Sat. July 11 now know I will find an alternative! LOL

Saturday, July 11, 2009

It is a fantastic day and I woke up took dog for a short walk as it is allready getting too hot for her. I then took her home, fed her and thought I will walk the track behind the house CJROMB says find something you like to do and then you will do it. Well I decided to see how fast my mile is now. I havent been walking, other than slooooooooooow dog walking. I have a cold, and my bum knees and sore feet so wasnt going to push myself. If I got 2 x around good but was aiming for 4.
Did the 4 in 17 mins so wasnt great by no means but okay and more that I did it cos at 2 thought man I am hot, I dont like this. Then said sillly it is only 2 more times and it isnt punishment. drank nearly 2 cups water too, as i started coughing. okay so now I know continue walking the neighbourhood. I may not go fast but will go longer and enjoy it more.
I am very proud to say that yesterday was again a great NO S day. I am especially impressed with myself cos work is EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING and I didnt eat when I got home. Thank you again MOMMA GRIZZ for listening to my rant! argh!
So this morning at 5 the phone rang will you work today. NO this is my weekend off, I am going from evening shift to a day shift on monday, I havent worked days yet in this facility, there are not enough staff, not enough towels, too many rules that are told then have to be somewhat changed yet memos come out to the first issue. So NO i will not come in anytime this weekend.
Not sure what all we are doing today, but know it will be clean eating. I have in my mind that I really dont want to sabotage my good 3 day streak. Today is an S day so can have some stuff. But tomorrow is also S day and we are having a bbq with kids and dad so will have fresh veggies, and fruit along with the hamburger and chicken burgers. so thats okay. may even have a cooler or glass of wine. but not going hog wild with snacks, sweets and seconds!
I am now going to go downstairs and take a look at the dvd i borrowed from library on strength training.
I decided to start tracking my streaks the three that are important to me right now but can only get the new ones to start today so even though I have 3 days of no s eating it will only show after today and if i remember to hit it! LOL oh well and I have been walking the dog for months with few days off so I know that one too. hopefully i will remember to take the time to click it so i know it updates.
I hope you all have a great day and enjoy your choices!
HUGS

  

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 7/11/2009 9:06PM

Have your wonderful weekend away from work - enjoy the bar-b-q! Kudos to you for walking. Report Inappropriate Comment

CAZ_NR_HEATHROW 7/11/2009 1:03PM

Hey CIndy for getting out and about depite the cold and gammy knee, that's good going. Enjoy your S day- a few treats need not undo all the good work you've done- just don't go overboard eh?! And grilled goodies at a BBQ are healthy enough, fill up on salads no problems. Funny you should mentions streaking (not that sort LOL) I was going to suggest it on an earlier blog but thought you'd think I was sticking my beak in Enjoy your weekend hun Luv Caz x Report Inappropriate Comment

WHITE-LOTUS 7/11/2009 10:50AM

Enjoy your S day and remember - it doesn't have to undo all your hard work. Just a taste now and then. I'm making my Kona coffee straight from Kona Hawaii! Yum I walked the dog last night and plan to do it again today. Also hope to walk with my friend. We do about 1.5 mile. 20 min. Report Inappropriate Comment

REDISCOVERINGME 7/11/2009 10:38AM

Wow! You are doing fabulously! Way to go and have and absolutely awesome bbq! Report Inappropriate Comment

CJROMB 7/11/2009 8:18AM

Congrats on getting out there! My do-anytime-cuz-I-love-it is a walk around Zilker Park Hike and Bike. Or a ride. I'm glad you found one of those, and you did it 4 times, too! WooHoo! :) What's an S day? I'm on my way out the door (it's 7:15, what am I thinking??) to go on a bike ride with a friend I met riding about a month ago. He's a lot of fun, and right now, he's my hero. He's 76, one replaced knee, one replaced ankle, and he goes faster than me on his bike. Imagine that, eh? Report Inappropriate Comment

Who is standing in your way??? I know !!!! I know !!! its' Me, Myself, and I.

Saturday, July 04, 2009

That was the question asked today. Well I just sort of laughed and said duh no brainer.............. it's me and my many fobiles. As they listed- procrastination, self critisim, perfectionism, all or nothing thinking- if i cant do what I planned then why bother. I have another one, I do a few mins of say ball exercises, or stretches etc. and then call it quits. I dont do any of it long enough to count for much. And by a few mins I mean 5-not even 10. I want to do yoga again, try pilates, and really want to learn the correct method for weights. I blame my husband for not helping me with the weights. HA!!! we have a gym membership so how come I am not going over saying I want you to show me a complete weight routine without the machines. I can then learn it with proper form and take it home. We will not be renewing our membership this year. Dh doesnt like it, and I am not using it to the full cost of it. I can get a wii and still have money to spare for saving for wedding for dd, and new grandbaby.
So saying all this negativity but truthfullness, I still am walking the dog. not much of a cardio workout as she is slooooooooooooooow. but we go. I keep saying that I will walk after alone, but my excuse this morning was I woke with an extreme sore throat, not sure why but sore it is. my other reason is my knee that I broke and my L foot giving me extreme pain. i went and purchased dr scholl inserts for my shoes and they are helping some.
I am glad I read that question and the article instead of po-pooing it away. I knew the answer, now it is time to dig deep and find out why I allow it to happen, give positive answers to the reasons why I think I can't or don't.
If my great Sp friend CJROMB can do all this as explained in her last few blogs, then by dam*ned I can too. For me I will write all my reasons and besides it a reason why it isnt true, or what I can do to counteract it. my dd will be setting the date for her wedding next year either july or sept as her fiancees brother is a professional photographer and that is all he has available allready - others have allready booked him. so I have a year or a year and few months for that, I have only till Jan to be fit for baby. and for me I am late by about 27 years - thats when I started all these promises and then started breaking them. Not very fair to me is it! why do we do this to ourselves. I am heading out to find out.... after I go down and roll around on the ball for a "few" mins. may even do some stretches.
HUGS to me, myself and I.
and to all of you...........

  

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KEIRALYNN 7/5/2009 12:56AM

Hey there it makes one wonder how our minds work, doesn't it? It is can so maddening at times but at least we can pick ourselves up and keep on trying. Even people in wheelchairs keep on trying. I just sent you an email after receving your pics of dresses. You answered one of my questions. I thought she might be getting married this year. Sending you some good strength vibes and ((((HUGS)))) Report Inappropriate Comment

LOSINGLINNDY 7/4/2009 2:09PM

You are on the right track by writing this blog and planning to write out the reasons, why they are not true and how to counteract them. Do list the reasons and answers to them even if you do just one a day. That will clear your thoughts and help put you on your chosen path. One day at a time. Report Inappropriate Comment

EUGENERUGOSA 7/4/2009 11:26AM

I was totally drawn in by the title of your blog as I am my own worst enemy too. & I am also very all or nothing & often it sabotages my progress. I think being aware is a good first step. Good luck & maybe we can both make & achieve smaller goals. Happy 4th! Tricia Report Inappropriate Comment

KEEPSAKES66 7/4/2009 10:45AM

It is easy to be your own worst enemy. everyone is right- baby steps. I started doing that this year and it is so much easier to be successful and change one habbit at a time instead of tackling them all and getting overwhelmed. Good you are walking the dog! It is a start many people don't get that much in. Pick your next area- drink enough water? Log your food? eat enought fruits and veggies? Pick one area and work on it. you are more likely to be successful in the long run which is the important piece. YOU can do it! Report Inappropriate Comment

ALEXSGIRL1 7/4/2009 9:23AM

you need to make smaller starts. i stared with i will walk around the block for 5 minutes. every day. rain or shine. i will go to the gym for twenty mins. once a week. i will eat one more fruit a day. i will bake my food or steam my food, no frying this week. easy attainable.i would not get your wii until you are able to make small goals unless you want to give it away as a present. i have been here since jan. i now walk 1 hour a day. and starting next week, health and meds, i will back to the gym for three days one hour. i eat healthy and happy. all was done by starting little steps and not giving up or in. i am healthier and happier than i have ever been. you can succeed too. if you want too. Report Inappropriate Comment

CAZ_NR_HEATHROW 7/4/2009 8:58AM

Hi Cindy Nice to see you blogging again. Well at least you're walking the dog and getting some fresh air. Don't overwhelm yourself with what you're not doing. Start by doing one thing extra a day and reward youself for the smallest change you make. Positivity breeds positivity. You'll get there. Happy 7/4- enjoy your celebrations Luv Caz x Report Inappropriate Comment

ADEVORES 7/4/2009 8:16AM

Sounds like you have identified those areas that you need to change. But don't beat yourself up too much. Even walking a slow dog is better than not walking at all. Stay positive and reward the SMALL changes that you do make. Try not to make all the changes at once. They are more sustainable if you make small changes and keep up with them. Happy Independence Day! Report Inappropriate Comment

June 30th mums birthday

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Well happy birthday mum I am sure she is in a better pain free place now. I miss her but not as hard as I thought I would. I more miss her when I think gee mum could tell me how to knit that stitch, or oh should tell mum. even though it was since xmas that I could really tell her stuff still.
dad was a tad quick and grouchy, could be the day,and also that fact that I have to sign the checks that still come from her insurance to finish paying her oxegyen etc. oh well.
so tommorw will be one month since she passed. wow seems like ages ago. strange eh.
just got home from 3-11 shift, so far so good. a lot of kinks to get worked out, more stuff has to be available for us but that will come. I work tomorrow and it being Canada day it is time and half. then work thurs and off fri. back the weekend. whew not sure about this full time work. but will love the pay for while anyway.
Guess better go as i have to soak my feet, my L heel is causing a fair bit of pain so going to see if soaking it will help. thanks to an xmas gift while back a dr schools foot soak.
night all....

  

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 7/1/2009 5:43PM

Hope you had a good sleep. Sounds like you had a good day and are looking forward to the weekend. Have a great Canada day! Time and a half - gotta love that! Report Inappropriate Comment

HADYDADUBR 7/1/2009 10:11AM

The first year without your mom is the hardest but time will heal. Memories are precious. Take care. Mary :) Report Inappropriate Comment

Stinkin thinking vs smart self talk

Sunday, June 28, 2009

What a lot of different emotions I can go through in a day! WHEW no wonder I am so tired mentally sometimes. LOL
We went RVing this weekend for the first time. We had a very good time, no tv all wkend!!!!! that is MAJOR for dh and he didnt miss it ( we have a tv in the rv so that is even more awesome!) Met a few great people and had a restful sat. ( we both ended up reading and falling asleep, some much needed relaxation for me for sure) Anyway I am digressing...........
I was having a healthy lunch ( we ate healthy all weeekend) and was sitting opposite a mirror that is on one of the long doors. Well I was shocked in how FAT I am, or how Fat I looked. I felt more fat then than naked. I saw rolls in my tshirt and a bloated belly. EW I looked terrible. That didnt get me upset just amazed.
So then again this am, ew- I sat in same place and purposely looked. LOL did I think I melted fat overnight!? So have been thinking about this off and on since.
I had planned to start back at water arobics once everything was back to normal. Well it is as normal as will be so tomorrow morning off I go. But man it is going to take more than water arobics to get this body started. I know I need some weight training. I need to learn a good wt training routine.
Then suddenly I thought I cant do this, I am too FAT look so bad. so what the h. I will resign to being this size and look the best I can at this size. I have a friend who is super turned out and very heavy. Well, thankfully that mind set didnt last long. I ate a healthy supper, and some strawberries and bberries and cool whip for dessert. then drank water and water. I decided to get in my sauna which I havent been using much. I realized that it was easier for me to sit up straight in there longer. I have such bad posture and have been working on it a lot. someone told me a cute ditty which i repeat through out the day.
ears over shoulders,
shoulders over hips
hips over ankles
thats the tips
or as a young kid said...lol
ears over shoulders
shoulders over hips
suck in your belly and
stick out your t!ts!

so realizing that some things are changing and I have control over that, reading a good SP friends blog and knowing that if she can change things in her life when at a severely low point, seeing others do it has once again got me into the sp mode. I didnt really leave it, just lost sight for a few secs.
I am ready for the pool tomorrow. This mon, wed and fri will be walk the dog, and pool. I have to work 3-11 this week till fri. I will do the pool every mon wed and fri am that I am not working. thats the best i can do with that schedule. dont think there is any in eves
Well it is after 10 and I want to get to bed to read a bit. I am also thinking of making an apt with naturopath - my insurance covers the first visit so thats a help. I have gone to a afew of his info sessions and find him very interesting and not a natural pill pusher but more into diet to see whats up
cya tomorrow!!!
HUGS

  

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 6/29/2009 9:04PM

That's wonderful that you went RVing! Must have felt great! Sounds like you have a very good plan and kudos to you for not giving in to the urge to take the easy route. This journey is for health and you are doing all the right things to make it yours! Kudos to you! Report Inappropriate Comment

SHARONSPARKLE 6/29/2009 9:32AM

I'm happy to see you were able to go out and enjoy some RVing! Negative self talk leads many of us astray. Look in the mirror if you must, but see things you truly like about yourself. You'll be amazed at how much better you treat the person in the mirror. Report Inappropriate Comment

CAZ_NR_HEATHROW 6/29/2009 5:42AM

Hi Cindy Yes it can be hard stopping yourself being negative but you did it. You are a positive person and you will achieve your goals I have no doubt. Be the good friend to yourself who cheers you on and you can climb the highest hill. Have a great week Luv Caz xx Report Inappropriate Comment

KEIRALYNN 6/29/2009 4:38AM

Great plans. I'm trying very hard to put my words in to action this week. Glad you were able to get away and relax Report Inappropriate Comment

LOSINGLINNDY 6/28/2009 11:31PM

Good for you for shaking those negative feelings and setting some healthful goals. Go for the GOLD! Report Inappropriate Comment

GERRYB54 6/28/2009 10:08PM

Glad to hear you finally got your RV out for some relaxation time...then those thoughts appear! Keep working at it, you'll make it... Report Inappropriate Comment

A different analogy.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Dh and I were discussing which type of new blind to put in the living room, now that our windows are in and that windows trim is re painted. I want 2" slats and he agrees. But the blind store is very $$. So we went to Kent and Home Depot. Saw some great ones we can afford. Here lies the issue, he loves things to look the same, and sets. I say same in living room and rec room ( windows under each other) and pull blinds in upstairs as they stop the light more. His and the store lady's comment was "you want it to look nice from the street. " the same reason you get mullions or grills in your front windows and not always the back. hm

YOU WANT IT TO LOOK NICE FROM THE STREET. How many of us do that to our bodies without realizing!!?? I know I do. You buy nice clothes and shoes, or shower with body concotions and have great hair cuts, highlights, makeup. But how many of us think of what we are doing to the insides of our bodies and how the food and drink ( and the thoughts- thats a big one with a diff. blog ! ) we put on the inside helps us?
So as I was walking the dog this morning, I started thinking about this. I have had 2 relatively good days after that terrible sick feeling day. That was certainly not a "thinking from the inside" day. but after all what we put on the inside, does show on the outside in the long run.
Hence pay a bit more for the blind and they wont be as used looking from the street after a few years. I plan to continue to care for my outer perception - to please myself, but also realize and take care of the inside. After all, we wont have an outside to care for if we dont acknowledge the inside, both mentally and physically.

  

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CAZ_NR_HEATHROW 6/26/2009 4:15AM

Cindy I love your analogy- window dressing is excessive, it's what's on the inside that counts. Luv Caz xx Report Inappropriate Comment

MOMMA_GRIZZ 6/25/2009 7:17PM

That's a very good way to think about it - I like that. It goes with the saying ' we are what we eat'..... Report Inappropriate Comment

GERRYD8784 6/25/2009 11:57AM

Good analogy! I like your thinking, Cindy. It's been a while since I've "seen" you, so I'm glad this new Friend Feed feature has brought us back in touch. Hope all is well with you. Report Inappropriate Comment