Saturday, December 24, 2011
While I try not to worry about dd and hubby driving in the bad weather I started thinking, some deep thinking for a Christmas eve, but hey why not. Hubby is "in line" on line to shop for his Christmas present on boxing day sales when it isn't even Christmas - to me that is nuts, start your sales on the right day but greed...........
I have been thinking about this weight I have to get off. aporx 50 lbs and may as well be 250 cos don't seem to get with it.
So been thinking and talking to myself ala dr phil and few others. Such as hows whatcha doin workin for ya... oh it isn't well what are you going to do diff....
if you want change you have to change.
if you always do what you always did, you always get what you got...
you all get my drift!
So been really trying to figure what is going to change Jan 1 just cos the calendar changes, and I get a year older LOL.
Well if I am not willing to change how I do things, how I think of things, then why do I expect this weight to fall off me?? Unless I get ill very ill I won't lose this, I remember when mum was first diagnosed, she said geesh great I am losing wt and I thought yea I know why you are losing cos you are starting to get sick...... I have so many stupid health issues that some could be stopped or helped with diet and exericise. I don't mean "diet" as in wt loss, but as in proper food, healthy clean fresh food.
So really thinking what will I change, how fast am I willing to try to make these changes so they become habit not just hey eat this for while and lose, gain it back do it again... been there done that have some friends doing the soup thing right now..
If I am going to really change habits then has to be done in a way that I will do this and incoperate it into my daily routine.
Any ideas, any really truthful thoughts on what are you going to do diff. A very special spark friend asked me to think daily - what can I do today to make my tomorrow a healthier better day for me... that worked till I started forgetting to ask myself that.
So one thing is to remember to ask myself that, will print it out in big letters...
another will be to take the time to do a 30 mins back care yoga daily... along with some quiet meditation. I enjoy it, feel better after so why do I stop doing it?
I will ensure that I get at least 3 veggies a day and 2 fruit, that is my starting point as that is a downfall for me.
and most of all and hardest for many is to look in the mirror less harshly, less critical and always smile at the person looking back at me... cos you know if you don't love yourself, then why should anyone else bother to love you.
HUGS and would love to know what you plan to truthfully incorperate in the new year that will help you get to your goals and MAINTAIN them!!!
HUGS and Merry Christmas!!!
Friday, December 23, 2011
Well this eve while at the legion for supper with dad, hubby and dd too, I took a croissant from the selection. When I took it, I thought of my mum and that was it, got back to the table and nearly started to cry, when I took the first bite. For the last few months of her life, she wanted croissants to eat. I took that bite and omg it was so wierd,it was just totally a remembrance of her. Strange but it was there. I didn't want to start to cry, cos then dd and dad would have. But am fine now just was a funny memory.
Also while at the legion, I went to the bathroom and saw myself in the mirror and thought ew... I don't like that fold on my belly ew... I have one side more than the other since my hyst. but I don't like either side LOL Made me feel sad and thought I will get that off and feel better in the bargain.
Well time to just rest this eve, we didn't get to the store today, as took too much time at dd tub. oh well will run out for the 4 things and then go to sons for brunch.
Okay think I will go have a bath, put on the candles, read and fall asleep, hubby comes up to check me and the candles lol
night all safe travels for any going to family tomorrow.
Friday, December 23, 2011
My dd is so happy, it is snowing - a fair bit has come down. I like the look but the mother and worrier wishes the roads were clear for everyone that has to travel. Stay safe, take your time, and watch out for others.
Okay.... today we go to dd again. yes as Thomas says aaaaaaahhhhhgn. lol Hubby will be putting the tub surround on today then only the window trim and baseboard. that can be another day as don't think we are going to the store for that today. DD is doing her baking today. one thing for her hubbys potluck, and then some to take to her inlaws with her. We have a short list for the grocery store as sister in law asked hubby to make apple pie to bring on Christmas. Fine cos then I don't have to do anything. I got Thomas his cookies made. Hope he likes them.
So all is baked, wrapped and ready. I have a clean house, and am ready. will do a load of laundry today but thats okay. We are not expecting company unless hubby asks his mum if she wants to come home with us on boxing day so she can go see lisa and mike and their home, and also of course meet the baby adn visit with Thomas and his dad and mum. Been a long time since she has seen ds too.
Okay off we go, hope all is well with you all.
I did some exercise today, and am back to joyinky walks.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
So I gave myself a talking to! lol I have been wanting chocolate big time, so had 4 of those small mints, the gangong ones for the Canadians, they are small like a mini pepermint pattie. Then we have some cruts - choco. cookies just marg, cocount and cocoa, had them. OMG I don't justify it I just do it. then say duh nut you are!
I am being really foolish, thinking I can't wait till Jan 1. WHY I did so great that first week but know I did my usual - did too much and hurt myself, My knees and calves hurt so much. But as long as I wear my support socks my calves are better, I have to reemember to tell this to the dr in Feb when I go.
OKay today, we went out and got a few little kitchen gadgets as hubbys sisster will be joining us on boxing day ( her birthday) and we never seem to do anything for her, and I know how that is with my bdy new years eve. So all is bought, other than hubby likes to get me something last min. why who knows as he hates crowds lol so didn't find the flours I needed to make Thomas some cookies so will have to hope and improvise.... eeek.
going to dd to finish the bathroom by tomorrow!!!! and then to library and home. I was going to run to the store for a few more items but you know I don't need to make anything more. But can alwayws take to sils on boxing day.
OKAY come on give it to me I can take it and who knows someones "kicking" may make me get real again!!!
Even said hey you - you are going to be a 5ker you can't eat this shi!. lol
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Well yesterday I was up 1.2 lbs this am, weigh day up 2.6 felt like I was on biggest loser lol but am as they also say not beating myself up from this cos I am actually trying and learning from this.
Observations from the past week where I lost 3. something lbs to this week.
- didn't drink my water most days and even less tea as we were out ( I count my tea as it is green and very weak nothing added to it)
- no elliptical at all cos of knee
- walked the mall for 3 days in a row but hurt knee cos of it
- 4 meals out although I made good choices and one I didnt eat so guess that doesnt count. Made good choices but compounded with the no water, and less movement....
-too many little bites from some xmas snacks
So what I have learned from all this. Drink my water, MODERATE exercise when able, and keep on learning.
This week in the 5% challenge is going to be a tough one for me. I am up to the challenge........... it is eat your freggies. as you who know me know, veggies are not my strong suit. But have some great ideas, have also been reading a lot on what is good for you and what helps what.
I will stop at daves fruits and veggies and load up and I WILL EAT THEM not toss in compost bin.
So yes I am up, yes I am frustrated cos yet again today my knee is very painful. but.... I am proud to say I haven't given up, I know what I did wrong, right and partially right. I am still in the fight and am going to try my best. As I said in the beginning as long as I can maintain or lose during this time it will be a goal reached. Somehow have to get my movement better and more.
OH sigh....... got the letter back from insurance, yes the physio place sent the letter but it was ias if it was allready done, so they didnt approve it or disaprove it just said have to fill in the insurnaace forms to see if I can get my $$ back. well I haven't bought it yet so called they said oh. send it all back with a note saying this is just a quote. I told the physio to put hat it was a quote but ... oh well at least the insurance didn't say no! but still I wait, oh well I hope yet to get the brace see no reason why not.
off I go to move some more!!! dog walked, and then going to do some shorter joyinkys.
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