Thursday, May 01, 2014
Who am I?
Today I am going to tell you a brief story about inner change and self evolution, how I finally found my inner goddess.
All my life ever since I was a girl all I ever wanted was to be a wife and a momma , to have a big family, to have a full house. I thought about it all the time, told anyone who asked me that preverbal question that everyone asks you when youíre young.... What do you want to be when you grow up? Funny no one ever asks you WHO YOU WANT TO BE...
Turns out I was using the law of attraction back then and I didn't even know it. If you don't know what the law of attraction let me give you a quick synopsis: the theory behind it is that we create our own realities, that we attract things into our lives thru our thoughts and our feelings weather they are positive or negative.
And it is thru the laws of attraction I believe that
I got exactly what I wished for.... I have any amazing husband, who has been my best friend and tag team partner for the past 22 years, I say tag team because you need to be a pro WWF tag team always having each other's back when youíre busy raising Three amazing children! These three young people who belong to us are beginning to learn how to fly now and my house has been and is consistently full of wonderful people, family and friends that everyone brings home, we are a family of people collectors and I love that!
Now I want you to know I love my life, I have always loved my life and I have gotten out of it just what I have always wanted but jumping into marriage with someone you have only known for 6 months and then jumping again right into raising a family and all that comes with that ... along with watching my father battle cancer only to come to a horrible end can really add some stress to a girlís life, never mind all the other roles I have taken on in the past 22 years ( thatís another speech)
When you are so busy caring for everyone elseís needs I think you tend to lose WHO you are or maybe you donít lose you who you are but your WHO changes, like the butterfly.
Itís been Three years since my Dad passed away from Cancer and with his passing I had a few epiphanies about my life and I discovered that what I had always wanted out of life I already had and that it was time for change and growth, time to put those laws of attraction back into action. It was time to find out WHO I want to be when I grow up.
I wasn't sure at the time where my path was headed but I knew that a metamorphosis was about to occur within me and I couldn't put it off any longer
I started with working towards ridding myself of all the stress and anxiety was pent up inside me. You need to find release for that or else you will blow up like an unstable grenade and THAT, we'll THAT would just be messy and ugly and no one needs to see that!
What did I do? I went to the gym and I got on the treadmill and I ran like my life depended on it! Granted looking back I can giggle and know I was barely fast walking but when I started I really was running for my life! If I didn't run I was gonna loose it and well that would be another sight no one needs to see. I found some positive mantras that related to me and loaded up my iPod with the best booty moving music I could find and kept running!
I have been running full speed ahead for the past three years
Ive lost a few things in this time.. and Im happy they are lost...
65lbs of extra weight
my quick ability to get angry and frustrated although sometimes that tries to rear its ugly head still
I like to say that my inside and outside match now, but writing this speech I actually think they matched before too, itís just that I have evolved and grown and found that goddess within me who knows who she is and who she wants to be, I can feel her on a daily basis shinning from within and she glows and she feels good! I think she got tired of laying in wait cause she has burst through with such power I sometimes feel like a firework and that can be overwhelming for others a little bit.
My Oldest daughter has taken to calling me Inspirational Momma the past couple years and I know she is teasing me but I find it flattering. I find it motivating. I think she knows that.
I wonít say I donít get stressed about things any longer but I can say that I have been grounded by practicing the law of attraction on a daily basis, by making exercise a very high priority in my life, I practice the power of positive thinking every moment I can, I try to consciously push negative thoughts away and replace them with all things affirmative! Some days are harder than others ... but I have a great support network of family and friends for those days I need help.
I have learned how to be very good at letting things go, picking my battles, and I feel like I have a very positive outlook on life and relationships.
With all of this change in me all of a sudden I can see. I can see so many things and not just within myself but within others around me too.
Who am I?
I am Heather; I am a human being that is filled with love and positive energy that I just want to share with everyone around me. I am NOT perfect. I have bad days, and I have a story just like everyone else. I will not settle for less than happy. I love people, all of them ... Some come into my life for brief moments and others for longer and I treasure both! I want to be inspired and to inspire others on a daily basis. I want to help other people find their inner self... and to help others learn to let go and figure out what really matters to them and dig into their life with vigor and excitement, with fresh eyes.
Who am I?
I am my inner goddess and she is me thatís who I am.