Saturday, July 11, 2009
It is a fantastic day and I woke up took dog for a short walk as it is allready getting too hot for her. I then took her home, fed her and thought I will walk the track behind the house CJROMB says find something you like to do and then you will do it. Well I decided to see how fast my mile is now. I havent been walking, other than slooooooooooow dog walking. I have a cold, and my bum knees and sore feet so wasnt going to push myself. If I got 2 x around good but was aiming for 4.
Did the 4 in 17 mins so wasnt great by no means but okay and more that I did it cos at 2 thought man I am hot, I dont like this. Then said sillly it is only 2 more times and it isnt punishment. drank nearly 2 cups water too, as i started coughing. okay so now I know continue walking the neighbourhood. I may not go fast but will go longer and enjoy it more.
I am very proud to say that yesterday was again a great NO S day. I am especially impressed with myself cos work is EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING and I didnt eat when I got home. Thank you again MOMMA GRIZZ for listening to my rant! argh!
So this morning at 5 the phone rang will you work today. NO this is my weekend off, I am going from evening shift to a day shift on monday, I havent worked days yet in this facility, there are not enough staff, not enough towels, too many rules that are told then have to be somewhat changed yet memos come out to the first issue. So NO i will not come in anytime this weekend.
Not sure what all we are doing today, but know it will be clean eating. I have in my mind that I really dont want to sabotage my good 3 day streak. Today is an S day so can have some stuff. But tomorrow is also S day and we are having a bbq with kids and dad so will have fresh veggies, and fruit along with the hamburger and chicken burgers. so thats okay. may even have a cooler or glass of wine. but not going hog wild with snacks, sweets and seconds!
I am now going to go downstairs and take a look at the dvd i borrowed from library on strength training.
I decided to start tracking my streaks the three that are important to me right now but can only get the new ones to start today so even though I have 3 days of no s eating it will only show after today and if i remember to hit it! LOL oh well and I have been walking the dog for months with few days off so I know that one too. hopefully i will remember to take the time to click it so i know it updates.
I hope you all have a great day and enjoy your choices!
Saturday, July 04, 2009
That was the question asked today. Well I just sort of laughed and said duh no brainer.............. it's me and my many fobiles. As they listed- procrastination, self critisim, perfectionism, all or nothing thinking- if i cant do what I planned then why bother. I have another one, I do a few mins of say ball exercises, or stretches etc. and then call it quits. I dont do any of it long enough to count for much. And by a few mins I mean 5-not even 10. I want to do yoga again, try pilates, and really want to learn the correct method for weights. I blame my husband for not helping me with the weights. HA!!! we have a gym membership so how come I am not going over saying I want you to show me a complete weight routine without the machines. I can then learn it with proper form and take it home. We will not be renewing our membership this year. Dh doesnt like it, and I am not using it to the full cost of it. I can get a wii and still have money to spare for saving for wedding for dd, and new grandbaby.
So saying all this negativity but truthfullness, I still am walking the dog. not much of a cardio workout as she is slooooooooooooooow. but we go. I keep saying that I will walk after alone, but my excuse this morning was I woke with an extreme sore throat, not sure why but sore it is. my other reason is my knee that I broke and my L foot giving me extreme pain. i went and purchased dr scholl inserts for my shoes and they are helping some.
I am glad I read that question and the article instead of po-pooing it away. I knew the answer, now it is time to dig deep and find out why I allow it to happen, give positive answers to the reasons why I think I can't or don't.
If my great Sp friend CJROMB can do all this as explained in her last few blogs, then by dam*ned I can too. For me I will write all my reasons and besides it a reason why it isnt true, or what I can do to counteract it. my dd will be setting the date for her wedding next year either july or sept as her fiancees brother is a professional photographer and that is all he has available allready - others have allready booked him. so I have a year or a year and few months for that, I have only till Jan to be fit for baby. and for me I am late by about 27 years - thats when I started all these promises and then started breaking them. Not very fair to me is it! why do we do this to ourselves. I am heading out to find out.... after I go down and roll around on the ball for a "few" mins. may even do some stretches.
HUGS to me, myself and I.
and to all of you...........
Sunday, June 28, 2009
What a lot of different emotions I can go through in a day! WHEW no wonder I am so tired mentally sometimes. LOL
We went RVing this weekend for the first time. We had a very good time, no tv all wkend!!!!! that is MAJOR for dh and he didnt miss it ( we have a tv in the rv so that is even more awesome!) Met a few great people and had a restful sat. ( we both ended up reading and falling asleep, some much needed relaxation for me for sure) Anyway I am digressing...........
I was having a healthy lunch ( we ate healthy all weeekend) and was sitting opposite a mirror that is on one of the long doors. Well I was shocked in how FAT I am, or how Fat I looked. I felt more fat then than naked. I saw rolls in my tshirt and a bloated belly. EW I looked terrible. That didnt get me upset just amazed.
So then again this am, ew- I sat in same place and purposely looked. LOL did I think I melted fat overnight!? So have been thinking about this off and on since.
I had planned to start back at water arobics once everything was back to normal. Well it is as normal as will be so tomorrow morning off I go. But man it is going to take more than water arobics to get this body started. I know I need some weight training. I need to learn a good wt training routine.
Then suddenly I thought I cant do this, I am too FAT look so bad. so what the h. I will resign to being this size and look the best I can at this size. I have a friend who is super turned out and very heavy. Well, thankfully that mind set didnt last long. I ate a healthy supper, and some strawberries and bberries and cool whip for dessert. then drank water and water. I decided to get in my sauna which I havent been using much. I realized that it was easier for me to sit up straight in there longer. I have such bad posture and have been working on it a lot. someone told me a cute ditty which i repeat through out the day.
ears over shoulders,
shoulders over hips
hips over ankles
thats the tips
or as a young kid said...lol
ears over shoulders
shoulders over hips
suck in your belly and
stick out your t!ts!
so realizing that some things are changing and I have control over that, reading a good SP friends blog and knowing that if she can change things in her life when at a severely low point, seeing others do it has once again got me into the sp mode. I didnt really leave it, just lost sight for a few secs.
I am ready for the pool tomorrow. This mon, wed and fri will be walk the dog, and pool. I have to work 3-11 this week till fri. I will do the pool every mon wed and fri am that I am not working. thats the best i can do with that schedule. dont think there is any in eves
Well it is after 10 and I want to get to bed to read a bit. I am also thinking of making an apt with naturopath - my insurance covers the first visit so thats a help. I have gone to a afew of his info sessions and find him very interesting and not a natural pill pusher but more into diet to see whats up
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Dh and I were discussing which type of new blind to put in the living room, now that our windows are in and that windows trim is re painted. I want 2" slats and he agrees. But the blind store is very $$. So we went to Kent and Home Depot. Saw some great ones we can afford. Here lies the issue, he loves things to look the same, and sets. I say same in living room and rec room ( windows under each other) and pull blinds in upstairs as they stop the light more. His and the store lady's comment was "you want it to look nice from the street. " the same reason you get mullions or grills in your front windows and not always the back. hm
YOU WANT IT TO LOOK NICE FROM THE STREET. How many of us do that to our bodies without realizing!!?? I know I do. You buy nice clothes and shoes, or shower with body concotions and have great hair cuts, highlights, makeup. But how many of us think of what we are doing to the insides of our bodies and how the food and drink ( and the thoughts- thats a big one with a diff. blog ! ) we put on the inside helps us?
So as I was walking the dog this morning, I started thinking about this. I have had 2 relatively good days after that terrible sick feeling day. That was certainly not a "thinking from the inside" day. but after all what we put on the inside, does show on the outside in the long run.
Hence pay a bit more for the blind and they wont be as used looking from the street after a few years. I plan to continue to care for my outer perception - to please myself, but also realize and take care of the inside. After all, we wont have an outside to care for if we dont acknowledge the inside, both mentally and physically.
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