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Monday, January 17, 2011

I feel like I'm gaining a little momentum. I got another 35 min. on the TM tonight after sitting in meetings all day today. I felt a little slow, but that's probably because I'm coming down with a cold. It figures. I finally go back to the dr. tomorrow and hopefully can start doing ST again and now a I'm catching a cold. I'm taking Airborne and going to bed early. I'm hoping it will go away quickly.
My plan was to lose 1 lb. a week while my leg was healing. I wasn't anywhere near that when I weighed in a couple days ago, but I'm happy to report I was exactly 2 lbs. down this morning when I weighed. That was a nice boost that gives me some momentum to keep the scale moving in the right direction. My next mini goal is to have a minimum of 10 more lbs. off by spring break, but I'm hoping for closer to 15. That would increase my wardrobe choices by a large amount!
Got my hair cut and colored. It didn't end up being too exciting, because as usual, I chose a cut that works better for someone with thick hair and that's not me. She changed it a little, so until I'm willing to part with more length this is how it's going to be.

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JOHNTJ1 1/18/2011 5:59PM

    Thanks for sharing that bit of wisdom with us. You 100% correct it is all about momentum

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SHECHAM 1/18/2011 12:36AM

    You can do it..... keeping the momentum helps so much! I know you can meet your goal.... good luck!

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Sunday, January 16, 2011

Today was a much better day. I started the day with 35 min. on the treadmill and the leg tolerated it pretty well. It isn't as fast or with as much incline as it was before the surgery, but it's better than last week so that's progress!
It is my son's 22nd bday and the first one that we aren't together. He is in AZ, attending school, and I'm in IA. He got my package in the mail and the neighbors were having a BBQ so I was glad of that.
I've stayed on my nutrition plan today and will work hard to continue to do so. We have meetings all day tomorrow and I have my snacks packed. We will go out for lunch, but I'll choose something that works. I'm planning to do cardio before work because I'm getting my hair cut and colored after work. I'm looking forward to making a change to my cut. Nothing drastic, but a change nonetheless. I made food for lunches and dinners for the week so that's all set.
One thing I've realized is that I've been busy for so many years raising 3 kids as a single mom, getting my masters, teaching full time, hauling them to all their various activities, and taking care of a home I tend to not do well now that I have more free time in my life. Don't get me wrong, I always have things I can be doing around the house or for my classroom, but I don't want to be doing that ALL the time. That's when I find myself wandering around and mindlessly eating. When I was working on my vision board the other night I realized how much I've missed scrapbooking (probably not very exciting to some). Prepping a house to sell, moving and getting married didn't leave me much time for things like that. I'm going to work on getting through some more things in our basement and get my supplies out so I can start working on my books again. It's a great way to keep my hands busy. You can't eat when you're doing that.
All in all I'm feeling refocused and ready to make progress again. emoticon

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GINGER_LOSTALOT 1/17/2011 4:13PM

    I'm sorry to hear you and your son can't be together on this special day.

But I'm glad to see you're making such good progress. Good luck with your hair appointment.

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KNIGHTS6 1/17/2011 2:05PM

glad to hear you are back on track. good luck with your journey. I am getting refocused again. we can do this

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LAURA1152 1/17/2011 10:50AM

    Good for you that you packed snacks - at my office, all-day meetings translate into M&Ms and other such goodies unless we bring fruit, vegetables, and cheese or other protein (and enough to share). It takes more effort but is worth it.

You've achieved a lot, and I'm sure you can achieve your 2011 goals!

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SPARKENISTA 1/17/2011 9:37AM

    It sounds like you're starting off the new year fresh. I think that scrap booking is a wonderful and creative endeavor and something that you are doing for yourself.

You're doing great! Keep up the great work!



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ABETTERJILL 1/17/2011 6:50AM

    Sounds like a great idea - do something for yourself that you enjoy! I don't have the crafty talent to be a scrapbooker :)

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WOWEETOO 1/16/2011 11:23PM

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Saturday, January 15, 2011

I had surgery on my leg almost 2 weeks ago and haven't been able to do any ST, intervals, etc. I am only allowed to walk and even that was painful. My goal was to keep my nutrition clean the past 2 weeks and do what cardio I could. I had some good nutrition days and did some cardio, but I also had many days when I didn't follow my plan. I think in the back of my mind I was waiting for the all clear from the dr. to do my full program. I struggle with "waiting for everything to be right" (like that will ever happen) before I get going with my workouts. I used the surgery as one more excuse to not get going already.
I woke up in a not so great mood today and really had to fight the negative self talk. Truth be told, the negative talk won. I ran some errands, shopped a little, and spent some time with my son. After I got home I started working on a new vision collage. I've had the same one up for over 2 yrs. and it's been leaning against a wall since we moved. Got that done and wrote out some goals.
When my hubby called tonight I told him that I HAVE to get back on track and of course he told me "you're not fat, you look great". He's always very supportive so I went on to explain that I really appreciate that he feels that way, but I HATE (I know, don't use that word) the way I look and feel right now. So, he offered to support me however he can. Unfortunately, that won't involve him and the kids taking the junk food out of the house, but I'm used to that. He does a lot of the cooking and I told him the best way he can support me is to make what he wants for he and the kids, but to not be hurt if I eat something else. He said that was fine and he understood. Of course, he then said maybe we can rent a movie tomorrow and that light micro popcorn was ok for me wasn't it? Now, I have nothing against popcorn, in fact, I'm a fan, but he doesn't get the whole carb/protein combo I'm trying to achieve. One small step at a time. emoticon
One thing I realized today is when I lost the weight the first time we were dating, but I lived in my own home and had more control over my time and environment. Enough of losing 2 lbs, gaining it back, etc. It's time to make some real progress and that means taking back some control of me and asking for what I need. This is hard for me and is an area I'll be focusing on this year. The rest will come together if I conquer that goal.

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LAURA1152 1/17/2011 10:47AM

    I can imagine that having a husband, family, and new lifestyle must require a regrouping of how to do this. It sounds like your husband wants to be supportive, and that's wonderful; some spouses and partners just take such things personally. That's their problem, and I'm glad you don't have to worry about it. I'm sure he'll "get" the carb/protein thing soon. As a person who's only successful in weight loss when I keep protein high and carbs low and of a certain kind, I hope you are able to help him understand.

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CSULLIVAN83 1/16/2011 6:44PM

    You can do it!!! emoticon

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WOWEETOO 1/16/2011 3:17PM

    try some of those spark chair exercises some are rreally gentle and you will feel like you are getting things done even if it's sitting and DRINK THE WATER
you know how important that is for sure and i see no reason for not indulging in the popcorn measure out the serving size into another bowl and have it that's what i do and i've been maintaining now for over three years and i am diabetic and watching the carbs also..look around you can do it you can even do the stuff he is cooking but you have to weigh and measure that stuff balance is important and you already KNOW that we don't have to eat different but be MINDFUL of the stuff going in and how much
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SPARKENISTA 1/16/2011 1:55PM

    Good luck getting back on track. We all feel the inertia and having a medical problem doesn't help. I know you can do this!



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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 1/16/2011 1:53PM

    Sometimes our energy has to shift to taking care of ourselves emotionally and mentally... sounds like you are at that point since you can't be as active physically. Ebb and flow. emoticon This too shall pass.

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MOCNVW23 1/16/2011 1:13PM

    Good blog, reading it tells that you have come to terms about what you need to do, and you accomplished one already by having the talk with your DH with ways that he can help you, and its really good that he understands about you picking other meal plans if needed. Sounds like he is very supportive of you and your decisions and that is one very important part in all of us in reaching our goals. I know that once you really start feeling better from the surgery, I h ave no doubt that you will get right back into yoru routine.
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JOHNTJ1 1/16/2011 10:59AM

    I understand what you are going through. While our circumstances may be different they are causing the same outcome. I have had similar feelings at times and I have learned a very simple, singular act that is very hard to do, LOL

I am learning to shut down that part of my mind that pumps all that stuff out. It is difficult someday's but I simply force myself to be quiet and still. Often I will play relaxing music or something like that.

You will win in the end. Real winners always do.

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BARBARA_BOO 1/16/2011 1:12AM

    When you lost the weight the first time you were dating your DH, you not only lived in your own home and controlled your time and environment, you also were falling in love.
There's nothing like it for that extra energy and motivation boost! Falling in love makes us happy and we have little need for comfort eating.

Life gets complicated when there are kids and family responsibilities, and we find ourselves feeling like you do today. When my 3 daughters were young, I used to fantasize about how far I could get in the station wagon before the authorities would drag me back home. I loved everyone at my house, but I still felt a loss of power and control, very frustrating.

You have made a beginning, by talking to your man about how he can help you. I read in Martha Beck's book, "The Four-Day win" that, in biological terms, the opposite of getting fat is getting CONNECTED, and the antidote to being OUT of control isn't being IN control, but being in LOVE. She suggests that two brain states that are components of falling in love, appreciation and gratitude, can start the happy hormones rushing through our minds and bodies, making eating for comfort less interesting.

Please forgive the lengthy comment. I just didn't want you to think you were alone in feeling like today. Hang in there.
You'll get things turned around.
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A funny for those over 50 (or so)

Sunday, January 09, 2011


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WOWEETOO 1/10/2011 3:14PM

    also go read onereallybigdog's blog today with your husband funny as all get out
the lady mary
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A little late: Goals

Sunday, January 09, 2011

Goals for 2011:

-lose 30 lbs. (give or take, depending on how I look and bodyfat)
-bodyfat at 16-18%
-lower cholesterol back to under 190 by June (recheck)
-get consistent with exercise again (that is improving)
-fit back into all the clothes I bought when I lost the weight before
-log at least 12,ooo fitness min. this year
-do things I want to do, not necessarily what everyone else thinks I should do
-speak up! instead of just letting things go (at work and in my personal life)

I had vein surgery on my leg Wed. and am only allowed to walk for 2 weeks. I can't do ST or do any high impact cardio. I've been on the treadmill a couple times and it's very slow going, but it's something. My focus for these 2 weeks is to stick with my nutrition plan and do some type of cardio at least 6 days each week. It's a good time to work on getting consistent again with nutrition and cardio.

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DREMARGRL 1/10/2011 10:13PM

    Wishing you a quick recovery and focus to get back on track when you're recovered. Until then, your plan sounds very good! emoticon emoticon emoticon
Let's raawwwwwkkk 2011~!!

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BARBARA_BOO 1/10/2011 9:35PM

    2011 is our year! If our weight bounced back upwards when we got close to goal because something within us needed extra time, it seems like the coast may be clear now.

That "speak up" goal is tough and well worth the risk. Expecting others to know what I want, if I don't tell them, has given me lots of unnecessary stress, over time. Also, I have done some real numbers on myself, getting all angry, hurt, and/or frustrated, by thinking I knew what others were thinking about me. It's a relief, any time I have the guts to "speak up", to discover that I was mistaken and that they didn't think nasty things about me, after all.

Be patient and let your leg recover from the surgery. Walking is a great exercise. Walk "cool" (with attitude)!

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JOHNTJ1 1/10/2011 8:25AM

    Joan had similar surgery in October and it took her awhile to get up and going again. The great news is that you put a plan in place for yourself that is "do-able." I think sometimes we get all caught up in the grandiose and expect the Mormon Tabernacle Choir to be present when we unveil our goals. I like what you've done here, its straight forward and to the point and most importantly it has value to you!!!!

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Much Love


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MOCNVW23 1/9/2011 11:48PM

    Great goals Kim. And glad to see that you have other goals on there besides exercise and nutrition. Emontional/mental goals are also a huge part of us getting healthier. These are all great goals, and I know that you can do it.

Glad to hear that you are starting to feel a little better.
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HEARTANDMUSIC 1/9/2011 11:08PM

    Great goals! I hope all goes well with your surgery and that you have a quick recovery!

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GONABFIT 1/9/2011 10:33PM

    Great GOALS!!!!!!!!!

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TEENY_BIKINI 1/9/2011 10:14PM

    The nutrition plan goal is a good one when you can't do your normal workouts. That is what I do when my back acts up - just shift the focus. I think I actually do better when the food is the focus.

Feel better soon and I am lovin' those goals.


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DRAGONFLY180 1/9/2011 7:07PM

    hope you heal quickly! glad to hear you can still do walking for some exercise. take care of yourself!

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ABETTERJILL 1/9/2011 6:20PM

    I'm happy to see you're feeling okay. Great goals. Good luck!

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    Good Luck with you goals. Take your time and recover completely before you get started. Take you time and work on your goals and you will have a successful 2011.

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JUDI_CUTIE 1/9/2011 5:59PM

    I really like your goals! I like when there are goals other than just about eating and exercising. Those are the "real" ones that will make a different, in my opinion.

Good luck with recovering from your surgery.

Happy New Year!

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TEACHDIANN78 1/9/2011 5:49PM

    You can do it!! Have a wonderful 2011 and may you reach all of your goals!

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