Monday, September 12, 2011
This week I am to blog about the triggers to my emotional eating.
It doesn't matter what kind----relational, emotional, physical, financial, fatigue, spiritual, health issues, church issues, my kids' learning struggles, PMS, my annual Seasonal Affective Disorder, other depressions.
Most recently, my husband lost his job in 2008, just 4 months after we moved into a home in a dream location--in the county, in some woods, with a creek. While he as unemployed for 2 1/2 years. I spun out of control trying to meet bills, live on unemployment and deal with the stress. I gained 40 lbs in 2 years! I was living off pasta, chips, chocolate, and Sam's Cola. I just kept sinking lower and lower. My doctor was great, he allowed me to have free samples of Cymbalta for my depression and fibromyalgia pain which was increasing with my weight and lowered ability to deal with the pain due to the depression.
SparkPeople is helping me break that cycle with the changes in my attitude, mental thinking, how I deal with stress, eating healthier, and getting physical exercise. The Lord is healing relationships, my emotions, and my spiritual walk now--to His glory!
Right now, I am still fighting emotional eating, Mostly on Friday evenings. On Fridays, my 14yo homeschooled son and I have our Co-op Day. We are in town (20 miles away) from 8:30am-3:30pm. It is go-go-go all day long while I run errands, grocery shop, teach a class, have a prep-time, and monitor a study hall. I add about 5,000 steps to my normal day's total of steps. So it is an exhausting, totally draining day mentally, physically and emotionally for me.
I've recently started trying to nap after we get home and have put away all the groceries in an attempt to help me recover. However, most weeks I am so hyped-up, I can't nap. I fight binging on chocolate from 4pm-bedtime at 10pm. I try eating healthier snacks so I know I'm not really hungry.
So, I know I still have a ways to go to totally stop Emotional Eating, but I am actively taking steps to fight it and I will continue to change this horrible habit, with the Lord's help and to His glory!
I want to be healthy----physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually so I am ready to do whatever tasks the Lord calls me to do. Abundant living--right now!