Friday, December 07, 2012
I honestly can't believe it is 65 days since we have gotten Allie. She is learning a lot and doing better, growing a lot too 27lbs now at 4 months on the 3rd of this month. Funny to watch her with 2 toys at the same time, Must get some new pics of her.
Well still not what I would call depressed but blah. I wanted to do a bit of decorating tonight, but can't get at the cupboard to get the stuff out for paint and stuff in the lower hall.
Did drive the crew to the legion stayed for one pop and visit as dd friend and her hubby were there too. Then I came home and walked allie, fed her and myself then went and picked them up. Was fine then read a few blogs got blah lol sometimes it really doesn't take much. Hubby swears I am bi polar cos I get so down but I don't have highs and no other tendencies just feel low fast and it goes usually fast even within half hr. If I am down just look at decorating mags and I will be fine most time.
Got winter boots, most were on sale but did find one pair on sale that felt good, then tried some others then baack to them and my toes on my L foot felt squished. Finally found a pr not in love with the look but they didn't hurt anywhere and with the square toe box I have ( my toes are all nearly the same length I don't have the reg shaped foot, and it is wide and high instep I am so happy if whatevr is on my foot doesnt hurt. Also hubby found a warm pr of slippers so now my feet shouldn't ache.
Biggest new of the day.. Long term called. Asked how I was, etc. told her that I had to get a knee replacement... ohhhhh. Then said that the functional assesment was done, that she suggested I may never be able to get back to that job but should be assesssed to do 3-4 hrs a day 4 days a week... sedentary. I said well interesting, cos she dint' have me sit for any length of time or do any type of desk things and I can't sit long cos of my back. OH are you still going to chiro... NO I told you I haven't the $$ for it. Oh maye they will give you a discount, hello maybe since I have said that my back is much worse since no chiro... you can give me more chiro. anyway. So wondering what will come of this now that I have to get my knee done told her 1.5 years to wait and 9 months to year to recuperate.
Some of the people at the legion told me to call and say you want on his cancellation list and maybe can get done in 5 months. So think once spring starts I may do this, I really don't want it done in winter. ( but who knows they may call me next winter so whatever). I told the guy who has both knees done at the same time who is 65. that I wanted time to strengthen and stuff he said yea and write that letter, and clean the house, and go visit and ..... lol he said I know what you are doing. I said oh yea for sure terrified, but do want more strength.
DD friend said tonight at the legion, so xmas eve your house right? I said well I am living in boxes, haven't any decorations, but give me a week and let me see, DD said we can do it at my house. Anyway will see.
Talking to dil today for what all they want. and having a problem getting Thomas boots, he has a high instep and wide feet ( gee sound familiar?) so told her instead of grampa ( dad) giving them a gift cert to a certain store, then he can give $ towards his boots. She said great. So will get Eva more clothes from dad and then give Anna $ as she said she wants some new stuff and that is fine. Lisa still no idea, mabye can of paint.
Told dad tonight I would take the $ for my boots, and the gifst out of his account, he said okay and what about chris and Mike I said you got them the heaters... oh yea wellllllll. LOL Geesh scrooge then forgets LOL
Well best go check the flyers and see what all is on sale that I can get for them. I will go to the local bookstore and get both kids a book and she said they didnt need toys. So will do the book instead.
Thanks for reading, feel better now and hope you all had a great day and have a super weekend. HUGS
Thursday, December 06, 2012
Okay in a foul mood so just don't read or ignore most of this as it will pass. Fitbit says I ddin't sleep well so perhaps that is some, haven't slept well in a few weeks. Need a night of not waking 10-16 times a night either to fix the pillow between my legs, or to try to roll or move without pain in my back or knees. whatever I want to sleep.
Got the puppy walked x2, wasn't in the mood but what can you do, she needs to go out, the back yard isn't ready so whatever. Now stop being like that, cos thanks to those walks you have lost wt, and had some good fun walks. Glad she is asleep now. lol
My house is driving me NUTS. Still a mess, still boxes still needs a adeeeeeeeep clean. and time is awasting... I have no interest in the holidays most years this one is worse. I find it so friggin commercialized and actually foolish. Why should I pay $ for a house for my bil to decorate with when he has over 140 and next year may not even put them up. Why should we wrack our brains for something for sil who has a shoppiong addiction and needs for nothing. Lets just say glad they draw names on hubbys side cos if I had to buy for them all omg. now mil got her a gift cert cos she wants to start oil painting again. Dad no idea maybe an ereader as books are getting heavy. US well the new chair, and got hubby 2 flanel shirts and me a pr of slippers and a top. We will do that and have it for xmas.
kids no idea.. may give dd and her hubby $ to go towards the puppys vet bill. Other kids and grandkiids no idea. Got Thomas and Eva an outifit and will find a toy present. Ds wants to borrow our wii as dil thinks thomas will like it. Good grief. whatever.
As I said in a diff post, I am not a grouch, but never have had the xmas spirit, I swore I wouldn't be like this as my mum HATED putting up the tree, decorating etc. asnd now the past few years I could care less. in fact I actually thought OMG wish we could be in the RV away from all this and you all know how much I am unsure about that.
OKAY RANT OVER. Tody is going to be a good day, I will get some work done on this house, I will find time for me. I think that is part of it, seems always something, wake up to dog wanting out, dad wanting socks on... that isn't much but seems to be getting to me that I am resenting it. So today when hubby gets up, I am going to do my knee exercises, and get in the shower...
After I am hoping he will organize a bit of the shed so he can take more stuff out therre then perhaps we can doa bit down stairs. Later he has to give blood at 1 something then will do nothing as he will be tired and they say nothing streneous.
Sigh........ hate these type of days but it is in me to turn it around. Now don't even have time to check emails gotta go finish what I was doing before I started complaining.
LOL I will make it better, and sorry for being a grouch, and blah. I am thankful for the things that count...
the measure of health I have, and my family has ( that coud be worse for sure)
the amount of money I do have
my kids and grandkids
Allie who makes me move and laugh and is learning to stay down when not excited etc. and to heel a bit.
Dr who can helpwith my knee
insurance that will start back up in Jan so I can go to chiro again.... want to e stretched.
and now turn this off and get stuff done.
Wednesday, December 05, 2012
Damp and not a great day pain wise, but we still have to walk, well Allie thinks so LOL She would have went for a nice long walk this eve, as it is fairly mild but my knees are sore. Busy girl some eves she sleeps most of the evening and then goes to bed no problem, others she wants to play or run or just sit ON you. lol
DD has found out that Zuri, Allies sister, hasn't any serious kidney problems, but they still aren't sure why the bladder infec. or UTi as soon as she isn't on any meds. So blood work today and then mabye a test where they sedate her and get the urine from her bladder... aww and $$$.
Got the backsplash area and the other wall of the "living room area" of dads part. Now hubby has to make more room in the shed for the remaining tools and we can get it more organized. At least put up his table. He will be glad I am sure, as will we. Had him come up for supper as he has no food down there and no hotplate yet to work with.
Tomorrow hubby has to donate blood in the afternoon, so not much then. Perhaps a bit before he goes. I hope but think it is to rain not sure. I just want the door to his bedroom on, the trim up so he can put on the closet doors and then I don't care cos the big stuff is out of my way.
BUT dad better get on the ball, the woman ( older than I am) that works for that agency that is to houseleeping right now, has to be there 3 hrs 2x wk and dads bedroom floor needs to be swept and washed but really swept, murray mentioned it to him, he agreed and yet all she did cos thats what he wanted.... was the dishes. then she sat and looked at pics on line with him of my daugthers brother in laws photo studio. ARGH i went down this am to put his support hose on and said eww she didnt do well sweeping. she didnt I didnt ask... OMG you can see crumbs infront of his dresser etc. Well we will be making a schedule if he can't think for himself. I will not have animals or bugs cos he doesn't care. ARGH
Okay rant over, now going to get a nice cup of tea. Cya later! OH btw someone asked... and YES i am still doing my knee exercises!
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
Day 62 of my walking streak and lots to think about.
Well just back from seeing the knee spec. He showed me the exrays and yes the R knee is a fair bit bone on bone on the inner side, and also some on the top ( which explains the flipping feeling) he did say so what do you want to do. Our province no longer goes by the age 60 rule which is good. Also said that I am young ( 56 new years eve) but quality of life is what we talk about. He got me to lift my leg and straighten it and I thought it was straight but no, and I allready knew the flexion is very poor to go back( ie under a chair etc). He said it is up to me, have me the the "what can happen - blood clots, inner and outer infection, wearing of parts, moving of parts ( eeek) etc) Also said the pain is extreme I mentioned I found the scoping of my knee bad, he smiled said well then this is about 150% worse OMG!!!!
So I mentioned I started doing pre surg. exercises, said Great continue, they can only help and also even though your knee will not "get better' or grow new bone or cartlige the xercises can make your leg and knee stronger so that the pain doesn't get worse faster, or doesnt' feel worse which can put surg. on hold longer ( as I am young for the surg).
I said okay...........he said so make your mind let my sec. know and we will go from there, but there is a year to year and half waiting list.... YES!!!! I wanted to not have to be rushed, to get my legs stronger, lose wt, etc. Also said that if I change my mind cos the pain is no worse, or better ec. I can say no, then if in a year or whatever it is bad again come back and get put on the list but do go to the bottom which would make a year or two wait again.
SO for now I am eeeek oh the list, terrified but on the list. Hubby said had I come out and they had offered it and I had refused he said I think I would have hit you LOL he then said to dd if she changes her mind and is in as much pain as she is... then I will leave but he was smiling! LOL
Okay so today we are going to go to costco get dog food, eggs whatever else. I am also going to continue reading whole 30 . I was going to start that now but know I am not ready, I am not deciding to eat tons at xmas, or anything may not even back half of the way less that i did last year, that all depends on the state of this house! But do know that I don't want to be starting and stopping as that doesn't help anything. So will continue to eat as well s have been the past week and learn till the new year.
I am going to contiue the leg exercises, and Know that my leg can only get stronger. Also going to really learn and implement other strength exercises. So now have some goals which i will be thinking on and making concrete in the new year!
Even though I am terrified, I am hoping that with more care of myself, I can put it off for a few more years but if not then I also know I will be in better shape for surgery and after within a years time.
Now gotta go pick up dd as she is going with us to costco.
HUGS all be back later!!
Monday, December 03, 2012
Although I have not been as far as I was the other week. I honestly don't know what gave me such great numbers, didn't seem to be walking further. But know it has been cold and damp so yesterday and today haven't been near as far. Also she is sleeping more, guess a growing spurt again as she would eat and sleep and then play hard lol
We are driving dad to hosptial in a bit, he has a test to be done, and wants us to take him, he then insists on going out for supper cos "he" doesn't want to drive in traffic. Funny we are taking our car and we both can do the traffic. Oh well my kitchen will stay clean longer.
Tomorrow is knee spec. day, curious if he says wait longer, or go on list, or put on list now. I hope not the last as I don't want to have it done now. Much rather when all the renos and stuff is done, we have a bathroom on this floor and the weather is better. Oh well sure I will find out., maybe I won't even be ready yet.....
Hear dad moving around down there, he was having a nap when dd went down. She and I went out to shop but we ended up at the fruit and veggie store only LOL well good choice and I met up with an old work friend so had a great chat.
Best go get ready. Going to take a book with me, as hubby will use the phone and I can read. Dad said it takes an hr on the table. can't remember what it is he is having done.
HUGS and hope you all have a great evening!
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