Monday, June 04, 2012
I have been thinking, I read a spark persons blogs and she is always commenting on power of positive and thinking things will happen and they will. Well she isn't doing so great, and neither am I. Now I am certainly not knocking positivity by no means, but am thinking you know even with al this talk these days about things like the secret, and mind over matter like my background says, you still have to do the work, walk the talk not just talk the walk so to speak.
I have had a good year for the most part, have lost 20 lbs, the most I have lots in ages I have also gained 6 of that back. Somehow I started with the junk again ( my vice is cookies, and soft chewy candy- yea choc but not as much) One pkg comes in cos company is coming, or hubby wanted them ect. I eat them like they are never going to be here again. duh...
So I speak of clean, healthy eating, primal to a point but am I walking the talk? No not really so even though we are diff this sparkperson and I, we are doing the same thing. Which led me to think of dr phil who is known for abnd hows that working??
Well it isn't. So today I am getting the house in order. I know that I can't have cookies in here, right now I haven't the willpower, or motivation to ignore them. I don't think I will never have them again, but for the most part, they will be way low on the foods I want to feed my body.
I have read countless blogs and pages on how a vast majority of sparkers who have done well and made this a "lifestyle change" not just in words, find that they don't want to eat that "junk".
I keep saying I don't want processed, and such yet I continue to feed my body this type of junk. I felt better when eating more healthy choices.
I also think if I am tired of hearing the same ole, stuff day in day out, on how I can or can't do it, what are my friends thinking. here she goes again............. that is what I think when I read someone that keeps on doing wht I do. I give them full credit for starting and starting but when is it just a start, when you start at 8 am , screw up by 10 re start the next day or even a few hrs after. I want it to be a choice that I want not one that is "inflicted" on me.
So I asked this spark person today, how about we both change what we are continually doing and find a diff way. Cos her way of positiveness and cheat days aren't working for her. and my way of having cookies in the house don't work for me! LOL so hubby will lose again too. lol
Tomorrow my dd will be 32. I am taking today to get things in order and then tomorrow will be start over again. HATE that with passion, yes it is failure to me but I know I know starting over is better than not. BUT.
I am envisioning this as making my body healthy and fit I am thinking what would I feed a baby - nt junk my kids got so much good foods ( stuff I wouldn't eat myself but fed them cos it was good for them ). My body is now my baby, it is up to me to make it a healthy, happy place for me to live in. I will be happier in mind and spirit if I know I am doing the best to make my body a better place to live.
Guess again it all comes down to BEMORESTUBBORN and
"What will you do today, to make your tomorrow a better, healthier day for you!
So reading that sparkperson's blog and getting frustrated at seeing her not do well yet again, has really put the shoe on MY foot. I will treat this body well, take care of it and love it.
Now to go brush my teeth, dentist today! LOL
HUGS and hope we all can take care of our inners and outer beings.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Sitting here with pain in my butt, calf, and top of my left foot. Feels as if the end of the chair is cutting my leg or whatever as that is where the pain starts. ARGH it is really painful. I don't know what to do. Hubby suggested putting my laptop back on the stand and use the keyboard, not sure what that is supposed to do for my butt, but since he said I won't even try I went and got it. So far I just can't see the screen as well as it is farther away. lol
Ds came over after work and helped with the shed. Sides are all up, roof is 3/4 up he helped put the big pcs on and the rest hubby can do with my help. So still have to get the doors on, not sure if he will need someone to hold them besides me or what.
Dad sent a nice pic of mum and some words but I can't read it all. I do see that at the bottom he has put all our names, even anna and the kids. I am so pleased that he put her too.
Tomorrow will be 3 years.... seems longer, seems just yesterday. I miss her especially when i want to say OMG Thomas looks so much like Chris. his eys and his smile. what a boy and Eva is such a tiny sweet baby. Just things to tell her.
Well tomorrow we have to run to the store as we didnt' get there today for sil to otther sil lol
Also dd is off and will want to go too probably then we are goign to legion with dad. Hope he is okay - Chris is planning to go but who knows after being here till 8 pm she wasn't too impressed when chris asked me to call and said be a bit longer, I hve 2 whinny kids and would like him to be home when he said. Well soooooooooooooorrry it took longer. geesh he is rarelly here. Anyway he wasn't worried about it. lol
Okay going to get off to bed and read for while. I don't know what to do for the pain. But have slept better the past 2 nights, found when i wake I think wow nothing is hurting. I want to make dr apt and suggest that perhaps there is something going on beside my back cos fo the pain in the front of hip thigh area. Have an apt for august.
HEY maybe I should stop procrastinating about the physio and massge apts. I will call tomorrow I will..............
Okay have a great night, day where ever you are! HUGS you all are the best.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Well I have new inspiration................ as the saying goes if she can do it so can I. what motivation and she is really doing it!!!
Thanks new spark friend!!! I wanted all my friends to see this not just those I fwd posts to.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Well some of you may be in a heat wave, but here it was 8 degrees today C but still very cold. Damp, showers and darn cold. Felt like fall was on its way.
LOL and Dil gave Thomas a summer hair cut yesterday cos he sweats so much. It makes him look so very much older. and he is actually smiling for the camera instead of looking at the tv.
Dad and I went out with hubby for hubbys 54th biday. Had a good time, made a cake mix cake with store icing cos that is what hubby chose. OMG so not primal! His sister that lives near us will be over soon. We went to the store then home for the rest of the day. I had taken my brace off for a bit when I changed clothes, forgot to put it back on and didn't realize till I was off my street and down a bit on my walk. So decided to see how it would be without the brace.
Know now that I need it to walk, I wasn't able to go fast, had to stop to rub it, and the small hill down was like okay half way down I will go on this side street cos it eliminates the hill. So note to self WEAR Brace esp on a walk.
my L leg and calf have been sore most of the day. Really noticible when I stand in one spot at sink in bathroom the most, that is where I noticed it in the very beginning. has to be the way I stand. Hubby says well walk around when you brush your teeth, you have electric brush anyway. so joyinky walk again lol
Well guess I better go and decide what I am going to do for exercise this eve later on. Extra blanket on the bed this eve. Hope all sleep well and enjoy your evening or whatever time of day it is!
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Well I had such a fantastic day yesterday. Picked up wiigarden-nymph and we went to other side of Halifax and met up with NSMOOMAA. Was like we knew each other forever. Sat at starbucks and chatted for 2 hrs. When we were leaving, I wasn't able to get my camera to work ( duh cell phone and was only moving the thing wrong way ) but Carol had a camera so some police officers were there so one took our pics. Was a great time.
Okay gottta go wake up hubby, have some breakfast and dd called wants me to sew something so may go over there with machine or here. will see. but either way going over to visit the babes.
I could walk, but have allready walked dog, and me. lol so shouldn't walk again till this eve.
Okay cya later on Have a super great day. Anjay fingers xed so thing work out for rent to own!
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