Wednesday, January 11, 2012
EEEKKKk my first really hard day of the year. I am craving carbs big time. I didn't have smoothie or salad today and now I am starving!!! I want cookies, ( don't have any) want pancakes could make them... just ate supper. I haven't gotten my long term disability pay and we are very very low in account, so I don't want to use any as we are going to PEI this weekend, luckily dd gave us a gas card as part of our xmas gift, and sil is paying the bridge as we are driving them so won't cost us and it is only overnight so not going to be running around there, but having less than 200 in bank scares the bejeebers out of me. So no fruit in house, yes there is romaine but no brocoli, caul, yes carrots and earlier I wanted crunchy but now argh sweets, carbs anythging like that. and I know a hot choc won't cut it. argh.
Okay breathhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, get my little lists and do one of those things, wait and hope that Von shows up to chat ! lol never mind her time zone is only 4:30 so only getting home! Have my tea and many more cups earlier.... go sort the craft room more.
I have been antsy all day, hubby did fix vacumn, moved the curtain rod, went to his dr apt, lol dad went to his dr apt this afternoon, both have same dr. hubby said we know that cindys dad is moving in, I wonder what the dr and dad had to say. lol
just one of those days............I would even exercise if I was more able. i did walk to the mail in the freezing cold lol more activity points if it is cold LOL okayyyyyyyy enough whining, I have a full pot of ideas to chose from, I have green tea, hot choc, water water and more. I will survive and live to tell about it tomorrow.
It is nearly 6 and the only thing I may have other than green tea is a hot choc. now off to do the craft room and von if you check here, i will keep coming down to see if you are around!!!
HUGS all thanks for listening!!! I think I out-ed myself of the craving! LOL
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Went better than I thought, a nice late 50ish English dr who claims to be the "gentlest dr in all of NS" and if I don't blow my own horn who will he said! LOL okay by me but still not having an epidural! lol
We chatted, discussed my back and how it has done okay with not working etc. got me to move this way that way etc. said good good. did my BP said oh you have a teenagers bp. 116/62 lol my bp rarely fluctuates. So he agreed that at this time my back is not in need of this, he also agreed that I can not work at that job, nor at a sitting job. said only thing could be retail but the floors wouldn't help. He then was going to show me about my back with the skeleton so asked that hubby come in, he said sure sit there I will get him. lol so he explained that and said 2 things that are not good are vacumning, carrying laundry, and dishes. So I said laundry is okay he brings it down, dishes I do a bit at a time, and vacumning he helps or I sweep. so all in all a better visit than I presumed.
Knee is still swollen, stiff and really not liking the stairs, after I get up the first one, I can go up not too bad, but every down is crack, click. arghhhhhhhh one thing that makes me wonder about keeping this house. oh well Dad will not move to the country. remebmer when he said he would and I was amazed.... well not surprised that he changed his mind. and it isn't in our best interest to sell and then buy adn then probablly sell in few years. oh well whatever
I am hungry this eve, had smoothie for breakfast, homemade chicken salad ( with very little mayo) on 2 thin slices of 12 grain bread, then supper meat pie ( xmas type not pot pie) just meat, and crust, and a huge salad.... water and tea during the day. now I want a hot choc. suppose if i put the reg amount of choc and extra water wouldn't be too bad, but still.... guess will make a huge cup of green tea and go watch biggest loser soon.
Hope you all had a great day and my hope is that my knee is good enough to go up and down stairs and do 15 mins of joyinky walk tomorrow.
HUGS all spark bright!!
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
I have made 3 blogs over the years that I felt worthy of copying. I have printed out some of my spark friends blogs that I felt were inspiring and have re read them many times.
Today when I can barely walk, only a week into this new year I am reminded that my goals were not only fitness related, but also to eat well, think mindfully and take care of the whole me. A few weeks ago my knee was super swollen and a sparker said the wt I gained could be cos of my knee being so full of water. Well then, not so sure, but today I have been eating well, no diff. and am up 2 lbs. Not sure still, but does make a bit of sense. My poor knee is so sore, just want to see the knee spec. so he can say nothing really diff. so that getting the brace makes sense. I don't want to have a diff. injury that should be fixed. I did nothing but boy it won't bend past probably 33 degree flexion if that. I do go to the neruologist/anathesiologist this am, and perhaps he will say you better go see he dr. I will say no thanks to his offer if he says cortisone or heaven forbid the epidural that my dr said he will offer. My back thank heavens since I stopped working and am more able to time and modify my movements is doing okay.
So today will be in my suana when done writing this, shower, greenish smoothie, dr apt. hopefully if not too much pain stop at one store in mall, as one of my charms isn't closing tight enough and then home. I don't think anyone wants us today! LOL be a rest and read and perhaps some tidy up. The pain will not get the best of me!! Carbs do not help pain!!!! LOL
I hope you all are doing well, Caz our sun didn't get a chance to peek, replaced with big snow flakes... Deanna hope your settling in well and all my other buddies have a super day!!
I must remember and repeat, this journey is not just made of today, but all my todays summed up, so will make today successful so that the sum is magnificent!
Saturday, January 07, 2012
Imagine me writing that!! I know for sure last year I wouldn't have thought it let alone believed it.
Now today I do believe it and I know I will. I will do more than just lose wt, and get healthy. I will do more of the things I think and wonder about. I will make a longer list and do these things. I can only imagine what all I can accomplish!!
WOW what has to me!!! am I finally learning and really taking things in that I have read, and have been told for years. Maybe at 55 my time has come to actually BELIEVE in me, - maybe that is why for the past 5-8 years when I wanted a bracelet with believe I never bought myself one!! I am so happy and pleased with myself.
I have done well since Jan 1. Yes it is only a week but I have done a lot. A huge lot for a chicken like myself. I don't even feel chicken anymore. Sure there are lots of doubts, and worries about my knees and back but hey am checking things out and going for some.
I have started drinking/eating green smoothies, sure they aren't all "green" yet but for me to add veggies other than spinach ( which you don't taste and I was told that forever before I tried it and hey you don't!)to a fruit smoothie is wow. I now can say I am adding fruit to my veggie smoothie. At least once a day I have one either for breakfast, or lunch. For supper I made a stew just beef but I added sweet potato!!! lol, parsnips ( first time ever tried that!!) and turnip ( which I thought I didn't like!) and cabbage, carrots and only 3 med potatoes. I said supper is ready. and hubby says whats in it.... told him and he said hope I like it, I said why wouldn't you he said sweet potatoes in stew parsnips you didnt use those before ( used to throw them out of the stew pack). and we both liked it. I actually really enjoyed it.
I also made apple crisp for dessert cos it is just a dessert day, but am taking a large portion to dd cos it is her hubbys very fav. so not bad for a total non diff. veggie eater.
Also, my yoga studio is going to start a hoola hoop class with yoga incoporated in it. I am not sure if I can do it cos of my back and knees, so before buying a hoop, I will ask the back care yoga teacher what she thinks and if she thinks yes then I will get a hoop and see what that is like.
Even a few months ago, I would have said well I can't do that, or I don't like that without really questioning my old beliefs. Now I am learning to ask myself questions. One of the major one is from my spark friend BEMORESTUBBORN
"What can I do today, to make my tomorrow better?" I will think that often during the day when I am at a decision that has a good and not so good choice.
I do know that a few discrepencies are okay ( ie the one pop and cheesecake) but I also know that it is okay not to drink the pop as I am the designated drivers when I take dad and hubby to the legion. I am fine with that, before I would have said well there is nothing to drink... water girl water!!!
So this year I plan to learn enough about myself and how to help myself to reach goals, aspirations and break barriers that I have set up in front of me. I am not sure where this will lead if anywhere particular other than learning to love myself more. And hey that is a pretty important aspiration in my books, one that so many of us don't learn early enough in life.
And if along the way my hubby and dd, learn to love themselves more too hey huge bonus,( my son too but he doesn't seem to have as many "issues" as dd and hubby).
My hope for you my spark friends is that you learn to love yourself enough this year, to attempt new and different things and reach some of your goals that you have set for yourself.
HUGS to each and every one of you.
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