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Thursday, April 28, 2011

Today I took 2 steps in starting my business. First I sent in the mini-application for getting into a program that helps people start culinary businesses. Second I published my new healthy eating website. Check it out!
simplytastefuleats.blogspot.com/2011
/04/today-is-first-day.html

  
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POLLKAT 5/6/2011 3:02PM

    I am so happy for you. I want to have my own business in the worst way. I hope to have it someday. The best to you. I wish you much happiness & success!!

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ERIN4771 5/2/2011 8:39PM

    you totally got this my friend!!! emoticon emoticon

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DBFBILLY 5/1/2011 8:53AM

    Look at you..WAY TO GO!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SEESTARS 4/30/2011 7:05PM

    way cool!

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HEALTHYONE2008 4/30/2011 4:59PM

    Great going Ashley!

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WORKINGSTIFF 4/29/2011 11:10PM

    Hurray for you!

You are so right-life is too short not to be lived as best as possible.

I'm sure your business will be great.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/29/2011 4:23PM

    Way to go! I know you can do this.

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WILLIAMV3 4/29/2011 2:24PM

    I am so proud of you. You can totally do this!

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ZANNACHAN 4/29/2011 12:02PM

    Awesome!

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TRENTDREAMER 4/29/2011 7:24AM

    Checked it out. Absolute best of fortune to you on the new business. Congrats on your progress.

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POLSKARENIA 4/29/2011 6:34AM

    Brilliant - I'll check it out!!

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KATHLOW 4/29/2011 3:53AM

    good luck!

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OVERHAULING-ME 4/29/2011 12:56AM

    Very exciting. Best wishes and.... emoticon

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COLD_GOLD 4/28/2011 10:43PM

    good job!

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LKEITHO 4/28/2011 10:34PM

    Congrats on getting started!

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LOVEOFENOCH 4/28/2011 7:31PM

    So fantastic and so brave. Nothing but the greatest of luck in your ventures.

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LUCKYDOGFARM 4/28/2011 7:10PM

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Congratulations Ashley!!

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HANNAH_CALM 4/28/2011 6:58PM

    Oh, wow, how exciting!

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TKADEEPBREATH 4/28/2011 6:00PM

    Wow! !! Good for you dear .. . . go for it!!!

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GRACEISENUF 4/28/2011 5:37PM

    Great new site Ashley...I hope every dream you have will be fulfilled as you step out in faith.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 4/28/2011 5:31PM

    What an exciting adventure you are on. Enjoy every moment.

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ROCKMAN6797 4/28/2011 4:54PM

    Congratulations Ashley!

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ALOFA0509 4/28/2011 4:48PM

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Yippeee!!!! Your on your way girl... soo awesome emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 4/28/2011 4:27PM

    Excellent, one foot in front of the other! emoticon

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REMEMBER2BME 4/28/2011 4:20PM

    Outstanding!!!

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COOKWITHME65 4/28/2011 3:50PM

    That's awesome Ashley! I'm going to check it out right know!

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KAMAPERRY 4/28/2011 3:49PM

    Exciting!! Love your website!

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RONALANA 4/28/2011 3:47PM

    That's great! Good luck on your new venture! I checked out your website - and will go back to see what you have added from time to time!

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ELENA_DIEM 4/28/2011 3:46PM

    woohoo congratulations!

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ECONLADY 4/28/2011 3:42PM

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IMIN2GENES 4/28/2011 3:42PM

    Congratulations! I'm going to go check out your website now!
Chris

Love the opening words on your healthy eating site. They are inspiring! With your enthusiasm, I can't imagine you won't succeed.

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TSKAGGS96 4/28/2011 3:41PM

    Thats great! Hope everything goes well for you! emoticon

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IBSHAUN 4/28/2011 3:41PM

    Way to go Ashley! On my way there now.....

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Horrible tragic day

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

This evening my boss was taking her dogs home and one darted away from her. He was struck and killed while she watched and the person did not even stop. They hit him and kept driving. She game stumpling back in holding him and I drove her to the hospital. These dogs are their children and one of them is gone. I feel numb. Witnessing such tragedy and pain. Her husband took her home and I could see on his face the same numbness. They do not have human children, these dogs are their children. My heart breaks for them. I feel tremendous guilt for feeling such anger towards her over stupid things when I saw her as a real person today. Stupid things are not important or worth dwelling on like personality conflicts.
When I got home my mother called and told me they reduced her hours at work. Told her she makes too much money and said a bunch of horrible things to her. Told her she doesn't matter and her boss lied about her performance. They told her without saying so many words that they want her to quit. She is beyond upset and hurt. I don't know how to help her. This was a very very bad day for some of the central people in my life and it made me see once again that life is too short. It is too short to spend it sad, miserable, angry and fat. Follow your dreams and make yourself happy because you never know how long you have. Please pray for my bosses, they are good people and are religious. I don't care what religion you are or even if you are not these are people in pain and they need it. Thanks.

  
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LESLIES537 5/11/2011 11:54AM

    emoticon Yes, life IS too short. Just hate how life has to remind us of this sometimes, you know? Sorry I'm a little late on this but I will start praying!

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 5/3/2011 7:52AM

    I'm terribly sorry for the terrible day you have witnessed. You have my sincerest sympathies, and I will keep these important people in my thoughts.


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DBFBILLY 5/1/2011 8:52AM

    I'm praying right now... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FABANDFITAT40 4/29/2011 7:33AM

    Sending prayers

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UHYEAHABOUTTHAT 4/28/2011 11:24PM

    emoticon for you and emoticon for your mom and emoticon for your bosses... I'm so sorry...
You're all in my prayers.

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TKADEEPBREATH 4/28/2011 5:59PM

    Your boss is blessed to have someone that cares so much . .. good for you girl.


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JATHUENER 4/28/2011 3:39PM

    well for your friends i do understand the pain the are having for right now my husband and i are grieving over the loss of our dog (daughter) from loss due to we think a heart attach 2 days ago. We also have no 2 legged children and each of us are trying to keep things going ourselves so just be there for them is the best advice i can think of at the moment.
It is bad that in today's world that the hours are constantly being drained away at workdue to one thing or another. Sorry no solutions for your mother's problem it is bad to get getting several jobs just to have one full time job between all of them.
It seems you work 3 to 4 times longer now adays with less pay just to slide by.



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TISHA80 4/28/2011 3:13PM

    I teared up just thinking about someone running over my "baby". I don't know what I would do. I haven't been blessed with children, and my dog really is like my child. I don't understand how people can be so cruel. Even if you don't like animals, how can you just run over someone's pet and not even stop? I try to watch closely for animals, but if I did run over one, I'd immediately stop and offer to take them to the vet. I'd probably be so upset that I wouldn't be able to see to drive, though.

I'm sorry that those close to you had such a bad day. I've said prayers and you will all continue to be in my thoughts. emoticon

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CRESHA20 4/28/2011 1:45PM

    Prayers all around.

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PHEFEY 4/28/2011 1:27PM

    they are in my prayers emoticon

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PEWTERBUNNY 4/28/2011 1:24PM

    How awful. I had a childhood pet dog that died the exact same way.

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AMAS92568 4/28/2011 12:24PM

    I'm so sorry.

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How awful for your boss! Pets are family; it's hard enough to lose them when they get old and sick; I can't imagine witnessing something like that.

I'm so sorry to hear about the situation your mom is in, too. That's just ugly and stressful and horrible as well.

Prayers for them both.

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WILLIAMV3 4/28/2011 10:24AM

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REBECCAMA 4/28/2011 10:04AM

  Sorry for your losses Ashley.

My father is losing his job at the end of June. He's known this for a while. It is really hard to see it coming and be powerless to help.

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RUNWITHMICHELE 4/28/2011 9:54AM

    Wow, that is devastating. I don't understand how the driver could have just drove off. That is illegal to do.

I cannot believe how heartless people can be. My thoughts are with you and your mom, and your boss and their loss.

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SEARCHING4ME11 4/28/2011 9:19AM

    Praying for your bosses and your mother. I love how you are staying positive and focused in these difficult times!

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ANGELOO29 4/28/2011 8:20AM

    Positive thoughts going out to your bosses during this and to your mom.

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TRANSFORMWE 4/28/2011 7:59AM

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It's hard when people we are close to are experiencing such pain. Bless you for caring so much.

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CARLA0716 4/28/2011 6:44AM

    I would feel the same as your bossess are feeling right now - my dog(s) are my 'children'. When we get them, we know that we will outlive them, yet we give them all of our love for the time that we have them. My thoughts are with your bosses.

I hope your mother's job does work itself out, and that she doesn't stress herself out of her job. My thoughts are with her as well.

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COOKWITHME65 4/28/2011 6:05AM

    So sad. I had a difficult time trying to finish reading this through my tears. Prayers being sent.

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CHICAT63 4/28/2011 5:27AM

    Very sad and sorry to hear for your boss's dog it is tragic indeed. Also in regards to your Mom, sending positives thoughts and strength to continue through this ordeal.

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HOPE2011 4/28/2011 5:22AM

    How awful! I cannot imagine how I would feel if that had happened to one of my dogs. I also feel for your mother; what a nasty thing to have her employers do to her. It is hard to deal with that: knowing you are not wanted, but not really being able to quit.

I will keep your bosses and your mother in my prayers.

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KATHLOW 4/28/2011 3:09AM

    Oh, losing a pet is horrible. I'm so sorryfor them. And for your mom too.

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IBSHAUN 4/28/2011 1:04AM

    Wow Ashley, that's really devastating for your boss! I will keep her and her husband in my prayers this week. Inside, we are all human with feelings and emotions. Again, she's lucky to have someone like you to work for her. So sad for your mom, too. Keeping her in my prayers this weekend, as well. Hugs to you all.

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KAMAPERRY 4/28/2011 12:46AM

    Hugs to all of you, wow.

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RAVENSONG37 4/28/2011 12:20AM

    Wow. Hugs woman. For you and those around you who are hurting. Take really good care of you. Let go of the guilt because that's just being mean to you. Let love and empathy flow through you. Dang. So sad.

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MADEMCHE 4/28/2011 12:13AM

    I am so sorry for your bosses loss. That is just horrible. And I understand your mom's pain, going through something similar right now. They are all in my thoughts, and hugs to you love.

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BOBF15 4/27/2011 11:57PM

    Tragedy has a way of refocusing us and bringing life into true perspective.

One statement you made really resonated, life is too short to be angry, upset and "fat" somehow that does not seem to match ... but oh, yes it does. Fat is a state of mind, and I don't want to be in that state of mind.

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ANNETTEBROWN1 4/27/2011 11:19PM

    (hugs)

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LADYANDREA2012 4/27/2011 10:52PM

    Oh Ashley, you did have a terrible day! How sad about your boss dog, that is horrible. I hope they feel better soon. Very sorry about your mom. I can understand what she is been though cause I had a lot of trouble at work and finally they won; I quit. I hope she will be stronger than I and stay strong!

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LKEITHO 4/27/2011 10:34PM

    So sorry to hear about your boss' dog, and your mother's misfortune. I hope life returns to something more normal for you soon.

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LORETTA24 4/27/2011 10:34PM

    emoticon emoticon Prayers going up for all of you!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 4/27/2011 10:24PM

    What a sad day Ashley. I will keep you all in my prayers.

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CRE8URHAPPY 4/27/2011 10:00PM

    All are in my thoughts and prayers.

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PRIMAVERA_81 4/27/2011 9:38PM

    They will be in my thoughts, and as for you, you are a very uplifting person, positive and compassionate, I hope that your mom stays strong. It is so sad how people treat each other. Thats why my dog is my best friend. I am so sorry to hear that your bosses lost their baby, I wouldnt know what to do if something ever happened to my Bella Picollini. She is my life. I will pray for you, your bosses, and your moms strength!!!!

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RICKEY45 4/27/2011 9:14PM

    I will pray for your bosses (and your mom).
I can only imagine that their hearts are just broken.
Thank you for being a supportive friend/employee (and daughter),
and for reminding us that this life is fleeting and that we should go for it! ...we need to appreciate today and everybody that we love today, even if it's a little dog.
I still miss my little dog, Misty.
We will be praying for y'all.

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WMMCCRORY 4/27/2011 8:43PM

    I can relate to your bosses, my DH and I do not have children but we have three dogs and I know eventually they will go on but I hope it is of old age because I cannot imagine losing one of them right now. Your bosses are in my thoughts as well as your mom and you. I totally agree that life is too short. Keep your head up and go strong!

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IMIN2GENES 4/27/2011 8:39PM

    What a terrible tragedy! I'll keep them in my prayers as well as you and your mom. Nobody deserves to be treated like that!
Chris

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NEENSTER1 4/27/2011 8:24PM

    emoticon for your boss and her family also for your mom and the people she is working for. It hurts me to my heart about how people could be so inconsiderate towards people. God will repay sayeth the Lord. Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord!
emoticon You are right Life is too Short. We should enjoy every second. Be Encouraged. emoticon

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CANNIE50 4/27/2011 8:03PM

    I am so sorry to read about all this tragedy and difficulty. They are fortunate to have people as compassionate as you in their lives.

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THINBUCKEYE 4/27/2011 8:02PM

    What a terrible tragedy. They are in my prayers.

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BIGMAMAT 4/27/2011 7:41PM

    so sorry to hear your story honey. I will be praying for them. emoticon

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ROCKMAN6797 4/27/2011 7:38PM

    Such tragic events, I will keep both in my thoughts.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/27/2011 7:37PM

    Thank you everyone!

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RIGBY31 4/27/2011 7:28PM

    A very heartbreaking day. I'm so sorry for all of this happening. My prayers are with them, and you too Ashley.
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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/27/2011 7:27PM

    I'm sorry to hear about the horible day you had. My thoughts are with you, your mom and your bosses.

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SEESTARS 4/27/2011 7:23PM

    So sorry to hear such sad news for your bosses and your mom. Keep being that amazing person we see you being her in spark-land and support them in this hard time. My heart is with you.

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Making positives from negative experiences

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Today was my first willful binge since I started SP. I went out, hunted down, acquired and devoured my prey. I thought about it a lot and I could have stopped it. I didn't and I willfully chose not too. This is a big step. Now sure, some can read this in judgement and if you choose to that is your path but I would appreciate if you take your judgement elsewhere. I find people who judge generally have a lot to hide and can't face their own issues so they project them on others and feel better by belittling and feeling superior. I don't have time for it and I don't respect it. That being said I also am not looking for you to tell me it is ok and tomorrow is another day filled with a bunch of hug emoticons. It is not ok in any way, shape or form.

What I did learn today was that I will always be addicted to food. It isn't going to magically go away because I want it to and my trigger is being unhappy. My big aha moment. This is my pattern. Get happy in a new relationship, job, house etc and lose weight, then when the going gets tough, the job starts to be stressful, the relationship has problems etc I start to gain weight back. I gained the last 40 lbs at a job I hated so much that I literally used to fantasize about falling down and hurting myself so I could take time off. When I left that job I lost 35 lbs with little effort. The pattern stops here and now.
From this minute forward I am no longer allowing the excuses and lies creep back into my life and I am going to keep going down the healthy path.

Yes, that 1 piece of cake will hurt me.
Yes, I do need to pack my lunch even if it is more work.
No, skipping the gym just this once isn't acceptable.
No, calories on the weekends aren't free.
No, I don't enjoy running at this weight, it is painful, and it is ok to admit that and find other forms of cardio until it is less physically stressing on my joints.
Yes, it is ok to come on SP and talk about this instead of hiding because I don't want to make other people listen to my negativity. Negativity is a normal and healthy part of this process.
Yes, I do enjoy eating clean and have better self esteem when I stick to it.

Before SP I would have sat and cried feeling hopeless for days. I would have beaten myself up and told myself I would never be thin. Now, it is different. I know I can do this and I know I have solutions. There is a way out of the misery. I can do this. I have already lost more weight than some people could even imagine. How could anyone, including myself, see that as failure? It isn't possible.

  
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TISHA80 4/28/2011 3:03PM

    Thanks again for being so honest!

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CHICKENCHASER78 4/28/2011 12:06PM

    I love the honestly in your blog. We live and learn and hope to progress from it, its the best thing anyone can do in a situation. emoticon

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TRIP2HAPPINESS 4/28/2011 11:58AM

    Sounds like you gave yourself the talk you needed. We know what we need to do in order to lose weight and change our lifestyles and when we make poor choices we have to ACKNOWLEDGE them and learn from them. Great blog Ash, honesty with ourselves and others is really important in this journey and that is something you always portray! :)

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SUMMERGIRLTASHA 4/28/2011 12:48AM

    Love your honesty and impressed with your taking responsibility for your behavior. It is a strange thing... there are always people around that will help you make excuses and when you take responsibility it makes them feel uncomfortable. Bravo for standing strong. You are rare. and you inspire me by your weight loss. And you are beautiful and smart. You Go Girl!
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NEENSTER1 4/27/2011 8:37PM

    Amen for saying it is not ok!! You worked too hard to go backwards. emoticon

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JENSUMILLER 4/27/2011 6:59PM

    I love this post! It felt just like me saying all of this. No amount of hugs or love are going to stop the fact that I have a huge problem with food. Telling me I am ok for skipping workouts or eating all that food isn't going to help me get to my goals. It is wonderful to have the support and motivation offered here, but only I can do this for me! Thanks for showing me I am not alone in this lonely world of addictions.

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F1AMEDIVA 4/27/2011 6:56PM

    Exactly.Humans make mistakes. You have to live and learn and know yourself. As you learn your triggers and typical responses you can work on changing your responses. Also understanding you are human and forgiving yourself for mistakes.

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WILLIAMV3 4/27/2011 3:57PM

    Go girl! Learn and move on is all we can do.

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POLSKARENIA 4/27/2011 3:48PM

    Great blog! Super upturn of attitude! Woo hoo you!!!

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PHEFEY 4/27/2011 11:21AM

    awesome attitude
that's the attitude that loses weight

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NUTS4NUTELLA 4/27/2011 11:02AM

    The attitude change from post SP to now is the most important thing. Great job on that girl!

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OJIBWEEQUAY 4/27/2011 10:13AM

    I hear you, in my case ham emoticon emoticon

we got this!!!

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RUNWITHMICHELE 4/27/2011 9:00AM

    People make mistakes, it happens.

You HAVE lost so much weight and should be proud of it.

The only thing you can do is learn from your mistakes and keep going.

So go go go!

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JBMT08 4/27/2011 8:19AM

    As always, truthful and to the point. Love that you share your thoughts about this process!

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RONOSOF 4/27/2011 8:13AM

    Here for you... emoticon emoticon Mary

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KRISKECK 4/27/2011 8:06AM

    What a great takeaway and how great that you are able to look at yourself so honestly and use it to make positive changes. Way to go, chica!

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COOKWITHME65 4/27/2011 7:51AM

    Just love your blogs Ashley. So honest!

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LUVDOGZ 4/27/2011 6:30AM

    It sounds like you really learned something about yourself! Way to go! Food is my comfort, and being unhappy is my trigger as well. You have helped me with this blog. I can't wait to be happy to lose weight, or expect I will be happy when I DO lose weight, it is a vicious circle, and I expect why I haven't been successful. This blog has been very timely, thank you!

Michelle


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KATHLOW 4/27/2011 3:50AM

    I needed to hear this, and your way of telling it like it is makes me sit up and notice. Thanks for that!

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KAMAPERRY 4/27/2011 1:07AM

    Thank you, I binged over Easter, and have been having trouble since. But this is only temporary, and I will get on with it.

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IBSHAUN 4/27/2011 12:45AM

    Okay, no hug emoticons but I'm not sure if there is a kick in the pants emoticon. Just kidding. You are right though. If we keep forgiving the slips over and over and over again, we really are slipping back into bad habits. I had that this weekend and it was quite frightening how quickly 4 days snowballed into one blur and I hid from my accountability. Keep sharing with us, lay it all out and work through it. You can and will do it.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/26/2011 11:46PM

    I agree with you about being able to come to SP and just lay it all out. Glad that you also found your big aha moment! That is such a wonderful feeling!

Hope you have a wonderful night.

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LEAHLEGS 4/26/2011 11:18PM

    It's funny that you mentioned "the hunt". That's such a huge part of our connection with food, that 30 or so minutes between the decision to overeat, and the act of going out and doing it. At least with me, the binges are always planned and plotted, never spur of the moment. I'm addicted to food too.

Good luck with all you do, and I hope things start looking up :)

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CANNIE50 4/26/2011 9:25PM

    Okay, I am standing back, with my huggy arms planted firmly behind my back. I JUST today blogged about my Easter binge. You should read it - you may or may not relate. I could relate to so much of what you said and I LOVED the way you described the hunting of the prey. In my case, the caveman I live with drug the big-arse thing home and well, you know the rest. I have had two binges in 6 weeks - I could see my binges as failures and predictors of more failure but I see them as amazing progress - only two in six weeks instead of 42 in six weeks! We strive for progress, not perfection - some very smart people taught me that a very long time ago and it remains true. Goodbye for now. I have to end this because my emoticon finger is getting real itchy.

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MRS.CARLY 4/26/2011 9:19PM

    Tell it like it is girlie!

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MAMADWARF 4/26/2011 8:53PM

    was it at least GOOD CAKE? I mean, at least if it tasted good, I can understand. I hate when I do that over something that wasnt even good! Good for you for changing patterns...

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ECONLADY 4/26/2011 8:45PM

    You said beautifully how I am feeling.

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MARTELLA3 4/26/2011 8:13PM

    Success is getting up, brushing yourself off and moving forward from where you are.
Sounds like you are a success to me!

Marty

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BETHV10 4/26/2011 8:06PM

    I had a binge over Easter for no apparent reason that I could think of except that I wanted more of the goodies that I had available than I should have. I am back on my healthy plan but I know that one bad day doesn't define me.
I am not giving up. It is merely a bump in the road of life.

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BETHV10 4/26/2011 8:06PM

    I had a binge over Easter for no apparent reason that I could think of except that I wanted more of the goodies that I had available than I should have. I am back on my healthy plan but I know that one bad day doesn't define me.
I am not giving up. It is merely a bump in the road of life.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 4/26/2011 7:56PM

    You are totally in my head right now. Check out my food log from yesterday. I got in the car, went directly to the pizza place and bought it. Completely pre-meditated. It sucks today because I'm miserable. I did it and now I have to work my ass off to undo it. Life goes on and so do my choices. Moving on...

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THISYEARSMODEL 4/26/2011 7:54PM

    Congrats on your awareness, and for knowing what you need to do! That's a victory in itself. emoticon

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RIGBY31 4/26/2011 7:41PM

    Nothing worse than having an Aha! moment stuffed and bloated. Been there (less than 72 hours ago). You're a smart cookie (oops!), get back in the groove because any other lifestyle will kill us. (no hugs for you!)

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REBEKAHJOHNSON 4/26/2011 7:26PM

    Psh, I like emoticons! emoticon

You're human; I'm glad you finally got over that and you're ready to press on. Welcome to my world.

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woot woot!

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ROCKMAN6797 4/26/2011 7:24PM

    It is not a race but a way of life filled with peaks and valleys. Good for you for recognizing this fact.

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IMIN2GENES 4/26/2011 7:23PM

    I really do love your blogs. Thank you for being so open and honest!

Growing, learning, venting. It's all part of the process. Good for you! It sounds like you're figuring it out.
Chris

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RUNNER12COM 4/26/2011 7:12PM

    You've identified trouble points, accepted your weaknesses, and planned out a way to maximize your strengths.

Pfft, what's to judge? Good on ya!

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SEESTARS 4/26/2011 7:05PM

    Thanks for sharing this.

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CHRISTINA791 4/26/2011 6:59PM

    I think you've done a great job here. You're using the experience to learn more about why it happened rather than beating yourself up or pretending it didn't happen. I know you don't want meaningless hug icons, but I think it takes a lot of strength and personal accountability to use something like this. Sometimes, I think the best thing we can do is study ourselves from the outside to figure out what makes us tick. Looking at both the bad and the good objectively is the best way to do that. Human beings are always a work in progress.

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MIZCATHI 4/26/2011 6:58PM

    I like your honest blogs. No, it's not ok, but you accept that you are human, and that is ok. No, it's not ok to purposely seek out a binge, but beating yourself up over it and abusing yourself is not productive. There is a balance, and there is no sense talking about a problem if you don't have a solution. You're consciously figuring that out, and that is a level of maturity that will find you the balance you seek.

"Forgiving" yourself is walking a fine line. There IS always "tomorrow", or the next meal, but that can become it's own trap. Working out your negative feelings equips you with a healthy emotional tool box. Good for you!



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Interesting workout myth article

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

It is funny, my mom who is a trainer told me to stop doing cardio first and strength train then do cardio. I always had done it that way and when I started at my new gym I switched to cardio first because it is so busy and so hard to get a machine at all. When I think about it I was seeing better results from ST first.
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LHIEBEL 4/29/2011 6:57PM

  Perfect timing--I have been sick and missed two days at the gym--I was wanting to get my ST done first in case I ran out of juice during cardio--this just reinforced what I need to do...THANKS!

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TISHA80 4/28/2011 3:00PM

    Thanks for the info! I didn't know this. :)

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GRACEFULIFE 4/28/2011 1:18PM

    Cardio is a good general warmup, but should be SHORT (I do 3 minutes at increasing pace on the treadmill usually, or 2 minutes on the XC ski machine), then one should move into a dynamic / semi-specific warmup, and do specific warmups for major lifts.

I always do resistance training THEN cardio. It turns out there's an article on Spark recommending the reverse... but I think they are wrong. Doing cardio before RT will hurt your ability to do the RT intensely, which is the whole point. And every fitness pro I've ever seen has said cardio after RT. Also, the program I'm doing (NROL4W) has you do more cardio-ish stuff after the RT and it's working great for me. In fact when I started to increase the intensity of my final interval I noticed an almost immediate and fairly apparent increase in cardiovascular capacity.

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KATHLOW 4/27/2011 3:49AM

    they always tell people to do this at my gym - guess i'm gonna have to start listening :-)

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LKEITHO 4/26/2011 10:12PM

    Thanks for the info!

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KTTAYLOR21 4/26/2011 7:32PM

    Thank you sssoo much for sharing this. I went to the gym after reading this and did what the article suggested. emoticon

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ECONLADY 4/26/2011 6:54PM

    Thanks for the info. I always warm up, but I will get distracted and just do the whole cardio first.

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TERRYT55 4/26/2011 6:10PM

    Great article........I'm going to switch things around and do ST first.

Thanks for sharing!

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HANNAH_CALM 4/26/2011 4:37PM

    I read about this in a magazine. This is a very good article. You're lucky you have your mom helping you out! I mostly just do cardio. Sometimes I do push-ups. I'm thinking of starting to do drop sets with free weights. That's when you use a heavy weight, the heaviest you can lift, then switch to the next lower one. It's really supposed to fatigue your muscles.

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CANNIE50 4/26/2011 3:58PM

    Great article, and great timing. I am just finishing up a few things before leaving for the gym and I will definitely not over-do my cardio warm up (just a few minutes to warm up my muscles) before hitting the weights. I am so glad you took the time to share this. Thank you. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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OVERHAULING-ME 4/26/2011 2:46PM

    I've heard that before but that article really brought it home! WOW! Since I'm just starting out I've only been doing cardio and thought I'd add ST later. I need to rethink that. I will be cleaning out a corner in my garage, find my old weights and bench and get some going.

Thanks for sharing! Have a great day!

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ZANNACHAN 4/26/2011 2:28PM

    Interesting. We were just talking about this on one of the message boards. I had a trainer tell me once that I should do strength training first because moving your muscles helps the body get rid of the lactic acid that builds up during strength training (which causes that muscle burn feeling). So you'll be less sore if you do the cardio second. Though a proper cool down is still essential.

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SLFRISBEY 4/26/2011 1:41PM

    Looks like it's time to switch things up! Thanks for posting!

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ROCKMAN6797 4/26/2011 1:32PM

    Wow, great article....makes absolute sense.
Thank you for sharing Ashley.

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/26/2011 1:19PM

    Interesting, thanks for sharing!

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KAMAPERRY 4/26/2011 11:14AM

    Interesting, emoticon

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RUNNERGIRL60 4/26/2011 10:45AM

    I think I will try this. Im not finding my balance at all. Hopefully this helps! Thanks!!!! Have a great day!!!!

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STORMYVAWN 4/26/2011 9:54AM

    Thanks for sharing. I am going to switch things up. I am excited.
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IBSHAUN 4/26/2011 9:53AM

    I've always wondered if the order did make a difference. Thanks for sharing.

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AEBROWNSON 4/26/2011 9:32AM

    Interesting! Guess I'll give it a shot, since what I'm doing doesn't seem to be producing results. (But that could be due to the peanut butter eggs, too.)

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LUCKYDOGFARM 4/26/2011 9:05AM

    Thanks Ashley! good info.

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APMAC_D 4/26/2011 8:47AM

    Thank you for posting- this is great information :) Always learning.

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BAYBELIEVER 4/26/2011 8:41AM

    Saw this article today too! Great read! I do my exercise separately right now, but may have to think about that!

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DEB181 4/26/2011 8:41AM

    I have been told this too by my trainer.

But she also said to try .. 1 day cardio, next day ST
back to back .. then a day off for rest.

by the way... I HATE cardio

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EMMANYC 4/26/2011 8:04AM

    Interesting - that's the way I was working out this spring until my surgery - because I was trying to prioritize strength training. So I would do about a 10-minute warm-up, then 20-30 minutes of strength training, and then 20 minutes more of cardio. I find that if I do all my cardio training first, I'm more likely to skip the strength training altogether.

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IMIN2GENES 4/26/2011 8:03AM

    Thanks for sharing! It's definitely worth trying for me.
Chris

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OJIBWEEQUAY 4/26/2011 8:02AM

    Yepper!!!!! My Husband taught me this when we first started dating!! Now I warm up he suggests 15 minutes then hit weights!!! He has a rockin' bod so I follow his lead! HA!!! Good job ob seeing positive results! emoticon

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NEENSTER1 4/26/2011 7:56AM

    emoticon for sharing. Very good info to know. Sounds logical. Have a emoticon day.

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ANGELOO29 4/26/2011 7:47AM

    Thank you for the information. I'll have to give it a shot and see what the results are for me.

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SLEEPTALKS 4/26/2011 7:41AM

  Thank you for sharing this! That's really good to know!

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ANOTHERMOMOF2 4/26/2011 7:38AM

    Thanks for the link. I usually do weights first just so I'm not so sweaty using the machines.

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Feeling like myself again

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

There are times when you need a kick in the butt. Seriously. You need someone or something or the universe to step forward and say "stop whining and making excuses and get in line lady". Well that came this weekend to me in many shapes in forms. I had good moments of dancing and feeling thin and happy and I had introspective moments of witnessing others struggle with their weight and remembering that feeling. In particular it was an episode of heavy that really hit home. It was about a man and a woman, he over 500 lbs, she over 400 lbs and dealing with their emotional eating issues. She also had a son who at 8 was already obese. I cried through the whole show and then I got up and went to the gym. It made me face down why I am doing this. Why I choose to eat healthy. There is a big difference between doing this because you "have to" versus because you "want to". The want too's will be successful. Life is a choice and we are not victim's of anyone and anything other than ourselves and our excuses. Yes, I am tired. Yes, I am overworked but that doesn't mean I can go back to my old ways. Stuffing candy in my face and justifying it by saying "oh it is ok, it is a one time thing" is total BS. Emotional eaters all know that it is never a one time thing and if we continue to make those excuses and seek solace in food, well it is just a matter of time before the weight comes back on. Today I woke up and felt, like me. Finally. This past month I felt like Alice falling down the rabbit hole clawing at the walls but I kept falling. Today, I caught a hold of the side and started pulling myself back out. I don't care how hard this gets I am not going to let myself go back. Not one bite of anything is worth giving up my freedom and my self esteem. Nothing.

  
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MELLYBEANS0919 4/26/2011 10:43PM

    Great blog again. As an emotional eater, that is a kick in the pants.

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DANCINGBRAVE 4/26/2011 5:53PM

    The last full sentence of your blog said it all. Freedom to be your best self.
And free to be proud of yourself.

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CHATTIEGIRL 4/25/2011 3:04PM

    Hi Ashley;

You are a strong lady and you will never give up. Keep that drive in you and you will reach your goal and be a healthy strong young lady. Stay focused in your healthy life style and let nothing get in the way. God bless you always. Learn from Spark people each day.

Joyce

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SLUDERCATS 4/25/2011 12:26PM

    Congratulations on finally pulling yourself out of the hole. THat takes determination and hard work. You can do this!!

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YANKEECHICK50 4/24/2011 4:46PM

    Good for you!! This is so perfect for me today. I've been feeling sorry for myself today. I've gained back 13 pounds of the 25 I lost last year - I have absolutely no one to blame but me, I know this. I stopped doing the things that worked: eating healthy, smaller portions and working out almost every day. Thanks for the "kick in the butt" I needed! You are an encouragement emoticon

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CUOGHI 4/22/2011 1:35PM

    Go you! I had half a pizza yesterday, and as soon as the first bite was in, I felt bad, and disgusted in myself. When hunger takes over, you can shut the "good voice" up, and make excuses that you believe.
Today I gave myself a kick in the butt too, so bring on the abs of steel!

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INSTICKS 4/21/2011 10:24PM

    I especially like the title of your blog. It's a good reminder that I will only feel like the real me when I drop some of my extra lbs.

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TERRYT55 4/21/2011 9:12PM

    I saw that episode too.....I really enjoy the show!

Good for you for clawing your way out of the hole. Keep moving forward! No excuses!
You are an inspiration!

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 4/21/2011 8:37PM

    Keep clawing Alice, you're on your way back UP! NOTHING is worth going back to where we were--NOTHING!

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1TRULYBLESSED 4/21/2011 4:27PM

    Amen, Sistah!! Welcome home!!
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MUSIKGIRL 4/21/2011 2:21PM

  Great motivation... emoticon

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WEDDLEACE 4/21/2011 1:28PM

    "it is never a one time thing and if we continue to make those excuses and seek solace in food, well it is just a matter of time before the weight comes back on."

So very true! Thank you so much for posting! I've been going through a rough patch, myself. It's nice to know that others struggle too, but we are capable of pulling ourselves out of the rabbit hole! Thanks for your inspiration.

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EMPTRS 4/21/2011 1:15PM

    SOOO proud of you!!!

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MACEWOMAN 4/21/2011 12:05PM

    Good for you! emoticon emoticon

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CNIANE 4/21/2011 11:33AM

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Way to go Ashley! Keep up the great work. You can do it!

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NANHBH 4/21/2011 9:44AM

    Yeah, Ashley, you continue to jump over hurdles! Keep on keeping on! You are such an inspiration to us.
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LAURIE-RN 4/21/2011 9:25AM

    I agree 100%!

Laurie

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 4/21/2011 9:06AM

    I completely agree! I have been watching "The Biggest Loser" religiously with my husband this season and I have also seen "Heavy." Both of these shows have inspired me more than I ever thought they would. Every person on the shows have the same issues I have and they talk about it a lot. It has helped me and especially my husband see why I got so obese and what to do to change that. The main difference now is that my husband is now on board with being more healthy and I love it. I really needed his support before and didn't have it so now it makes a HUGE difference in letting me take care of myself and be the slim healthy person I know I deserve to be. Thanks for the advice!

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DASHINGJIMMY 4/21/2011 8:32AM

    "Stuffing candy in my face and justifying it by saying "oh it is ok, it is a one time thing" is total BS."

This really hits home. Hopefully I'll remember this line next time I feel a binge approaching.

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ASHOAF1 4/21/2011 8:31AM

  Thanks for sharing! What a great reminder.

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GRACEISENUF 4/21/2011 1:31AM

    emoticon I hear ya NOTHING.

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HOLLIHOCK6 4/20/2011 4:07PM

    Yeah, you're SO right. Thanks for a swift kick in the butt. emoticon

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SEESTARS 4/20/2011 11:54AM

    Way to go!!! Love this blog. One of my biggest fears is when I have kids I will not be able to teach them how to eat well to be healthy. I still have bad habbits that pop up ("just this one time"). I don't want my future kids to have to struggle to learn later in life. Let me be the one to struggle to set the best example possible... or at least struggle until it becomes a life long habit.

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LESLIES537 4/20/2011 11:06AM

    Yeah baby!!!! emoticon emoticon

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KATYMACK 4/20/2011 10:25AM

    This is an amazing blog. Thank you for sharing.

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NUTS4NUTELLA 4/20/2011 10:00AM

    I LOVE your attitude! Keep it up lady. You are AWESOME!!!
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HEIDIC75 4/20/2011 9:32AM

    thank you!!!!!

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HAPPYCUPCAKE 4/20/2011 9:29AM

    I don't know if you're talking about the show "Heavy" on A&E, but that show is really inspiring and shows how courageous people can be and that change IS possible. Sometimes we just have to man up and put our big girl panties on and hold OURSELVES responsible! I had that epiphany this week (it's in my latest blog), that I have just been looking at everyone else's spark pages and messaging people for tips and help when all of that is actually inside of me. I need to ignite the spark in MYSELF, and not depend on others for my success. In the end who is there? YOU! Yes, spark friends lend wonderful support and help, but when it's all said and done, you have yourself. Spark on, my friend!!!

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MARATHONBOUND 4/20/2011 9:21AM

    You are amazing and this is an amazing post!! That is all. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TISHA80 4/20/2011 1:20AM

    emoticon blog! The last couple of lines reminds me of a saying that I frequently tell myself. Nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels. :)

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KERSTIN814 4/19/2011 8:26PM

    Yeah for you Alice. I like this side of you a lot better!

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ECONLADY 4/19/2011 6:24PM

    I do understand about the emotional eating. Definitely me! Good Post!

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ERIKA05 4/19/2011 5:57PM

    I really like what you said about emotional eaters knowing that it's never a 1-time thing. I tell myself this lie all the time, and I need to start calling myself out on it.

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HOPE2011 4/19/2011 4:37PM

    Thank you. emoticon

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PARISBABY 4/19/2011 2:36PM

    Excellent post. Thanks for writing this and letting us all see into your heart.

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ROCKMAN6797 4/19/2011 2:32PM

    Go get 'em!

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KAMAPERRY 4/19/2011 2:02PM

    Needed to see this today, thank you

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POLSKARENIA 4/19/2011 2:01PM

    Good for you - keep on 'wanting' - you are not only wanting, but'doing'
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CANNIE50 4/19/2011 1:43PM

    Thank you for your comment on my Sparkpage. I have news for you though - you said you WANT to be a writer but I say you ARE a writer. You may not get paid for it (yet) but you clearly have a way with words. I enjoy writing as well, and find blogging to be a big part of my SP experience. Check it out sometime (though I know you are a very busy girl) - I would love to get your perspective. I am enjoying your blogs and look forward to reading more from you. emoticon

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DUSTYGIRL25 4/19/2011 1:31PM

    Way to Go, Ashley! emoticon emoticon

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ZANNACHAN 4/19/2011 1:31PM

    Powerful blog.

You are right, there is a difference between doing something that you "have to" do versus something that you "want" to do--that's one of the reasons that I do the workouts that I do. Even though I know that I would burn more calories if I stuck to things like the treadmill and elliptical, they get really boring very quickly, so I mix it up--I play on the Wii/Wii Fit, I bike, I play tennis, I fence, I swim, I go for walks, I roller blade, I go sledding, etc. Maybe it's not as consistent or intense a work out, but it's *fun.* And if it's fun, I'm more likely to do it, especially if I can con friends or family members into joining so I get family or friend time as well as work out time *grin*

But it's hard to keep wanting it. It's hard. It eats up a LOT of my time--I spend about 8 hours a week working out/being active--that's an entire work day (or I did, before I got sick this winter, and I hope to again as I build back up to it). And that doesn't count the time taken out of my day to meal plan, cook, eat, and track my food (thankfully, my husband cooks so that's less on me). That time all has to come from somewhere and it's all well and good to say that I want to be healthy but I also want to graduate, I want to occasionally see my friends, I want to see my family sometimes. And I want me time, down time for me to recharge my batteries or I become overly tired and stressed. And where I struggle is when these needs conflict.

That's part of why I spend as much time as I do on sparks, even though time is something I have precious little of. It helps me stay focused, stay motivated. Otherwise, the vague "want to be healthy sometime" tends to lose ground against the others.

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HAPPYSOUL91 4/19/2011 1:24PM

    Excellent and a wake up call

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RUNNERGIRL60 4/19/2011 12:58PM

    Ashley, your way with words is so wonderful I think and feel things but just can't get the words out.. I so much look forward to yours and a couple others blots daily. I have learned so much with spark and all the great people here. Your journey has had its.ups and down which makes it life and you handle it with grace. Thank you for sharing this with all of us. emoticon emoticon

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WILLIAMV3 4/19/2011 12:21PM

    A swift kick once in a while does a body good. hehe

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POOKAQUEEN 4/19/2011 12:15PM

    So beautifully written. I recently had that kick in the butt too, but it really meant a lot to me to see it in words and so beautifully described. I'm so glad you're doing better, you can do it!

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CRAZYDOGLADYBO 4/19/2011 12:10PM

    So glad you found your way back! Keep up the good work!

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KACYBEE15 4/19/2011 12:03PM

    I saw that episode of Heavy, too, and I was SOOOO proud of both people on that episode. At the end when that lady's son starts crying at her "reveal" was just too much for me. I just bawled. I've struggled with my weight most of my life, but so have my parents. It's so hard on children of obese parents - not because they're ashamed or embarrassed of them, but because they can tell that their parents are unhealthy and unhappy. I've watched my parents struggle with doing simple physical tasks and with self esteem issues and as a child I felt completely helpless. Now, as an adult, I still feel helpless, but I know that I can help myself. I want to get healthy and stay healthy because that truly is better for my future children. I don't want them to worry that I'm going to have a heart attack or that I will have a stroke because I have obstructive sleep apnea. I want them to know that their mom has good self esteem and lots of confidence.

It sounds like you're doing this for all the right reasons - and that's why you'll be successful! Thanks so much for the post!! It was a great one!

Have a great day!!
~ Kayli

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KARENZIO 4/19/2011 12:02PM

    Good for you!

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SKYEPHOENIX 4/19/2011 11:47AM

    Thanks for this. Timely reminder that all of us go through times that are more difficult--good to see that you're moving forward. :)

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DMGABBETT 4/19/2011 11:18AM

    Go Ashley!


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