Thursday and it is sunny

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Went for my walk with the dog this am, and boy that wind is chilly. Seems like we had our one hot day of summer for May LOL as long as it doesn't rain all weekend I will be happy, I can wear a jacket, just don't want to sit out in the rain while camping.

Called the Breast screening clinic asked for whoever and had to leave a message. argh. but okay thats as far as I can do now, I will call back after while.
So head is bck on, yea still apprehensive but then who isn't and I keep saying I am fine, I am healthy ect. Guess I am only human, I am sure everyone would be somewhat thinking find out whats up.

Got another bit of xstitch done last eve and will go up and do more in a bit. I hope I can finish it on time. Has a lot of backstitching but I will persevere.

I went to work last eve to see the clients and some of the staff. when I went to my unit there were 2 people there that I had never seen. I am off, another full time on my unit is off, another burnt her hand and is off, another has 4 wks of jury duty and is off. they are hurting big time.
I got a facebook message from one of the nurses that are leaving, and oh how sweet and such encouragement. I was crying cos she sees so much in me that I am only learning is there.
I will miss working with her and the other that is leaving, well we are almost like sisters.

So today dh is going to hook truck up to trailer and get things organized for leaving friday. We are going to have a great weekend, it is his birthday on 29th and sil and our kids will come to the campground. YES fun times another reason for good weather!!

well going for now, may be back cos feel chatty LOL will hopefully have a date for mamo by end of today.
hugs cya

  

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NEW-CAZ 5/27/2010 8:38AM

Glad you got yourself together Cinders, you're only human hun. I hope you hear soon. Head honcho's have no brains or common sense by the sounds of it but I'm glad you stuck to your guns hun, you have enough probs. Have a great day.. I'll be working on the lounge all afternoon so had better get gone Ciao bella xx Report Inappropriate Comment

ARGH VENTING AND SCARED NOW ARGHH

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Okay breath.,..... deep breathe Cindy come on down. I am so frustrated. Why do medical things never happen easy for me. argh.
I have been waiting since May 7th for an apt for mamogram cos dr said he feels something... anyway I called the drs - secretary said I faxed it may7th. So called screening place, we don't have any info. argh so called dr back will fax it asap. okay. so gave it a half hr. called back I don't see anything but the girl that does it is gone home. Call back tomorrow 8am. arghhhh
I really wanted it done before my surgery cos I am not sure how great will feel for a week or so. anyway will call in am.
I realized that when I was doing all this I got very scared, like omg it is real now. Have I been trying to ignore it all this time, even though I have done my deep breathing and visualizing the spot and getting rid of it. I guess not, this just makes it more real. anyway will call in the am.
Not much more, been a slow day and thats okay. havent gotten any xstitch done, we took truck in for checkup, came home and I have been reading magazines from library. Oh my....
tired, scared, frustrated, pissed off. and feel like crying. dad is here so not crying - havent told him yet cos he will freak cos of mum.
okay enough, breathing again.
thanks for listening.
HUGS

  

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NEW-CAZ 5/27/2010 4:50AM

I couldn't agree more with WHITE-LOTUS Cinders Report Inappropriate Comment

WHITE-LOTUS 5/26/2010 8:34PM

This is just another day, no different than yesterday. It is frustrating that people don't always do their jobs like they are supposed to. You are doing what you are supposed to, making appointments to take care of your health. Check in on it in the morning--tonight give thanks for your family and life in the present moment. It's gonna be OK- No need to tell Dad yet. You don't know there is a problem. Sending you love love love! Report Inappropriate Comment

SARAHTAIT 5/26/2010 5:04PM

So sorry for your frustrating and upsetting day. I'm sure you are quite worried and nervous over what your doctor told you. I know anyone would be. My mom had a lump recently and everything was fine after having a mammogram that showed something suspicious and then needing an ultrasound. Praise the Lord. So scary things happen all the time to people and we must trust in God to see us through. He is there for us to lean on and he will hold us in his loving arms. Praying for you!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Wednesday it's going to be a good day

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Good morning all.
I didn't realize it had been that many days since I had blogged. I thought of it the other day and then thought naw allready had for that day. But I often think of this as a bit of a journal so why not.
Today we have to take the new to us truck in for it's check up. Thats all so far. So today I will get back at dd xstitch. Oh lol just remembered have to find out about a sheet of paper, dad has some I can use. I need a certain size to try to make envelopes for her invites as we can't find the right size a the store. while cleaning the craft room after my painting it, I found a template but want to see how easy this will be as the craft store will let me use her machine as long as I buy the paper from her... need paper anyways so thinking will see.

I had mentioned that I was doing much better, taking my vitamins, glucosamine and chronditin and omega 3. well the book I am reading about it all said to stop taking O3 if having surgery as can be a slight blood thiner. So got on here today said 10 days before surg. I am only a week today but have only been taking it not even a week faithfully so will stop today. I will certainly say so but am sure that is fine. I am still having doubts about this as my knees have done so much better, but yes the click and pull are still there and there are def. ways I can't move so I know I will go through with it.
2 sil and one hubby were over yesterday. One had a dr apt in town and the other came over to visit. The sil and hubby brought a surprise bday cake for dh. Was a total surprise and he was pleased. so had a nice visit and a good time. I only had one slice of cake and later a thin sliver even though dh said cut that in half if you want. there is still a reg. size left for him today!!!! of that I am proud. Normally I would most certainly cut it in half no problem there. so that is a victory and even more so was satisfied with that piece!
well not much more today, just a good sleep and good walk to start the day. Off to the garage and I hope there is nothing we have to do or pay much for. Still no word on my ROE. argh..... I will be calling her tomorrow to find out if she sent it.
Also am calling dr and mamo place to find out about that too. Don't want to slip through anyones fingers and miss that like I did the specialist.
Okay hope you all are having a great day!!!
I am making choices to make mine great! cya

HUGS

  

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NEW-CAZ 5/26/2010 8:45AM

i think taking normal amounts of Omega 3 are fine Cinders but you have to feel safe if facing surgery so understand your concerns. I'm glad you had a great visit and good on you for resisting temptation hun WTG! You're right to check on the mammogram-too important hun! Have a good one too Cinders, I've got walls to wash down and prep for plastering- deep joy! Report Inappropriate Comment

Okay so it is Sunday! LOL

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I went back to read a comment and thought huh, says sunday and I put Sat DUH. If I am off work too long will never know what day it is. Guess if I went to organized religion ( church) I would know. did that for years until they took too much advantage and now I just do my own thing.
So have been thinking the past while and I have had so much pain, illness ect for so many years and think everyone always says hi how are you and any comment always ends with some malady of mine.

I am so much more than my illnesses and pain.

I am a great wife and mother and now grandmother!
I am a good daughter.
I am a great friend.
I am a good daughterinlaw
I am a great friend to my sils
I love to craft and am good at xtitching, scrapbooking and making cards
I made my sons wedding invitations and helping dd and dh with hers
I love to bake
I walk my dog when able
I love to decorate my home
I enjoy walking on the beach or in the woods
I love to garden when able
I enjoy camping in our trailer
I love nature
I am learning to slooow down in thinking
I am learning to take care of me, myself and I
and I LOVE ME!!!!
I am a sum of many parts and yes illness is part of it and pain too, but I will not let it rule me anymore.
I am much more that that.


I must remember this blog when I get down and out and scared.

HUGS all,
guess this was just an inventory for me, and to let you all know I do know what day it is LOL

  

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NEW-CAZ 5/24/2010 3:58AM

Totally agree Cinderelli, most people live with pain of some sort but like you they are so many things to so many people and are capable of greatness. It took me a while to stop referring to my dystonia and live for each day so totally understand your sentiments Lovely to read a wonderul positive person from someone I know has been so much, Shine on babe! Report Inappropriate Comment

SANDRA5898 5/23/2010 11:05PM

You are so much more than your pain ... when someone would ask my grandmother how she was feeling ... she always said "as usual." it always made me smile b/c I knew she was hurting so didn't want to say "fine" b/c that would be a lie but didn't want to complain either. "As usual" took care of her dilemma. Sandra Report Inappropriate Comment

WHITE-LOTUS 5/23/2010 10:23PM

It's when we consciously decide to stop playing victim and don't launch into the long litany of complaints and truely are grateful for our good fortune things start looking up. About a year into my dark times I decided I'd quit beleaguring friends with the horror of it all and started to consciously create my life, that it seemed to get better. You are all that - you are! Nothing to be taken lightly! XXOO Jude Report Inappropriate Comment

Saturday another great day!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Well another sunny warmer day! It is so nice when it is sunny. I think those downer days were when it was dull. Anyway....... got my room mostly back together, can't put up my shelf, or the bulliten board cos want to let it dry more. I also have to tidy the huge bookcase and go through some of that.
Found a book I had bought on inflamation diet info and am going to re read it. I remember thinking before wonder if that would help my aches and pains. It can only help I would think as it promotes less processed ect.
Lisa and Mike were over and have finally gotten their invitations done and planned. Now for us to print them, and me make the envelopes and they will get them out. Oh yea she better go buy stamps LOL
Ds and his family will be over tomorrow along with dad for supper. Not bbq nor a formal supper just something put together that is healthy for ds and I for sure.
Must get some more cleaning done as the week comign will be over before we know it and be time for surg. Sil and hubby are coming over tues cos she has an apt in the city,and other sil will come too, they are bringing a surprise bday cake for dh.
Then friday we go camping for the weekend! first time out this year and first time for new trailer. should be fun!
Okay for now, going to get off and get some supper ready. I have a salad ready just the rst to make. Talk later buddies.
Cya
HUGS to all!!!

  

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WHITE-LOTUS 5/23/2010 6:17PM

Yay! I'm having leftover deli chicken and lima beans-then going to see Iron Man2 with a girl friend. Report Inappropriate Comment

NEW-CAZ 5/23/2010 5:01PM

It's lovely to find you so upbeat Cinders and getting so much done. You'll be busy all week b4 your trip I know you! I managed 2 hours sunworshipping b4 we ventured over to FIL for the afternoon it is sweltering here Have a great Sunday hun, enjoy the sun. Report Inappropriate Comment

SARAHTAIT 5/23/2010 4:29PM

You can come over and help me get my house in order-it sounds like you's is pretty organized. I love camping so your weekend sounds great!!! Where are you going??? I haven't been in the longest time!!! Waiting on hubby's foot to heal so we can start doing a few things!! Have a wonderful time!! Report Inappropriate Comment