Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Onto the happy blog! First I want to say to all of the people who read and commented on my halfway blog. THANK YOU, seriously, THANK YOU. I can't say that enough. You all said the most kind, touching things to me and brought me to tears so many times. I can not express how much your support means to me. How big of a part of my journey it is for me. No matter how bad I feel. No matter who blows me off in my real life. You guys are here for me. I would not have gotten here without you. Sparkpeople is the one factor that is different in all my other weight loss attempts and I truly believe it is the big push to make me successful.
Last night I called my mom to tell her about my blog and we talked about the rest of the weight I want to lose. The plan, how I feel about how much I have lost, etc. I am 1 pound from losing more weight than she did 8 years ago and she is so proud of me. She asked me what my goal number was and it is 2 pounds less than she weighs now and she is 3 inches shorter. She weight trains a lot and weighs 175 pounds. Coincidentally a spark friend brought up the same topic with me. That maybe my goal weight is too low for my frame. I picked 173 because that is the high end of my healthy weight range but I am starting to think that is unrealistic. I had my frame size evaluated and I am large framed based on my bone structure. The closer that I am getting to goal the more I am realizing that this is less about a final number and more about a feeling.
I want to be in good shape and have great muscle tone.
I want to be able to run a 10K.
I want to be able to fit easily into none plus size clothes.
I think I will know it when I get there.
I have decided to raise my minimum weight limit. Yes, it will still be clinically overweight but I have accepted that for me I just don't fit into the medical communities one size fits all guidelines. This journey is so very personal and I can't let someone else decide for me based on a chart what is healthy and what makes me happy.
Don't me wrong. This isn't about staying overweight and making excuses. It is about being healthy for the sake of being healthy and not just fighting myself to reach a specific number. I don't want to lose 160 pounds and feel like I failed because I didn't hit 173. I think that is when people are in danger of quitting and regaining. So, I am changing my ticker tonight and let's see where this goes.