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The PMS blues

Monday, February 06, 2012

I am SOOOOO over it. I am 46yo and my youngest is going to 15 on Sunday. Why still suffer through PMS at this stage of life?

I blow my calories, fats, and carbs for a week.
I'm too tired and achy to workout for a week.
I have a complete personality change--an ugly one, at that!
I'm not even supposed to do yoga for the first 4 days. sigh.
My cycles are coming closer and closer together, not further apart or even skipping yet.

Why bother with all this mess and upheaval every 21 days?????

I AM SO OVER THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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OK, I'm done whining now.

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DRAWNTHISWAY 2/10/2012 10:25AM

    Wow... you know I really don't know what to expect when I get to this frame of my life. I have always had naturally short light periods. During the last 3 years my cycles have been "irregular" but by that I only mean that part of the year they decide to last longer than 25 days, and then they return to normal for me. Good luck in navigating these changes. I know it can be challenging.

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YULLABELLE 2/8/2012 10:06AM

    emoticon i am in it with you. I feel the same way. I can't wait for it to be over. The hormone changes are unbearable.

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MIPALADY23 2/7/2012 12:36PM

    wow. That stinks. I am 41 and I'm just starting to get 1/2 day periods that are normal and then just spotting for a couple days if that. Hang in there and I would get your hormone levels check, if you haven't already.
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ELISADENK 2/6/2012 2:35PM

    I just read that PMS is a sign of hormonal imbalance.

Can you get your hormones checked out?

Did you read the Peri+ Team's topic on Precursors? That might help. emoticon

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LNSYLVSDOGS 2/6/2012 8:40AM

    I remember my cycle getting closer together, too, for awhile....and much heavier. They finally DID become EXTREMELY light periods that were skipping a month....then skipping more. I think I might actually have reached menopause (the magical 12th month without a period)...but, thanks to my sloppy record keeping....I'm not completely sure. Hang in there! Things do get better! I sympathize. Oh, and my "baby" just had his 21st birthday and also told everyone on his FB status that Madonna is a year older than his Mom. Because everyone knows his parents are older, he said. emoticon

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    Horrible time isn't it. emoticon

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PATTIE441 2/6/2012 12:59AM

    Oh I'm sorry you are going through this my friend. Hoping and praying it gets better soon. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TAMPATINK67 2/6/2012 12:56AM

    emoticon lean protein and light exercise emoticon can sometimes help me... Anything ever lessen your symptoms? Hot tea?

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My Fitness Center

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

My outdoor fitness center-view from our deck

My indoor view in cold, damp weather

My outdoor yoga studio

My fitness equipment

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BROWNCOFIDDLER 1/31/2012 10:09PM

    Love it!! That's an awesome place to workout. Gives me incentive to take the mat out on our deck too! We also live in the woods & hills. emoticon emoticon

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PATTIE441 1/31/2012 4:26PM

    Wow! That's awesome!!!! You go girl!! Woo Hoo!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FITNFUNJEN 1/31/2012 12:45PM

    Beautiful!! I miss the trees!

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Spark Team downsizing

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Some of you will notice I am no longer posting on your SparkTeam and that it no longer appears on my list of SparkTeams. It is not that I am unhappy with you or your team. It is not that I had an issue or a problem. I have been blessed, encouraged, and supported while on each and every team. However, I just need to downsize. I felt I was being pulled in 20 different directions and couldn't keep up with the chats, goals, challenges, etc. and sometimes, overwhelming amount of wonderful information.

As my journey changes, so will my SparkTeams. I pray no one takes offense and we can continue to be SparkFriends.

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YELLOWBIRD01 2/4/2012 12:45PM

    I understand . . we all get there at one time or another. I have done the same thing myself and need to re-prioritize things again.

God's blessings on your continuing journey to a healthier lifestyle! Keep up the great work!! YOU ARE awesome!!!

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JENNIW70 1/27/2012 12:22AM

    Heidi, I think we all have gotten to that point at some time or other. I know I had lots of teams when I first joined, but I've gotten rid of several and really only active on a couple at a time. No hard feelings! You do what you need to to keep living healthier!

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PEPPYPATTI 1/26/2012 2:50PM

    Completely understandable. I too am considering this as I am feeling overwhelmed at times. You will always be my friend! Hugs

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DRAWNTHISWAY 1/26/2012 9:00AM

    I congratulate you on doing what is best for you! I hope that you find continued peace with your journey, and that I will be continued with your presence as a friend.

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RUNNINGOMA 1/25/2012 10:33AM

    I appreciate you stopping by and letting us know. I find that it is also hard to be on a lot of teams and we have to do the most important things - like exercise and track our food. The teams are just a plus when we have time.

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WENDYLEE15 1/24/2012 4:17PM

    I have done the same. It does work out so much better !! emoticon

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MIPALADY23 1/24/2012 4:03PM

    That's growth!!

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TOASTIE 1/24/2012 1:25PM

    Be at peace. This happens to lots of us.

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Walking the Walk (week 4)

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Jan 22 Prayer and Meditation
Romans 12:2
Faithful thought - When my mind is focused on prayer, I get that daily dose of spirit that keeps me strong.
Action - Pray as you walk today
Affirmation - Today I will make the effort to set the world aside for a few minutes and let my mind meditate upon God.
Exercise - Day of rest

Jan 23 The Power of Music
Psalm 98:4-9
Faithful thought - I don't eat junk food and I don't listen to junk sound.
Action - Kick noise pollution out of your life!
Affirmation - Today I will fill my soul with powerful, energetic, uplifting music.
Exercise - FFFU, day 2 with Coach Nicole, 1 mile walk OUTDOORS!, and yoga

Jan 24 Cleaning your house of bad beliefs
Colossians 3:23
Faithful thought - I control my thoughts and actions. I will be who I want to be.
Action - pretend you have to describe yourself to someone who doesn't know you. List as many things as you can think of to describe what you are like. Read over the list. Do you sound like the kind of person you'd like to be? change what you don't like.
Affirmation - Today I will act with integrity toward myself and others.
Exercise - 1 mile walk, yoga

Jan 25 Outfoxing Stress
Psalm 119:143
Faithful thought - Stress comes and goes, but if I keep exercising and trusting in God, I'll stay on an even keel and everything will take care of itself.
Action - Cut your caffeine intake since they raise your stress hormones.
Affirmation - Today I will give it my all, do what I can, and not worry about what I can't do.
Exercise - FFFU, Day 6 and yoga energizing routine

Jan 26 Getting Whole Again
Romans 8:26-28
Faithful thought - I know that living a life of purpose requires me to take care of myself, outside and in, and to keep making sure I'm doing what I really believe in.
Action - What makes you unique? What makes you different from everyone else on the planet? List the things that you know in your heart that make you a unique creation.
Affirmation - I am a whole, sacred person. There is no one like me on earth, and I'm going to have a blast while I'm here!
Exercise - I was supposed to walk today, but my fibro says "NO, not today"...so, to take care of myself, I did a gentle yoga routine instead.

Jan 27 Forgiveness
Colossians 3:12-14
Faithful thought - Everyone has their imperfections, including me, and I bear nobody any malice. My love extends to all humankind--including myself!
Action - Write a letter of forgiveness to anyone or institution you are holding a grudge against. DON'T MAIL THE LETTERS. (they will interpret it as lording over them), just throw them away or burn them as you pray for that person/institution.
Affirmation - I begin today with a clean slate, for me and everyone. I hold nothing but love for me and everyone I meet, and I will act in love in both our best interests.
Exercise - walking

Jan 28 Doing it for them
I Peter 3:15-16
Faithful thought - Just as I am a part of God's plan, so is everyone else. I've been so blessed and I know one of the greatest blessings is passing that on.
Action - Invite your spouse or children to begin walking with you
Affirmation - Every day that I walk, not only am I contributing to my own quality of life, but to everyone's with whom I come in contact.
Exercise - It's Saturday.....housework cardio and strength training. LOL

Jan 29 Your Call to Service
Philippians 2:1-4
Faithful thought - The changes I've made in my life by walking have improved my life so much and hardly cost me a cent. I wonder what other easy way I can think of to improve the world around me?
Action - Somebody out there needs a hug so go hug somebody!
Affirmation - Today I will make someone else's day!
Exercise - none.

Jan 30 Walking in love
I John 4:16-18
Faithful thought - Love is God's essence, and I won't let others' fears keep me from feeling that love and sharing it.
Action - Next time you meet a stranger, treat him/her as you would a loved family member.
Affirmation - I love my life!
Exercise - walking

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NURSNANA 1/24/2012 3:41PM

    Heidi, What a great idea! I enjoyed this blog, and think it would be helpful to many of us on our journey. Thanks! ~hugs~ Nancy

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8 month Sparkversary

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Eight months. The longest I've ever worked at weightloss and better health - ever!

I now weigh less than I have in 16 years- just before I got pregnant with our son who will be 15 in a few weeks. The funny thing is, I don't yet FEEL that thin. I am always shocked when I pull on a size 14 jean or can squeeze into (but can't sit down in) a size 12. 16 years is a long time to be and feel fat and wear baggy clothes to hide the roundness and rolls and bulges. I'm still coming to grips with snug fitting clothes--not "skin tight, show 'em what you got" kind of clothes, just my new modest clothing that now shows an hourglass figure.

So, I guess I'm still fighting with same distorted self-image issues-just in the opposite direction now. Before I couldn't believe how fat I was and now I'm struggling to see myself as a size 12/14 instead of an 18/20.
I never know what to say to people who call me 'skinny' or say things like, 'hang on so you don't blow away', etc. I just don't call 167lbs with 23 lb to go THIN yet. I am still in the overweight BMI for 5'4" and I haven't lived in the this size long enough yet for it to feel like ME. KWIM? I see the progress, so it isn't that I still see myself as fat when I look in the mirror. I just don't see myself as thin yet. Thin enough to squeeze into a size 12.

So, I went to my measurement trackers to do a bit of assessing how far I've come.
60 lbs gone
9 inches off my waist
7.5 inches off my hips
3 inches off my thigh
2 inches off my calf
2 inches off my upper arm

a few personalized measurements
11 inches off my ribcage
went from a size 12 ring to 6.5 and getting my wedding ring back on.
from size 22 to 14 jean
from size 20 shirt (XXL) to 12/14 (L)

I see the progress on paper and in the mirror and in my clothes. So, why don't I FEEL as thin as all the evidence shows yet?


Maybe it's time to get rid of all the baggy clothes. I've been putting it off with only 23 lbs to go, but maybe the XL baggy pants and jammies and sweatshirts, altho wonderfully comfy, are not helping. Maybe it's time to step out in clothes that actually fit my new size, even some being a bit snug for motivation.

Goodwill, here I come! emoticon

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JENNIW70 1/24/2012 1:15AM

    Great job Heidi! Time to celebrate by giving away those baggy clothes. Don't be too concerned that you don't "feel" thin yet. Just celebrate each day and stay faithful to your healthier habits. Those other 23 pounds will go at just the right time too!

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KPETSCHE 1/22/2012 5:24AM


Definitely time to start over with some clothes that show off the new you. Great job and happy anniversary.

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JO0926 1/19/2012 3:34PM

    Throw out those old clothes!! You should be very proud of yourself and the more you wear your 12/14's, the quicker you'll feel it!

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CAROLIAN 1/19/2012 3:32PM


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1CRAZYDOG 1/19/2012 1:52PM

    Major accomplishments!!!! Congratulations on all you've done. And I tend to "tune out" those who make inappropriate weight related comments. It just gets that "negative self talk" in motion. I just say, "Thanks for caring. I have it under control." Then MOVE ON, either to another topic or physically move away! Works like a charm.

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WENDYLEE15 1/19/2012 1:31PM

    You have come so far !! Good for you!! Yes bye bye..baggy clothes. Hopefully that will change the way you think!! I am so happy for you. You will be right where you want to be in no time!! Keep up the great work!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FITNFUNJEN 1/19/2012 10:58AM

    Congratulations! You are doing so well! I definitely think you deserve some new clothes that fit well!

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CAPPYKIM 1/19/2012 8:57AM

    Congratulations on all your success!

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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 1/19/2012 8:44AM

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Congrats on your success! Give those old baggy clothes to someone who needs them and embrace the new you. You've earned it!

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MIPALADY23 1/19/2012 8:42AM

    Heidi (hope that is your name);)

THIS is awesome!!! I hope you are so VERY PROUD of being a healthier you. The proof is right there in all your "tracking". Amazing.

YES! give up those "comfort" clothes and give in to the new you. All your hard work deserves it!

Happy Anniversary

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