Sunday, December 04, 2011
I am beginning to dream again. And not just at night.
Yes, with the exercise during the day, better, healthier snacking choices in the evening, and yoga I am sleeping much better at night and am even experiencing dreams again after years of what I call 'twilight sleeping'--never going into a deep, restorative sleep. I laid there exhausted, aching, restless, but in a wakeful doze for years. Afternoon naps were where I really got my restorative sleep, but those interfered with our life and schooling.
No, I am talking about dreams for my future!
I am dreaming about becoming a Master Gardener through the Purdue Extension Service.
I am dreaming about working for a greenhouse to get some experience.
I am dreaming about educating people on the benefits of planting native plants in their yards.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
The Old Barn.
1880s-Nov. 29, 2011. A heavy snow yesterday took it down.
Oh, the memories......my whole childhood revolved around this old barn.
My Christmas ponies: Punkin and her colt, Sir Prize, my 4-H horses: Classic's Serenade (Saddlebred), He's a Rascal (AQHA, on loan), Charlie O'Neil (AQHA), Riding hunt seat, flat seat, western, and side-siddle, getting ready for 4-H horse shows, learning to use clippers, being greeted every morning by whinnys, bouts of colic in the middle of the night, waiting for the bus, Sluggar, Lady, Lady's puppies, turkeys, my cousin Gina vs. the fence, Classy vs. the fence, Heidi vs. the fence post (the fence and post always won), unloading loads of hay in 90* weather, stringing fencings through the woods in the Jan. for Christmas ponies, my 4-H leader Bert, jumping out of hay mow onto piles of straw, mucking stalls, walking a board barefoot like a balance beam and driving a rusty nail into the arch of my foot, day-dreaming while lying backwards on a horse while he munched his meal.
RIP Old Barn. Home will never be the same without you.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
I had such a wonderful birthday yesterday. It has made me look at what a difference a year makes!
One year ago, I was just getting back to eating solid foods and relearning how to swallow after a drug-resistant bacteria attacked my throat, swelling it nearly shut. It took several antibiotic/steroid mixes to find the right mix to kill the bacteria. I was in bed for 7 weeks. It was a horrible way to lose 20 lbs.
But that 20 lb loss (regained it by May) taught me that I COULD lose weight after age 40 so maybe I could try again. The 7 weeks in bed left me so weak, I couldn't lift a pan to empty the food into a serving dish. I'd need a nap after grocery shopping. Actually, I needed a nap every day. Not one of those 10-20 min cat naps either.......2-3 hr naps!
One year later, I am stronger and healthier physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
My 20yo daughter took me smaller clothes shopping yesterday for my birthday to make sure I'd spend my gift card on me and on clothes. I am still flabbergasted---I squeezed into a size 12 pair of jeans! I bought them, of course!
I can't sit in them yet, but I bought them for incentive and as a goal--to get in them and not only be able to sit in them, but also to be able to sit on the floor in them by my son's 15th birthday in Feb.
I haven't worn a size 12 in 17 years!!!!
My cousin and sparkfriend, Erin, wished me a happy birthday and said, she hoped I felt younger this birthday.
I do-------17 years younger!
p.s.--I also used my gift to myself--the Fit, Firm, and Fired Up dvd yesterday. LOVED it! And my family got me the SparkPeople Cookbook for a gift! It was a SparkyBirthday for sure and certain!
Friday, November 25, 2011
"Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow. It empties today of its strength."
- Corrie Ten Boom, author
Corrie Ten Boom is one of my spiritual heros of faith. What an amazing woman! What an amazing depth of faith! What an amazing life!
When I look back on the times I allowed worry to take over my thoughts, it also took over my emotions, health, and spiritual life as well. I can clearly see it drained me of my strength and my joy. I was left unable to deal with today let alone all my tomorrows.
I need this reminder. Often.
Another of my favorite quotes about worry is.....
"Worry is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere."
I have no idea who the originator of this quote is, but I like the humorous picture it creates.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
My dad has Type 2 Diabetes. I have watched him for the past 20 years go from the diet, to a pill, to pills, and now to insulin shots. He has issues with his feet, skin, and healing. My mom has had to call EMTs when she found him unresponsive due to his sugar dropping too low after working outside in the heat.
10 years ago, I was told I was insulin-resistant after one of the fasting 8-hour glucose tests. I ate ok for awhile but saw no difference in my health or weight and didn't keep it up.
It was this past winter when my dad had to go to the insulin shots. This past May is when I decided to change my life into a healthier one and joined SP.
Although SP's philosophy is you can eat anything you want, in moderation, and has it's own menu plan for diabetics, I choose to follow my own meal plans following a diabetic meal plan given me and making adjustments for my own tastes since I've been a picky eater my whole life and have a milk intolerance.
I did really well from May to Sept and then hit a plateau. A month-long plateau.
So, I joined the 8-week Diabetes Weight Loss Challenge on Oct 1.
My main goal was to get off the plateau. I did.
My next goal was to lose 10 lbs in the 8 weeks. 9 lbs so far and my challenge ends Sat. so there's still time for that last lb.
My next goal was to stabilize my morning glucose numbers. They now range from 93-109, which is pretty good.
Nutritionally along the way, I've learned
1. no fruit after 4pm (so I can sleep and don't have sugar spikes and drops during the night)
2. get creative with salads - add different combinations of veggies each day for variety.
3. I CAN eat chicken for several meals in a row and only have beef 2-3x a week
4. Craving Salmon is a good thing (albeit, strange! LOL)
5. Eating supper out, even when making a healthy choice, WILL result in an elevated glucose number the next morning (and higher blood pressure numbers.)
6. I can have sweets...as long as I plan for them and don't eat them after 7pm (or they keep me up at night and cause wide glucose fluctuations)
Physically I learned
1. There's a sweet sounding little workout here on SP called the 15 Minute Desk Workout. WOW! What a workout! It's now one of my favorite workouts.
2. I also enjoy workouts with elastic bands and workouts with a ball.
3. I can walk 1 mile 4 days a week without causing a fibro flare-up.
4. 15-20 minute workouts are very effective for me.
5. A day with no exercise is good for me and won't derail my journey.
6. I now have a variety of exercises to keep my workouts interesting and varied and productive of the long haul.
Great Challenge! I will be repeating this challenge in the spring.
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