Friday, January 20, 2012
OMG I can actually say I don't want that old way of thinking coming back!! !I really know that I have changed in the past few months and stinkin thinkin isn't always my norm! for what started as a woe is me, sad sack blog, I am doing pretty good! LOL
I can feel that silly blanket starting to cover me, I can honestly say I haven't felt "down" really down in awhile. yes a few nervous times in the past week, yes not eating as well, not able to move as much, well who am I kidding was able a few times and just didn't. I have to get my spark back, I really need to want to succeed this year. I need to be healthy I want my health back....
Think some is cos I do stuff, try hard and don't see any results like others. I really give it my all, eat way better, add tons more veggies, no processed stuff and still don't lose or feel that much better all the time. I do feel proud, virtuous but healthier no not really.
Then I read diff. info which sounds right, then other stuff that sounds right. They can be on diff sides of the track and still have great pros for it. I don't want some cockamainie ideas, or whatever, I don't want a "diet" that is like grapefruit, or soup etc. I want to eat healthy and what my body needs and wants. I want to know what is right for us. Paleo sounds right when you look at what we did eat, then vegetarian will say we don't have the teeth for paleo, and animal fat isn't good. OH man...... I am not saying anyone is right or wrong and I do understand that it is what you want to do for your body.
Think the other thing is I don't stick to movement. I hurt myself then use that as a stop!!! doesn't help that hubby really had to be told by 2 drs that I should move as he feels I am hurting myself. I also do try to do too much to start then just stop. But gaining this week when i was trying so hard has really gotten me angry. I am eating so well and taking so many new veggies and not eating way over , actually good portion sizes and within cals.
I also truly believe that sugar and whites are poison and not good for us. Maybe as a once in while treat if you can do that, some can't as it just starts the need train again.
Anyway just down, blah and whatever else. I want to find what I can do and keep at, and get healthy in the doing. I am still enjoying my smoothies and will keep that up. I am going to try hard to cut the sugar even more than was and eat the lower sugar fruits, cos still not able to do a full green smoothie, but today was a huge handful of spinach, 3 romaine lettuce leaves, 1" of cucumber and only 1/2 banana with almond milk. So getting there.
I haven't forgotten about my 5 k in June and hope that my knee will allow me to do it, infact I have said that no matter what I will do it, I am not allowing my knee to have that power over me. Hubby then says well that is just stupid which really it is if my knee is really acting up, but I am saying it isn't going to.
okay enough moaning, and whining.... buck up, start moving and read, learn, try and keep on eating my veggies..............
hugs all going to bed and read for while. figures a day when nothing hurt, I get down now that is just plain DUH! LOL
Thursday, January 19, 2012
I went and did a bit of shredding and started tthinking, I had left the puter on cos waiting to make sure my neice that went to Bermda today is doing well. Came back here and thought will check blogs, I love blogs.
Found a new friend and lots of inspriation to boot. Check out JUSTCHELLE75. She has done awesome and she had 3 great analogies. Yes I had heard some before but today, being thoughtful day ( hahaha most days I am too toughtful! LOL) they really resonated with me. one was you can do anything for 2 hrs, well for me that is 10 mins. and I needed that today. I have let my movement slow cos of my knees, well 10 mins isn't that long, been doing that for challenge but I can do more. Showed that this am, when dog and I went for 15 and had I been dressed better for the weather we could have gone farther.
2nd was you can only achieve what your mind allows you to do. If ELIZRN reads this I am sure she will totally agree. I have problems seeing past doing certain things. Not sure what is holding me back but thinking it could just be my mind LOL
3rd was a reply on my page about a snowflake being just one, but cumulative snowflakes well we all know what happens then!
So now to go back downstairs, get more stuff sorted, and try to get one step closer to bringing stuff upstairs. Wondering if dad will show up today, hubby offered to vacumn his car for him!!! WOW HUGE he knows it hurts my back, and dad can't at all so wow. thanks hubby!!
okay enough wondering and thinking for now. Geeesh how many blogs does Cindy make in one thinking day! LOL HUGS
Thursday, January 19, 2012
I am reading ElizRN blogs and find them so interesting and sometimes parts of them are easy for me to do but I always get bogged down at the end. I for years have always wondered about what a persons life is about. I now am not supposed to work but still think what will I be when I grow up sort of thing... Why do I always wonder what... as if I am not enough now? As if this isn't fullfilling enough? I don't know but never seem to get a clear idea or dream or picture of what it is I want to be doing. I just feel as if there is more to life than the daily things we do. I know a lot of you say I am so busy, so industrious. Yea but I don't see it, the busy yes but that is for a time, then that is over and then what. She said I need to stop thinking I can't see past a certain spot that I can get to the next part.
Last eve I went to my yoga mat and candles and laid there, relaxed did the part of the blog from a few days ago. I can really visualize the golden egg and all the crazy world out there beyond me... I think that is an awesome visualization and very true to what most of our lives are like. Too fast, too busy, too much to do to answer to that we forget that we have to help ourselves, answer to us... I feel as if my life should be able to figure it all out cos I am no longer working so should have time. How do these people that work 40hr etc put in the time... yea some don't. their loss that I do know. I often read articles about women who have found what the love to do after their 40s or so or even before and that sometimes it just came to them, some did stuff found out it was what they loved. not me, I wonder and wonder but do come up with thoughts sometimes.
Hey wonder if I get blocked cos I can't see how it will pan out, how would I ever get the money to do that, or the credentials, or the who would come... the if I am successful fear even before trying anything. lol guess I better ponder on what that anything is before I start my I can't do it. oh man ......
Well I had said that this year I was taking the dog for walk every day that there was no snow or ice. We have had a very mild winter snow wise and I haven't lived up to that. So this am, she woke me and off we went as I said earlier. So planning on that again in the am, have to dig out my wind pants. This am, think we will have oatmeal for breakfast. I am also having some fruit. Maybe a salad for lunch or a smoothie. I am frustrated that I am up 3 lbs again... I am sure I am not eating too much and know for susre it isn't high cals or bad. mostly vegggies in the smoothie once evry other day, and a salad... argh just not moving enough.
Okay enough contemplating and thinking, get the oatmeal started, and start the day. Walk is done, will go shred lol for 5 mins. then think maybe we will work on basement stuff again. Hubby slept better, did the neti pot 2x and doing some better. ds didn't show up to help move the sauna which was okay but means I can't use it. I will call and see when he isn't working his 2nd job and hopefully by then hubby will feel strong enough to do it too.
be back later I am sure... hugs all have a great day!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Wondering why I am up ( why did I even get on those scales - it isn't Sat and I tell others the scale isn't the be all and end all) and wishing that I would exercise more, isn't going to help at all.
I am up almost 4 lbs and not really sure why, yes we were away for 2 days and yes I ate more than I should and not clean but geesh..... I have to say I am eating way better, my smoothies are not high cal. mostly composed of spinach, flax seed, bit of hemp seed, almond milk add another veggies usually romaine and cucumber and then one fruit... I am having salad, on the days I dont have smoothies and eating less meat all around. I don't know what I am doing wrong in the food area.
Now coming clean and admitting not enough exercise after my knees aching so bad, I get scared to do much so just barely doing my 10 mins most days sometimes a bit more. I can't seem to get into the chair stuff and just don't do it. When I didn't hurt after exercising I did more and I know that doing it will only help.
So re read my blogs that I wrote doing so well and why do it, visited a few friends that have done great in exercise dept. and today is a slower day for us. We do have dad coming for supper but that's not hard. We are going to take the sauna apart, then hopefully hubby will stay down and help sort some of the stuff in basement. Luckily it is a finished basement, and has a huge window so not like a dungeon but is a dull foggy day.
OKAY enough lamenting on things and just DO IT. I am not sore today, so would be a good day to do 10 mins now, 10 later and see how I do and then do 10 more again later.
Sometimes writing it all out, puts it all in perspective. Didn't have smoothie for breakfast today so salad for lunch.
Hugs to you all and will be back later and I promise ME and YOU 10 mins then another later, I will be walking with JOYINKY and she will push me along!
Monday, January 16, 2012
Sun sun and more, but bittttter cold. Oh well thankfully I have long johns, hat and mitts and a warm house. I do need desperately get out and buy some veggies etc. as I didn't have enough to make my smoothie so made us both oatmeal. yum too
I slept from 11 till 9, hubby a bit longer. He says he feels better and even his ears aren't as bad. I woke with headache but the weather has gone from damp to really cold. If it doesnt go will take tylenol, not keen on them but not having this ferocious pounding all day.
So today I want to go buy a sample of paint, one store has their samples for 1 $ as they are getting rid of them. If they have that one I want will be worth comparing the two I can't really decided on. We need groceries, hubby wants thicker socks and later we will go to Thomas and visit on his real bday. I would have loved to stayed and visited and saw more of the party and the babies and such. Oh well thats okay. Chris is off his 2nd job this eve so will visit everyone. He loves his aqua doodle thing so pleased with that and we got a few pictures. Mike son in law got a few too so hope I can get them from Lisa.
Well not much more new, phone just rang, hubby said to whoever I feel much much better. best go change laundry loads, and get stuff going....
hugs to all!!!!
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