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8 month Sparkversary

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Eight months. The longest I've ever worked at weightloss and better health - ever!

I now weigh less than I have in 16 years- just before I got pregnant with our son who will be 15 in a few weeks. The funny thing is, I don't yet FEEL that thin. I am always shocked when I pull on a size 14 jean or can squeeze into (but can't sit down in) a size 12. 16 years is a long time to be and feel fat and wear baggy clothes to hide the roundness and rolls and bulges. I'm still coming to grips with snug fitting clothes--not "skin tight, show 'em what you got" kind of clothes, just my new modest clothing that now shows an hourglass figure.

So, I guess I'm still fighting with same distorted self-image issues-just in the opposite direction now. Before I couldn't believe how fat I was and now I'm struggling to see myself as a size 12/14 instead of an 18/20.
I never know what to say to people who call me 'skinny' or say things like, 'hang on so you don't blow away', etc. I just don't call 167lbs with 23 lb to go THIN yet. I am still in the overweight BMI for 5'4" and I haven't lived in the this size long enough yet for it to feel like ME. KWIM? I see the progress, so it isn't that I still see myself as fat when I look in the mirror. I just don't see myself as thin yet. Thin enough to squeeze into a size 12.

So, I went to my measurement trackers to do a bit of assessing how far I've come.
60 lbs gone
9 inches off my waist
7.5 inches off my hips
3 inches off my thigh
2 inches off my calf
2 inches off my upper arm

a few personalized measurements
11 inches off my ribcage
went from a size 12 ring to 6.5 and getting my wedding ring back on.
from size 22 to 14 jean
from size 20 shirt (XXL) to 12/14 (L)

I see the progress on paper and in the mirror and in my clothes. So, why don't I FEEL as thin as all the evidence shows yet?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Maybe it's time to get rid of all the baggy clothes. I've been putting it off with only 23 lbs to go, but maybe the XL baggy pants and jammies and sweatshirts, altho wonderfully comfy, are not helping. Maybe it's time to step out in clothes that actually fit my new size, even some being a bit snug for motivation.

Goodwill, here I come! emoticon

  
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JENNIW70 1/24/2012 1:15AM

    Great job Heidi! Time to celebrate by giving away those baggy clothes. Don't be too concerned that you don't "feel" thin yet. Just celebrate each day and stay faithful to your healthier habits. Those other 23 pounds will go at just the right time too!

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KPETSCHE 1/22/2012 5:24AM

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Definitely time to start over with some clothes that show off the new you. Great job and happy anniversary.

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JO0926 1/19/2012 3:34PM

    Throw out those old clothes!! You should be very proud of yourself and the more you wear your 12/14's, the quicker you'll feel it!
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CAROLIAN 1/19/2012 3:32PM

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1CRAZYDOG 1/19/2012 1:52PM

    Major accomplishments!!!! Congratulations on all you've done. And I tend to "tune out" those who make inappropriate weight related comments. It just gets that "negative self talk" in motion. I just say, "Thanks for caring. I have it under control." Then MOVE ON, either to another topic or physically move away! Works like a charm.

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WENDYLEE15 1/19/2012 1:31PM

    You have come so far !! Good for you!! Yes bye bye..baggy clothes. Hopefully that will change the way you think!! I am so happy for you. You will be right where you want to be in no time!! Keep up the great work!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FITNFUNJEN 1/19/2012 10:58AM

    Congratulations! You are doing so well! I definitely think you deserve some new clothes that fit well!

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CAPPYKIM 1/19/2012 8:57AM

    Congratulations on all your success!

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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 1/19/2012 8:44AM

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Congrats on your success! Give those old baggy clothes to someone who needs them and embrace the new you. You've earned it!

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MIPALADY23 1/19/2012 8:42AM

    Heidi (hope that is your name);)

THIS is awesome!!! I hope you are so VERY PROUD of being a healthier you. The proof is right there in all your "tracking". Amazing.

YES! give up those "comfort" clothes and give in to the new you. All your hard work deserves it!

GREAT JOB!
Happy Anniversary
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My Biggest Victory This Winter

Monday, January 16, 2012

It's been a hard fight. Winter coming on, the days shortening, SAD threatening, Halloween, Thanksgiving, my birthday, husband's birthday, Church Christmas dinner theatre for 3 nights, Christmas, our anniversary, New Year's.

But as of today, I have lost another 10 lbs since the beginning of October for a total of 60 lbs lost--gone, never to be seen again!! emoticon

In 3 days, it will be my 8th month Sparkversary. emoticon

I have 22 lbs to go to my goal of 145lbs where I will be out of the overweight BMI. I know I can do it!

However, the biggest victory this winter? I've battled with SAD off and on but with the Lord's help, my friends and family, my Sparkfriends and the resources here, I am WINNING and OVERCOMING my annual winter depression! emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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PASTORSWIFE7406 2/4/2012 11:43AM

    Hooray!

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FITNFUNJEN 1/18/2012 8:47PM

    WOOHOO!!!!! That is so awesome! Both the weight loss and overcoming SAD!!! I'm so happy for your successes Heidi!! emoticon

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MIPALADY23 1/16/2012 11:06AM

    This is AWESOME!!! I don't know if I actually have SAD but I do have to plan ahead otherwise I want to hibernate. Hate the cold and when I lived in Mi there wasn't alot of sun through winter. I'm in south central PA now and there is more sun during the winter so it's a little better.

Keep Sparkin!

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WENDYLEE15 1/16/2012 9:29AM

    That's great!! Congrats on all you have accomplished !! emoticon

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_JULEE_ 1/16/2012 9:10AM

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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 1/16/2012 8:55AM

    emoticonon your successful weight loss!! What a great way to start the new year with 60 lbs gone! I am so glad that you are beating SAD this time around. What a victory! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Walking the Walk- a month long blog for January 2012 (week 3)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Jan 15 - Tiptoeing past temptation
I Corinthians 10:12-13
Faithful thought- there will be good days and bad days, but there will be more and more good days as long as I stick to God's plan.
Action- turn the temptation over to God
Affirmation - today I will do the best and I can and won't punish myself for any mistakes I make.
Exercise - none (day of rest)
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Jan 16 - Playing with time
Ecclesiates 3:1-8
Faithful thought - What I am doing right now is exactly what I should be doing. The past is done, and the future will take care of itself.
Action - Isolate yourself somewhere and just BE for a few hours.
Affirmation - Today I will do one thing at a time. I will give it my full attention and will enjoy it thoroughly.
Exercise - strength training, 1 mi. walk, yoga

Jan 17 That's why they call it FAITH
Matthew 6:25-34
Faithful thought - Things are going fine.
Action - Read your Bible. find the records of individuals who overcame seemingly impossible situations
Affirmation - Today I will do what is in my power to get healthy and everything else will fall into place.
Exercise - 1 mile walk, yoga

Jan 18 Trust
Romans 15:3
Faithful thought - I trust in my own earnest intentions.
Action - Say to yourself, I trust you to get your walk done today. Then go do it. Then congratulate yourself and assign yourself another task to accomplish for today.
Affirmation - Today I will trust that success will happen naturally.
Exercise - strength training, 1 mile walk, yoga

Jan 19 Don't just talk the talk
Matthew 6:5-8
Faithful thought - I am devoted to walking
Action - Do something beautiful that no one will know about and you'll never get credit for doing it.
Affirmation - Today I walk just for the beauty of walking
Exercise - 1 mile walk, yoga

Jan 20 Perseverance and Discipline
James 1:2-6
Faithful thought - Perseverance? Discipline? What's so hard about that!
Action - anytime you feel your resolve weakening, think about how good you feel when you do what you're supposed to do to be healthy and fit and how badly you used to feel when you didn't take care of yourself.
Affirmation - I have a spirit that is dedicated to being fully and exuberantly alive!
Exercise - nothing planned since I do a lot of walking all day long from 7am-9pm

Jan 21 Habits
Psalm 34: 1-6
Faithful thought - I make my habits, and then they make me. I can choose my habits, and will choose carefully.
Action - Make a habit of thanking God throughout your day
Affirmation - Daily exercise is a part of me...my cells crave it!
Exercise - yoga

  


Skiing? ME?!?!?!?

Monday, January 09, 2012

Today I drove my 14 yo son 2 hours to Paoli Peaks in southern Indiana so he could ski with our homeschool group and other homeschool groups for Homeschool Monday. This was our 4th or 5th trip. I always sit in the lodge and read, cross-stitch, and/or knit.

But, next year, I want try it and go downhill 1 or 2 times! emoticon

LOL

I've never skied in my life! Plus I have fibromyalgia!

But I want to ski at least 1 time in my life and I AM going to do it during next year's annual ski trip with our homeschool group!

Edited to add: We went back 2 weeks later and DH skied with son. He fell and has hurt a rib. So far, 3 trips to chiropractor. mmmmmmmmmm...maybe I'll skip trying to ski next year.

  
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JENNIW70 1/12/2012 12:40AM

    Sounds like you have a good plan Heidi! It's always good to have goals and plans in mind.

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HEIDISHOPE 1/10/2012 4:25PM

    Beesparkle, thanks for all the great advice! For homeschool Mondays, a free lesson (lasts 45mins) is included in the $25 fee for the whole day (plus boots, skis, and poles).

I thought I'd take the lesson just before lunch so I can go back inside and have warm muscles before doing the actual run. My son will be right there with me. I will go down then go back in to warm back up and rest and relax my muscles. Then I'll determine if I want to do it again. I've learned the hard way to listen to my body and be wise with my activities. I honestly thank you for your concern and wisdom ((((hugs)))).

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BEESPARKLE 1/10/2012 1:53PM

    I would advise if you can afford it. You having Fibromyalgia to get a few lessons first. Especially if your going to try down hill. It is bad enough first try with no fibromyalgia and you having it. Even cross country. You have to use arms alot and legs and your back feels it.

Do not want to put a damper on it for you. Atleast be wise not sorry.

My daughter way back when she was a young Mom like you. She took 3 lessons . She was glad she did. She learned to control her ski's down hill and all the things that you should know with that sport. Her hubby was a pro. The kids took lessons as they were like 5 then .

If you go yourself with no lessons . Your your own worse enemy sometimes. Even her arms and legs she felt next day. They are muscles you never used.

It is like we who walk forward they are voluntary muscles so I walk backwards in a March or dancing also to get those muscles working like the front so they will be come voluntary .


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WENDYLEE15 1/10/2012 1:50PM

    That sounds like lots of fun !! emoticon

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TTLEELEE 1/10/2012 8:42AM

    Go for it!! Don't forget cross country skiing too, and snowshoeing....

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MRSKROSSI 1/10/2012 2:31AM

    What a fantastic idea

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Walking the Walk...a month-long blog for Jan 2012 (week 2)

Sunday, January 08, 2012

Jan 8 - Finding Compassion
I Peter 3:8-9
Faithful thought-- We are all a part of God's plan and all deserving of love.
Action- Do something compassionate for a total stranger.
Affirmation- Today I will feel God's love shining through me and will say a blessing for everyone I meet.
Exercise for the day- none--a day of rest.

Jan 9--Building Strength
I Corinthians 6:19-20
Faithful thought-I will do what it takes to stay strong because I have many important things to do while on earth.
Action-think of your body as a house that God is coming to visit. What will you do to spruce it up and prepare for the visit?
Affirmation--Each day I get stronger and closer to the Lord
Exercise- walking outdoors

Jan 10--Sacred Food
I Corinthians 10:31
Faithful thought- God is with me when I eat, helping me get the energy I need to serve His Kingdom.
Action- grow a vegetable garden (we've increased the number of our raised garden beds for spring planting)
Affirmation- today I will put nothing but God's natural foods into my sacred body.
Exercise- walking outdoors

Jan 11- Sacred Drink
John 4:10-14
Faithful thought-with every glass of water I drink, I am bathing my soul in God's goodness.
Action-drink 8 glass of cool (not cold) water each day
Affirmation - today I commit to drinking water with my meals and before and after exercise.
Exercise - walking outdoors

Jan 12 - Pay Attention
Song of Solomon 2:10-13
Faithful thought- I am exactly where I need to be right now.
Action- make a list of beautiful things you notice as you go about your day.
Affirmation - today is today and I embrace it with all my will.
Exercise - strength training with resistance band

Jan 13 - Healing Dis-Ease
Proverbs 1:33
Faithful thought- Life is good. I look forward to each day.
Action- Do a relaxation activity
Affirmation - My natural state is joy, health, and well-being. When I wake in the morning, this is the first thing I will feel.
Exercise - walking

Jan 14 - Looking good is not a crime
I Peter 3:3-4
Faithful thought- As God's servant, I will represent Him; He smiles through me.
Action- begin the day with a smile and keep it there
Affirmation - With each step I take, I am healthier, happier, and more attractive.
Exercise - heavy cleaning and furniture moving
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1CRAZYDOG 1/8/2012 9:52PM

    Donated food today @ the local grocery store. So many families need help, but are what I consider the invisible needy. Living in a "nice area" it is just not expected to have someone in need. With this economy, though, NOBODY is immune.

I did exercise today, but am going to rest.

Happy Sunday!

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