have also added 15-20 min weight (2 lbs) training 3x a week with Coach Nicole to get my metabolism going without causing pain. I've also learned I can't walk more than 1 mile each day for cardio. It causes too much fatigue. Just under 1 mile is invigorating...more is fatiguing. Now that the cold weather is setting in, I might have to do my cardio-walking indoors with Leslie Sansone. The last couple of days I walked in the brisk 35* temps. all my muscles tightened up and were painful. This has definitely been 6 months of getting to know my body and learning to listen to it! I discovered I LOVE YOGA!!! I feared it for years because of the eastern religious philosophies spouted by so many yoga instructors, but finding a neutral dvd has been a blessing! I'm going to spend my birthday money from my parents on a Christian yoga dvd. I do walk or do yoga or do my weights 5 out of the 7 days per week.

**I want to be a more positive person.**

Now my husband calls me PERKY! GOAL ACHIEVED....now to stay that way all winter and not let SAD overtake me!

**I want to be able to hike with my family- goal achieved!**

GOAL ACHIEVED in October--at 35 lbs weight loss. whhhooohooooooo!

**I want to get my wedding ring back on.**

Well, I'm pretty certain I could get it on if only my knuckles weren't so big from arthritis. boooooo!!!! Not sure what to do about this goal.

**I want to do something outdoors each day**

While I don't get outdoors each and every day, I do get out a lot more than I used to and now with ENTHUSIASM!!! I'm a nature and outdoor lover, but over the past few years my family literally had to drag me outdoors to do something. I was always too achy, too tired, too fat, too depressed to do what I love....be outdoors. Usually the only days I don't get outside are the major house cleaning days or lazy Sundays. So....Goal nearly met!

**I want to lower my blood pressure **

I celebrate that my bp is lower (130/78 from 142/97) GOAL ACHIEVED!!
I've learned that reducing stress, getting enough sleep, losing weight, and exercise are all key to my bp management.

So now.....
New Goals....
1. Get the last 30 lbs off.
2. Get my wedding ring on.
3. Fight SAD over the winter with being positive, exercise, and healthy food
4. Keep my pre-diabetis in check with health eating, exercise, and water
5. Keep my bp low and get the systolic number lower through dealing with stress in healthy ways, getting exercise, and keeping the weight off.
6. Stay active--indoors and outdoors
7. Keep listening to my body with all it's special needs and challenges (hypothyroid, hypertension, pre-diabetes, fibromyalgia, SAD)

I could not have done ANY of this without SparkPeople and all my wonderful supportive, encouraging SparkFriends and my family. But most of all without God's power over the physical to redeem His daughter so she can serve Him more fully with a healthy mind, attitude, emotions, body, and spiritual life!

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1CRAZYDOG 11/21/2011 12:03PM

    AWESOME! Congratulations and continued success to you. You WILL do it.

Keep that spark burning brightly.

Oh do you have one of those lights for SAD? DS uses one (got it @ Costco) and it helps . . . not the total "cure" but it really helps.

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DGRAY1641 11/19/2011 11:02PM

    Awesome Heidi; I'm happy for you--great work! God Bless, Debbie
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ANYVAR54 11/19/2011 6:22PM

    You have accomplished so much. That is awesome. Taking control of so much that has plagued you in the past, and getting healthier. And at a pace that will enable you to keep it up. Praise the Lord for his goodness to you and for your achievements. Ravyna
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LINDAF49 11/19/2011 3:43PM

    Wow This is inspiring!! so very proud of you!!! what a way to conquer so many things all in 6 months!!!!
Fibro ... good control with walking just under a mile for cardio - I am getting there too - not all at one time but getting that much in per day
Wt loss - 16 were gone but gained some on vacation so can only claim 11 right now
Wedding ring - had to be enlarged but same one and now it is getting loose! will get ring guard for it soon
Hiking - can't do but am able to walk on level consistently and am no longer bashful about using my walking stick i public just so I can keep going!
SAD - I also take extra Vit D - seems to help with pain levels too - And I just took the curtain off the window in the office where I am spending much time this fall/winter - WOW let the light shine in!!
Blood pressure is doing OK Water intake is good and good reminder to not lean on tea too much!!
And your #7 makes us sound like twins....Keep listening to my body with all it's special needs and challenges (hypothyroid, hypertension, pre-diabetes, fibromyalgia, SAD)
God bless you Heidi - excellent blog - oh, by the way I also have a real sister called Heidi! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ASOBFALLS 11/19/2011 2:42PM

    Heidi emoticon I don't think my 6 month Blog will be this great!
Wow, I am proud to be your friend!
May I suggest the 30 day "Sacrifice of Praise" challenge as a way to fight SAD. Give a praise to God every 2 hours all day, for 30 days. Sing it, say it, post it, write it. I am waiting for the 30 days to be up to read some of these blogs!!
Check out some of our Discussion Boards for places to post
Joyce emoticonRejoice in Jesus
Co Leader Christian Women with Depression

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