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1 Year SparkVersary today!

Saturday, May 19, 2012

What a life changing year!

Over the past year I've lost
65 lbs
10 inches off my ribcage
10 inches off my waist
8.75 inches off my hips
2 inches off my neck
2 inches off each upper arm
3.5 inches off each thigh
2.5 inches off each calf

my blood pressure has gone from 143/101 (while on 2 bp meds) to 132/82 and no meds
my pre-breakfast glucose has gone from 126 to 106

That's the measurable stuff!

The immeasurable stuff is the best stuff......
being able to walk without needing to stop to rest and catch my breath
no longer needing to nap every day
sleeping all night
reconnecting with my husband
hiking with my family
rediscovering my joy
a lot less pain in my feet, ankles, knees, hips
when the kids want me to see something, I don't have to judge if I've got the energy or not to go see whatever it is they are so excited to show me
gardening is fun again
fighting SAD and winning
getting down on the floor with my Sunday Schoolers AND GETTING BACK UP AGAIN
fewer fibro flare-ups
feeling better about myself
feeling better about my future
mentally stronger
spiritually stronger
physically stronger

this list could go on and on and on and on and on.......

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BEAGLEMAMA2 5/21/2012 12:58PM

    WONDERFUL You truly SPARKED me. I am reaching my 1 yr anniversary on the 27 and I must say that I have not done as well as you. I am so happy for you. emoticon

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ASOBFALLS 5/20/2012 9:01PM

    Absolutely amazing what a person can do in ONE YEAR!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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K_HO_SHRINKS 5/20/2012 3:07PM

    Congratulations!!! Looks like you've had a great year! Here's to many more! emoticon

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YENDUCHAKA 5/20/2012 8:41AM

    Congrats on one year! You're doing great!!!

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1CRAZYDOG 5/19/2012 7:59PM

    Oh those non-scale victories are sweet aren't they!!!! Happy Sparkversary.

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LOOKINGUP2012 5/19/2012 6:19PM

    emoticon Wonderful success. Loved your not measurable list too! emoticon

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GMASANDIE 5/19/2012 4:48PM

    Happy emoticon You have done great! emoticon

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RUNNINGOMA 5/19/2012 4:47PM

    Amazing progress in one year!

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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 5/19/2012 4:40PM

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Wow! What a great year you have had! I love the list of immeasurables.

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Made to Crave, chapter 14

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

"Emotional Emptiness" reflection

"Emptiness has a way of demanding to be filled. And when I couldn't figure out how to fill what my heart was lacking, my stomach was more than willing to offer a few suggestions. Food became a comfort I could turn on and off like a faucet. It was filling. It was available. It became a pattern. And somehow, each time my heart felt a little empty, my stomach picked up on the cues and suggested I feed it instead."

This is so true for me. Unlike the author of "Made to Crave" I had a wonderful childhood with an intact family and supportive extended family. I don't remember when I started feeling empty at times, but it lately it is during the winter months. I have suffered with SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) for quite a few years now. I've only recognized it as such in the last 4 years or so. It usually begins sometime in December and leaves sometime in May.

For the past 2 years, my doctor has had me on Cymbalta for it and for my fibromyalgia. One med for 2 issues. Gotta love that!!

I've learned a lot reading through the depression articles here on SP. I've learned a lot about myself and how I react to things. I've also learned that some daily exercise and healthy food is necessary for me to battle against SAD. A major victory I had this winter was NOT experiencing SAD. I give the victory to God!

I am learning to distinguish between physical hunger and emotional trigger hunger and have techniques to battle the emotional hunger feelings---prayer, a walk, gardening, sitting outside and listening to and watching the birds, analyzing what's truly going on.

I still battle emotional eating during PMS when it feel like something else has control over my thoughts and emotions. I continue to work to give that battle to the LORD. Some have lovingly suggested I have my hormones checked as I am 47yo. I do need to do that and will some time.......

Right now, I feel full emotionally. More emotionally healthy than I've been in 2-3 years. I give God the glory!

One comment of Lysa's has been going through my head over the past 20 hours or so, so I am going to add it. It dawned on me this morning that has been a major part of my fight against SAD....
"...parking my mind in a better spot." "It's so easy to park our minds in bad spots. To dwell and rehash and wish things were different. But to think on hard things keeps us in hard spots and only serves to deepen our feeling of emotional emptiness. This is where pity parties are held and we all know pity parties demand an abundance of high-calorie delights eaten and eaten some more. But pity parties are a cruel way to entertain, for they leave behind a deeper emptiness than we started with in the first place."

Dean Anderson has some wonderful SP articles on this same topic.

Philippians 4:8 is where our minds are to dwell and thrive!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JANEMARIE77 5/18/2012 8:33AM

    Attitude is the only thing we truly own listening to our self talk is the way to own your life how wonderful

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RUNNINGOMA 5/17/2012 8:14AM

    What victory! I see you making choices that are changing how you deal with things. God is good!

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1CRAZYDOG 5/16/2012 5:05PM

    I like those things which help with more than one challenge too! doing the happy dance right with you!

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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 5/16/2012 2:54PM

    Singing praises right along with you! What a blessing to see how far you have come. Amazing! Way to go!

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Going on Maintenance Mode

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Well, I've been between 168-163 since January so I am officially going on Maintenance Mode.

I am VERY happy with my progress!

For some, I know 16anything is a horrible number, but for me...it appears to be perfect.

My fitness is perfect for me, my portions are under control and my diet is a healthy one that will be easy to maintain for life. My fibromyalgia is manageable, my thyroid levels are steady, I am off both blood pressure meds, and my glucose numbers have been in the normal range for months.

Physically, I can do anything I want to do or need to do or have to do!

Mentally, I am stronger.

Spiritually, I am stronger.

Emotionally, I am healthier.

The only thing I can think of which I CAN'T do is fit into a size 10 or smaller. WHO CARES!!!!! Not me!!!!

I am thrilled with my size 12!!!

Saturday is my 1 year SparkVersary. I have gone from a size 22 to 12 in a year--that is EXCITING and WONDERFUL!!!

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JANEMARIE77 5/16/2012 5:08PM

    emoticon health not a number you go girl

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RUNNINGOMA 5/16/2012 12:13PM

    How amazing! That is HUGE progress in such a short time. Maintaining is also work (so I hear, but have yet to experience it!)

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KIDTREE 5/16/2012 7:07AM

    Very exciting! You have accomplished so much in a year - congratulations!

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THECRAZYMANGO 5/15/2012 10:02PM

    CONGRATS!!!! My 1-year mark maintaining at 160 is coming up as well!

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1CRAZYDOG 5/15/2012 9:56PM

    Excellent job!!

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KK10TM 5/15/2012 8:50PM

    Congratulations! What an inspiration.

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ILOVEPEOPLE 5/15/2012 8:30PM

    emoticonon a job well done!Keep up the good work as you maintain a healthy weight. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WENDYLEE15 5/15/2012 3:02PM

    I am so proud of you!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EROUNDY 5/15/2012 2:40PM

    Congrats! You have accomplished something wonderful! emoticon

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DENNISWIFE 5/15/2012 12:17PM

    Woo hoo! Congrats!!! emoticon

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FITNFUNJEN 5/15/2012 12:14PM

    Congratulations! You have come so far in a year! I think it's important to find a comfortable place where you can maintain and be happy and it sounds like you have found that!! Life is meant to be lived and enjoyed and not meant to chase an elusive number on the scale. Yay for you!!

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TOSHARRI 5/15/2012 12:10PM

    Fantastic job HEIDISHOPE!!! I hope to be where you are in a few months...halfway there and hoping to keep cruising right along.

Congrats on your success - you should be so proud of yourself!!!


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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 5/15/2012 12:07PM

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So blessed!

Monday, May 14, 2012

I was so blessed this Mother's Day!

Here's why........

(Candice, Brian, Jack the dog, Lincoln)

(me, Lincoln, Brian and Jack behind bush)
We went on a hike as a family! That has been one of my major goals! Oh, it was glorious! Fun! I so appreciate everyone making it possible, especially my dear husband who'd already had to work 6 hours that morning. emoticon

While on the walk in this nearby nationally protected Nature Preserve, Anderson Falls, I saw plants I'd only seen pictures of. My most exciting find.... Jack-in-a-pulpit....in the wild!

This walk really spurred my interest in furthering my education and getting my Master Naturalist from the Indiana DNR. New Goal!

Oh, and by the way....We knew Abe grew up in Indiana (age 7-20 and much further south of us) but......did you know......


My family also made reservations for us to go to a buffet lunch in greenhouse! It was so special! The food was yummy and it so wonderful to be surrounded by gorgeous flowers. It was a feast for the senses! Well.....we all could have done without the loud hillbilly music. LOL Sorry, but it just isn't my kind of music.

I am so blessed! Thank-you, Lord, for my family. Thank-you, Lord, for providing. Thank-you, Lord, for my family's much appreciated efforts to make me feel special and loved. Thank-you, Lord, for my journey this past year which made the hike possible. I am so blessed!

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FITNFUNJEN 5/15/2012 12:16PM

    What a wonderful weekend! Love the pictures!

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REDHALCYON47 5/15/2012 10:35AM

    I love loud hillbilly music ;-) I am glad for you. It sounds like a great time.

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WENDYLEE15 5/15/2012 10:27AM

    Wonderful pictures. So GLAD you enjoyed your day :) !! emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 5/14/2012 8:46PM

    Beautiful walk, beautiful pictures! Glad you had such a wonderful family time!

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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 5/14/2012 11:46AM

    What a blessing!

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MOMMYJAYJAY 5/14/2012 10:23AM

    Sounds like a beautiful day. You've reminded me to thank the Lord today. emoticon

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Before I Was A Mom...(a poem)

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Before I was a Mom ...
I made and ate hot meals,
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom ...
I slept as late as I wanted and never
worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom ...
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to lullabies.

Before I was a Mom ...
I didn't worry whether my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom ...
I had never been pooped on,
Spit up on,
chewed on,
Peed on,
Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom ...
I had complete control of myself,
My thoughts,
My body,
And my mind.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom ...
I never held down a screaming child so that
doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom ...
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom ...
I didn't know the feeling of having
my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a
Mother and her child.

Before I was a Mom ...
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every ten minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
The joy,
The love,
The heartache,
The wonderfulment,
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling
so much before I was a Mom.

~ Author Unknown ~

Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's in SparkLand!

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1CRAZYDOG 5/12/2012 8:09PM

    Wonderful poem. Happy Mothers Day everyone. HUGS

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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 5/12/2012 6:07PM

    Thank you for sharing that. Beautiful!

Happy Mom's Day to you!

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LDMCNIEL 5/12/2012 5:33PM

    I love it! Happy Mother's Day!

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_JULEE_ 5/12/2012 1:43PM

    Beautiful! Happy Mother's Day to you!

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