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Ready for fall break! (and new goals)

Sunday, October 02, 2011

I am so ready for fall break! I haven't been posting online as much as I should and I haven't been making my health a priority like I should. Good news is that I have made some wonderful friends this semester who have said once the break is over they will start exercising with me.
I have only lost 2 pounds so far this semester which means I am still about 208 whereas this time last year I was 196. Since my first goal (healthy by my 20th birthday) did not work out I am changing my goal to healthy by 8/6/2012. Here is my list of monthly goals:
November 1st: 201.2
December 1st: 194.4
January 1st: 187.6
February 1st: 180.8
March 1st: 174
April 1st: 167.2
May 1st: 160.4
June 1st: 153.6
July 1st: 146.8
August 1st: 140

That means that my month goals for October are:
October 10th: 206.3
October 17th: 204.6
October 24th: 202.9
October 31st: 201.2
I also would like to drop my waist measurement down to 43 and my hip measurement to 41.5.

My mom also mentioned maybe being able to get a personal trainer or something so I am hoping for that as well. I want to make a lot of changes. (I know I always say that)

I will put up a new picture every month (I will stop hiding from the camera) so that everyone can hopefully see changes every month. This picture is from me playing with the radiated tortoises at the zoo.

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HEALTHYBY20 10/2/2011 11:19PM

    I own one but don't have enough room in my dorm to do it. (My roommate literally put her bed in the middle of the room...) But I am going to try it during the 10 days I am at home.

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CICELY360 10/2/2011 11:12PM

  congrats on losing inches on your waist. have you ever tried Jillian Michaels DVDs. they got me out of a plateau.

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Clearly I didn't make my goal...

Thursday, August 18, 2011

So clearly I have not reached my goal. I am now 20 years old and about the same weight as when I started. I should be upset. I should be very mad at myself right now. But the thing is that something really important happened this summer. I was happy! I feel weigh better about myself now at about 210pounds than I did back when I was 150. The weight loss will come with time and effort. I will do this. But in the meantime I don't have to hate myself for being overweight. At the beginning of the summer I ended a very toxic "relationship" and I felt miserable for the first month or so. But I made new friends (even might have met a new boy) and had so many wonderful experiences this summer that it doesn't even matter. I mean how many people can honestly say that they worked with bobcats and hawks and other wild animals this summer and got college credit for it? This turned out to be one of the best summers of my life and I am HAPPY!

This doesn't mean that I have given up on my weight loss journey or am postponing it. Now that I am back in school I plan on giving this more attention. I don't like having to post these "I didn't do it" blogs. I will do this. I don't have my scale right now but hopefully I will have it by next week. I am going to try to lose an average of a pound a week between now and Christmas break. My mom is hoping our insurance will pay for either a personal trainer or for me to see a weight loss counselor since I have a weight related health problem. I will try to be online more than I have been and keep everyone updated.

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HEALTHYBY20 8/24/2011 12:02AM

    Thank you! I am trying to find a mentally healthy self as well as a physically healthy self.

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KSJ040 8/22/2011 12:39PM

  That's the spirit! Good for you for liking yourself as you are first and knowing that you can always improve over time. Even when we all reach our goal weights, there is always another area in each of our lives we should strive to improve. Keep focused on your goal and the results will come before you know it!

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This semester was...

Saturday, May 07, 2011

This semester was both a success and a failure. The good news is I met one of my goals. I did really well in all my classes. I ended up with a 3.75 gpa for the semester and that brought my total gpa up to a 3.58! I learned so much about the animals this semester! I had so many wonderful experiences. Unfortunately there were also problems. I had a lot of family issues this semester and between that and school I let myself get distracted from taking care of myself. Instead of losing weight I gained a lot of weight back. I have a lot of work to do. I have adjusted my goal from being in shape on my birthday to trying to lose the weight by new years. The good news is that I have a house (and a kitchen!!!) this summer so I can cook my own healthy food instead of unhealthy food at the cafeteria. I am going to be very active this summer. I'm going to be grateful for my successes this semester and forgive myself for the failures. I will do better this summer. One big goal is to start running again. Another goal is to have more arm strength. This is a necessity. Can you imagine how hard it is to hold up a hawk during a presentation to kids without arm strength? Haha. I love working with the animals so I am going to let that motivate me. I am excited about this summer and my goals and I will go back to posting weight and measurements and blogs at least once a week. I hope everyone has a great summer!

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ONEGREATCAT 5/10/2011 7:05AM

    GREAT ATTITUDE and YAY on having your own kitchen. That will help a lot!!!

Sorry I haven't been on Spark a whole lot...jut enough to spin wheel and usually put up a daily activity feed , with just a comment or two thrown in. May is going to be one of my busiest months. I really feel like I'm on a merry-go-round.

I'm trying to walk with my girlfriend early in the morning now; otherwise, the day gets too hectic and am too tired in the evening. So we walked 2 miles at 6:00 a.m. today.

Keep working towards the goals you set...they are GOOD ONES!

P.S. --- good grades too! And I had to laugh as I visualized you holding up a hawk!!!

Comment edited on: 5/10/2011 7:05:58 AM

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Off the wagon?

Sunday, April 10, 2011

So it has been a bumpy road for the past month or so. I definitely fell off the wagon. I am back up to 208. I can't believe this happened AGAIN. So here is what I am going to do about it. I'm going to FORGIVE myself. In the past at this point I would have given up. I would have said "What's the point if I gained all this weight back anyway" But I am not doing that anymore. I'm forgiving myself. I deserve to be healthier and so I am going to work toward that despite these setbacks. I am going to forgive myself. I am going to listen to my body about what it needs rather than what I think it is supposed to want. It needs a healthy diet but in my mind I crave junk food. It needs exercise but I think that I don't have time. I do have time. If I don't have time for myself then what do I have time for. I want to be my best. I can't keep telling myself that other things or people come first. I have to come first. Because if I am not healthy then I can't really help anyone else anyway. Today I weigh 208. I hope by next weekend I will be down to 206 or maybe even 205. Today is a beautiful day I am going to try to go for a walk at some point. I can do this. I WILL DO THIS!

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ONEGREATCAT 4/10/2011 10:06AM

    Good for you Tori! And that's exactly how I feel this a.m. I've been doing too much for others, so I decided today will be about me. I'm tired, but not giving up. I am just going to be me today!

Why do we always feel we have to beat ourselves up? Why do we feel we have to meet someone else's guidelines? I'm tired, but not giving up. I am just going to be me today!

I have gleaned so much from SparkPeople and I have progressed under the guidance of SP...but I'm tired. Just going to be me today!

I say go Tori...just be YOU! And yes, YOU can do this. And yes, I can do this. We just have to understand OUR own individual needs and wants. So Tori...just be YOU today!

Lots and Lots of emoticon to you!

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Making changes...

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Wow. Making changes can be hard. LIFE can be hard. Really hard. No excuse to let it scare you out of doing what you need to do though. Here's the deal. Last week I reached that breaking point. You know that moment where you look in the mirror and think "Who the hell is this girl? I don't want to be her anymore!" Over the past month I had gained so much weight back. I had ballooned up to 208 pounds. Can you believe that? After all my hard work... So I am working hard and today I am back down to 204. My new rule is I am not going to settle for less than I deserve. I am no longer setting myself up for failure. I said goodbye to some habits and some people last week. I've spent most of the past week laying in my bed listening to sad music and crying my eyes out. I haven't felt this bad in over 2 years. I feel like I have actually broken my own heart. But I keep pushing through. I know sometimes we have to say goodbye to the toxic things and people in our lives no matter how much we love them. It is the only way to have a happy and healthy future. I am not going to let other people hurt me, and most importantly I am not going to let my choices hurt me anymore either. I don't want to be like this anymore. I've lost 4 pounds in the past week. I intend to keep up this losing streak. I am going to exercise and eat healthy. I am going to do better in school. No more waiting until the last minute to do things. I am going to make a lot of positive steps. I am going to treat myself with the love and respect I deserve. If I don't love or respect myself how can I expect other people to do so?


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