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Thursday, August 05, 2010

I can't even believe I am going to say this but I DON'T HATE MY BODY ANYMORE! Yup, that is right.
I am done looking at myself in the mirror and bashing and belittling myself.

I am done creating such a negative vacuum in my mind that I will of course fail because I have convinced myself I don't deserve to succeed.

I can see my skinny self poking her head out for the first time and saying "I am waiting to be uncovered and you are doing it, keep it up" emoticon

I used to never look in the mirror, the only time I moved fast was when I was diving out of a photo. You would not believe how many pictures I have of just my butt as I was trying to escape. My whole family smiling and my butt. Nice. It got me thinking. Why did I miss out on all that time? I have almost not one picture of me and my fianc� from our first 3 years together and it makes me sad. All those good times that I don't have any memories. Because I was afraid and I told myself I couldn't do it.
What changed? My attitude. I don't believe everyone can be 100% positive and a part of this process is admitting I am frustrated and this isn't always easy but I cry and whine about it. My spark buddies pick me back up and I at the end of the day I choose not to eat to solve my problems. Now when I look in the mirror instead of seeing my big stomach that I wish go away, I see that it has shrunk significantly and I look better in my underwear. Every day that I make good choices it will continue to shrink. I used to obsess about my stretch marks but I am so over it. Who cares? Who has a perfect body, NOBODY. I was married to a fashion photographer and models never look as good as they do in pics. Not even close.
Now when I see my body I am proud. All this work I have done has changed my body so much and everyday is a new victory. The biggest change I made was mental. This will not be an easy road and I am sure I will reach frustrating plateaus but I will still make it because I choose me.

  
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MAIDAVALE13 8/17/2010 4:20PM

    Congratulations! My favorite part of getting healthy has been just that - being able to look in the mirror and love and appreciate what I see. Keep it up! :)

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PORTLAND97206 8/13/2010 4:34PM

    Sounds way to much like me, congratulations on you new confidence. You are doing great, and it is a wonderful reminder that we all have that ability. If we can just find it. emoticon

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COURAGEG 8/13/2010 2:39PM

    emoticon I hope I can get there one day!

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LADYJ6942 8/13/2010 10:12AM

    I can totally relate. For years I hated buying clothes or anything that showed my figure and now, now it needs to be form fitting and flattering. I cannot wait to try it on.

Congrats and keep you the good work!!

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FATHINSN 8/13/2010 1:05AM

    Glad to know your secret, I hope everyone can be like you, not hiding away from mirrors or reflection surfaces anymore emoticon

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JGUPTON2 8/12/2010 11:46PM

  Sounds Great! with a positive attitude you'll accomplish everything you set out to do!

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JHALBER1 8/12/2010 9:45PM

  It does help to have those close to you, support you. Sounds to me like you are doing all the right things and surrounding yourself with positive people.

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THROOPER62 8/12/2010 6:46PM

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AZURELITE 8/12/2010 5:31PM

    What a wonderful blog. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and experiences. Great job! Keep on keeping on!!!

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WEMINICH 8/12/2010 5:07PM

  Way to go!

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RUNNER4LIFE08 8/12/2010 3:37PM

    emoticon Very positive blog and I am glad I read it! You sound like you have a great head on your shoulders and will go far.... keep up the good work!

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BRINAGU3 8/12/2010 3:08PM

    Continue to focus on the positive and the whole world will look better.

You are doing great!

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CALISAC 8/12/2010 1:52PM

    I feel the same way. I have been married for 11 years and have 3 kids and I have tons of pics of the family minus me. Time for a change!!! Thanks and Good Luck emoticon

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YESWEDID 8/12/2010 12:42PM

    well done is better than well said .... benjamin franklin

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MRNOTABOUTFACE 8/12/2010 11:00AM

    Wonderful!

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DIVA14K 8/12/2010 10:00AM

    What a great attitude. I noticed I only take face shots, time for some full body shots. Thanks for reminding us all to have a great attitude. emoticon

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BLANCHETAYLOR 8/12/2010 8:35AM

    So proud of you Ashley! Some people live their whole life and never attain the wisdom that you have! I was surprised to find that I can have fun while permanently losing fat. Check out Our Lady of Perpetual Weight Loss - you can google it. I read her blogs and she is all about emphasizing how important it is to speak nicely to ourselves and tell ourselves - I'm doing it - I'm healthy and strong and not beating ourselves up if we overindulge - she says 'You're Forgiven, Move on'. emoticon

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SONEAMUDGAL 8/12/2010 3:32AM

    Correct.............If we tame mind first than handling body is easy task...

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WENDENANNIE 8/12/2010 2:38AM

    Attitude is half the battle! You go girl! emoticon

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QUEENMAEVE1285 8/11/2010 10:22PM

    Very positive. Thanks for the boost!

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DAWNFIRE72 8/11/2010 10:11PM

    emoticon for sharing this as I am sure so many of us are or have been where you are right now. I know that even though I'm at my goal I still fight the feelings of being a "fat slob" or undeserving somehow of being happy in my own skin.

You have given me a lot to think about and I thank you for that. Keep on keeping on and you will soar with your confidence.

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K82BTHIN 8/11/2010 8:53PM

    GREAT attitude!

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LAURLEW 8/11/2010 7:45PM

    Awesome attitude! Getting that down mentally is often the hardest part! emoticon

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CNIANE 8/11/2010 5:27PM

    Good blog! Keep loving yourself and the rest will fall in place.

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CLAIRESML 8/11/2010 4:46PM

    good job for you! yeah!!!! emoticon

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CALLIKIA 8/11/2010 4:01PM

    Such a beautiful blog and a wonderful outlook! Keep up the good work!!

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THENEWSHANNON 8/11/2010 2:02PM

    I love your attitude! Way to go!

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SWEETSUGAR7 8/11/2010 12:44PM

   
I hope all is well

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LFISH2489 8/11/2010 11:43AM

  Thanks for writing this. It really inspired me.

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ANIETS 8/11/2010 11:28AM

    It's so strange I just blogged about how I don't feel fat and keep forgetting that I am in fact fat!! But your post reminded me that the other side of that is that I hate taking showers og baths because I don't like drying off my body with the towel and I try to avoid all photos of more than my face... I can't say I love my body much either ... congrats on the success, very inspiring

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ANNROBERTS54 8/11/2010 9:25AM

    I love looking at my body in the mirror the last 5 years since I started my weight loss journey. But I still hate being in pictures!!

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MIRWYN 8/11/2010 9:17AM

    Woot! Way to go! You are such an inspiration!
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SDKENT79 8/11/2010 8:51AM

    Good for you! Keep up the good work!

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BILL60 8/11/2010 8:05AM

    Just great!! You've become a real motivator. You go, girl!!

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HEIDE69 8/11/2010 7:41AM

    Love the ATTITUDE!

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LUBAML 8/11/2010 7:32AM

    Great job!!! I'm happy for you! Enjoy your new mental state . You are in the right path . emoticonLuba

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SOPHIETR 8/11/2010 6:47AM

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WEMINICH 8/11/2010 5:21AM

  Nice!

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NANHBH 8/11/2010 2:00AM

    Ashley, great blog! Great personal growth. You are coming into your own, Girlfriend! Hope to meet up with you in Kansas in the spring.

Be well,
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BEARDMUSIC 8/8/2010 6:00PM

    What an awesome attitude! Keep it up!!!

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LADY_KATHY 8/7/2010 12:11PM

    Good for you.. GREAT attitude. Rock on. : ) You can do it.

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KAN2124 8/6/2010 4:37PM

    Keep up the great work!

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ALOFA0509 8/6/2010 4:26PM

   
Love,Love,Love the Attitude... You are awsum!! emoticon

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MUSICLVR2675 8/6/2010 4:25PM

    love it...just wish I could not hate my stretch marks too...work in progress still!!

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XTREMEMNCOWGIRL 8/6/2010 10:41AM

    I'm SO happy for you!! Isn't it a great place to be in!?!? CONGRATS on doing SO well! You go girl!!!

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KATHLOW 8/6/2010 5:04AM

    I'm so happy for you! Just think of all the gorgeous pictures you'll be in from now on...

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TODDJAMES 8/5/2010 10:59PM

    I am SO PROUD of you! I LOVE the cheerleaders!

Now grab your pompons and lets get going...think of the CARDIO workout we are going to have!

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ALBERTAROSE1985 8/5/2010 6:34PM

    I love this blog! You are voicing everything that I have been too scared to let myself believe. Thank you!

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The best weight loss advice I ever received

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

I was a bartender through college and I always loved it. I had a talent for mixing drinks and I liked the social part of the job. There was a manager I worked with who was tiny and in really amazing shape. One day she entered into casual conversation, "back when I was fat". I was surprised and she went on to tell me that at one point in her life she was more than 350 lbs and could only buy clothing in catalogue's and couldn't walk through a turnstile. To say I was shocked does not even adequately describe it. She said she didn't mind sharing her story with me and she had used weight watchers to do it and was a lifetime member. Of course, I asked the question everyone does. "Wasn't it hard for you? How did you do it?". I love the honesty of her answer. She looked me dead in the eye and said " Ashley at this exact moment I would love to run in the kitchen and take a flying leap head first into the bread basket but I don't. It is a choice. Everyday, every meal, I make a choice to not go back to my old way of life. " I have never forgotten her or those words. It has been ten years since i have seen her and she still works with my mom. She has maintained her lifestyle choices to this day. Those are the words I am applying to my life now. I take responsibility for what I choose to put in my mouth on a day to day basis. I can change my life and I am. I know you can do it too. The rewards are worth it and I will always be grateful to her for that.

  
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NATARSHAD 8/31/2010 1:49PM

    This hit home for me. Wow, what a reality check! I have to choose to live a healthy lifestlye. emoticon

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MESEATURTLE 8/18/2010 11:17AM

    Just to let u know....i just reread this blog!!

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SONEAMUDGAL 8/12/2010 3:37AM

    yes life we have is all about choices we make...

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NJOHNSTON64 8/10/2010 8:57AM

    Thanks for the reminder...I have to choose to be healthy everyday!
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46SHADOW 8/10/2010 7:40AM

    Cool! I'll rememember-choice. i choose what to puy in my mouth.

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SUZANNEHMNGBRD 8/9/2010 7:38PM

    Let's start to make good choices each and every day, great encouragement thanks

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LAURA9021 8/9/2010 4:07PM

  Great advice!
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TONGIRL02 8/9/2010 2:53PM

    Great Advice. I try to tell myself every day that this is a choice I have to make and my cravings are within my control.

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WOOFGANG 8/9/2010 2:19PM

    Expecting to hear some complex, mind boggling story but no, so very simplistic and so very easy to grasp. Thanks - sometimes we over analyze, over think, over excuse....this is great! Along the Nike lines of "just do it!"

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GONNAGETFIT11 8/9/2010 12:39PM

  That is awesome advice! Thanks so much for sharing what you learned! :-)

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FROMSCRATCH10 8/9/2010 12:30AM

    Thanks so much for sharing what that wise, successful woman told you! I tend to think thin people (even those that used to be overweight) just naturally don't like junk food or are never hungry. It is nice to know they have to show the same restraint I have to practice every waking minute of my life! Congrats on YOUR success too!

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VREISIG 8/8/2010 3:54PM

  Thanks for sharing, really an inspiration.

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MTKRITTER 8/8/2010 3:19PM

    That is great advice! Thanks for sharing! :)

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N-ACHIEVE 8/8/2010 3:15PM

    You're right - that IS great advice...and so very true! Thanks for sharing!!!

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ROBINANN09 8/8/2010 9:59AM

    Great Blog - Thank you.

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CESARIO1946 8/8/2010 9:37AM

  Excellent advice. I am a huge proponent of responsibility for your own actions - even when those actions may not be in your best interest, there is no forward movement without accepting responsibility. Thanks for sharing!

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KRAVMAGAGIRL 8/8/2010 9:33AM

    Great advice - thanks for sharing.

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FITNESSFOODIE 8/8/2010 8:07AM

    Excellent advice!

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CIANNER 8/7/2010 11:37PM

    I loved this post! It was just the reminder I needed!

Thanks for sharing.

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ESURVIVOR 8/7/2010 7:33PM

  Great advice! Thank you.

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SPARKARINO 8/7/2010 3:12PM

    Thanks for sharing this, it is good advice that I already know, but I need to be reminded-- 'take full responsibility for what I eat'. Sounds simple but it ain't and needs to be reinforced time and time again. And Congratulations to you on your accomplishments to date and on taking responsibility for your food choices. The more we learn about making successful healthy lives and the more we share our experiences, the more success we will all celebrate!


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EDEACONTX 8/7/2010 2:37PM

    Yes, Thanks for sharing. Inspiring!

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CSYOUNCE 8/7/2010 1:27PM

    Thanks for sharing.

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    what a great post!! thanks for sharing emoticon

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SHARONELISE 8/7/2010 10:25AM

  Wonderful words to live by.

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ESIBAN 8/7/2010 9:09AM

  So so true. Thanks for sharing this!

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DEBBIE19580 8/7/2010 8:57AM

    what a great story!!!! i will remember these words 4 ever!!!

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COCONUTPRINCESS 8/7/2010 8:56AM

    So encouraging... thanks for this!

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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT 8/7/2010 7:42AM

    Simple but so True! Thanks for sharing!!

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TPODDY 8/7/2010 7:10AM

    emoticon thanks!!

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MISSIEH1 8/7/2010 6:45AM

    So true. Definitely words to live by.

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NANT406 8/7/2010 5:03AM

    Thanks for sharing. This is exactly what I needed to hear. emoticon

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NATHALIEWEB 8/7/2010 4:21AM

    Excellent advice!

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WANNABE751 8/7/2010 3:30AM

    Excellent blog. Simple and oh so true. CHOICE? My sentiments exactly!

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BEAR_GURL 8/7/2010 1:34AM

    Simply awesome...definitely a rule to live by!



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AKASHA66 8/7/2010 1:27AM

    Simple and inspiring.

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JOLLIEBELL 8/7/2010 12:15AM

    Great post and great advice. Thank so much for sharing!

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TCICHOWSKI 8/6/2010 11:54PM

    Great advice...thanks for sharing your story!

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BEASIZEMORE 8/6/2010 11:14PM

  so are you doing weight watchers or sparkpeople I did weight watchers 35 years ago and lost 50 pounds

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ADEE1020 8/6/2010 11:06PM

    I agree. I finally made that choice after many years of struggling with weight loss. This time I will be successful. It's about changing and renewing your mind. I wish us all much success!!

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MUSIC916 8/6/2010 9:50PM

    Thanks for sharing this inspiring story. I continue to struggle each day to make those good choices as well. Thanks!!

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REDSONYA742000 8/6/2010 9:45PM

    Great advice! Thanks

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BECKA525 8/6/2010 9:34PM

    Great blog and thanks for sharing . It is so true that we must make our choice and choose wisely.

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    Great post. Thanks!

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Adventures in after weight loss shopping and closet purging

Monday, August 02, 2010

I was really happy this weekend because my fiancé took a Saturday night off for the first time in a very long time. We went to the mall to look for a few shirts for him for our vacation next week. Woohoo! I was already in a good mood because my clothes are literally huge on me and a pair of sandals I had that were too tight before fit me perfectly now and I was feeling really cute. Just for fun I decided to go try on some clothes. It feels weird to say shopping for fun because as you all know, shopping when obese is NEVER a fun experience. It is usually a combination of sweating profusely in a tight dressing room, tears over nothing looking good, and purchasing items I don't even like that much because I can't leave my house naked. I knew I was smaller but I really had no idea what size I would be. Now a secret of mine is I am really a fashionista in my heart. I am an artist and I find everything about clothes, shoes, bags and accessories fun and a great form of self expression. Unfortunately as I gained weight I was pretty resigned to the fact that even though more than half the US population is over a size 14 clothing stores refuse to make anything remotely fashionable for us. Frankly it is discrimination but don't even get me started.
Onto the good parts emoticon. I have ALWAYS wanted a pair of 7 jeans (the brand, not the size lol) and they do make them in plus size but only in the smaller sizes, so again, I was excluded. I took a deep breath and marched over to the rack and grabbed a pair. Literally I was on the verge of a panic attack I was so nervous but I am determined to do things that scare me as much as possible. I was SO afraid they wouldn't fit and it would send me in a huge slump but how would I know if I didn't try? I also grabbed a cute skirt I had seen in the catalogue. Into the dressing room I went sweating profusely, why is so damn hot in dressing rooms??? I stuck one leg into the jeans and I expected that familiar snugness that was the jeans way of mocking me. Like, nononono fatty you can't wear me, but they slid right on. I pulled them up expecting them to not fit over my hips, but they did! I buttoned them a bit snuggly around my waist but not so much I felt they were too tight and I almost danced out of the dressing room. I wanted to run back and forth across the store screaming THEY FIT, but I thought I would probably get arrested for disturbing the peace and that would not be a good thing. As soon as my fiancé saw me his eyes lit up and he said OMG you look amazing. You are buying those jeans. I felt like a million dollars. The skirt fit amazing as well and I got a pretty sparkly top because I had a coupon for a big discount. Is it ridiculous to pay a large amount of money for jeans I will only wear 2 months? Probably but money can not buy how good I felt at that moment. I have dropped 3 sizes now! I feel attractive for the first time in more than 10 years and when the sales lady saw me she said. "Well you don't have a big stomach pooch so those jeans are perfect for you" emoticon. I don't have a big stomach pooch? emoticon My first unwitting compliment from a stranger. That little bag of clothes felt like the best trophy in the world.
We never did end up finding anything for my fiancé that night but he was so happy to see me glowing like that he didn't even care. We went out for Jamaican food after and had a glass of wine. One of the best date nights we have had in recent memory and it is all because I am finally making myself a priority! It blows my mind how much easier everything is in my life when I am making my life better. The happiness I felt spilled over into Sunday and I spent the whole afternoon cleaning my house and I decided it was finally time to tackle my closet.
I never realized cleaning my closet would be such an emotionally difficult process for me. With the weight coming off so easily I decided to get rid of all winter clothing, all my jeans except 3 pairs that still fit, my winter coat, anything that was damaged and any shoes that were too loose or damaged. I also decided to try everything on and be honest with myself about how it looked. I never realized how I had held onto items I never even liked for so long. Shopping was so painful for me and I never was able to purchase items I liked or wanted. I just got whatever didn't make me look absolutely horrendous and it would take 3 or 4 shopping trips to get even 1 or 2 items. So many things had holes or stains and I kept them because I felt like I would never find anything else. Even my gray puffy winter coat, that I had refused to buy anything else because I hated how all coats made me feel fatter, looked so sad to me. I kissed it and stuffed in the donation bag. It was hard to let it go. The process of cleaning out my closet was so freeing. Everything I tried on was too big, some huge. Items I had purchased for work just in May are way too big which makes me mad because they were expensive and I have only worn them once or twice but I will take the loss if it means feeling this much better. In the end I ended up with 4 donation bags and 1 bag of trash.
I feel like a new woman. For the first time I am purchasing clothes because I like them. I am not even close to the biggest size in the store and I have options. I went to Target later in the day and grabbed a beach cover up off the rack. I didn't even try it on and their sizes I find run very small, but I was feeling bold. When I got home and tried it on it looked really cute. Sometimes I can't believe the person looking back at me is me. I know I have a long way to go but this weekend was amazing affirmation of how far I have come.

  
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TENACIOUSTIGER 8/15/2010 10:25AM

    well done on losing the pooch its a wonderful feeling

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SEESTARS 8/12/2010 4:24PM

    Seven jean are emoticon and HOT! So glad you got a pair.

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CALLIKIA 8/11/2010 4:08PM

    This is a great post! I can't wait for that feeling!

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TIGRIS32 8/10/2010 4:13PM

    Awesome post!! Just this weekend a friend dragged me shopping (ugh) and I was amazed when I didn't have to shop in the "Big Girl/Old Lady" section. I actually bought 2 pairs of slacks in a size I've not worn in 25 years! I was amazed to actually find things that I thought I actually looked good in!

Keep up the good work! It's an awesome feeling!

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DUPSTER 8/9/2010 2:44PM

  This is an awesome post. I too am shopping for new smaller clothes. I am wearing jeans again after 30 years, and like you I realize that I am a fashionista at heart, but have kept it buried all this time, because nothing looked good on my morbidly obese body. Keep up the good work, and post some pictures!!!

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HAPPYLOSERS1 8/9/2010 2:14PM

    Wow. I'm so happy for you, and boy can I relate. I can't wait to go shopping!

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BEARDMUSIC 8/8/2010 6:05PM

    That is awesome!!! I want to see a picture with the jeans and the sparkly shirt - you must look great!

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GRACEISENUF 8/7/2010 12:33PM

    I am so happy for you and I sure do enjoy reading your blogs too!

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JUSFOLK 8/7/2010 12:15AM

    I can feel your excitement...big kudos to you! I didn't have a whole lot of weight to lose, but it was still a burden I wanted to be rid of! I've gone from lots of 14s and some 12s to mostly 10s now, and I actually found a couple of capris (fit a bit snug) in a size 8! Never thought I'd get there.

Like you, I got rid of a bunch of clothes (old friends) yesterday, as I don't want to keep them "just in case"...no no no! That's wrong thinking! I also wrote about the event on my blog: http://www.slimvictory.com.


Hope you have a wonderful vacation!

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ROZZALYN 8/6/2010 8:45PM

    A very exciting excursion indeed! Very motivating.
Thanks for you exhuberant writing.

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BRIAEL 8/6/2010 6:57PM

    Thrilled for you, that feeling is unbeatable when you're able to wear clothes that you fall in love with while shopping! Hoorah for you, Ashley, keep it up! :)

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LIVNGLEGND 8/6/2010 5:45PM

    I'm still new here and this blog really woke me up a little... I had been only focusing on the health aspects of weight loss and fitness, not even giving a thought to the fun part of pretty new clothes for me!! Thank you, thank you, thank you.

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HEDGIESMOM 8/6/2010 5:43PM

  I did a closet clean out this week, too!
It was amazing! I had to try on almost every item, to convince myself that my old clothes no longer fit. With every item, I looked in the mirror and said, "It doesn't fit, give it away." I am having trouble comprehending that I've actually lost 60 lbs. in seven months. I'm just so grateful that I'm eating and living healthy today. I can't wait to shop and fill up my empty closets with new beautiful clothes for my new beautiful body.

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SUPERGIRL1000 8/6/2010 4:55PM

    emoticon , girl!!! wooohhooo!!

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KAN2124 8/6/2010 4:35PM

    What a great experience! Thanks for sharing!

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SERENE.ONE 8/6/2010 3:24PM

  Wow...who would not want to go through this experience! Amazing..you write well too. emoticon

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SOXLEY1 8/6/2010 3:16PM

    What a great experience! I know what you mean about going through your closet. I have bought clothes only because they fit--they were hideous!! But I needed something. How great to finally move into the sizes where you can have more choices! It only gets better from here!

AND! Think of how happy you've made whomever stumbles across your donated clothes at the thrift store! Plus sized clothes are so rare at thrift stores. You've made some lucky woman's day!

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CRE8TED4PRAIZ 8/6/2010 3:16PM

    Thanks for sharing. New to Spark, not to losing weight. This made ME feel good! And yes, although I'm not in "normal" sizes. Not having to buy the largest in a store was a great feeling!!!

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CRE8TED4PRAIZ 8/6/2010 3:15PM

    Thanks for sharing. New to Spark, not to losing weight. This made ME feel good! And yes, although I'm not in "normal" sizes. Not having to buy the largest in a store was a great feeling!!!

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JEREMY723 8/6/2010 1:42PM

    My wife and I are on this journey together, I can't wait until she feels that way!

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LUBAML 8/6/2010 7:14AM

    Great Job!!! Enjoy every moment, more will come! I'm happy for you! emoticonLuba

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LIZZIEX999 8/6/2010 4:19AM

    another great story. your blog is awesome!

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GRAHAMSTANDAL 8/6/2010 1:18AM

    I love shopping!!! I'm glad you were able to do this!!

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CATHRINE2010 8/5/2010 9:23PM

    Wow I know how you feel!!! It was Awesome!!!! I went to the outlets thinking I would wear 10 possibly an 8 if I squeezed and left with size 6 and they fit!! I think I am still in awe. You so hit it on the mark. Mentally we still think we are fat, but all the hard work is paying off in ways we never dreamed. And a ton of inches!! SP saved my life and I am so glad it saved yours too!!! emoticon

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STARGLADE 8/5/2010 8:44PM

    HOORAY for you!!!!

I completely relate to everything you're saying here. I'm finally at the goal I set for myself initially, and am thinking of going just a little farther. However, I am already wearing SIZE 8! My dress pants are 8's, my shorts are 8's (one pair is even a 6!), my dresses are Mediums. The only time I still need a 12 is if I get a shirt that's woven and buttons in front--these 38D's do NOT fit in a size 8 shirt unless it's stretchy! emoticon

Hooray also for your closet-cleaning! I hope that if you dropped things off at the local Goodwill, you got a receipt--a garbage bag of clothes can easily net you a hundred dollars or more in possible tax deductions! That can be a life-saver come next April, believe you me.

EXCELLENT work, you!

Karen

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MAIA2011 8/5/2010 8:27PM

    I cannot wait to write this blog for myself! I always cry. I am so happy for you!

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LITTLEONEJLC 8/5/2010 8:19PM

    Great post! I can totally relate to the obese shopping experience where you buy something only because it fits, not because you like it. I can't wait to go shopping when it's fun again and I can pick from a variety of cute things! Thanks for the inspiration!

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MONARCHCT 8/5/2010 8:12PM

    I am going through the same thing...can't believe I'm wearing 3-4 sizes smaller! It feels great to shop, but a little frustrating to get rid of clothes that are now too big. There is also a nagging fear in the back of my mind that I might "grow" into them again! Yikes!

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N-ACHIEVE 8/5/2010 8:10PM

    Wow! What an awesome/inspirational/motivational post. You should be so amazingly proud of yourself for all that you've accomplished. And, congrats on the rad jeans. We all know how great a good-fitting pair of jeans can make a woman feel. Enjoy your upcoming vacation!!!

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JODIANN421 8/5/2010 8:06PM

    Awesome post! I am so happy for you!!

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JANNENEMARIE 8/5/2010 6:36PM

  Reading your post, I almost cried because I was so happy for you. Congrats. emoticon

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BAREADER 8/5/2010 5:50PM

    That is so wonderful for you! Congratulations! I really do know exactly how you feel, I'll never forget the day I bought some inexpensive tanks at Wal Mart, didn't try them on because even though I knew I had lost weight, I couldn't believe I didn't need an extra large anymore. I had to go back and buy MEDIUM!!!!

Now I probably spend more than I should on clothes because, well, it's just so darn much fun clothes shopping now! I can go in a store and buy a size 8 pants and medium top and know it will fit! (I was a 14).

Keep up the good work, it's true what they say, nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. But truly, I think you have to be "not skinny" for a while to really appreciate that. So lucky us, we know how good we feel!

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SLS-NY2IN 8/5/2010 5:13PM

    I am so happy for you!!!!!!!! I can just see you dancing through the mall and you deserve it!!! emoticon emoticon

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DARKKAT 8/5/2010 4:26PM

    I could feel your excitement and sense of accomplishment in every word. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SUNFISHDEB 8/5/2010 3:50PM

    Ashley, I can so Identify with you as I have felt exactly the same as you did about clothing. Let me preface this first by saying that since Oct 2009, I have lost 60 pounds and have no desire for "7" or "Lucky" jeans. When I first started losing, I had plenty of sizes of outgrown clothes to get into. As I was getting smaller and into my winter wardrobe(of smaller sizes) the winter was about over and I never got to make use of those but who cares now. When I did go shopping, I knew not what size to buy so I tried a 14... Too big. a 12 was it. I remember when I was a 12 for the first time in my life how unhappy I was to be a 12 and didn't like the way I looked in that size. This time around, I'm thrilled. Everything seems to fit and look great. I am still 20 pounds from goal and hope to go to a size 10. I am 51. Size 10 is ok with me. I have no need to be a size 2. Good luck with your healthy journey emoticon Deb

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JWADDELL2 8/5/2010 3:50PM

    I have gone through the same feelings - and my closet - within the last few weeks! I felt the same way...happy, angry, frustrated...amazing what we go through. I have taken everything that is too big out of our house - I am ready for a lifestyle change, not just a weight loss!!! Good for you!!

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ANJALI2010 8/5/2010 3:37PM

  I absolutely agree with your feelings about clothes. I'm just not there yet as far as weight loss to be able to toss the larger sizes. It was inspiring to read about your journey.

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LCMK99 8/5/2010 3:09PM

    amazing isn't it how a simple thing like clothes fitting makes you feel like a million bucks!!! emoticon

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SUNNYSOCALGIRL 8/5/2010 2:28PM

    That's awesome! Congratulations!

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RANNA57 8/5/2010 2:14PM

    I can see you glowing from here, congrats! emoticon

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BLYNN710 8/5/2010 1:18PM

    Congratulations! Thank you for sharing and keep up the awesome work!!

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RUSNELL4 8/5/2010 12:50PM

    Oh I am so happy for you!! Way to go!!!

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LADY_KATHY 8/5/2010 12:17PM

    So very happy for you. Have a wonderful vacation together with your better half.. and hope to hear wedding plans soon. : ) You deserve to be happy no matter what.

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LISALIBRARIAN 8/5/2010 11:39AM

    Congrats to YOU!!! I hear you! I have lost 60 pounds (on my way to 100) and nothing fits. I have gotten rid of most everything in my closet I have taken 10 bags to Goodwill. Because I WILL NEVER BE THIS BIG AGAIN!!

Enjoy your vacation!!

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MOXIE22 8/5/2010 11:32AM

    How wonderful to be able to feel "good" about shopping! I think along with the obvious health benefits, being able to shop without feeling bad has to be the most exhilarating feeling. I'm so happy for you.
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Fat is the last acceptable prejudice

Friday, July 30, 2010

Fat is the last acceptable prejudice. In our completely PC world people are quick to condemn the use of a racial slur, save the whales, greenify the planet (even when most people have no clue what that even means). So why is it that some of these same people are quick to attack a person for being overweight and see nothing wrong with it? You all know what I am talking about. Who hasn’t had some kind of conflict with a stranger and the first thing they say to you is an attack on your weight. I had a guy cut me of in traffic not long ago and he took the time to call me a fat b—ch out his window while narrowly avoiding my car.

In the grand scheme of life being fat is not the worst thing a human being could be. The sad fact is people can hide other flaws pretty easily. We don’t know the families across the street are victims of domestic violence or that your friend is an alcoholic. Fat is worn like a scarlet letter. The irony is many of use fat to hide, to make us invisible to the world. Many comment on SP that people don’t look them in the eye. I’m sorry to say that fat does not hide us but in fact makes us stand out like a sore thumb. Maybe they don’t look me in the eye but many of them will crack a joke when I walk away. I can’t even tell you how many times someone has looked at me and made some kind of fat joke about someone else and then froze. Like, uh oh, wait she is fat. Shoot now they are on to us.

What do I think it all boils down too? Fear, plain and simple. In their eyes fat makes us different, makes us stand out as flawed for the entire world to see. We can’t brush our teeth and hide the smell or wear a long shirt to cover the bruises. Spanx has become one the best selling products of all time and why is that? It hides fat. My fat does not define me. It is a part of me but it is NOT who I am. For so long I kept my fat like a protective blanket that it is almost scary to let it go. Who will I be now?

I will be more athletic, more able to engage the world around me.
I will no longer be on the sidelines but right in the middle ready to experience everything.
I will be free to travel as much as I want without fear of being hauled off a plane the object of public humiliation.
I will be able to salsa dance all night and not be a big sweaty mess.
I will be able to be a better friend and wife because I am no longer preoccupied with hiding my binges.
I will be able to hike Mt Washington again with my fiancé and some day our children.
I will be able to go white water rafting and kayaking without fear I am too big for the boat.
I could go on and on but tell me. Who will you be?

  
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BAHAMIANJENNI 8/12/2010 11:47AM

    Great blog, thank you for the challenge, you are an inspiring Sparker.

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JUDE322 8/8/2010 5:16PM

  i will be able to fit in any bus, train, airplane, theater seat or any chair with arms. my sister has always said, "the world thinks alcoholism, drug addiction are diseases. being fat is a character flaw."

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MESEATURTLE 8/6/2010 10:01AM

    Awesome blog!!!!

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WATCHMELOSE100 8/6/2010 12:18AM

    I will see the world because I'll want to be outside.
I'll ride my bike because my butt will fit on the seat.
I will go to the beach because I will not be mistaken as a whale.
I will jog because I won't have to worry about people laughing at the way my butt falls on that second step.
I will go to great night spots and dance with my husband because I will now be able to wear that little black dress.
I will order healthy because I'm now strong enough to make that choice.
I will be the me, I've always wanted to be.

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BRONXGIRLP 8/5/2010 8:52PM

  Rehab is so trendy except when the drug of choice is food--is there anyone who has ever really gotten over being the fat kid

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TIFFYBABY26 8/5/2010 4:25PM

    I love your blog!! I needed to read that!

I will love myself!! because right now I don't but I am working on it!

I will be more active!! salsa dancing sounds fun!!

I will be more outgoing!!!!

I really want to be a better girlfriend , all my boyfriend hears me say is how I hate my body and I wish things were different and that I was beautiful and thin, then I eat a double cheese burger!! no more of that!!

I will be responsible!!!!



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LBEEKMA 8/5/2010 10:39AM

    I love this blog. It takes me back to when I got really upset when my mom would say that a dress was "slimming" on me or I'd visit relatives and the first thing they would comment on is if I looked like I had gained weight or not. I have associated my weight with being a good or bad, worthy or unworthy member of society for so long. I have avoided situations so that I didn't have to face these feelings. When I see random people in public that are overweight, I want to hug them and tell them that they are good people.

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JENNCS2288 8/5/2010 2:52AM

    Very well said. I completely agree with you.

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FITANDFIFTY2 8/5/2010 12:46AM

    Awesome blog, I so agree!! Hope you have a wonderful day!

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JUBEESH 8/5/2010 12:06AM

    awesome blog!

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LADY_KATHY 8/4/2010 7:34PM

    What an amazing positive attitude. You truly are a motivating sparker!! WHOPO HOOOO

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SBAIG1109 8/4/2010 4:08PM

    You are amazing. Really everything you say is so true. Thanks for this.

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CHAOTIC.CATCH22 8/4/2010 3:19PM

    I agree that there's a lot of predjudice against those who are overweight, and I realize that that is the point of this post. But it's hardly the last acceptable predjudice. Many many people will be prejudiced against you for many many reasons: your race, religion, gender, sexuality, nationality, occupation, location, hair colour, income ... need I go on?

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OHBEJOYOUS 8/4/2010 1:51PM

    What word can we use instead, and how can we speak up for "US"?
My kids gave me a Birthday card once... It said,
EWE's not fat. EWE's just FLUFFY!
Being accepted and loved AS WE ARE is the BEST!
As Leviticus 3:16 says,
"All the fat is the Lord's!"
I'm giving it back!
OHBEJOYOUS


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FOUNDREALLOVE7 8/4/2010 12:09PM

    Awesome blog!!!

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BOOTYLISCIOUS3 8/4/2010 7:23AM

    so true...we live in a very superficial world unfortunately!

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LIZZYMITCH 8/4/2010 12:53AM

    i know it's crazy, but i almost think it's ingrained in us to dislike fat. human beings are animals, and it's not natural for animals to be fat. it's not how we're supposed to look. unfortunately modern life comes with a whole host of issues nature never intended people to experience, and a lot of us handle these emotions by eating. it's like...those people who say those things haven't caught up with the reality of the world we live in, or something. i think the best we can do while we're on our journies is to understand that there is nothing inherently wrong with us, and appreciate the fact that we are dealing with our health and with our emotions. plenty of people out there cope by drinking or gambling or being abusive and nothing is done about it. in a twisted way, because our issues have such an obvious manifestation, we're forced to deal with them more than others. thanks for sharing =)

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SARAHCAT24 8/3/2010 11:39PM

    You have articulated something I have said for years - and you said it so eloquently. Well done.

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KLS777 8/3/2010 11:19PM

    Great blog and sadly it is so true! emoticon

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EGRAMMY 8/3/2010 11:12PM

    Fat Talk is a HUGE maybe insurmountable prejudice? Rah for Delta Delta Delta sorority who is have another Fat Talk Free week and stressing "Friends Don't Let Friends Fat Talk" They are trying to get 10000 on their Facebook blog wanting Facebook to stop hateful fat talk.......Copy and paste and go to this site....http://www.facebook.com/Fat
TalkFree?v=wall

Hate speech is not free speech. It is costly to both parties. Fat Talk is hate speech.

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WONDERWOMAN510 8/3/2010 10:44PM

    Loved this!!! Very True emoticon

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K10BETH 8/3/2010 9:37PM

    Oh--so true!

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SUGARSMOM2 8/3/2010 9:35PM

  different opinions of life . enjoyed your view of life . strange what is consisidered right or wrong .

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SHERRY257 8/3/2010 9:32PM

    Well said! Fantastic blog! I am doing what I want to! This summer I have gone horseback riding,hiked canoed,swam--yes in a swim suit! I think when you start to free yourself from the stereotype, you start to change,too! emoticon

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DARKFLAME2009 8/3/2010 8:47PM

    funny, I'm on the other end of the stick...I am thinner than most in my family and get made fun of for watching what I eat, or exercising....

Since they don't understand how important healthy living is, I'm the black sheep....I get comments like "if you turn sideways we can't see you", or "if you get any thinner you'll blow away in the wind"...when I'm NOT that thin....I actually am on the higher end of the BMI scale....

I think comments about anyones appearance can be hurtful....

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HEALTHYONE2008 8/3/2010 8:47PM

    Well said!
When will people look at us for what we are beneath our covering?

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CEMCC51 8/3/2010 7:38PM

  This is a subject close to my heart and was expressed well. Good luck.
Carol

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CYNCUDDY 8/3/2010 7:27PM

    YES, you hit the nail right on the head....we make people nervous, maybe that "that could be me if I didn't smoke or over-exercise or stick my finger down my throat", more stereotypes, this time of thin people.
One of the ladies I work with has a cute figure and wears her clothes well. I've thought I would love to look as good as she does. One night, after working with a co-worker quite a bit heavier than me, I heard her "going off" about how disgusting fat people are, blah, blah blah, very ugly stuff....I confronted her on it...she really didn't get how prejudiced she sounded and frankly didn't care. I've never had anything to do with her since then. But I refuse to be a heavy person that joins the ranks by belittling myself about my weight. I'm working on my health and that's what really matters now.

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CHAKRATEEZE 8/3/2010 7:25PM

    I haven't "heard" those comments in years. Or, at least, I try not to. But every once in a while, some stupid butt comment will tick me off so bad!!! But, I don't let it bother me. Can't let it. This fight is between me and my fat and I'm going to be the winner this time. And if I have to ignore their rude stares when I strut out of the locker room in my swimsuit or just smile when someone tells me how "great" I did in Zumba, so be it.

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TWYLA053 8/3/2010 6:29PM

    Very well stated and very unfortunately true. I am one of the heaviest people at work. But I use less sick time than anyone with the exception of the one person who is larger than I am. BUT I promise that if outsiders were to guess - they would assume we would be the worst ones. We definitely are stereotyped.

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LAFEMMEDELALUNE 8/3/2010 5:55PM

    I fight for large folks' rights wherever I go, and I certainly openly criticize those who are unkind.

To me, the saddest form of this is people hating *themselves* for being large. It just breaks my heart.


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JULESCP 8/3/2010 4:52PM

    Thank you for your words.

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ALICIAYOUNG1127 8/3/2010 4:38PM

    Thank you for sharing! it brought a tear to my eye, cant we all just love ourselves and each other? we have all suffered enough. Keep up the good work!

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ALICIAYOUNG1127 8/3/2010 4:38PM

    Thank you for sharing! it brought a tear to my eye, cant we all just love ourselves and each other? we have all suffered enough. Keep up the good work!

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MICHELLENRGZED 8/3/2010 4:07PM

    Thank-you for this! & way to go on what you've written at the end, about your goals. So cool to see! :)

Unfortunately, what you've written here is so true. I've heard it said elsewhere, & I know it definitely bears repeating. I've only been faced with this outright prejudice toward my size from strangers once in my life, thankfully, & it really bothered me. However, I decided to just consider the source - teenage guys who were acting like jerks as a whole, from what I could see - & move on with it. I know that this isn't always possible.

People are always afraid of what they don't understand, & most who haven't struggled with their weight don't understand why people who're larger can't be smaller. It's not a simple thing, my friend (as I know you know).

Yes, it's important to not be racist & to work hard at keeping our planet healthy. Other things are important to do as well, but people also need to realise that there are real people here who happen to be larger, for whatever reason. Our feelings get hurt & we cry about it. Most people don't even give a second thought to what they say towards &/or about larger people, & that's probably one of THE most awful things about all this, their own ignorance at what they've done.

Thanks again for this! It's well worth the award. :)

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JUNEAU2010 8/3/2010 3:14PM

    What a well-said blog. It sure awakened some memories for me and reaffirmed my own thoughts.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 8/3/2010 2:59PM

    The Mr and I have had this exact same conversation many times about fat discrimination being like a scarlet letter and people are able to hide other addictions behind closed doors. That nice old man that held the door open for you could be a sexual predator. The nice lady you share an elevator with at work; a heroine junkie. The funny guy at work with the picture of he and his wife on their wedding day on his desk, a sex addict. Fat is out there and in society's face and when you have rising health care costs and stupid people saying fat people cause global warming (seriously!) then people feel they have even more reason to call you out on what you chose to do to yourself. If people put HALF as much effort into smiling at their neighbor, letting someone into traffic and holding the door open for someone as they do verbally attacking people, this world would be an amazing place.

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DWYER1952 8/3/2010 2:49PM

  emoticon this is so true

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TRACSGOAL 8/3/2010 1:31PM

    very true and very well written thank you

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TINIERTINA 8/3/2010 1:29PM

    People fear what they can't understand.

You would think the "Obesity Crisis" (which may not actually be such a crisis) would make people more compassionate.

Instead, in the schools overweight children are even MORE bullied, and adults of normal weight are made to feel less than ....

It is GREAT news that a misogynistic and fat-phobic company such as American Apparel has fallen on hard times!

It is WONDERFUL that Urban Outfitters is getting it with both barrels for their "edgy" (?!) T-Shirt design "Eat Less" that comes in XS and S (size Ms are sparse) only (and only for women.. again, misogynistic) ... and had to pull it out of their stores!

Size 00s are dominating the market IN YOUR DREAMS. That is why it is a FANTASY. People are not talking in metaphors anymore, and that is the scariest part, though.

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MSA2127 8/3/2010 1:25PM

    So true, I've heard remarks too, snickers and jeers, and it hurts. Why are people so cruel?

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TINIERTINA 8/3/2010 1:24PM

    People fear what they can't understand.

You would think the "Obesity Crisis" (which may not actually be such a crisis) would make people more compassionate.

Instead, in the schools overweight children are even MORE bullied, and adults of normal weight are made to feel less than ....

It is GREAT news that a misogynistic and fat-phobic company such as American Apparel has fallen on hard times!

It is WONDERFUL that Urban Outfitters is getting it with both barrels for their "edgy" (?!) T-Shirt design "Eat Less" that comes in XS and S (size Ms are sparse) only (and only for women.. again, misogynistic) ... and had to pull it out of their stores!

Size 00s are dominating the market IN YOUR DREAMS. That is why it is a FANTASY. People are not talking in metaphors anymore, and that is the scariest part, though.

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LUCKY8GAL 8/3/2010 1:21PM

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LADYTSUNADE 8/3/2010 1:18PM

    This is a great blog! You made some valid points and I like the concept of FAT not defining you(me)..I think too often that is what it becomes something to define this person's entire personality. It's always negative lazy or smelly (I know for me personally I am overly concerned about not smelling bad ever I travel with deodorant & perfume) ...or incompetent .That one makes no sense to me how do you measure someones ability to do a specific task based soley on how much body fat they have ??That is one correlation I do not understand..but it seems to happen when heavier people I have encountered at my job seem to be constantly passed promotion while their thinner counterparts seem to win out. (Now I don't mean this is always the case but what I mean in this particular situation it is believed to be the case unfortunately).


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RUDYSMOM5979 8/3/2010 1:08PM

  I've had people at work make comments about heavy patients and I always take it personally. Thanks for the great blog.

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ATZIONCH 8/3/2010 12:32PM

    You are so on target. A friends mom was watching something on TV with her granddaughter. When a slightly heavy women walked out she told her granddaughter that she was a "little piggy". I was horrified! I later asked my friend about this skewed perception and he agreed that many people think women should "take care of themselves", while it is acceptable for men to become "heavy". This honestly rocked my world, I did not realize how deep this prejudice runs. emoticon

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KAREN8WORCESTER 8/3/2010 12:03PM

  Enjoyed your writings very much. Your ending with the references to travel, dancing, kayaking - all so true. Maybe thinking of who we want to be rather than who we are is what will keep us going until we get there. Thank-you. emoticon emoticon

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GAILSQUEST 8/3/2010 11:50AM

    I was a victim of abuse as a teen in my home.
I`ve found that upon losing weight ,it brought back a lot of fears from that abuse.
Strange is`nt it?
If only the family member that abused me knew how deep the scars are.


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DAWNFRNJ 8/3/2010 11:40AM

    I also felt like my fat was some weird safety blanket. In this case I was raped when I was a teen. My thought process was that if I was not attractive then no one would assault me again. However I'm risking my health and my self-esteem has taken a major beating over the years. Thanks for writing out many of the feelings I have been feeling.

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LIFEISSWEET2 8/3/2010 11:09AM

    Unfortunately, very true.

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My spark girls have got my back

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Last night I posted a very emo blog, yup I used a word I am way to old to use, and I was pretty down in the dumps. I am still shocked by the support I got on here. There were the usual suspects who support me on a daily basis and whom I couldn't do this without. You know who you are and I love you. What surprised me more was the love I received from people I had only spoken to 1 or 2 times. It meant a lot to have people share their stories and their pain so openly with me. It meant me more than any of you probably realize and I will be there for you when you need support as well. I never thought I would care about people I hardly know so much! I wish I could make friendships this open and honest in person. Why is we can all be so awesome to each other on here but have a hard time finding girlfriends who support us all the time in the real world?
Ladies, you are all rockstars and if you need me. I am just an email away to return the favor. emoticon emoticon

  
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PIINKCUPCAKE 8/3/2010 2:57PM

    So funny reading this.... Just yesterday I told my 15 year old daughter that I liked my Spark Friends better than my "real" friends...lol! Although I have only been on the site since the 12th of July I have made so many great connections...Isnt it great to be surrounded by people who know what u are going thru and can love and support u w kind words? I LOVE SPARKPEOPLE!!!
Good Luck to u Doll!!

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PELESJEWEL 7/30/2010 8:20PM

    I love it because this is who I am and I am ACCEPTED here unconditionally, and it feels great! This acceptance is key to help me shift my thoughts about myself, my body, my life into the POSITIVE! Connecting with others that are kind enough to extend a hand saying, "come along, I did it, you can too". I think we are awesome to each other because here we are able to give and receive LOVE in the most supportive way and that feels AWESOME! Thanks for being my Sparkfriend!
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KATHLOW 7/30/2010 5:21AM

    it's so great to post something, just to get your thoughts together, and have amazing support right at your fingertips! I am blessed with really great friends in real life, but I feel like such a loser talking to them about weight loss again, since they've seen me try and fail so many times before...and (almost) none of em have this problem!

Good that you're feeling better!

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SWEETPEA0214 7/29/2010 9:41PM

    Love right back at ya girl. I know - virtual friends can be the best friends because we don't have to live up to anyone's expectations. We are here to give support, encouragement and sometimes tough love. But we are all on the same journey here. Here you can just be yourself all of the time. I love it.

Remember - you are awesome!!!!!

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MNGIRLIE 7/29/2010 8:46PM

    That was great to see! I'm always amazed at the support on SP.

I'm really glad you're having a better day. You referencing it as an emo blog really made me laugh.

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MUSTANGMISSY 7/29/2010 8:28PM

    Be strong, I know you have it in you. Glad to hear that you're feeling better.

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MADEMCHE 7/29/2010 8:28PM

    Love you girl! You rock!

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