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Saturday, December 29, 2012

had to look at the bottom corner of the screen to see what day it was. lol. Sunny, cold and an okay 2 walks, she didnt listen well and I am still sore. Better than last night when I had a lot of pain in my back and my R knee, didnt sleep well at all fitbit says 88% and I do believe it for sure this time. Not tired now , just not rested. Oh well.

Wish hubby would feel better soon, he is coughing and no energy at all. He even said he has things he wants to get done, but even going out to stand the compost bin up after the wind knocked it over tired him out. I don't let allie go wake him before 9 :30 now figuring he needs his sleep but he is also getting into that not being tired and going to bed at 2;30 -3 which isn't good for him.

So have read 3 blogs on New years eve and by the last one I was sad, and nearly crying, man it all comes down to my birthday and how I so don't like it. I don't mind the attention, the happy birthdays etc. I think it is cos I allow it to be the END of the YEAR that I have failed myself yet again. Then I get into am I not worth it even to myself... then spirals from there. So read the last one and thought better blog this out or will be a blubbering mess.
I know I have done good for me things this year, I also have done good for others. I can't allow myself to only see that I didn't get to a goal especially when I don't set good goals.
I know I say I will lose or exercise, or eat well etc. but also know that I am like most, hard on myself.
Anyway....... same ole thing this year... putting myself down and not letting myself see or acknoweldge the good, the healthy, the being nice to me that I did do.
For now I hear dh coughing so he is awake. I am going to get the kettle on as I haven't had a cup of tea yet and we both will want one. I sometimes wish I could just go away all alone for a day/night in a small cabin with woodstove, me tea, journal, books and a good fire going with a warm bed. lol DD asked me what I wanted for my birthday, wouldn't they all be some surprised if I said that! I have never been away alone since I was married, other than to go to take the kids to my parents when hubby was away on course. I did take a day trip with girlfriends to anothers house about 18 years ago.
One of those retreats for women... oh yea, hubby actually said we could go to the one in ON sometime, drive and camp then I could go do that for the 3 days and he and dog would camp. Have to think about it.
HUGS and now to go have hot cup of tea on this sunny but cold cold wind day!

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HISTORYRUNNER 12/30/2012 2:38AM

    Just look where you were, a year ago, and you'll be pleasantly surprised to see notable progress. Keep on keepin' on! emoticon emoticon

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OJ_2_OK 12/29/2012 8:09PM

    Don't focus so much on the overall weigh loss. Look at the fact of all the activity you are getting with Allie. And how you are such an encouraging spark member. You are still here and trying. Those are all successes that you are overlooking. Don't focus on the goals not accomplished think of the things you have. :)

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HEALTHY4ME 12/29/2012 7:00PM

    OH Jill wish I could respond but without your spark page I don't know how. I hope you are doing fine and I wish you well. I so do miss you...

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ZESTYLADY 12/29/2012 6:22PM

    Hello old friend! I found a cheap retreat space near my home that gave me a chance to be alone, reflect and was worth every cent and I plan to do it again this year. Went thru a year of counselling to learn that I am an introvert forced into a culture of introverts. Without time and space to reflect and renew...I get crazy an depressed. Peace and blessing on you!

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DADDYS_GIRL6 12/29/2012 4:14PM

    Happy Birthday you have made progress! You are blogging to friends instead of slipping on that terrible spiral down!! That in itself is huge!! I am so proud of you! You really ought to ask your DD's for that gift for your birthday. They can stay with Dad so you aren't worried about him, you can rest and do just what pleases yourself and when you come home you will be refreshed and able to tackle the needs at home! Think on it!
Hugs and blessings!

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ANJAYS-JOURNEY 12/29/2012 3:24PM

    we all need time alone, one day it will happen, take care and maybe start a collage on everything positive that has happened this year

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JAZZID 12/29/2012 3:16PM

    ... everyone needs time alone sometime. Maybe you can plan on doing that,I think it would do wonders for you. emoticon

Don't be so hard on yourself, you are doing great!... I haven't reached my goal yet either, and I have been trying to reach it for years... but I can say that I am closer than I was at the beginning of 2012 and I also have a better understanding of what I need to do in order to reach my goal!

... so don't despair, you are not alone, we are all in this together and we will make it happen. emoticon I am rooting for you! emoticon

emoticon Let's rock 2013... emoticon emoticon

~ Dee emoticon

PS:... I hope your hubby feels better soon! emoticon

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COSMIC_ENERGY 12/29/2012 3:13PM

    Ah...there, I found you again. I'm with the "you're way too hard on yourself" side! You are such an inspiration to so many. And the dedication you have to blogging is fantastic. You judge yourself far harder than anyone else.

I often would go to visit family in FL with the kids, then alone. I say, make a retreat a 2013 goal for yourself. The family can survive without you and it would be good for everyone. emoticon

You really do have many strengths and so the thought should be why do you continue to see failure?

Sending you uplifting positive thoughts. The end of a year is no different than the end of another day. The strength is in us continuing to do the work, wherever it take us.

I sure am happy to have met you along the way!

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GOPINTOS 12/29/2012 12:17PM

    I came up short of my 2012 goal also, but I am much farther ahead of the game than I was a year ago. So just keep trucking!!! Make your commitment. This time next year you will be so glad you did!!

Thanks for sharing!


Smile and Enjoy the Rest of Your Day!
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ONEKIDSMOM 12/29/2012 9:32AM

    emoticon Sweetie, take good care of you. Sounds like a locked door and some personal space is in order! Hang in, and feel better.

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NEW-CAZ 12/29/2012 8:57AM

    Cinders you are WAY TOO HARD on yourself hun!
Have to agree with PCOHO51610.

You have my love and support as always babe, you know that.
Maybe the retreat alone would do wonders for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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DOGMOMMA2THREE 12/29/2012 8:35AM

    Oh boy, you do sound overwhelmed. For this birthday why don't you pledge to be kinder to yourself? Don't set yourself up to fail and every night before you go to bed think of the good things you did for yourself that day. I have a huge problem in being the "all or nothing" type but once I started appreciating some of the little stuff I realized I'm okay. I suffer from major depression so sometimes my thankful list is pretty mundane ( e.g. I washed my face and applied sunscreen) but other it does help with my mindset.

I think you should take that trip sounds lovely

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Day 85 and what a messy day it is

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Snowed and oh boy does Allie love that! then it has rained, poured rain, so we have snow, slush and just yuk. One of the worst dog walking days. So 9:47 and I am going to put on rain pants, snow boots, jacket, all to go out for 10 mins maybe. lol I so so so wish the darn fence and steps were done so she could just run down the backyard. oh well spring.......

Had a good visit with family at sister in laws yesterday, good drive there and back. Today hubby sounds worse, dad is so tired all the time, and I am sore. Weather was to change so perhaps that is part of my back issues. I took arthrotec this am, and was going to take it this eve, even though I must eat with it, but didnt' eat any supper or anything else cos I had a cup of sepcialty tea and got super heartburn, bad enough and long enough to take my nexium med. I think I will take it for a few days to see if I feel better, as had a bout a few days ago, coudl be the hiatal hernia bothering me.

Had a nap this afternoon, I find our house cold in afternoon as hubby turns heat down from 11 -5 and it gets damp. EVERYONE says it is, but hubby. I remember one time my sister inlaw, brother in law and niece sitting on the couch at 10 pm with their jackets cos the heat goes down at 10pm till 6 am. hhubby said I am nto at all cold. but offered to put the heat up she insisted no, as they were leaving soon. GOOD Grief and yet he thinks it is me, dd, dil, that "think" it is cold. Dad has his heat way up of course which is good. Hubby doesnt mind that but anyway, I had a nap cos was cold, not sleeping well at night with hubbys cold - snoring so went to bed to read, curled up under the duvet, and fell asleep. Was nice for hour and a bit.

Okay off I go to let her out and then go find that warm bed may try a cup of tea, not even my green one just red rose decaf.

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ANJAYS-JOURNEY 12/28/2012 9:31AM

    hugs and hope your pain settles down
have a great day today

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VON_1962 12/28/2012 9:05AM

    Hope you all get to feeling better soon! We had snow yesterday and over night. Off today and it is still snowing. Used the treadmill this morning and thinking of you! Hope to see you online today to catch up and get prepared for our goal setting. ((hugs))

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NEW-CAZ 12/28/2012 2:49AM

    I hope everyone is soon on the mend Cinders, this Christmas has seen illness in both our houses. It would be nice for you when all are well enough to celebrate your approaching special day! emoticon

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OJ_2_OK 12/27/2012 9:40PM

    I hope your household feels better soon!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/27/2012 9:17PM

    We are getting ice pellets and more snow tomorrow. I hope everyone at your house feels better soon. My son is finally doing better.

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Merry Christmas YES it is almost over.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

I am not a scrooge, nor bah humbug ( if I had to choose one or the other would be bah humbug). Only that I don't like commotion and busyness. So last night was at our house and total commotion as allie knocked baby over asap, then wouldn't stop going nuts so was in the kennel barking for 2 hrs. Thomas was good and so was Eva, was just the noise, just as they left the other gang came.... then that was noise as Nikki let the dog out and the others were just leaving.

So then today it is at dd wtih the same crowd, supper was to be at 5 wasn't totally done till after 6. so Thomas kept saying supper soon please papa, ended up falling asleep eating 2 mouthfuls of sweet potatoes. Eva was good. Thomas woke up and had one of his screaming at the tiop of his lungs crying fit. Lily the other 3 year old was bugging the dog and the 10 year old was bugging me. LOL food was awesome and dd did fantastic as she did nearly all of it. I commend her doing it all. and the noise of the crowd. Dad came but was exhausted by the time he ate, so we took him home, and I went back foer a pc of pie. Lemon ahhh, she mad 3 pies and chris and family had gone, and so had dad and hubby she has way lots left.

Tomorrow is another one, at sil and bil house but will be more civilized as no little ones and not as much commotion.

Thought I did okay only cried 5 times and only 1 time did anyone notice and was hubby and wasn't crying just biting my lip, cos the 9 year old was being a pain in the a$$ and man I have no patience. I used to be amazed at how angry mum would get a kids when they were just bugging, well arghhhhhhhhhhhh hge was only being stupid asking me the same thing over and over to be a pain. Well I got up and moved after I asked him to stop, went over to hubby said I love you, he said whats up nothing, gotta get out of here, so i just walked down dd hall.

Had a good xmas morning, I got up walked dog, we had breakfast at home, then I went and got in the tub and even tried to curl up to fall asleep, did relax to the point of seeing purple which is always relaxing for me. I was then going to go back to bed but decided I better make dil a bday card as her bday is tomorrow adn was giving her her present tonight. So till we went over to dd it was nice. I only was sad melancholy 3 xs. I don't know why I get like this. Mum used to say was always like that since I was small. Oh well. at least it is only 2 days a year and my birthday.

So now going to finish here, go hug my hubby trying not to cry so he doesnt get upset and then me and my tea are going to bed. I so want to sleeeeeeeeep. am exhausted and didnt do near as much as dd, i just hope her back doesnt hurt in the am.

I hope an dpray you all had the day you wanted, happy, busy, or quiet and peaceful, whichever you wanted.

I got 2 charms for my braclet, and a top, ds gave us a gift cert for a restuarant here so we could go to a diff place for breakfast as he knows I wanted to go to coras but hubby says too $$ for every sunday. and dd and sil are happy, they didnt give gifts but the niece got her glasses yesterday!!! in time for Christmas day. Must have been a very joyous day in that household!

Okay night all and hugs to all of you, sleep well.

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COSMIC_ENERGY 12/29/2012 3:21PM

    I get not enjoying the commotion and feeling that you are trapped in it. I haven't had to put up with it too much since I got divorced (his side was crazy-noisy, drinkers).

Christmas has never been my favorite. Too many unmet expectations from the past I guess. Got tired of being the one to "make it happen" for everyone else and no one trying to make it happen for me.

I've lightened up. Just trying to enjoy the company and not worry so much about buying that perfect gift or getting it either. No one bought me the pressure cooker I wanted, so I ordered it myself the day after!

Hang in there. emoticon

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NSMOOMAA 12/27/2012 10:35AM

    Wow it sure sounds like a busy time. Good for you for taking a little me time. I hope you get more over the next few days. Sometimes this season is just so busy. Relax a bit and enjoy the time now. Hugs emoticon

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/26/2012 7:44PM

    glad you made it through okay.

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OJ_2_OK 12/26/2012 6:30PM

    Glad your niece got her glasses and HOLY MOLY that sounds like a lot of commotion. I would cry too. Maybe that's why you get sad during the holidays? Perhaps the "melancholy" feeling is just really anxiety due to al the chaos? Any ways, I'm glad things will be settling down for you.

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ANJAYS-JOURNEY 12/26/2012 7:55AM

    Awesome you survived, glad you had a good time Christmas can be so difficult, today you have a chance to unwind and slow down a little
Have a great day

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NEW-CAZ 12/26/2012 3:01AM

    You survived the day Cinders with those you love and care for.
Our Christmas this year has been marred by ill health, DH has had a tummy bug and I've got a streaming cold. Despite this he was well enough yesterday to tuck into a toned down version of the normal feast with no starter and no pud and we caught up with family and friends on the phone. Last night I could stand the cabin fever no more and went for a 30 min walk- it was freezing cold but was lovely and the people I met responded in kind to my "Merry Christmas" offerings.

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    I was a Scrooge all this holiday season. All our company left by 7 pm. It was a nice day but I'm glad the holiday is over. Glad you enjoyed your holiday (despite being a bit "bah humbug-ish" :-)

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SLENDERELLA61 12/25/2012 9:11PM

    You got through it!! Good for you. Tomorrow won't be as much commotion and then I hope you get well rested. Take care. Be patient with yourself. -Marsha

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/25/2012 8:45PM

    Reminds me of years past when I had 3 Christmas celebrations to go to. Too much!!!

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Friday, December 21, 2012

Man it is too close to the day and I am so not ready. I am so so so tired too. still tools laying around,still everything to wrap, still baking to do. Oh well still meatpies to make OMG thats work but hubby said he will help as he wants them. lol
So we went to the meat market and fruit and veggie store. Then home, then went to legion where hubby took this picture of me. Figured I would share as some have asked for new pic and hair and last one rememberance day wasn't very close. Anyway not a bad pic as they go. lol

Then we were leaving and dd and I decided to run to the store. I wanted to find one thing for hubby and then needed baking powder, molasses ( for his meat pie ew) and coconut. So got it all and home. Got home and hubby said go check your dad. He needed help down the hill, I took his socks off and he was going to bed. He is cold and then not. So went down and he was awake and okay. I will check him later. I hope he isnt' getting sick, as he has been coughing and not sounding great, and then hubbys cold, even though hubby hasn't been down there much. Anyway don't need him sick anytime but not now.

NOt a lot more, going to put a roast in the crockpot to cook overnight for the meat pie, will boil the chicken and pork roast tomorrow. Don't think it will be long before I am in bed, really tired and I dona't want to catch anyones colds. I just got over that one from Oct a week ago!

Okay hope you all had great days and sleep well. For those waking up, have a great day!
HUGS to you all love my spark friends.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/25/2012 7:46PM

    Loved the picture! You look great!

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JOYINKY 12/22/2012 9:19AM

    I hope everyone stays well and you all can enjoy the holiday. Nice picture, love the haircut. Have a Merry Christmas!

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NEW-CAZ 12/22/2012 2:52AM

    Hope you're all going be okay.

Pete is still visiting the loo way to frequently, he is suffering, I can tell as he's gone quiet. If he just has man flu I get it in the
ear all day long "I'm dying". But when he's bad, like me he shuts himself down.
We were due to go out to lunch at the Plough tomorrow, can't see that happening now. I am extra concerned because of his diabetes and not being able to eat.
I've got him some rehydration potions and keeping him on toast, boiled eggs, a little porridge (hardly any yesterday for brekkie)and baked potatoes.
I'll get him to check his bloods this morning and if necessary I'll call our chemist for advice.
So much for a Happy Crimbo emoticon

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OJ_2_OK 12/21/2012 8:48PM

    Hopefully those bugs keep at bay and your family stays well!

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Thursday, December 20, 2012

I will not sigh, complain or nudge hubby when he keeps me awake with his snoring from his cold. I will be so thankful that he is in bed beside me and breathing. My old co worker got the call this am that her hubby had passed away. 2 stories one he just dropped dead at work, 2nd was that he said his legs were wobbly they got him to hosptial and he died. So no idea but doesn't really matter he is gone. I am pretty sure he is abbout 65 -67. I know she is a year younger than I am and he was a fair bit older. So hug your hubbies this eve......

I had one really messy kitchen today. Had left the dishes from the other day and night, then made cherry balls, then Elizabeths ( a savory snack that an African friend Eliz. gave me the recipe for) which take time ( have to make biscuit dough and roll it and cut it make filled turnovers)So got all that done, entire kitchen cleaned. We took dd to costco and all I got was eggs! lol not even any samples lol Stopped at walmart to check for a doorbell for dad and light for under his counter.

Then we went out after supper to get our new recliner, hubby is relaxing in it watching Xfactor finalle. Has it too loud for me, surround sound on but do like the cowboy and the young girl. group is okay. I wish the man to win as the young girl is awesome but young enough to get another chance. but whatevr they all will get a recording thing of some kind.

So think I will make a cup of tea and have a bath, didnt have one the other night. I took an arthrotec at suppertime instead of this am hoping I can rest better. So epsom salts bath and tea and book. AHHHHHHHH oh maybe even sauna first.

OKay night all and say a little prayer for my friend susan and her 2 kids as they start the figuring out and grieving process. HUGS to you all!

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/21/2012 9:05AM

    send my love and prayers to your freind and her children

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NEW-CAZ 12/21/2012 3:03AM

    Such sad news and so close to the holidays, I feel for your friend.
My DH snores; he had a rough night last night Cinders, he has the TOM TITS (you work it out LOL) and he's sweaty one minute and ice cold the next.
I've left him to sleep while I go and get the Christmas food shop today. Taxi awaits.

Have a good day hun emoticon

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JO88BAKO 12/20/2012 9:28PM

    Thanks for the words. My DH snores a lot and yes, I get upset sometimes. I will think of this and not be mad.Thanks

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TXGRANDMA 12/20/2012 9:07PM

    So sad to hear that your friend's husband passed..........My daughter's boyfriend's father passed away at his job, too. He was working in Louisiana and happened to be by himself when he had an apparent heart attack. Some coworkers came upon him but he was already blue.......they called the ambulance and got him to the hospital where he was put on life support. They took him off the next day, and he passed away. He was only 50.......
You are so right, all of us need to hug each other and express our love for our family, because tomorrow may be too late! emoticon

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