Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Okay BL is over in my part of the country and I did what I set out to do and way way more. I did weights for the first half hr including weights and bands( the rubber band stretches). I also did a few sitting on the ball. Then for 30 mins I rode 8.7 km on the recumbant bike. I got off and stretched, did a few more weights then for the last half hr I stretched and did slow easy flexability stuff. I am so proud.
After reading both replies below I do realize I have to slow down but not sure how. I do really wonder if dh and good Sp friend white lotus has found a point. Maybe I am trying to keep busy cos dont want to stop and see mum failing. I have been very fortunate in my 52 years only 2 people have died that I have known personally. One friends dd died on her 3rd bday, and dh's father died 4 years ago but he wasnt close to him at all. So I dont have all that to fall back on and besides dont think it is the same when it is a parent and I am an only child too. I do know I do better in "nurse " mode and that is what dad is needing so that keeps me busy and not as personal.
So tomorrow, as of now, I will walk the dog, go take them their coffee, get mum up and ready. then instead of the pool I will wash my cupboards and kitchen floor, as they are bothering me. I know it isnt slowing down but i am sick of getting nothing done in my house. I will go to the gym with dh and ride the bike or elliptical. I also will vacumm, dust etc. I will plan some time in the afternoon to go in my sauna then shower etc. also will read my library book and perhaps fall asleep. I want to get the house cleaned as i have to work fri,sat and sun so if i get most of this done tomorrow I also will deal with whatever the homcecare coordinator has to say as it really isnt me that got him angry etc. it is dad and they have spoken. either way I cant let my fear of what he is going to say make me eat. he is a professional doing his job and i still have the palliative care RN backing me. she is awesome. SO I will have thurs to do what I want. Whew. hope I can do this.
But for now i am so pleased that I got that much exercise in. sure does invigorate me and make me want to get back to where i was in my mind. Have to re read my blogs of a few days ago....
Thanks for being on the path with me in all the twists and turns. I hope I can get through all this without gaining wt as it gets harder.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Wow what a great day!!!! I find wed. usually a good day cos watched biggest loser and weigh in day for one of my teams. I am only down .2 but think it is cos i havent been drinking my water. So back to that basic.
I am very proud today, what have you done to make you feel proud!? I love that part on BL. I actually exercised while watching it!!! WHOOO cos i used to eat, then sat and didnt eat now am doing the bike or ball stuff.
Today has been super too!! finally a good day all around. Sunny, not too cold. great walk with the dog, mum was okay, dad slept, I went to the pool, then met dh at the gym. There after a HARD workout at water arobics ( the instructor even said I worked you guys hard today!), i went upstairs and did 20 mins on elliptical and then a round on the weight machines and some free wts.
got home to work called, extra shift toay. so off i go to work. I went down to check mum again, and dd was just getting there so dad can go out. So all in all a good day today. Nice to have one once in awhile.
I was also going to blog about the spark quote that we got today.
Most barriers to your success are man made. And most often you are the man that made them.
I really like that. It sure rings true in our house. I admit it, dh maybe not so much LOl
But I am really doing things to change that quote and be successful.
Gotta scoot cos have to get ready for work.
OH forgot went to the grocery store and bought myself a treat!!! A fresh garden salad allready made, came home added a bit of chicken and was so tasty.
Monday, April 06, 2009
Well results of mums CT scan are back. the cancer has not gotten bigger in lung, nor did it spread to the outside of lung but has gone to the brain. That is sort of what I expected as her confusion is not any better, and yet is down on her pain meds. So now they are saying they can do radiation on it at least to not make it get bigger fast. Not sure what dad is thinking as I wasnt there long. I have extra supper tonight so will take it down to them before I leave for work.
I did go to the pool but didnt work too hard, mind on other things of course. Met dh at the gym upstairs after and I did one round on all the machines but only low wt as first time back since I broke my knee. So busy this morning, and now waiting for a friend to come over for abit, then I have to go to work.
Work will keep my mind busy as well as my hands and mouth. so far so good on the eating. Waiting lunch for my friend but hope she shows up soon.
Guess better go as not much more to say right now.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
The choices you make today will determine the path that your life will take. When you sit back and look at the decisions you've made in your life, are you happy with the route you've paved? If you're not, make a change today. The next time you make a choice, ask yourself if this decision will lead you to the path you want to travel along. Set some new goals that will lead you to your dreams and then plan your course.
What an appropriate introspective for me. I have been doing well when I think it is MY CHOICE so how interesting.
Last night I again struggled. I am starting to have problems sticking to only 3 meals. I also know it is stress right now. This has been a very busy, hard, productive then non productive week. I hate to see dad without service. Have noticed mum is much more confused the past 2 or3 days , have not gotten the results of the CT scan yet. I am so tired...........
So tues I think it was I said I was starving, but did manage to not eat- just drink while watching BL. Last eve i was hungry and did eat a small handful of almonds. Iam glad that is all it was cos there is jelly beans in the cupboard, and still were some cookies. But didnt get into it, got my book, my tea, read about 3 pages and fell asleep in the chair!
So today is an S day, but I am making the choice to have 5 black jelly beans that dh has saved as i love them and he doesnt. We have friends coming over for lunch, I have made soup and will make biscuits - if we have any left over I will take them to dad or dh will have them when he needs something with his pills.
On the good front! Dh has made the choice to go back to the gym! LOL HAHA he had his physical yesterday, and has 2 more meds to add to the mess he takes all ready. one for cholesterol which had happened once before but he got it down with diet ( barely up) and I know he can do it again, but he said didnt before. Yes you did you just didnt stay with it. But he gets very upset as he says cos the dietician told him, he cant eat fresh fruit or veggies cos of his severe IBS. anyway he has limited food he can tolerate so take away his sweets........
So hoping that we both get fit and healthy now. I know I am doing it and hoping that me not eating it will help him to stop.
Gotta go cos have to get to mums and see how the night caregiver went over.
cya later today.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Going for xray of my knee and shoulder. he wants to make sure I didnt crack the front of my knee cap and checking rotator cuff on shoulder. also I pulled or tore the tendons ligaments in back of my leg up and down. Says i have a very bruised or crracked rib but treatment is same for either. so have to get exray, physio, a perscription for nexium. which i dont want but will take for 2 wks. he wanted to give me an antiinflamatory but when i said have been having big issues with heartburn said rather treat that. i hate having stuff treated before ruling out other stuff but said i would do it till my apt with him on Nov 3.
so tomorrow busy day, exray, check if i have any $$ for physio left dont think so and get perscript filled and go to work with my note for no work till halloween........
off to read a good book......
the writing diet write your self the right size. by julia cameron the same that wrote the artists way...
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