Monday, April 16, 2012
"Growing Closer to God" reflections
Here are a few of my favorite lines from this chapter. Still digesting and pondering much of this chapter, so this blog probably isn't finished yet.
"How do we grow closer to God? By making the choice to deny ourselves something that is permissible but not beneficial."
"Becoming a woman of self-discipline honors God and helps me live the godly characteristic self-control, which He has given to me through the gift of the Holy Spirit."
"Food isn't sinful. But when food is what satan holds up in front of us and says, "You'll never be free from this battle. You will always bounce from feeling deprived when your dieting to feeling guilty when you're splurging. Victory isn't possible. You aren't capable of self-control with food" we must see that its inappropriate consummation can be his lure to draw our hearts into a place of defeat. " (remember Chapter 5!!)
"We serve a passionate God. A God who knew food would be a major stumbling block in our pursuit of Him" (remember Eve?)
"Literally, issues with food can hold us back from our calling and commitment to Christ. So, He's given us the gifts of the Holy Spirit, Jesus, and the Bible to help us."
"...if we find certain foods are impossible to walk away from--we can't or we won't deny ourselves an unhealthy choice in order to make a healthier choice--then it's a clue we are being ruled by this food on some level. Being ruled by something other than God diminishes our commitment and will make us feel increasingly distant from Him."
Philippians 3: 20-21
"He can bring EVERYTHING under His control. That transforms us. It reestablishes that God, not food, has control of me. That helps keep me undivided in my commitment to Him."
Saturday, April 14, 2012
"Made for More" reflection
I was made for more than this vicious cycle of weight gain, loss, gain, loss, gain and being ruled by my taste buds, hormones, temptations, and the inborn female demand for chocolate! (paraphrase of 2 of Lysa's sentences).
"I keep asking that the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know HIM better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints, and His incomparably great power for us who believe."
I am NOT defined by my circumstances!
Heidi, the forgiven child of God
Heidi, the set-free child of God
Heidi, the accepted child of God
Heidi, the holy child of God
Heidi, the made new child of God
Heidi, the loved child of God
Heidi, the close child of God
Heidi, the confident child of God
Heidi, the victorious child of God
Not because of who or what I am or done, but because of HIM and my relationship with Him and HIS power.
Friday, April 13, 2012
A virus has been going around our family. My homeschooled son had it early in the week and now I have it, so I've had some time to stop, sit, think, reflect. I've come to the conclusion that my stated goals on my SparkPage are just too open-ended and not specific enough. I have no goal to work towards.
So, I went to the Motivation page and started re-reading the Goal Setting articles. Here's what I found:
Goals need to be:
Flexible (for life's interruptions)
So, yes, my stated goals on my SparkPage are too open-ended. Over this weekend, I hope to be setting some REAL goals. Then maybe I can permanently break this weight plateau! So, stay tuned, SparkFriends!
One month to my and I'm STILL learning and applying and changing!
Edited to add:
By May 19- One Year SparkVersary!
weight - lose 4 lbs and permanently be under 160.
physical fitness- walk 2 miles twice a week
physical health- track blood pressure daily
Nutrition- only 1 Pepsi Max or Diet Rite per day + 8 glasses of water per day
By June 5 (yearly doc visit- 6 mo. thyroid test, etc)
weight- lose another 2 lbs
fitness- continue walking 2 miles twice and week and add a 1 mile walk
health- take bp readings to doc visit and get his opinion on getting off last bp med and lowering my Cymbalta dosage, have thyroid checked.
By June 21 (cousins and SparkPeople GAGESMOMM and TRAINORGM visit from WI)
weight- lose another 2 lbs
fitness- walk 2 miles 3 times week (so I can walk with these runners! LOL)
By July 19
weight- lose 4 lbs and be nearing 150
By Aug 19
weight- lose 4 lbs
By Sept 19
weight- lose 4 lbs
fitness- walk a 5K (around the nearby lake)
By Oct 19
weight- lose 4 lbs.
fitness- walk around the lake once a week
By Nov 19
weight- GOAL WEIGHT-- family go trailriding on horseback at state park with me!
fitness- will have to bring the fitness indoors- ?
By Dec 28 (our 27th Wedding Anniversary)
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Personal Reflection on "Friends Don't Let Friends Eat Before Thinking"
I used to feel envious and jealous when a friend would lose weight. That is until my best friend, Terri, lost 80+ 2 years ago. I just couldn't be envious and jealous of my best friend. That is just too childish! I was excited for her! Here was an area of her health, she could take control. So I made the decision to be encouraging, helpful, and excited for her, even though at the time, I was going through my deepest depression of my life and gaining weight like a hog destined for fall slaughter. Her victory and accomplishment inspired me. I could see that after 40, it wasn't "a lost cause" to lose weight. I saw it took dedication, commitment, and perseverance. I knew I had all those buried deep under all the depression. As the depression lifted, I found them and now she is encouraging me along my journey.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
"Getting a Plan"
I LOVE planning. My favorite part of homeschooling is the planning stages. Hope, Excitement, Organization, Anticipation, Goals. My own personal joke is that I love planning so much....I can plan the fun out of any party. LOL Yes, I have a tendency to over-plan and then become frustrated with interruptions to my plan. That's my perfectionism coming out.
So, God gave me my family. They help me to not be so uptight. They teach me how to laugh and play and just enjoy the moment. This new lifestyle is touching on areas that needed attention....learning to accept when I mess up and not verbally abusing myself in my head. Learning to forgive myself and keep working; don't let a slip spiral out of control into a depression.
I do have to have a plan or I flounder. I love having the fitness tracker and the nutrition trackers. They keep me on track with my food plan/meals and exercise routine.
I am doing an experiment with the food tracker right now. For 10 months I used the tracker to plan my whole day's meals and snacks. Now I am filling out that information at the end of the day to see how "natural or instinctive" my eating habits have become. I am excited to see that for the most part on most days, I am doing very well. Those days before that TOM is still a struggle, but that is only 3-4 days out of a month, so this is HUGE progress!
Yes, I love a plan and I love it when a plan comes together! LOL
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