Saturday, December 21, 2013
Okay starting out blah but will change the blog midstride. lol
Slept really poorly, as I got into bed I tweaked my back and could barely move. Slowly got comfy, did some deep breathing and read for a bit, woke at 1:30 when hubby was coming to bed and what pain from being in that same position. Got moved and slept off and on, my thighs felt weird, my back hurt, my elbow and bicep were sore. oh man sigh. But I did sleep some.
I woke to thinking of some sad news I got late last eve. I had sent an email to my uncles 2nd wife ( he is mums younger brother and his first wife was mums best friend and she passed of lung cancer as mum did), anyway he has not spoken to us since Mum passed 4.5 years now. I am not sure if he and dad had a run in, as they never liked each other, or if he was upset that we didnt have a service ( mums choice) or that I didnt get ahold of him fast enough to see her before she passed, ( my son and hubby didnt see her either and they live here). NO matter what it was, he wont' talk to us etc. my other cousin asks whats going on, and he wont say anything to her about it. OKay so Julie says beautiful kids... etc. then says not sure I have told you or not but Arn was diagnosed with Aliz. 2 years ago..... so sad, a very smart, opinionated ( probably why dad didnt like hm he would argue with dad) but a great guy.
His kids ages in 40s won't accept it at all, won't have his young 20 year old grandsons know ( both are nurses ( one still in training) and work with alz. pts). The brother also won't acknowledge it. I feel so bad for Julie, she is 10 years or so younger and a vibrant awesome woman who I really took to. I wish they would support her through all this. and also that they would make memories with their ddad now... I have worked with too many alz. to not know you need to spend the time now. But that also can stand for anything we don't know what is going to happen.
Okay promised I would turn it around....
I am not going to get down, depressed, not letting his dx. affect me ( have 2 aunts on dads side and now uncle on mums that have / had alz), not getting that into my brain that my memory stuff is that. NO way. so forge on.
I am going to do what I can today, depsite lack of sleep and pain. Pace, and rest, pace and rest!!!! not a lot to do really.
Having a good day despite the pouring rain adn ice under it. Hoping my bil and his wife get to PEI with out issues... not a good day to leave.
So lights on in house, brighten it up, enjoy my hubby, my dog, my dd later, and think I will call my babies. lol they dont talk a lot on the phone but Eva loves to say hi 100 times LOL
Okay so as for me and my mind and body it will love me, myself and I and remember to enjoy today cos you never know.