Saturday, December 29, 2012
had to look at the bottom corner of the screen to see what day it was. lol. Sunny, cold and an okay 2 walks, she didnt listen well and I am still sore. Better than last night when I had a lot of pain in my back and my R knee, didnt sleep well at all fitbit says 88% and I do believe it for sure this time. Not tired now , just not rested. Oh well.
Wish hubby would feel better soon, he is coughing and no energy at all. He even said he has things he wants to get done, but even going out to stand the compost bin up after the wind knocked it over tired him out. I don't let allie go wake him before 9 :30 now figuring he needs his sleep but he is also getting into that not being tired and going to bed at 2;30 -3 which isn't good for him.
So have read 3 blogs on New years eve and by the last one I was sad, and nearly crying, man it all comes down to my birthday and how I so don't like it. I don't mind the attention, the happy birthdays etc. I think it is cos I allow it to be the END of the YEAR that I have failed myself yet again. Then I get into am I not worth it even to myself... then spirals from there. So read the last one and thought better blog this out or will be a blubbering mess.
I know I have done good for me things this year, I also have done good for others. I can't allow myself to only see that I didn't get to a goal especially when I don't set good goals.
I know I say I will lose or exercise, or eat well etc. but also know that I am like most, hard on myself.
Anyway....... same ole thing this year... putting myself down and not letting myself see or acknoweldge the good, the healthy, the being nice to me that I did do.
For now I hear dh coughing so he is awake. I am going to get the kettle on as I haven't had a cup of tea yet and we both will want one. I sometimes wish I could just go away all alone for a day/night in a small cabin with woodstove, me tea, journal, books and a good fire going with a warm bed. lol DD asked me what I wanted for my birthday, wouldn't they all be some surprised if I said that! I have never been away alone since I was married, other than to go to take the kids to my parents when hubby was away on course. I did take a day trip with girlfriends to anothers house about 18 years ago.
One of those retreats for women... oh yea, hubby actually said we could go to the one in ON sometime, drive and camp then I could go do that for the 3 days and he and dog would camp. Have to think about it.
HUGS and now to go have hot cup of tea on this sunny but cold cold wind day!
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Snowed and oh boy does Allie love that! then it has rained, poured rain, so we have snow, slush and just yuk. One of the worst dog walking days. So 9:47 and I am going to put on rain pants, snow boots, jacket, all to go out for 10 mins maybe. lol I so so so wish the darn fence and steps were done so she could just run down the backyard. oh well spring.......
Had a good visit with family at sister in laws yesterday, good drive there and back. Today hubby sounds worse, dad is so tired all the time, and I am sore. Weather was to change so perhaps that is part of my back issues. I took arthrotec this am, and was going to take it this eve, even though I must eat with it, but didnt' eat any supper or anything else cos I had a cup of sepcialty tea and got super heartburn, bad enough and long enough to take my nexium med. I think I will take it for a few days to see if I feel better, as had a bout a few days ago, coudl be the hiatal hernia bothering me.
Had a nap this afternoon, I find our house cold in afternoon as hubby turns heat down from 11 -5 and it gets damp. EVERYONE says it is, but hubby. I remember one time my sister inlaw, brother in law and niece sitting on the couch at 10 pm with their jackets cos the heat goes down at 10pm till 6 am. hhubby said I am nto at all cold. but offered to put the heat up she insisted no, as they were leaving soon. GOOD Grief and yet he thinks it is me, dd, dil, that "think" it is cold. Dad has his heat way up of course which is good. Hubby doesnt mind that but anyway, I had a nap cos was cold, not sleeping well at night with hubbys cold - snoring so went to bed to read, curled up under the duvet, and fell asleep. Was nice for hour and a bit.
Okay off I go to let her out and then go find that warm bed may try a cup of tea, not even my green one just red rose decaf.
NIGHT ALL HUGS
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
I am not a scrooge, nor bah humbug ( if I had to choose one or the other would be bah humbug). Only that I don't like commotion and busyness. So last night was at our house and total commotion as allie knocked baby over asap, then wouldn't stop going nuts so was in the kennel barking for 2 hrs. Thomas was good and so was Eva, was just the noise, just as they left the other gang came.... then that was noise as Nikki let the dog out and the others were just leaving.
So then today it is at dd wtih the same crowd, supper was to be at 5 wasn't totally done till after 6. so Thomas kept saying supper soon please papa, ended up falling asleep eating 2 mouthfuls of sweet potatoes. Eva was good. Thomas woke up and had one of his screaming at the tiop of his lungs crying fit. Lily the other 3 year old was bugging the dog and the 10 year old was bugging me. LOL food was awesome and dd did fantastic as she did nearly all of it. I commend her doing it all. and the noise of the crowd. Dad came but was exhausted by the time he ate, so we took him home, and I went back foer a pc of pie. Lemon ahhh, she mad 3 pies and chris and family had gone, and so had dad and hubby she has way lots left.
Tomorrow is another one, at sil and bil house but will be more civilized as no little ones and not as much commotion.
Thought I did okay only cried 5 times and only 1 time did anyone notice and was hubby and wasn't crying just biting my lip, cos the 9 year old was being a pain in the a$$ and man I have no patience. I used to be amazed at how angry mum would get a kids when they were just bugging, well arghhhhhhhhhhhh hge was only being stupid asking me the same thing over and over to be a pain. Well I got up and moved after I asked him to stop, went over to hubby said I love you, he said whats up nothing, gotta get out of here, so i just walked down dd hall.
Had a good xmas morning, I got up walked dog, we had breakfast at home, then I went and got in the tub and even tried to curl up to fall asleep, did relax to the point of seeing purple which is always relaxing for me. I was then going to go back to bed but decided I better make dil a bday card as her bday is tomorrow adn was giving her her present tonight. So till we went over to dd it was nice. I only was sad melancholy 3 xs. I don't know why I get like this. Mum used to say was always like that since I was small. Oh well. at least it is only 2 days a year and my birthday.
So now going to finish here, go hug my hubby trying not to cry so he doesnt get upset and then me and my tea are going to bed. I so want to sleeeeeeeeep. am exhausted and didnt do near as much as dd, i just hope her back doesnt hurt in the am.
I hope an dpray you all had the day you wanted, happy, busy, or quiet and peaceful, whichever you wanted.
I got 2 charms for my braclet, and a top, ds gave us a gift cert for a restuarant here so we could go to a diff place for breakfast as he knows I wanted to go to coras but hubby says too $$ for every sunday. and dd and sil are happy, they didnt give gifts but the niece got her glasses yesterday!!! in time for Christmas day. Must have been a very joyous day in that household!
Okay night all and hugs to all of you, sleep well.
Friday, December 21, 2012
Man it is too close to the day and I am so not ready. I am so so so tired too. still tools laying around,still everything to wrap, still baking to do. Oh well still meatpies to make OMG thats work but hubby said he will help as he wants them. lol
So we went to the meat market and fruit and veggie store. Then home, then went to legion where hubby took this picture of me. Figured I would share as some have asked for new pic and hair and last one rememberance day wasn't very close. Anyway not a bad pic as they go. lol
Then we were leaving and dd and I decided to run to the store. I wanted to find one thing for hubby and then needed baking powder, molasses ( for his meat pie ew) and coconut. So got it all and home. Got home and hubby said go check your dad. He needed help down the hill, I took his socks off and he was going to bed. He is cold and then not. So went down and he was awake and okay. I will check him later. I hope he isnt' getting sick, as he has been coughing and not sounding great, and then hubbys cold, even though hubby hasn't been down there much. Anyway don't need him sick anytime but not now.
NOt a lot more, going to put a roast in the crockpot to cook overnight for the meat pie, will boil the chicken and pork roast tomorrow. Don't think it will be long before I am in bed, really tired and I dona't want to catch anyones colds. I just got over that one from Oct a week ago!
Okay hope you all had great days and sleep well. For those waking up, have a great day!
HUGS to you all love my spark friends.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
I will not sigh, complain or nudge hubby when he keeps me awake with his snoring from his cold. I will be so thankful that he is in bed beside me and breathing. My old co worker got the call this am that her hubby had passed away. 2 stories one he just dropped dead at work, 2nd was that he said his legs were wobbly they got him to hosptial and he died. So no idea but doesn't really matter he is gone. I am pretty sure he is abbout 65 -67. I know she is a year younger than I am and he was a fair bit older. So hug your hubbies this eve......
I had one really messy kitchen today. Had left the dishes from the other day and night, then made cherry balls, then Elizabeths ( a savory snack that an African friend Eliz. gave me the recipe for) which take time ( have to make biscuit dough and roll it and cut it make filled turnovers)So got all that done, entire kitchen cleaned. We took dd to costco and all I got was eggs! lol not even any samples lol Stopped at walmart to check for a doorbell for dad and light for under his counter.
Then we went out after supper to get our new recliner, hubby is relaxing in it watching Xfactor finalle. Has it too loud for me, surround sound on but do like the cowboy and the young girl. group is okay. I wish the man to win as the young girl is awesome but young enough to get another chance. but whatevr they all will get a recording thing of some kind.
So think I will make a cup of tea and have a bath, didnt have one the other night. I took an arthrotec at suppertime instead of this am hoping I can rest better. So epsom salts bath and tea and book. AHHHHHHHH oh maybe even sauna first.
OKay night all and say a little prayer for my friend susan and her 2 kids as they start the figuring out and grieving process. HUGS to you all!
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