Friday, January 21, 2011
3 weeks does not a habit make, not for me. It takes way way longer- I have stopped biting my nails for months then bang back at it. I have eaten and execised for more than 3 wks and so easy to stop.
MY world is showing me that I have to be consistent and more reliable to me, myself and I. I have had some outer if you will "visions" aha moments ect in past few days. Read a few blogs that have really hit a cord, made me think in different and sometimes new ways.
Then last night I was in bed, had fallen asleep, woke to the most excrutiating pain in my R knee at the top of my knee in the middle felt like a knife was in there OMG I just woke and started screaming. Hubby was on the phone ( dd had called and I hadn't even heard the phone!) anyway he checked me - nothing he could do, it left and then was preceded by a thigh charley horse that is still aching this morning. So add that to a sore back in a specific spot and oh yea my shoulder aching and my R hand falling asleep if I layed a certain way, and I didn't have a great rest.
Today my clents went from one for 9 hrs, to one for 1 hr to none. I am not calling in today. Usually if you don't call they don't call you. Now they may call as have been great at giving me hrs. but if they do I will go but if not I am not going.
Granted after I get moving, I will be going with hubby to get dad water, and then know that we will end up in there for while. So will probably do his housework but that leaves me with the weekend to not feel guilty cos his house is a mess.
So another wake up call. I have to say how many will I get before something happens that I have to really address. Yes I will be addressing them when I go to dr Feb 9th. ( man my thigh is aching still ).
I have only 1 life and as we all know sometimes life is snuffed from a totally healthy person for no understandable reason. But I want to live my life happy, healhty and fit as my title has said for eeek how many years..... ( been at spark but may as well say been lurking as haven't lost a lb from when I started - am actually heavier). I have lost but geesh not great to see my lbs lost now higher than a few years ago.
Not knocking myself, cos yea I am known for perfectionism ( just wrote to a friend not to expect perfectionism ) so repeat to self! LOL But am going to have to figure out this regime or routine better. It is not working I have to be able to do it and just do it and do it till it becomes a better and easier habit. NOT expecting it to be an easy ride but at least easier to convince myself.
SO now back to my scrapbook, my journal, my stretches and perhaps to chiro if my back isn't better soon.
Okay guess my chatty me is back to make up for yesterday, hey maybe that was the processing day! LOL
hugs and I am really going to be thinking and getting this organized. my first try must have been that a try cos it hasn't gone the distance. but I am in this race and not giving up anytime soon if I have any say in it.