Tuesday, September 06, 2011
I was talking to a fellow sparker today, who is a great friend of mine. We met on another site and have morphed over to here. We both do great by spurts, so so by others and down right terrible other times.
I mentioned that I had joined some challenge teams -yet again! OMG why... even the ones that know me on here well, will say why does she do that to herself. I am so not good with challenges at all. I seem to self sabotage so easily when on a challenge. When you think it would make me do better it seems to do the opposite.
So henced my title do I have no shame???!!!! do I not care what others read or think about me? Sorry to say there have been many times, years infact that I cared more what people were thinking that what I thought of myself.
Not saying that I don't now care what I think of myself, getting better at that finally. I also do still care what others think, in respect that I am a good person, friend ect.
I am thankful to have a few very close friends here on spark and many others that also pull me up and have had to more than their fair share. I do have shame in saying that I have been a member since 2006 and weigh more now than when I joined. Want an excuse - hmmm I can pick a few, menopause, death in family, bad job, moved.... oh yea lots of spark successes have had those also. hmmm so the excuses don't cut it eh! ( yea I am Canadian! LOL)
Okay the past few days I have not felt like eating right, or anything related to that. I have to give myself a HUGE pat - I did log all that I ate!!! WWOW and that was a lot. I have gone off the gf path cos didn't see any diff. in anything in the 2 months I was on it, but will say am very much carb addicted. oh so want it bad.............
What am I going to do about all this? Sorry to say spark isn't working cos I don't work at it. Spark is awesome but it can't do the work for you. It won't make those suppers, won't buy the right healthy food and portion it out in sensible portions. NOPE sorry you have to do that. You also have to try to make your body move, no matter how you feel. Even a little is better than not, when you are hurt, or sick. Granted there are times that exercise is not good and you should respect your dr or your body and stop. But I have been known to really worry about oh my knees, my back, myhip and if I work it will make it worse. Helps lots that I have a hubby that does believe that! "you are just going to hurt yourself!"
Okay ONE DAY AT A TIME as I said a few blogs back. That has to be imbedded in my brain. also MIND OVER MATTER!!!! I can and I will do this. Cos I need to for me!! not cos I joined a challenge and feel as if I have to, cos for some unknown reason that just stops me quick. I am still going to try to continue with the 30 day challenge and the 1 thing a day. MY heavens I should be able to do 1 thing a day!!???
So all the reasons I want/need to lose are there, everyone says you have to want it. well I PRESUME I do, cos sure know it would help me mentally, physically and medically so what's holding me back. ME so hey you!!! get out of your own way!!!
MOVE cos I am ready to make this happen!!!
Monday, September 05, 2011
I will not be doing labour!!! We are staying at the trailer till tomorrow am, so watching everyone else pack up and get ready to be gone by 11 - checkout time for day campers.
last night I did my yoga dvd in the trailer, too funny, I was able to do most of it well, but the trailer is not tall enough to get a good stretch up. HA funny to bring your arms up and stretch............. okay bump lol but it was a good one. I borrowed a few from the library and hope to be able to buy the ones I like. Not sure as this is a bit older but good. Yoga for the young at heart and is based for the older crowd but was pretty well most of what I did in one of the classes. There are 3 dvds in it, so will do the 2nd today.
What a great day it is, sunny but a good warm breeze. Nice to sit out. Will start and probably finish the other leg warmer for my client. I was going to do another pr, and may but thought should see if these fit, but what the hay, make them and tear them out.only knit and purl not hard, keeps my hands busy
Went over my points/calories whatever yesterday. I had a glass of very low alcohol fruit wine, and a bar. Certainly didn't need them, but was a nice quiet time at the fire pit. Don't begrudge it, enjoyed and today will do better. Nothing but blueberries left here that is sweet. lol
okay best get my day moving along. I think hubby is waking up and having a shower by the sounds of things. I may go for another walk by myself meaning not with dog! LOL
cya later sparkers!!!
Sunday, September 04, 2011
Sun is out, wind warm, a super day to spark. I am doing this blog, got caught up on spark and turning off the puter, going to go sit outside the trailer, and knit. Too bad I have to stay out of the sun with this med. oh well will get some fresh air.
I slept better, my face not so sore, and my hip only aching a bit, think this med is working, but I still want to know what it is and why it is. I am going to do a band set of exercises then go outside.
Having a great day and hope you all are too!!! HUGS and spark on! LOL
Saturday, September 03, 2011
A Pickle, a cucumber & a penis were talking about life. The cucumber said when i get big & hard they chop me up & toss me in a salad. The pickle said when i get big & hard they chop me & drown me in vinegar. The penis said that is nothing compared to what i'm going through, when i get big & hard they put a plastic bag over my head & put me in a dark damp cave & bang my head against the walls until i throw up and faint.
OMG did hubby ever laugh when I read this to him. was from a FB person.
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