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The hardest part of dieting for me

Monday, August 29, 2011

I'm to blog the hardest part of dieting for me. That's easy......the part where the diet is over and the lifestyle begins.

You see, I've dieted and exercised and lost substantial amounts of weight 4 times since I was 18 years old.

Diet #1 (1985) wasn't too bad---just 15 lbs to get the Freshman 15 back off and my then fiancee was in ND while I was still in IN so I wanted to WOW! him when we reunited in college that fall. I kept most of that off for our Dec. wedding. Settled at 138 while finishing our degrees and starting our careers and family. Gained 40 lbs with pregnancy #1 (1991) due to fluid build up because of blood pressure issues, but lost it all quickly while nursing for 2 years.

Diet #2 (1996) Weight had slowly increased while I stayed home with child #1 until I weighed my pregnancy high weight, 180lbs. Well, low-fat was the way to go, so NO fat must be better, right? I lost 40 lbs and felt great. Then got pregnant again. It was a very hard pregnancy--bedridden for most of the 8 months with a perfect tiny premie and our 2 lives saved as the result. Lost all the pregnancy weight quickly thanks to nursing (only 1 year this time).

Health problems with thyroid and ovaries and muscle pain all over my body, especially in my legs dominated my life by the time baby #2 was 3yo. I quickly gained weight as I laid around in debilitating fatigue and pain.

Diet #3 (2001) A bunch of ladies in my church started a dieting Bible Study so I joined at my new high weight of 190lbs. I lost quickly and easily with the new low-carb diet. I got down to 168lbs. I kept it off for awhile, until I got tired of not eating carbs. I gave up dieting.

I was so embarrassed at my daughter's 2010 high school graduation. I had no pretty dress to wear because I weighed 227 lbs. and hadn't bought anything new in years; just bought fatter and fatter clothes at Goodwill. We had to go up on stage in front of 250 invited guests to present our daughter her diploma. I was the fattest and dowdiest homeschool mom at the ceremony. I wallowed in depression for a year (husband had also been out of work.)

2011- Here we are with "diet" #4. But this time, I am doing it with SparkPeople. With all the SP articles, teams, and my accountability partner, I know this time IS different. I am making heart changes; spiritual ones, (thanks, Erin!). I am making mental changes to my thinking. I am making changes to my habits. I am making changes in how I view food. I am making changes in my goals (GoalGetter, not just goal setter! Goals that are meaningful and lasting, not just weight related or date related) Changes that are meaningful and lasting. I am becoming a new person.
Actually, I am finding the old me---before all the bouts of depression. Before all the pain and fatigue. Before all the things that didn't turn out the way I thought they would (job difficulties, life difficulties, kids with learning disabilities, spiritual issues, church hopping, health issues, etc.)--but with a healthier view of food. 2011 marks a new lifestyle, not a new diet.

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DRAWNTHISWAY 8/29/2011 9:27AM

    You are doing well. I believe you have made more growth in this process than I have in the 5 years I have been visiting this site. Congratulations on your growth within this lifestyle and the loss.

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a victory to celebrate!

Saturday, August 27, 2011

On Fridays for the past 5 years, we've been part of a homeschool high school co-op. I usually teach 1 class and either work in the nursery or do a study hall for another class period, but then go grocery shopping and run errands the rest of the day. Since the co-op is in town and we live 20 minutes away in the country, this keeps me from having to make any other trips into town during the week, which reeks havoc with our homeschooling schedule at home.

ANYWAY.....I've always come home just TOTALLY exhausted and because of my fibro and thyroid and extra weight and lack of exercise, and horrible eating habits, I was also worthless on Saturdays until after a nap and supper.

This year....after nearly 3 1/2 months on SP, losing 41 lbs, getting a lot stronger through walking, gardening, yoga, and 5 lb weight training, and eating much healthier, I was still pretty tired Friday evening, but not as tired as it used to be. The biggest difference.....Saturdays!!! I have my Saturdays back!!! I am full of energy and am getting mega-long To Do lists done, and am in a great mood!


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DRAWNTHISWAY 8/29/2011 9:28AM

    That is incredible news. I am so happy for you! Congratulations of gaining back an extra day in the week!

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the scale

Thursday, August 25, 2011

The scale moved backwards this week. 3 lbs. I gave it the raspberries and jumped off and smiled and got on with my day. I know I had exercised this week. I know I had eaten right this week. I have some great sparkstreaks this week. Most importantly, I have learned this week that those numbers don't define me.....so onwards we go! emoticon It's gonna be a GREAT day!

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DRAWNTHISWAY 8/25/2011 9:52AM

    I dislike my scale monster. I think he exists to infuriate me and undermine my efforts. Good for you for moving on without paying attention to his claims!

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Interesting Bible Verse on restrictive diets

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

I Timothy 4:1-5
"The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons. Such teachings come through hypocritical lairs, whose consciences have been seared as with a hot iron. They forbid people to marry and order them to abstain from certain foods, which God created to be received with thanksgiving by those who believe and who know the truth. For everything God created is good and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving, because it is consecrated by the word of God and prayer."

It is wonderful to find that the SparkPeople diet plan is a godly diet plan! Moderation is the key to Biblical and SP eating! emoticon


purged my closet this morning

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

This morning, after my walk and gardening, I purged my closet of all 2XL, XXL, 22W, 20W, and 18/20W sized clothes--winter colored, spring colored, summer colored, and fall colored jackets, dress pants, dresses, capris, jeans, sweaters, short-sleeved shirts, long-sleeved shirt, 3/4-sleeved shirts, skirts, sweats, unmentionables, coats, etc. emoticon


I am donating them to a women's crisis center. Gettin' them OUT OF HERE and NEVER to return!!!!!!

Hit the road, Jack, and don't come back no more, no more, no more, no more! Hit the road, Jack, and don't come back noooo more! emoticon

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DRAWNTHISWAY 8/18/2011 9:00AM

    It must have felt wonderful to remove all those clothes from your closet. You are going to nee a new wardrobe this winter!

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