Monday, April 09, 2012
Well it isn't even 9 pm but been a very long evening for me. I am blah, sore, tired, hurt, just tired of it all. Interesting how much pain affects everything and how not being in pain for while lowers your tolerance when it rears its ugly head again.
My back has been not as bad but still barely tolerable some days and since I stopped work. That amazingly enough was May 30th wow almost a year! geeesh.Of course my leg knee were issues and still are to a point. I have done so much better since my brace and now that my back is hurting so bad, I just am frustrated.
I am really also questioning this "diet" biz. I am sick and tired of finding it so hard, - now I am not saying hard in the I don't want it to be hard, I just want it to be done... kind of way. I am saying that I feel as if I am making it harder than it should be. Eat healthy, exercise, and lose wt. Well we have all been taught that but seems as if that doesn't work for everyone, now granted I also haven't been able to exercise much in past 2 years at least, other than off and on walking and bike. I have read about the grain stuff and agree, it isn't what our parents/grandparents even some of us ate. it is so genetically modified and gross that it isn't healthy. I am doing not bad not eating but just feel as if I am not doing it right. Supposed to know if I am getting enough carbs, from the right sources, protein ( find it hard to know how much and that veggies will give me enough but eat meat anyway) and fat and then the right amt of the right type. OMG driving myself crazy.
Now some is the pain, and was going to go for walk, but hurts to move. then was going to go to bed cos thats what I feel like but if I go to bed now, I will be in such pain by midnight from laying still. So used my daily walking as exercise cos it was tough enough.
Now that the venting, poor me, pity party is over....... cos there really isn't areason for it. I can walk, move, talk, ect. I am going to ever ever so slowly get down on the yoga mat and stretch.
So am thankful that I am not worse that I am....
okay cya strrrrrrrrrrrrretccccccccccccccch. OUCH but feels so good.
Sunday, April 08, 2012
Happy Easter all.
Well had everything ready before, it all was ready at the right time and a good meal was had by all. And boy oh boy was Thomas in a great mood. he came in said HI great big smile and off he ran. Our downstairs ( well up too) is all connected,so he ran into dining around in the kitchen into living room, repeat repeat for almost 30 min top speed, laughing and everyonce in while stop, open a cupboard door and say oh wow, close it and take off. Funny but whew can he ever wear you out when you aren't used to him! LOL then he decided to go upstairs, one, two, three, five, six nine ten. sstops half way up to clap for himself. and then with his dad this time he ran into bedroom, through the bath, down the hall and again then found the big ball in exercise room and rolled that from room to room. lol
Eva she sat and smiled and then decided to not like her uncle mike for while then was content to be on the floor.
Marlo our dog just laid there except when T decided to dump her water bowl onto the rimmed plastic tray and then he wiped the water from the tray to the rug. she sat and just looked at him then me as if what is he doing! lol that is the only thing he got into - granted we spent a while moving all the plants, anad gadgets. lol
So good meal, family and fun. Dad as we figured, opted to be 'too tired" so convieniently as he did when was time to go to Chris. I just say whatever now. Took him some supper and that was fine.
Now to go rest. My back is sore, from getting supper and then got the kitchen all cleaned up. Had a great healthy meal and will say ate, buttercup squash, carrots, sweet ptoatoes roasted, they were okay. and for the 4th time tried asparagus this time under the broiler and still a huge huge YUK! all the while dd saying omg these are so great. OH YUK .
well gotta go, dog majesty just called, she is out in the snow.
cya have a great sleep and on to a brand new week!!
Saturday, April 07, 2012
Okay very frustrated at myself and a tad angry. I have gained and gone to my original wt for the challege 187.4 yea it is still better than in the 90s to 200 that I was but I am saying bring on 185. WOnder what my inner mind is thinking cos sure aren't working ( food wise ) to get there. I am eating okay but getting the munchies. YOu would think with how busy I am, I wouldn't be munching but yea I have, when I stop I immediately go to the kitchen and browse....... what's up with this!?? I want to know why. This makes me think of ELiz RN who writes her blogs about talking to your inner self and finding out what is really going on.
As far as I can think nothing, 185 was what I weighed for years till my hysterectomy. I have no love to that number, wasn't like I was super sexy, or anything there, I want to reach 185 then 167. I was 167 after I had dd 31 years ago. When NOT IF WHEN I hit 166 I will be in awe!
So come on way in there, catch up with the other mind. Cos for my health I have to do this, never mind if you are nervous, worried, scared to change ( don't think I am thinkign those just guessing here), it will all be for the better.
I have a great healthy menu for Sunday, a ton of veggies, and yes the salty ham but I do boil it first to get a lot of the salt out.
I have even been walking, and drinking my water. Will say had I been more diligent in tracking ( usually got breakfast tracked) I may have lost. Thinking it can be the lunch and supper I had out on Thurs. not the best choices for supper.
Okay I know what to do, how to fix it, so heres to the next week. Now go and do better, try harder at the food, continue with the exercise and water and keep on trying.
HUGS and have a super Sat.
Have a super sat. I will eat all healthy I promise ME and you!!!
Friday, April 06, 2012
Sun is up, didn't feel too cold when I let the dog out. Didn't sleep well again last night, fall asleep okay but wake so often. Last night my knee and hip were a tad twingy like when I lay on that side too long. Okay cos didn't expect nothing from walkign that far. lol This am as soon as I had my brace I am not bad. I do think I will make a chiro apt. and physio along with the massage, as my back is bothering me more. I don't think it is helping with the house but the walking so want to get that helped rather than hinder it. I so love my walking and have missed it.
Today hopefully we are going to Thomas and Eva to bring the Secret Garden. LOL it is nothing super amazing Caz! but he will enjoy it. At our house in the country we had a real secret garden, I do miss my country house.
I was reading a post on fb from a friend of my kids, we hung around with their parents when we lived in BC. Well she and hubby want some vacation or move to country land and in BC you need mega $$$$$ to do so. She jokingly said lets move to PEI ( totally across country), she sent him a link, applied for a job and hears back soon. So they put their house on the market and are having a showing allready without the sign up even. She said their dream has been to have a hobby farm and get back to nature and somewhat self sufficient. I sure hope they do as I was so happy for them. I don't want a farm, but the rest sounds awesome. She is 34 and has 2 little ones.
Hope you all have a great Good Friday and enjoy whatever you do on this day off for most. Enjoy!!!
Tuesday, April 03, 2012
Do any of you remember the story Roger Podgers crazy mixed up day? I read it to my son a lot. Well today is going to be Cindys super,great, happy, get things done day! Cos I deemed today such a day. lol
It is sunny, but cool, we have things to do outside the house which always seem to take time, but we are not waiting for dads car to be done so hopefully will get back here and get more done. That's the plan anyway.
I am going to write this, and get started painting as I have till 11 before we leave. I have eaten and charted my breakfast, have my water bottle ready and will empty it 2x today for sure. I am eating better, yet found another lb again. So only thing been slack on is water, yet when we did that as a challenge I was able to do so. Now am focusing on adding my water back in and charting as haven't held my end of the team up well there.
Okay off I go let dog in, and stir up the paint!
cya Hope you all chose to have a super day in whichever way you need!
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