Monday, September 12, 2011
This week I am to blog about the triggers to my emotional eating.
It doesn't matter what kind----relational, emotional, physical, financial, fatigue, spiritual, health issues, church issues, my kids' learning struggles, PMS, my annual Seasonal Affective Disorder, other depressions.
Most recently, my husband lost his job in 2008, just 4 months after we moved into a home in a dream location--in the county, in some woods, with a creek. While he as unemployed for 2 1/2 years. I spun out of control trying to meet bills, live on unemployment and deal with the stress. I gained 40 lbs in 2 years! I was living off pasta, chips, chocolate, and Sam's Cola. I just kept sinking lower and lower. My doctor was great, he allowed me to have free samples of Cymbalta for my depression and fibromyalgia pain which was increasing with my weight and lowered ability to deal with the pain due to the depression.
SparkPeople is helping me break that cycle with the changes in my attitude, mental thinking, how I deal with stress, eating healthier, and getting physical exercise. The Lord is healing relationships, my emotions, and my spiritual walk now--to His glory!
Right now, I am still fighting emotional eating, Mostly on Friday evenings. On Fridays, my 14yo homeschooled son and I have our Co-op Day. We are in town (20 miles away) from 8:30am-3:30pm. It is go-go-go all day long while I run errands, grocery shop, teach a class, have a prep-time, and monitor a study hall. I add about 5,000 steps to my normal day's total of steps. So it is an exhausting, totally draining day mentally, physically and emotionally for me.
I've recently started trying to nap after we get home and have put away all the groceries in an attempt to help me recover. However, most weeks I am so hyped-up, I can't nap. I fight binging on chocolate from 4pm-bedtime at 10pm. I try eating healthier snacks so I know I'm not really hungry.
So, I know I still have a ways to go to totally stop Emotional Eating, but I am actively taking steps to fight it and I will continue to change this horrible habit, with the Lord's help and to His glory!
I want to be healthy----physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually so I am ready to do whatever tasks the Lord calls me to do. Abundant living--right now!
Sunday, September 04, 2011
My husband wants to join me on my Spark journey! The hard part...I have to restrict carbs and he is hypoglycemic. I have no idea how to help him lose weight except to encourage him to eat smaller portions. His blood sugar is touchy and he has issues with going too low nearly everyday at some point.
However, I am excited for his journey and our journey together. Not sure if he'll get a Sparkpage, being a guy. LOL
Monday, August 29, 2011
I'm to blog the hardest part of dieting for me. That's easy......the part where the diet is over and the lifestyle begins.
You see, I've dieted and exercised and lost substantial amounts of weight 4 times since I was 18 years old.
Diet #1 (1985) wasn't too bad---just 15 lbs to get the Freshman 15 back off and my then fiancee was in ND while I was still in IN so I wanted to WOW! him when we reunited in college that fall. I kept most of that off for our Dec. wedding. Settled at 138 while finishing our degrees and starting our careers and family. Gained 40 lbs with pregnancy #1 (1991) due to fluid build up because of blood pressure issues, but lost it all quickly while nursing for 2 years.
Diet #2 (1996) Weight had slowly increased while I stayed home with child #1 until I weighed my pregnancy high weight, 180lbs. Well, low-fat was the way to go, so NO fat must be better, right? I lost 40 lbs and felt great. Then got pregnant again. It was a very hard pregnancy--bedridden for most of the 8 months with a perfect tiny premie and our 2 lives saved as the result. Lost all the pregnancy weight quickly thanks to nursing (only 1 year this time).
Health problems with thyroid and ovaries and muscle pain all over my body, especially in my legs dominated my life by the time baby #2 was 3yo. I quickly gained weight as I laid around in debilitating fatigue and pain.
Diet #3 (2001) A bunch of ladies in my church started a dieting Bible Study so I joined at my new high weight of 190lbs. I lost quickly and easily with the new low-carb diet. I got down to 168lbs. I kept it off for awhile, until I got tired of not eating carbs. I gave up dieting.
I was so embarrassed at my daughter's 2010 high school graduation. I had no pretty dress to wear because I weighed 227 lbs. and hadn't bought anything new in years; just bought fatter and fatter clothes at Goodwill. We had to go up on stage in front of 250 invited guests to present our daughter her diploma. I was the fattest and dowdiest homeschool mom at the ceremony. I wallowed in depression for a year (husband had also been out of work.)
2011- Here we are with "diet" #4. But this time, I am doing it with SparkPeople. With all the SP articles, teams, and my accountability partner, I know this time IS different. I am making heart changes; spiritual ones, (thanks, Erin!). I am making mental changes to my thinking. I am making changes to my habits. I am making changes in how I view food. I am making changes in my goals (GoalGetter, not just goal setter! Goals that are meaningful and lasting, not just weight related or date related) Changes that are meaningful and lasting. I am becoming a new person.
Actually, I am finding the old me---before all the bouts of depression. Before all the pain and fatigue. Before all the things that didn't turn out the way I thought they would (job difficulties, life difficulties, kids with learning disabilities, spiritual issues, church hopping, health issues, etc.)--but with a healthier view of food. 2011 marks a new lifestyle, not a new diet.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
On Fridays for the past 5 years, we've been part of a homeschool high school co-op. I usually teach 1 class and either work in the nursery or do a study hall for another class period, but then go grocery shopping and run errands the rest of the day. Since the co-op is in town and we live 20 minutes away in the country, this keeps me from having to make any other trips into town during the week, which reeks havoc with our homeschooling schedule at home.
ANYWAY.....I've always come home just TOTALLY exhausted and because of my fibro and thyroid and extra weight and lack of exercise, and horrible eating habits, I was also worthless on Saturdays until after a nap and supper.
This year....after nearly 3 1/2 months on SP, losing 41 lbs, getting a lot stronger through walking, gardening, yoga, and 5 lb weight training, and eating much healthier, I was still pretty tired Friday evening, but not as tired as it used to be. The biggest difference.....Saturdays!!! I have my Saturdays back!!! I am full of energy and am getting mega-long To Do lists done, and am in a great mood!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
The scale moved backwards this week. 3 lbs. I gave it the raspberries and jumped off and smiled and got on with my day. I know I had exercised this week. I know I had eaten right this week. I have some great sparkstreaks this week. Most importantly, I have learned this week that those numbers don't define me.....so onwards we go! It's gonna be a GREAT day!
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