Wednesday, February 01, 2012
Now I feel gross, I was craving sweet haven't had sweet in 9 days, not a carb other than fruit... so said I turned down bday cake etc. I will have a hot choc and put less choc but still BLECH and YUK and now I am sad. Not just cos I frigged with my streak and my plans but cos I literally feel rotten drinking it.
Also, makes me frustrated that it was stress that did it, Stress that I am placing on myself totally unecessarly. totally I am thinking constantly about that house. We have an apt for us to go see it tomorrow at 1. I want that house and haven't even see inside, what may or maynot need to be done, if it is big enough, if dad will have room, ettc. and a huge 2 if dad wants to go there, and the bank. so why even stress about it. To the point of if we put in an offer and they accept it pending selling ours, then what if they get a diff offer and we sell ours, then we will be in the same predicament that we were with the one in country, now we have to sell and only 2 that we can afford. Then what cos the one we want will have to fit dad and us and have outside access that dad can get in etc.... but why worry about that we haven't even seen this one. I just know it is only 5 mins from outskirts of city ( 5 mins from where we live) and it is like the country, has some wooded, 80 ft of waterfront... a few back streets to walk the dog on, I just want to be there. It is the best of the "woods- our other dream" and being close to dr and kids. I am sure dad won't care but not sure about all the rest. Also we bought the truck today, awesome deal so fine, but here I am at 55 worried cos dad will always have something to say. always negative and always have to defend ourselves. so I drank choc. better than eating carbs, but wow what a sugar rush that wasn't even good.Pick self up, learn not to get hot choc. but was sick of green tea. And had allready gone to my yoga mat, had lit my candles, even had a nap and a cry. Man I can get down so fast and mostly over nothing or something that isn't in my control.
Anyway just blogging.................... so bored, hungry, dont want to do anything that i have on my papers. and just realized I had broke my streak for exercise of 10 mins day when my back was so bad. I could have done upper but then realized nope anyway I moved it hurt.
OKAY pity party over, we took ds out for his 34th bday and had a great visit, and good time. He quit his 2nd job for a diff. one and is pleased and had some other good news too. so was a nice time, ate well not too much and all primal.
of going to go I don't know what, even hubby said what is wrong, are you goign to cry??? haven't been like this in long while. hmmmmmmm maybe sugar did it all along when I used to blame hormones ?
how about a huge collective ah SH!T not even excited about the truck cos knowing dad will be neg. has always taken the happiness out of vehicles and that is dumb cos that is my take on it.
AH SH!T again.
hugs and back to reg. programing and better signal later! LOL
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Okay no idea why it won't work the other way, cos I can open it , my dd can but no matter I will try to this...
now hope that works, and this is only cos we are interested in this one, not sure about anything yet, just wanted you to see.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
I am having a good day despite the back pain... It is a tad better but still there when I move a certain way or get up from a chair.
We went to the rv show but was a waste of $$ as there were only 3 motorhomes, so we then went for lunch, funny how we always have a great time and chat when we go out. I had baked halibut and veggie and tea so very pleased! especially since it twas on a whim to go out.
Then we get home, talking about cars vs trucks, vs motor home, vs keeping trailer. Then he says you do realize that cos the bills are paid we can still sell this house and look for something else. Well I guess I knew it but at the same time, figured we had it all organized, I am thinking that with my back so bad, hubby is wondering about this 3 level house even with a bath on this floor. He did say that he is willing to find something that we would stay in that is just outside the city and then fix it some if need be depending on price. So been looking again cos I love doing that anyway. Found one in a very good price just 2 streets over and if we fixed it up some etc. would sell for a lot as the houses around there are much more. I said to hubby wonder why this is lower, think cos it is smaller.
But just playing around, more houses will come on the market in the next month or so. I didn't see too many that I would like, about 4 maybe. anyway.......
We walked about 1.5 hrs at the rv show but we also didn't go fast so am only going to take about 20 mins to post as my walk today.
So a good day, tomorrow we take dad to dr, he is having something taken off his leg and we aren't sure if he will need a ddrive so just going with him. He is going to want to go to tims, so I will have a green tea and nothing else! I can do that. then not sure what else to do, maybe we will go drive to see these 3 houses as a driveby. I am not sure as it is supposed to snow but not much. Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyy just going day to day but doing well.
Still doing well on my primal diet stuff and learning lots. A few new spark friends have been doing this type for while and am learning about books, websites, and podcasts. Interesting stuff.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Had a cute conversation with dil today, she had rice krispie square ( which ds dosn't eat or let Thomas have much of) anyway she was sitting with her coffee and a square, Thomas says mmmm, mmmmm, so Anna says what do you say ( trying to teach please and thank you) he says want some? cos they say to him want some when giving him supper. she laughed said say please, he said pe. she gave him some and it continued want some?? so it was gone and he looked at her coffee she said NO hot, it is coffee and hot. He says ohhhh, then looks in the cup and say PLEASE. lol so she got up and gave him his sippy cup. Shows that he can talk, but I think just can't be bothered unless he wants something. He also says ahhh baby, and rocks the chair saying weeee. he is a real mimiker.
On our way to dd, to mabye go to the hardware store, not sure. Hubby is going to take the caulk out of her tub and re do with silicone. Will see how he is after if we are going anywhere else. Schools were cancelled cos snow, rain, ice is on it's way. it is snowing right now but not bad, of course the icy and rain is at 4-6 right at busy time. argh
I am doing well eating less carbs, but do have to figure it out more, I dont' want the cramps I got doing paleo in the summer, so not really paleo more primal and veggies this time. But am enjoying my greenish smoothies! at least I know I am getting more veggies daily.
Best get going, think it will be the bike or maybe wts today, Yea think I will try some wts today. not sure hubby will want to walk after dd and depends on weather. so a joyinky walk and some wts. even if I just do a bit myself.
keep sparking and I will keep learning about what my body needs, know it doesn't need the refined junk but have to find what else it does need.
I walked for 10 mins and did weights for 5
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Sun is out and it is cold. Seems always when sun is out it is colder. I am going to have to bundle up for our walk. Or my walk but presuming he will come.
Saw on FB that a lady my age, who I worked with at the nursing home, her hubby has passed. I don't know of what or wyhy but it does make you stop and think. I am pretty sure he is same age as she cos we all brought in pics and it was him and her years ago. I am going to message a friend who still works there and see. My heart goes out to her as it must be such a hard thing.
Talk to you all tomorrow. cya
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