Well for the Goddess sakes I have gotten off track for a while AGAIN .....
But hopped back on again yesterday and am working towards a 10lb loss for the next 8 weeks. This is day two.... 56 more to go! (did I do the math right? )
I adjusted my weight tracker to reflect my gain of the past week or so...( I weighed in yesterday morning) EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!
I am not feeling so well, and have been slipping in and out this darned cold/flu thing for almost 3 weeks. The past couple of days I have been battling headaches and stomach/back pains... and the weirdest thing? They are not constant... its on and off feeling crappyish! In my head? Self sabotaging? Mental dilemma?
SO I have decided that tomorrow, weather I feel crappy or not I am hitting the gym.
Sayin it again.... Hitting the gym tomorrow no matter what!
I feel like I am slipping back into sabotage habits ever since I let things go last November... and I really need to find that girl who was so fighting mad to be healthy and slim last year.... I need her resolve and her strength.
I need to dig deep and wake her up because I do NOT want to go backwards in my life, I only want to go forwards!
Moving FORWARDS MEANS
....reaching my ideal weight
.... trying new things
.... attracting all good things to me/my life
.... loosing the negativity
.... being someone I would like to meet
....meeting new people
....using food as fuel most of the time
....hugging my kids more
....dancing with my husband more
....host fun dinner parties
....go out on more GIRLS NIGHTS
....have more date nights
....Play more- work less
....Spend more time in my Scrap booking room
Ok, so the New Year is heading this way FULL ON and let me tell you that I have really fallen off the healthy lifestyle wagon in a very big way while ringing out the old! YIKES
Im so scared Im not even gonna step on the scale for awhile because I truly have just let everything I have taught myself and worked for go right out the window.
The Stress for me this season I think was way too much work and the 1st anniversary of my Dad's passing and instead of using exercise to work through it I have been using food. Or at least that is the only real excuse I can come up with for turning to the darkness. I really have been working FAR too much this past couple of months and it has really been dragging me down. 50+ hours a week is too much... money or no I just can't keep that up and keep a healthy lifestyle going for myself.
I worked so hard last year to get the weight off and to get fit and in the last month I have felt that old self sabatoge attacking me from all sides.
I am resolving to dig deep and find that RESOLVE that got me this far and renew it, refresh it and make it stronger! So that Next winter I do NOT fall into this same trap!
I am making resolutions this year.... They are many but they are attainable!
I think I will print these out and post them on my desk and my bathroom mirror!
* To get in 500 Fitness minutes a week
* To work hard on my core fitness as well as my cardio
* To log my food and stay on track with my calories
* To Challenge and motivate myself and my BC GIRLS Team
* To RUN the Fathers DAY 10km run in 60 minutes this year
* To Just say NO most of the time to foods that are not good fuel for my body
* To encourage my Family and Friends TO be fit and healthy and to be active with me
* To be a positive and up-beat person, to encourage positivity in all aspects of my life
* To WORK LESS and PLAY MORE
* To weigh in at 135 lbs and stay there!
If I think of other things, I will continue to add to this list throughout the year...
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! HERE IS TO THE BEST YEAR YET!
So first off.... OMG I am sore and feeling the effects of my Gym escapades this week.
That being a good thing and that being said... I think it has helped with my PMS.
Little back tracking here... I haven't had PMS or a real period in over 6 years. I used to get the WORST periods, the worst PMS... and then I started getting the Depo Provera shot.
Its a birth control shot (which I didn't need) but the way it affected me with side effects is exactly what I needed. No PMS... no period... no nothing... YIPPPPEEEE for me.
Now this shot can have other side effects, not so happy ones which have started cropping up for me in the past year... prolonged spotting or periods and other stuff but thats the only one that has been effecting me.
SO... I have decided that I don't want to be spotting 25 out of 30 days a month and since Im 42 and perimenopause is soon on the horizon if not already here I am not getting my shot any more. My last one was in August and I am due for my first period any day.
Can I just stop and scream here for a sec? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I mean really? WHY????? The exercise helps that's a given... but even so, the mood swings and the bloating , back aches, tummy aches... the need to sit on the throne for EVER... WHAT IS THAT?
HOLY MOTHER OF ....... I have forgotten what its like to be a Girl!
Tomorrow I am going to the drugstore and I am loading up on MIDOL!
Well, its been awhile since I have blogged … its been awhile since I have done anything too spark like.
Today the sun was shining and it was so sparkly outside that I just had to get out and get some fresh air and sparkle into my life…. So I FORCED my behind out the door and went for a run. I was thinking I was gonna be slow but I ran the 5km in and about my usual time… today it was 34 minutes… NOT bad I says to myself as I rounded the corner for home.
I have been having a lot going on both at work and at home the past few months. Its been very hard to keep up my Spark life online. I had to bail from the last BLC… as I just couldn’t manage to keep up and my rah rah cheerleading for my BC Girls team has been at an all time low for me as well, like I said I just don’t have time to get online and participate in everything I want too.
I haven’t been stepping on the scale everyday, I haven’t been tracking my foods, I haven’t been working extra hard to lead the healthy lifestyle I have grown to so love and so Im a little scared that I will lapse into my old ways. I mean I know that I WILL NEVER go back to that close to 200lb girl but I really don’t even want to gain back 10lbs of that… I don’t mind the lags in life but I have to learn how to maintain things until I can get back to my full on self.
I am planning to weigh in on Friday this week to see where I am at but I AM ALSO planning to hit the gym at least 2 times this week before then…. Plus today’s run makes 3 times this week…
Im just babbling here but sometimes a good babble is all it takes to get me back on track.
My youngest daughter tells me today on the way to her diving class that she wants to come to the gym with me this week…. This is a good thing….
My middle son is in need of getting to the gym or getting physical activity into his life as part of a solution to help quell his anxiety. SO… the plan is to get him in the gym and start him slowly… I told him for the month of December he must go twice a week… for 30 min minimum… then in January the plan is to up the amount of days we go by one… and then the amount of time we spend there… and so on and so on…. I think this will also help me get back on track as well.
So Mondays and Tuesdays are a given for both kids and me to get there….. I MIGHT be able to hit it Wednesdays but it will be tough unless my Hubby can pick up our Son from the tutors… And Thursdays is out because we have music lessons after work and Fridays are out because I teach a class after work… so then we are back to the weekend where it is harder than dragging Hades out of the warmth of hell to get anyone to do anything other than sit around… LOL
Such is life… seems as the years go by we just get busier and busier and we have to find new and more creative ways to keep our lifestyles healthy and active….
Christmas is upon us and it is my favorite time of year. I love everything about the holidays except that it marks the first year anniversary of my Dad’s passing. I will miss him desperately this year… and am intending on spending a lot of time with my Mom and my Whole family…. Weather they like it or not… HAHAHAHA
Here is to a most fantastic week ahead for me… for you… for everyone!