Monday, June 04, 2012
I have been thinking, I read a spark persons blogs and she is always commenting on power of positive and thinking things will happen and they will. Well she isn't doing so great, and neither am I. Now I am certainly not knocking positivity by no means, but am thinking you know even with al this talk these days about things like the secret, and mind over matter like my background says, you still have to do the work, walk the talk not just talk the walk so to speak.
I have had a good year for the most part, have lost 20 lbs, the most I have lots in ages I have also gained 6 of that back. Somehow I started with the junk again ( my vice is cookies, and soft chewy candy- yea choc but not as much) One pkg comes in cos company is coming, or hubby wanted them ect. I eat them like they are never going to be here again. duh...
So I speak of clean, healthy eating, primal to a point but am I walking the talk? No not really so even though we are diff this sparkperson and I, we are doing the same thing. Which led me to think of dr phil who is known for abnd hows that working??
Well it isn't. So today I am getting the house in order. I know that I can't have cookies in here, right now I haven't the willpower, or motivation to ignore them. I don't think I will never have them again, but for the most part, they will be way low on the foods I want to feed my body.
I have read countless blogs and pages on how a vast majority of sparkers who have done well and made this a "lifestyle change" not just in words, find that they don't want to eat that "junk".
I keep saying I don't want processed, and such yet I continue to feed my body this type of junk. I felt better when eating more healthy choices.
I also think if I am tired of hearing the same ole, stuff day in day out, on how I can or can't do it, what are my friends thinking. here she goes again............. that is what I think when I read someone that keeps on doing wht I do. I give them full credit for starting and starting but when is it just a start, when you start at 8 am , screw up by 10 re start the next day or even a few hrs after. I want it to be a choice that I want not one that is "inflicted" on me.
So I asked this spark person today, how about we both change what we are continually doing and find a diff way. Cos her way of positiveness and cheat days aren't working for her. and my way of having cookies in the house don't work for me! LOL so hubby will lose again too. lol
Tomorrow my dd will be 32. I am taking today to get things in order and then tomorrow will be start over again. HATE that with passion, yes it is failure to me but I know I know starting over is better than not. BUT.
I am envisioning this as making my body healthy and fit I am thinking what would I feed a baby - nt junk my kids got so much good foods ( stuff I wouldn't eat myself but fed them cos it was good for them ). My body is now my baby, it is up to me to make it a healthy, happy place for me to live in. I will be happier in mind and spirit if I know I am doing the best to make my body a better place to live.
Guess again it all comes down to BEMORESTUBBORN and
"What will you do today, to make your tomorrow a better, healthier day for you!
So reading that sparkperson's blog and getting frustrated at seeing her not do well yet again, has really put the shoe on MY foot. I will treat this body well, take care of it and love it.
Now to go brush my teeth, dentist today! LOL
HUGS and hope we all can take care of our inners and outer beings.