Tuesday, January 01, 2013
I have spent a fair amt of time today reading blogs... A lot of them are chosing a word that will be their word for the year. I thought hey that's a neat idea. So my word for the year 2013 is going to be STRENGTH.
I thought of BELIEVE but that has been my word forever, and somehow I just don't seem to BELIEVE - ing enough. So then thought of DETERMINATION which is good too, but I thought nope strength will help you get through anything, anything you are determined to do, or even things you don't think you can do.
So that also incorperates not only food, but also exercise - and it is strength training that I don't seem to keep at. So STRENGTH again.
Also we all need strength along with other attributes to get through all that life can deal us. I know that this could be a hard year, my dad is aging, my knee needs replacing, ds has kidney stone to pass along with his crohns, dd has depression that she won't go to a dr or anyone for, but with strength I hope to be able to deal with these wih minimal stress, or at least acknowledging the stress and doing something about it.
SO STRENGTH it is
lol I always said if I ever was brave enough for a tatoo ( which I am not) it would be believe... now will have to add strength to that! LOL
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Day 90 for Allie and us!! she is now losing her teeth! funny girl she is, but still learning for sure. Granted only 5 months old on the 3rd. We have her apointment for her spay 17th. I hope it all goes well, always makes me worry cos when we came back from living overseas, I was promised a dog, we got her and then got her spayed and she died during the night at the vet. Long story won't go into but we really wonder if she did die. Anyway not worrying about it as worrying doesn't help and all our other dogs were fine.
Allie and I have had 3 walks, 2 longer and one shorter which could have been longer had my toe not hurt so darn bad in my rubber boots. argh.... oh well going to see what size dads are as he never uses them.
Okay gang, I want to eat healthy, I am saying primal paleo, but really healthy would be fine with minimal grain. I had oatmeal, bberries for breakfast, and was starving by 11 ate that at 9:45. Oatmeal doesn't sustain me. So had a very hard time thinking lunch. trying to get fat, protein and good carbs in and finally did find an idea. But now supper.
SO I must get some ideas for meals so I don't end up back at oh whatever..... There are tons of recipes etc. but man I have a hard time doing it on line. Much better when I have a book in front of me.
I am going to spend some time on this and also printing out some of the recipes I really want from diff websites.
Hubby is watching Fiddler on the Roof, Dad is probably napping and I am thinking of going up and doing 5 mins on my bike. Got the room cleaned up and ready and know that today will be cardio cos don't want to do much upper cos of my fall yesterday. I am okay but bit sore in midlower back R side and my R shoulder. My hard head and wrist are fine! LOL
Okay off I go to get more done on this menu and then the bike.
HUGS cya later so far so good!!!
had to edit,HUBBY WENT FOR A WALK WIITH US!!!!! I PRAY HE CAN KEEP IT UP ONE WALK A DAY WOULD BE GREAT!!!
Monday, December 31, 2012
Now just because I fell on the ice, both feet right out from under me is not a reason not to exercise tomorrow. I am not starting the year out with an excuse. I didn't hurt my legs, or knees thank heavens so I can use my bike.
Was walknig with my old boots as the new ones dad got me for xmas, leak and are still drying while I debate trying to return them or buy spray, and got to just around the corner a few doors down. I was thinking I had a good birthday, and really other than pain and sciatica it has been a pretty good year, and was watching allie sniff and bang... flat down hard on the road. OMG wind knocked out of me, first thing was ALLIE I called and she was sort of skittering away from me, probably scared, I yelled allie come and she did. She knew as she came back and we walked home, she went right up the steps, I came in and started to cry. Hubby said what where is allie... got off his chair and said what I fell... right back on back of my head and back. So he felt my head, and checked my eyes, i changed boots and went back out. I only went around the block and back but she is fine and I am only hurting at my wrist and lower shoulder blades. sigh.................
I had those things you put on your boots last year and lost one,went back and never did find it. Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Allie has been walked and so far my best boots are rubber ones, but they hurt my toe so bad I am nearly in tears hence the old ones. read to put rubber caulking on them in a diff pattern than the treads so hubby will do that.
Now I have a headache, backache and so far my wrist is okay. can't go to bed, as he is insistent on checking my eyes every bit sweet soul and yea I did really fall back whew.
I am tired too. okay I will be fine. just updating my new years eve and I haven't even been partying! LOL
Monday, December 31, 2012
First off lets just say I had a super birthday, one of my best, I wasn't sad, I was happy I enjoyed my breakast with hubby, smiled asked him what he was looking at, he said a beautful you. awee we went to the mall and I bought thanks to dad another bead for my bracelet. Then ds called and they were going to come over, but was easier for us to go there, he and wife and kdis got me a neat set of sound of Music. It has blue ray and reg, and a book with the story and pics, and a small music box that plays My fav things, and has room for a few favorite things! I love that movie perhaps cos when I was 9 we lived in Germany and went to Salzberg,Austria and I hid behind the same tombs, stood at that fountain etc. Dd and sil bought me another bead, and a small snowman ornament for the tree. Awesome. And think I allready mentioned the bead with dog paws from hubby and Allie. So for the first time in ages, I had a good day, basked in ME, thanked all my FB nd SPark friends for their wishes and just had a good day. having a glass of wine and thinking of my goals.
I changed my ticker to exercise mins rather than wt lost. I want to lose between 40-50 lbs but will see WHEN I get closer. I more than that want to be healthy, fit and happy. I NEED to get healthier for me and my body so that is the priority. I hope to make it an enjoyable and totally doable LIFESTYLE. yea yea hubby says lifestyle but I do want to be able to do this forever.
To be healthier means a few things... mind, body and spirit. I do acknowledge that they all go together and also that I need to work on them all. But I am focusing on body for now. I am sure that if I feel better physically my mind and spirit will come along for the ride.
Well edited this 2x, felt it still wasn't right, and then read a blog that said what are your goals and how do you plan to work life around them... well sort of said that. lol
And I realized that as I wrote what I have now deleted, I was thinking hmmm that is tomorrow... hmmm how do I do that Mike is home... and allready other things were coming to mind to knock out what I figured I would do. So even though I made smart goals, they were too hardfast for me to work life in around them. So for now and probably the month of Jan. I am going to work at this, day by day... hr by hr if need be.
I will exrcise daily and not just dog walk. Hoping to put in 3x wk of strength training and 2 x wk at dd with her machines ( my old elliptical and her treadmill) I had it down to specific days but then realized that every other monday or thurs he is off so that won't work.. butif I am flexible enough to say that this week I have to go to Lisas on Tues and Friday... then good i will still go rather than m, w, opps can't go friday so oh never mind.
I am going to try super hard to eliminate sugar I don't add it to tea, or oatmeal etc. so if I get rid of most processed stuff I will be doing well. I do want to figure some menus up as I tend to get in the don't want to make supper mode then we don't eat well.
So for Jan I am going to eat better........drink my water.......... exercise daily........... walk allie and THINK POSITIVE!! That will all help me reach goals such as be healthier and fitter by my next birthday.
HUGS and this time I feel better about my goals. not so overwhelming and restricting even though they may not be smart enough, I was smart enough to realize the others weren't me.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Monday, December 31, 2012
Wow we have had Allie for 89 days and I have walked her at least 3x daily! Thanks Allie you are the reason I didn't gain over the holidays!LOL
Well it is my birthday!!! I honestly think this is the first year I remember that I am not sad, still had tears, not sure why but they were okay tears. Just like wow it is my birthday. I think that has something to do with not allowing myself to be important or visible.
I got up this am, before Allie and went and wrote in my journal. I just wrote what I thought. I wasn't going to share it as it is nothing amazing but then thought yea I will as some of you will know how much it is important to me.
Dec 31 happy birthday to me and I mean it. I deserve a happy day, not a woe is me day. Only I can do that for myself.
The words above are some of what I wish for myself this year. They are all attainable but I will need the STRENGTH to start and continue on my way. This year must be about HEALTH ( all aspects of it) I have too much pain and issues to not make my physical health a priority. I am putting into effect an action plan for healthy eating, exercise for my body and its pains, and taking the time for my mind, promoting SELF-CONFIDENCE, PEACE, CONTENTMENT and LOVE. I am taking the time to relax, enjoy the "Simple things in life". Another gift I will give myself is JOY - joy of love, laughter, companionship, quiet time, but just joy. I will also spend more time with Thomas and Eva and relish their child like wonder of things.
One main issue is worry, we all worry, but I know how to do that better than anything else in my life. Wwell this year it is taking a back seat, when I start to worry, I will remind myself that worry changes nothing, postiive thinking may not change everything but it will make things easier. All this is going to be hard for me but none is impossible.
So............ those are not SMART goals, but more a guideline for my new year, my 56th year of life. My only wish is that I had been able to do it many years sooner, but this year I will try harder as I am not happy in my life as it is. For the most part it is me that has to change, some issues revolve around hubby but I myself, allow him too much control that he doesn't even know he has. It is my lack of self confidence that does it. When I married, I stopped evrything I wanted to be married, have babies more than anything. Yes many from my era ( OMG lol that sounds old) wanted that, but I to the exclusion of ME.I had no interest in anything other than him and kids. Yes I did when the kids were young, take up ceramics and that got me out of the house etc. But actually in the later years, seems my insecurity has gotten worse although some of that has been because of his depression anxiety which has left a large mark on me, and us. So this year if I want to go to the kids, I will , he doesn't have to come, etc. That is all in my making and my choices. He tells me that and says if you want to go then go... if you want to... then do it.
New year, new lessons, new challenges, and I am up for it. I will become more concerned for ME. that is not selfish that is self care.
HUGS and Hope you all have a great 2013 with lots of self love and care in there too.
Now lol to figure my goals............ well maybe I wake hubby up as we are going out to Coras for my birthday breakfast and I am getting hungry! LOL fruit and something.....
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