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Brought to tears in the dressing room at Steinmart

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I am getting ready to go to a Girls Weekend, and, in preparation for the gathering, I put together a file of pictures from the last four years of our previous Girls Weekends. I guess I shouldn't be surprised to see that I was wearing the SAME clothes the last four years in most of the pictures! I've purchased a few things over the years, but, mostly, I shy away from buying new clothes because it has just been too painful. Staring into that dressing room mirror and being unhappy with the reflection because of my weight has brought me to tears on too many occasions. Today, however, was different! Since taking the SP site more seriously and actually doing what is suggested here, I have lost about ten pounds, and even though I was trying on the same size I've been wearing, the clothes fit better and I was happy with what I saw in the mirror! So happy, in fact, that it brought tears to my eyes! Thank you Spark People for such a great site, and thank you Spark Friends for your support and encouragement. I still have a ways to go, but today was affirmation that I'm headed in the right direction. If you can relate to this blog, hang in there! Spark People works!

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MAUREENMOZ 6/3/2010 7:42AM

    I'm still in the phase where it is painful to look in the mirror in dressing rooms. I've started losing weight and am hopeful after reading your blog! Thanks!

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LJCANNON 3/23/2010 12:46PM

    Very Good Tears, Indeed!! Without Curves and SparkPeople, I would not ever have known what it was to have HAPPY TEARS when I stepped on the scales.
The Community at Curves/Spark is KEY to changing a lifetime of bad habits and failure.
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MARENAMOO 3/23/2010 12:33PM

    Feeling good about yourself and fitting into clothes is a giant step towards a healthy lifestyle - congratulations.

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MOMSLIM 3/23/2010 10:53AM

    Congrats - that's one big achievement.

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DRAGONFLY02 3/18/2010 9:31PM

    Yeah!!! What an awesome feeling. Be very proud of yourself for your accomplishment.

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NINJALINDA 3/18/2010 8:14AM

    It is great that you had the right kind of tears! Doesn't it just feel awesome to get that confirmation that you're headed in the right direction?!? emoticon emoticon

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SUZANNE0606 3/18/2010 12:27AM

    Awww, congrats!!! Ten pounds is GREAT!

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TONI2TOM 3/17/2010 5:11PM

    I'm so happy for your continued success and know you will accomplish every goal you set out for yourself. Have loads of fun on the Girl's Weekend, you deserve it. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Overdid It Yesterday

Sunday, February 28, 2010

I went a little nuts last night. I hosted a dinner party for some of my girlfriends as our husbands are all out of town together. The meal itself wasn't unhealthy. I made a pretty healthy spinach and artichoke lasagna substituting lighter/healthier ingredients, someone brought a spinach salad, and someone else brought some french bread. But, someone else brought a mexican layer dip, and then there was dessert: girl scout cookie ice cream and 3 kinds of girl scout cookies. I pretty much ate in moderation everything, but even eating just a bit of everything added up! I should have just chosen ONE naughty thing (mexican dip, bread or dessert) to indulge in...I'll just have to chalk this up to a learning experience and get back on track today!

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SUZANNE0606 2/28/2010 8:22AM

    One of my biggest problems is social eating. That's a tough one to overcome. But you're right - it's a learning experience. Hopefully, unlike me, you'll be a fast learner and will keep it under control next time!


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Making Progress

Friday, February 26, 2010

Well, I'm 26 days into this journey, and I'm hanging in there. One of the things that I've found to be helpful is becoming vulnerable. What I mean is I've figured out it's okay to admit you have a problem and need help. So, I've been pretty open and vulnerable this time around. I've posted a picture of myself as a healthy, fit and accomplished athlete, and then I've posted a unflattering picture of myself after having lost control... I've logged onto SparkPeople everyday, tracked my nutrition and exercise, joined teams, made friends and been very honest about why I think I "let myself go." I've received support and encouragement here, and I'm making progress. Thanks SparkPeople!


The lightning bolt has struck

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

I am a firm believer that God talks to me. He's been talking to me for years to give up destructive behaviors, all the while protecting me from my poor choices and undeservedly giving me abundant blessings. Why do I continue to sabotage myself? This self-destructive behavior has taken its toll on my physical health. I cannot fake my way through life anymore...I need to commit to living a healthy lifestyle and make those lifestyle changes.

I woke up in the middle of the night last night and thought about wanting to commit to living a healthy lifestyle. I then tried to meditate myself back to sleep by repeating the word "peace" and focusing my mind on a little acorn. Sometimes I focus on a lighted candle, sometimes a lake, sometimes a leaf...whatever seems to bring peace at the time. I don't know why an acorn came to mind last night, but, eventually, I finally got back to sleep.

When I woke up this morning, I poured my coffee and logged in to Sparkpeople. I was just perusing the site and came across someone who used a quote about the mighty oak tree was once a little acorn. Interesting, I thought. I used that same symbol last night to try to get back to sleep...I spent a few more minutes on Sparkpeople, spinning the wheel for points, answering trivia questions, entering nutritional information, etc. I then exited the site and logged onto facebook. One of the things I like to post on my Wall and read is a daily devotion. The scripture and devotion revolved around freeing yourself from those things that keep you from attaining your true potential through Christ. And, the example it used was the acorn becoming a mighty oak tree.

God does this with me all the time. I am blessed to be at a place in my faith journey to recognize when he is trying to get my attention. Now I need to commit to making these changes for life. for my family. for myself. Because God really does want me to succeed. I am the little acorn, full of potential to become the mighty oak. God has big plans for me. I want to follow where He leads.

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MOTIV8U 3/7/2010 12:21AM

    This is a wonderful blog.. I could have written it myself, so much of it sounds familiar. Also, I just recommitted to my own journey on February 3. One of my real-life sparkfriends just kept checking on me and checking on me, and I finally came back, and had to agree... it was time to find myself again. The expanded part of my sparkpage goes into more detail.

Anyhow, I also believe I've been protected from a lot of the things God has been warning me about for years. Now, I'm trying to be careful to take the steps I should to stay healthy years into the future.

I've been doing some modified exercise in order to preserve my ankles (they have been a mess since December). So, if I go to the gym, I try to mostly use the bicycle. At home, I do yoga videos on exercisetv, a few cardio videos, and pilates (it looks so calm but the burn is real!). I strength train at home using adjustable weights. I also try to take walks 3 miles or longer with friends so that some of my exercise is social. Anyhow, I hope this gives you a few ideas of injury-friendly exercises.

I had to say something, because your story sounds so much like mine.

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