will I ever get back to it?

Sunday, March 07, 2010

Ok... so here we are Sunday again.... I think this is my third Sunday in a row where I have vowed to "get back in the swing" of things.

Im fighting another cold here... I guess stress is manifesting itself physically and I am being hit left right and center.
This cold I seem to be keeping at Bay but its still there... sore throat and ears are the worst of it.

I am trying to not dwell on it... I am trying to visualize the healthy person I want to be and take all my vitamins and drink lots of water and tea... flush the bugs away ya know?

I haven't got back to exercising yet... haven't felt UP to it but I really WANT to... I'm scared I will have slacked so long that the longing to get up and move will be gone.

All that being said I have done not too bad a job at maintaining... I am actually down 1/2 lb this week.

I was feeling pretty sorry for myself this weekend and ate foods that I shouldn't have. REALLY shouldn't have... emotional eating... sigh ... but that's ok. I allowed myself that and this week I need to buckle down and track EVERYTHING that goes in my mouth.

I need to be healthy because I can't spend time with my parents if we are not... because they can't afford to catch anything at all right now or else my Dad can't have surgery. He has an appointment with the thoracic surgeon on the 15th of this month to discuss the surgery for the tumor on his lung.

and so it goes.......................

  

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MONKEYMAMMA2 3/8/2010 12:30AM

welll heather, I am not exactly sure where I have been since I didnt think you had made a new post until today and then I look and I have missed a LOT!!! first off congrats on all the weight loss thats excellent! I myself have not done good for certain reasons!!! and sorry about all the stress it sucks to have people getting sick in your life and all around you and not be able to do anything about it. BTW you said your son got a virus that attacked the pancreas... my brother got the SAME THING like 2 years ago now I guess it was rough so keep your head up and think positive!! sorry about your dad, I hope he gets better and your right its best not to be around him if you are sick.. and your sick and taking care of a baby! HOLY! and Im sure its your job that gets you sick so much... kids are festering germs HAHAHA but as long as you keep putting along even when there are bumps you will be fine... remember... the little engine that could... I think I can I think I can I think I can! haha Report Inappropriate Comment

JUSTMISHY 3/7/2010 11:03PM

Take care of yourself. I know this seems to be a common theme, but it's true. Eat well, drink lots and get lots of rest. Exercise when you feel like you can without being exhausted. Your body is using lots of energy fighting this bug and needs you to do your part. I challenge you to a 30 minute a day reprieve. Do what you want for that half hour daily. If it's reading a book so be it. Knitting? Cooking? Going for a stop-and-smell-the-flowers-walk? Do whatever makes you really happy to be you. This is not a gotta exercise, or gotta run errands moment. This is an adding balance moment! Your family will greatly benefit and you will be refreshed and ready to better deal with the stresses that life has given you at this time. You are worth it!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

TINARENA2 3/7/2010 6:59PM

Hang in there! Take care of yourself first, make sure you get plenty of rest -- it is so important for recovering from a cold. The vigorous exercise will just have to wait and it can. A nice walk may lift your spirits and give you motivation, it always helps me. Each new day brings a new start, you and I will both be on track tomorrow!! Report Inappropriate Comment

LEELOOZABAT 3/7/2010 4:36PM

Sorry to hear you're fighting a cold, that's crummy...but a least you are being aware and forgiving of yourself...that will help keep you in the game. And you still lost 1/2 a lb so good on you! Keep up with the B vitamins (they're great for stress and colds) and make sure you do some self care. A hot steamy bath and some yummy antioxidant rich fruit. Take care hon! Report Inappropriate Comment

WESTCOASTGIRL2 3/7/2010 3:16PM

Oooh, too weird. I'm fighting another cold too....sore throat etc. Parallel lives.....? As long as you keep Sparking, I'm sure you'll get into your grove again. When you feel better your motivaton will be totally recharged. Also thanks for the comment on my blog about my tenant. I really appreciate your feedback. Report Inappropriate Comment

LILETHISKIND1 3/7/2010 2:54PM

Be encouraged.God will help you. Lord, help my friend to feel better. In Jesus name I pray. Amen. I have included some foods to help you. God loves you and I do to. Lileth Comment edited on: 3/7/2010 2:55:44 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

crossing the line ... towing the line

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Wow... this past two weeks have been really tough. I am just today starting to feel like Im getting my energy levels back up to normal. Still really dragged out but today I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. The flu has come and gone but now there is a really really nasty cold circulating and everyone seems to have it... I am praying hard that I do NOT catch this one.... I really just don't need it!

I haven't been tracking or exercising or pretty much doing anything. I didn't really eat anything at all last week until just this Sunday past actually. Then yesterday I indulged in a Tim Horten's Bagel w/ cream cheese AND a breakfast sandwich on an English muffin. I couldn't help myself I was craving comfort food and I thought a weeks worth of no calories at all was worth a bit of indulging.

Not only did I do the Timmies but I baked 4 dozen cupcakes yesterday and tasted two.. one lemon and one chocolate.

So suffice to say ENOUGH stepping over the line... I need to start towing it again.

I have tracked everything that has gone in my mouth today... I am drinking my water.... I am taking today in wee baby steps.... hour by hour!

I do think I am gonna lay off the gym for the rest of this week but fully intend to get back to that next....

So... weigh in for me is on Saturday.... we shall see just where on the line I really am then!

So I am putting in a little edit here.... they found a tumor on my Dad's lung.. it is cancer.... AND they still have no answers as to what is wrong with my son....

I want to eat a WHOLE CHOCOLATE CAKE!

  

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WESTCOASTGIRL1 3/5/2010 7:18PM

Oh girl... stress is in abundance for you these days. I am so sorry to hear about you dad and your son. All you can do is your best despite the circumstances and baby steps is best. Be kind to yourself. Report Inappropriate Comment

ANDREAL89 3/3/2010 10:12PM

I'm so sorry about your dad. I agree with WestCoastgirl2, take on day at a time, one meal at a time and take care of yourself. Report Inappropriate Comment

WESTCOASTGIRL2 3/3/2010 6:05PM

Sounds almost like a parallel life.....I'm just getting back on track now from similar circumstances, and I'm trying to make up for lost time. I'm more 'pumped' now than ever, and just don't have enough time to do it all...... One step at a time, I guess! Report Inappropriate Comment

Taking in easy

Saturday, February 27, 2010

SO I am down again.. yeah me!

But this last two weeks have been super tough... first the long and arduous hospital visit and then I got hit with a super nasty cold... then I went on my scrap booking retreat and THEN just when I thought I was back in the saddle and going for it again I got hit with THE MOST NASTY flu bug. It was horrible.

Yesterday was the first day that I could actually stand and function at all.
It was my first day back at work, plus I had to teach a kids class last night AND we have the foster relief care child this weekend. (who is sitting on my lap as I type away here at the moment)

So I would say for all that going on Im doing ok.... I am planning to take it pretty easy this weekend and hopefully I will be feeling tip top by Monday and back in the gym.

Phew....

I really need to take some measurements.... Maybe I will do that next weekend and see where I am at with that!

  

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WESTCOASTGIRL2 3/1/2010 1:39AM

Sounds like you've had a really rough go..... I hope things are brighter for you! I'm rootin' for ya cuz I know you can do it! Report Inappropriate Comment

Back in the saddle... or running beside it...

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

First .... BIG BIG THANK YOU's to all my SPARK FRIENDS for such support! I truly truly appreciate each and one of you!


I am back in the game...

I was dreading this evening all day.... all I wanted to do was come home from work and curl up on the couch, veg out and PIG OUT!

BUT....

I DID NOT!

I got home from work, I made dinner and tossed it in the oven and then I grabbed my work out clothes and headed out to the gym.

I did 30 minutes on the cross ramp machine which is kind of like an elliptical and then I ran 4km in 35 minutes on the treadmill which was REALLY good time for me.

I can't wait until the day I can cut my time ... I am already doing better than when I started that is for sure. It really excites me to see myself progressing. I want to run 4km in 25 minutes.... that is the goal but I don't have a time line.

I really LOVE running. Im learning to totally enjoy it. I get into the zone and I just GO GO GO! It's great!

My biggest problem is just getting out to do it... once Im there Its great, but the getting there is really hard for me. I need to work on that!

and again.....

Thank you to all of you who show such support and friendship it means a lot!

  

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LBCHILTON 2/26/2010 6:50PM

Way to get back at it! It's not how many times you fall, but how many times you get back up that matters. Report Inappropriate Comment

WESTCOASTGIRL1 2/26/2010 2:12AM

Way to go. Getting there really is the biggest battle. You are doing so well. We will get to where we want to go: one small step at a time. (me cheering you on) Report Inappropriate Comment

LEELOOZABAT 2/25/2010 10:05PM

YAY! I wish I was even runnnig beside the saddle instead of running behind the horse! Good for you! Report Inappropriate Comment

WESTCOASTGIRL2 2/24/2010 12:48AM

that's what friends are for! Report Inappropriate Comment

Overindulgant... set back

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Ok, Here's the thing, I went away for the weekend and I chose my foods carefully and I didn't have one dessert and I even went for a 3km run on the Friday afternoon and then tonight I went out for dinner with some friends and I ordered with TOTAL abandon!

I had a cheeseburger at White spot... salad instead of fries (that choice with a little help from my friend) And then I shared a slice of cheesecake with a friend for dessert.

Now Although I TOTALLY blew it at dinner tonight I really just couldn't stop myself.

SO... now I am back on track tomorrow... I will journal all my foods and I am going to the gym tomorrow night with my daughter. I will try to make sure to hit the gym a minimum of three times this week.

I only hope I haven't done too much damage as even though I watched my food choices carefully during the weekend when I weighed myself this morning (just to have a peek) I was up a pound. The big proof will be on Saturday I guess when I weigh in for real.

Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.... isn't that the truth hey?


BACK to the grindstone for me!

  

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WESTCOASTGIRL2 2/23/2010 1:47PM

This is but a hiccup. Don't worry. If you wouldn't have done this you'd be feeling like you've deprived yourself. But since this is for the long term, and you are obviousely set with your plans to get back on course right away, don't worry about it. Glad you're feeling better - my cold did feel better Saturday too, and now I feel 90%. I still sound nasaly, and I still cough some, but I'm feeling pretty much okay - thanks for asking! Report Inappropriate Comment

WESTCOASTGIRL1 2/23/2010 1:30PM

Treating yourself once in awhile is okay. Back on track is the key and you my friend are doing exactly that. :) Report Inappropriate Comment

BOCCIX2 2/23/2010 12:36AM

Heather....The main thing is you are committed to your weight loss and fitness goals .... one day is not going to hurt as long as you dust yourself off and get right back on track....running the 3 miles was great. Report Inappropriate Comment

HOWDOIHEARTTHEE 2/23/2010 12:19AM

Tomorrow is another day...hang in there. Report Inappropriate Comment