Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Well just found out a good friends hubby has passed away after a lengthy battle with brain cancer. He ewas around my age not sure exactly. Sad for her, but am sure she is glad he isnt' suffering as he has been palliative for nearly a year. Sigh... puts my rant from this morning in perspective in more ways that one.
And weird things that my body does! Went to massage this afternoon. As I mentioned he is stretching my myofascial sections in legs, back and hips rather than massage, last week I was pain free for 5 hrs after. So got on the table on my back a bit easier than last week. We are chatting nad he picks up my R leg, and is pulling it a bit very very gently and I say oh that hurts my back waist area right around left and r. Okay and he adjusts a bit then he does other leg etc. Then after a bit more stuff, I said weird my insides of my L leg feel as if they are twitching. okay that is the nerves. so that went on and I said I am feelign strange, oh how so.. not sure but I feel as if I am shaking. So he slowly goes baack to put my leg down and I start to shake. Shaking out of control my legs, my arms even my chest and then my lower back wont contract to lay on the table. I am layign there saying this feel weird... I am not doing this. He said nope that is all involuntary WOW. Probably continues for about 5-8 mins as he then put his hands under my back and rubs where it is so sore and tight. whew.. what a way to get a few extra mins on the table! LOL I also showed him my arm which has been so itchy and now has scabs and a spot that is raw. He said it could be that brachia.... but he wonders after the shaking incident ( cos he said no way that me touchign a certain nerve would have had all of you shake) if my arm and the shaking is an auto immune issue as I am so sore and inflammed. I wondered if I should go to chiro tomorrow he said yes let them know. I said was going to space you one week chiro the other, he said yea but go tomorrow.
So here is more evidence that I need to find a way to take care of myself that works. Massage works while he is doing it and a while after, chiro feels great and works for while... but what can I do. So must get eating healthy and some how exercise that I don't do more damage to my back. I also asked if he thought there was diff or more damage than before. He said he wouldn't know with just touch. Anway that was my "out of body " exerperience. I told dd she said that's not out of body, well no but when I am laying there watching myself shake it was weird. Sort of like when you get the chills and 'someone walks on your grave "as my mum used to say.
Have supper started, Allie wants out but she doesn't need to be out front, and hubby is downstairs doing something to ddads puter, he is always doing something that wrecks it but oh I didnt do that. so since hubby only went down to give him his watch that he fixed, I am sure he isnt too impressed being down there that long. Oh well I will call him up for supper soon.
Best go for now, talk to you all later!
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Dull day here in NS, but not snowing or raining at the moment. lol Hard walk today, Alile isn't happy but the sidewalks are all ice so oh well sorry.
Not sure what's up with me! I slept better, and don't feel too bad right now. Have super short walk #2 done and just joined the cats in winter team. All was well. Just finished cleaning up my email and then thought okay turn this off and get breakfast ready and start the day. When out of the blue was the thought I should just quit sparks but only reason I could think of not to is the friends that I wouldn't know how else to connect with. I have never thought of actually quitting sparks, even when I have gained or not doing anything right, never have I thought of quitting. Was the thought that I am not consistent, don't seem to have enough omph to do things for a morning let alone a day, that I decide and don't do it even if I chose 1 simple thing to do. I really don't know what started that thought so suddenly and when I am feeling okay and just going along with things. Yes I am not doing what I want ( do I want - cos there is nothing standing in my way but me, I could do some workout so far as the pain has been worse at night, and I can make the right food and have it here ) and have not lost but gained 1.5 lbs this year. Maybe that was it cos I got weighed this am. But no, usually that makes me say okay and start over no matter if it is only a few mins.
I am not scared, or anything just very quizzical, curious, wondering where this thought came from. I was just going to shut down the puter and thought I should just quit tell them I am no good at this, not consistent, not going to get anywhere and wasting your and my time. WOW that is so not me on here, yes I am not consistent etc, but I don't quit.
Hey wonder if it was cos I scared myself, thought hey this year I could give something up for lent, I have nver done that before as it was never a big thing to do. All my catholic girlfriends did but I never gave it any thought.
So I AM NOT QUITTING, not leaving and yes again I am finding something I am going to succeed at.
I have read most of the inflammation free diet plan, find it quite hard to follow and something I have never heard of or read before. Some of it is totally not what I have ever read before so again, what makes this "diet" right. I agree that some foods are naturally inflammation causing and some are totally anti inflammatory but I am not sure what makes this one right.
I did think last night that I would try again with wheat and sugar as obviously just eating isn't helping pain, itch, and wt. yes I have a new extreme itch. I was very interested in what I found on line about it, there is new scientific proof that 2 types of itching which I have both, can be caused by your back.. the nerves in your back that travel can make you itch. I have nearly gotten my R forearm scratched to bit, mostly waking up doing it. only from wrist to below elbow in front.
"I see many patients who suffer from an intense and seemingly inexplicable itch on their arms. Until now, we doctors havenít been able to explain why this happens- but at last thereís a conclusive answer. Like nostalgia paresthetica, the problem is apparently caused by a nerve impingement in the spine! The diagnosis is brachioradial pruritus."
Dr C. Bailey
The first one nostal... is itching in specific area of your back, I have had that for years, but the arm thing comes and goes. So not saying that is what it is but interesting that there really was something, I thought when I typed in extreme itching in arms I wouldn't find anything. also funny that it is when I am in bed and laying down, also when I get most pain lately. Oh well just my medical side coming out.
Okay am off for now and will be back... You can't get rid of me this easy and I am not about to throw in the towel when I was enjoying the exercises and know it is good for me. I just have to figure this food as eating everything in moderation will not work for me. Find what works, it will click and I will get well.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
It is 10 pm and the pain in my thumb is gone, so strange these pains. I had a nap from 7-9 slept from 7:30 on, then woke starting to hurt, figured get up for while but am still so tired. Sure hope I sleep bettter and longer tonight.
Didn't get my list stuff even started but that's okay as was busy with other stuff. I just wantd to make that list so I would start sometime soon. Did get other stuff we wanted to done so fine overall.
Hubby went to dr, he said to stay on puffer while longer, his bronchitis was much better, and he sounded nearly all clear. He said you had it very bad. hethen asked how Cindy was, Mur said her back is bothering her really bad, he said oh well meant her cold lol
Went to costco and got dil some baby wipes but didn't have time to stop in, so hubby just took them in. I had called ahead she said am busy making bread but the door is unlocked. So he went in and Thomas looked up said Oh look whos here Eva. HI there. Hubby says HI Thomas can you push this to mama. SURE thing . he says sure so cute... and proceeded to push the heavy box to mama. Hubby said gotta go and thomas said aww bye. and went to window to wave. LOL So we will go over on Thurs sometime, to take the woody doll and microphone.
Tomorrow massage, Thurs chiro. Think I ma start doing one one week and one the other, as they are doing similar. will think about it and see how much I hurt on Friday lol
Well going to get off here, get ready for bed and go read. I have 3 books I want to start and one i want to finish. lol Okay hope you all did well, me I did okay but have been thinking lots and it is stuff that is okay not stressing me lol
HUGS and sleep well and other side have a great day!
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
WOw foggy thick fog in the city. I can't even see the building behind me at all and it isn't that far away. The roads are a mess of slush, took Allie out and yea my waterproof boots leaked immediately. Must find rubber boots that fit me. Oh well it is warmer, just hope they get this mess off the roads before it gets colder. YUK
So didn't sleep well after 4, 5 ish. My back a waist level is so sore when I lay down, rather I am on my side, back, whatever. I don't know what this pain is so had small pillow behind me to semi lean into, pillow in front of me so I don't lean fwd which I like but is bad for backs and physio said not to, and the one in between my legs. LOL trying to get comfy was nuts. Good thing hubby sleeps well once he does cos he would have been what are you doing. Ended up getting up at 6 cos was just so sore. Oh well could be worse so will be happy it isn't any worse.
Today hubby has dr apt, and dil asked if we are going to costco could we pick something up for her. I want to go over anyway to take the Woody doll to Thomas and microphone to Eva. My spark buddy ordered and sent it to me, as wasn't able to get it in Canada. I am so excited as Thomas LOVES woody.
Poor Allie wants to go for walks, I went once and really don't want to go again, now she is on the deck barking at what I don't know as you cant' see anything for the fog. lol
Today want to start organizing things to do with kids when at my house, ie homemade things to do and also want to organize my old handwritten cookbook, it is falling apart and a lot of them I never make. So have things to keep me busy and not eating mindlessly.
Now to wait for hubby to get up and have breakfast. My SierraSil has been taken so far no diff at all, actually having more pain and diff pain with the reg. hmmm will see hasn't been long will take this bottle for sure, not paying 35$ and not use it unless it made me ill.
Off I go to figure some breaky, I am really craving an omlette. Maybe... as trying to only have eggs once a week. Mabye this am. as probably pancakes this eve with dad and hubby at legion.
have a great day all, I am certainly going to try!
Monday, February 11, 2013
I am starting this week with a smile and a positive attitude. I know it doesn't do any good to be down, and my pain is manageble today so far so smile at the sun and shiny snow!
Had a healthy breakfast and got the kitchen tidyed, and bathroom done. Going to go sort clothes in the closet, not that I have lost any wt, at all, sigh, but stuff that I don't wear anyway. Getting rid of some and sorting some. Also want to start knitting the bottom panel for nico again... now that I got it all unravelled yesterday.
Busy week, today we both have hearing tests, I went while back but my R ear was plugged and she wanted to check it cos it was down a bit. Hubby is gong cos it is free and he sometimes has a hard time, but his is when there is background noise. Will see, hoping neitther of us need one, as they are nearly 2,000 $ and we don't have that even with insurnace. Mine covers 500 geesh. Tomorrow hubby has reg. dr apt, wed massage, thurs chiro and we hope to get down to visit sisster in law some day this week. We told her let us know a good day and we will be down.
So all this as I wrote before has made me think of all my inadequacies, then stop and think All that is not wrong or bad with me, hubby and I have been married 36 years this year and if it was all that bad, he wouldn't be here or would have stayed away when his depression was the worst and he did come and go so many times. Thanks to a very special woman and spark friend I know that I am loved and cared for by her, and others. I so love my spark friends and lol yea my hubby too. lol
Allie is loving the snow, but man there is too much, she struggles to get over the banks so she can walk and sniff but I don't want her up there cos I can't climb them to clean up after her just in case. She is out on the deck running back and forth with her ball she found under the snow. What a girl and her poor sister can't play cos she can't get her belly wet for rest fo the week due to her spay this week.
Okay off to tidy up closet. Love that chore. cya later hugs and again Thanks buddy I love you too!
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