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Looking at this a different way...

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Well, its only day 3 of this journey, although I have walked this path before. And, I seemingly remember how really simple it is. Pay attention to what you put in your mouth, get your butt up off the chair and away from the computer, drink water throughout the day and pay attention!

So, I've started paying attention. Paying attention to things that I never considered before when trying to change my lifestyle. You see I am a great cook, no really! I absolutely love to cook for my husband, my kids, my grandkids, the mail lady, the meter reader...I'll cook for anyone! And if you weren't sure if you liked me before, you will love me after you've eaten at my house! Well....you get the idea here.

So, today's task was to start going through many of the recipes that I have saved over the years. Have I mentioned that I am a dynamite cook? The goal was to sort through and decide which ones would be a giant step backward to prepare. Wow! What an eye opener! Some of those delicious recipes had 700-850 calories a serving!!! Delicious yes, but its crazy to have anything that rich or high in fat or calories. I placed a large trash can next to the kitchen table and started throwing away the the ones that had topped the "enemies of my health" list.

I've been carefully planning each of our meals. Funny, how it really doesn't take that much time, its just a matter of focus. I had totally lost mine. Mindlessly eating when I was hungry, when I was bored, when it was a customary time to eat, when we would meet friends, whenever....

Today is a good day. This morning when I got on the scale, it was definitely down. It was down significantly. It is a lot in just three days. I know it won't last, but it is encouraging to see the scale moving downward.

I still am hoping for a buddy to do this with. My best friend is not at the place she needs to be mentally to do this. My sisters aren't there either. Not sure if I'll get a buddy or not. Then again, maybe that's okay. This is something that I have to do. No other person can make the changes or the choices for me. Maybe not having an accountability partner right now is a good thing. Maybe I just need to get up on my own two feet and do this thing without relying or depending on any one else.

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MONTY68 1/21/2012 11:52PM

Awesome blog, you really are taking action to assure healthier meals, a great win-win for you and the family. I love your attitude and I feel a sense of motivation, Yes , you have released some weight and it was awesome. Accept each pound released and know that you will continue to succeed
Thanks for sharing

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NATIVE_ONE 1/21/2012 6:46PM

    You have shown so much strength to me in the past and are showing it again today. Congrats on the weight loss and what a step forward in throwing away your fantastic recipes. I am sure some of them would be to die for, taste wise. I too was wondering like the other post would there be ways you can make them over with healthier options? Maybe you can share of few of them with me?

Is your daughter still active on here? I will always be your friend, but only you can hold yourself accountable for the eating and exercising. And the best part of that - is I know you will because of you being such a goal oriented person. Should also point out determined as well too!

You got this my friend and I am here with you all the way!

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TRENTDREAMER 1/21/2012 6:29PM

    "So, today's task was to start going through many of the recipes that I have saved over the years. Have I mentioned that I am a dynamite cook?"
* You might have :D

"Delicious yes, but its crazy to have anything that rich or high in fat or calories. I placed a large trash can next to the kitchen table and started throwing away the the ones that had topped the "enemies of my health" list. "
* Are there any of them that you could makeover with healthier ingredients?

"Today is a good day. This morning when I got on the scale, it was definitely down. It was down significantly. It is a lot in just three days."
* Congrats on your progress!

"Maybe I just need to get up on my own two feet and do this thing without relying or depending on any one else. "
* Best of fortune to you!!

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21% of My Goal

Sunday, March 06, 2011

That's right! I've achieved 21% of my goal so far. I've lost 18.4 pounds and have 87.6 pounds to go. It would seem that 87.6 is a bit overwhelming, and perhaps it is. So, today I want to focus on the 21% or 18.4 pounds lost since December 1, 2010. In fact, it is nearly cause for celebration!

Let's be honest, I've lost 18 pounds before, and in fact, more. So what's different now? The difference is that I have dieted all my adult life with a roller coaster of very moderate (even disappointing) levels of success. I've never reached my goal weight and never even came close. The result has always been the same...get bored with the diet, get lazy with the exercise, gain the weight back, get depressed and gain even more. And so goes my life...in the past.

Today, I am more than 3 months into a healthy lifestyle and cannot imagine going back to my old ways. Why would I? We eat delicious meals, full of colorful and flavorful vegetables, lean and guilt-free meats and find that I don't miss the loaded baked potatoes or creamy macaroni and cheese...okay, truth be known, I do sometimes think of a thick, savory, juicy grilled del monico steak. Then I think of the lovely marbling in that steak, which is just a beautiful way of saying "fat-infused" meat. No thank you!

For over a year I've walked, often using the WIO, and found that I was getting really tired of it. It had lost its spark for me. So, I gave a lot of thought to what I needed and wanted. Should I join a gym? We live in rural WV and the nearest gym is 25 minutes away...no way I'd never stick with it. I needed something that I could do at home. We don't have room for a weight bench and I'm not very interested in that anyway...so what to do???

Started researching online and came up with some ideas. I went to Dick's and bought a jump rope and a weighted hula hoop, a foam exercise roller, a yoga mat and a 4-way resistance band. Cool!

When I was a kid, I spent countless hours jumping rope and attempting to hula hoop (I never was very good at that), but it was fun to try! I also knew I needed to do some resistance training as I've sorely overlooked this aspect of fitness. So, now I have some new toys to play with or should I say new tools to work with...no, no...I like the idea of toys...life is full of work and very little play, until now.

My first two days of attempting the weighted hula hoop was a hoot. I dropped that thing so many times that the sides of my knees were black and blue from trying to keep it from hitting the ground. But, for every time it hit the ground (which was often), I bent over at the waist and picked it up...more exercise, right? I had to laugh when I thought to myself that I sort of had the female version of ED...just couldn't keep it up. Sorry! Just had to share that thought.

By the third day, I had it going 150 revolutions before losing it and yesterday I managed 194 revolutions. I'm improving every day. Can't wait until I just lose count and keep it going until I choose to stop! My bruises are better, not gone, but better. My heart rates soars, my head drips sweat and I have a ball doing it. Yesterday, when I finished, I had to wipe up the floor because there were sweat drops spattered about! Good Lord, who would have thought that would ever happen?

I haven't started the jump rope yet. But, its in my arsenal to use in the future. My husband's stationary bike has been calling my name too. I try to ride it 20 minutes in the morning at 20-22 miles an hour and again in the evening at the same pace. It gives me a good, quick heart-rate burst and then I go on about my activity.

Life has changed and changed dramatically. I cannot believe that I let myself become so sedentary! A body at rest really does tend to stay at rest!!

Now, however, I move and move often. I have achieved 21% of my total goal in 3 months and I'm proud of that and motivated by it. If I continue at this pace, I will reach my goal weight by this time next year. At my heaviest last year, I weighed 252 pounds **embarrassed**. Today, I weigh 223. At goal...136. I am focused on that goal and will continue with this amazing life-style change which will bring it about in due time. I certainly didn't get to be 252 pounds in a month or two and I know that I must be patient and continue to drive myself in order to see this through.

Thanks to all my friends here at SP and my friends at Bodybugg who keep me encouraged and help me to stay focused and committed.

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HAYMON 3/6/2011 11:36PM

    Thank you so much! Monty, your comment is so appreciated. You are a great motivator and inspiration to all!!! emoticon

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MONTY68 3/6/2011 11:30PM

What a awesome blog. Wow!!!!!!! Who is that lady writing this blog. You have come a long way and you have written a very clear, positive blog. These past 3 + months you have been on fire. I see your comments, your weight releases and I am amazed. 21% of your goal is fantastic and there is no doubt in my mind that you WILL reach your goal. You have a plan, you know what you want and you are so determined to do it. What else can I say except congratulations and keep that fire burning.

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A Life Now Focused

Sunday, January 09, 2011

Much has happened these last couple of months, major-life changing events, in fact.

My Dad, who was once my hero, has made a conscious effort to banish us from his life. I'll never understand how you can grow so cold to your own flesh and blood, but he has. It was very hurtful, but in reality, its his decision and there's nothing we can do about it. So, we let him have his way, we leave him alone and make no effort to contact him. Its hurtful, but survivable.

Of greater importance, and with much greater impact on my life, came the news that my dear husband has stage 4 cancer. Yeah, that was a huge blow. It would seem natural to ask how this could happen to someone so wonderful. But, we don't ask. We just trust the Lord to know what is best. We trust him to guide us and to care for us and to sustain us through this battle.

There are so many thoughts that go through your head when you hear this kind of news. An impending doom seems to enshroud you, your heart feels as though it will never recover, and you feel as though you will never again be happy. But, praise be to God, these feelings are temporary, or at least intermittent.

With every storm, one must look for and perhaps even search tirelessly for the silver lining. There is almost always one to be found. Beauty does rise from the ashes in time.

One positive thing that has come from this is that I've come to realize that I need to do everything I can to take care of myself so that I will have the strength to do the things that I must. I've let myself go for so long. I've been obese almost my entire adult life. His illness has shown me that I have to take my health very seriously.

I researched and purchased a Bodybugg Version 3. It has allowed me to take all that I have learned about weight management and healthy living and apply it scientifically. There is no guesswork. Calories consumed minus calories burned must equal a deficit or I won't lose weight. No mystery, no guesswork. If I work the program and upload my data throughout the day and analyze my calorie consumption vs my calorie burn, then I work out until I've met my calorie burn goal and have walked at least 10,000 steps. That's it. Nothing mysterious about it, just pure science.

I've finally found a system that works for me. I've lost over 8 pounds since December 1, right on track with my plan. I'm never hungry. I sometimes have to push myself to meet my calorie burn or my step goal. That's okay though. Anything as important as my health and my life is worth a little extra effort. Don't you think?

Sometimes I think we get too comfortable. Everything bumps along just fine and we don't really see the danger that lurks in our own lives clearly. The danger is real, I'm staring it in the face and I refuse to back down, not now not ever.

I have no control over my husband's cancer, I wish I did. But, I do have control over my obesity and my health. I have changed the way I cook. We eat almost entirely clean and whole foods. We've traded beef for turkey, fresh fish, legumes, etc. Don't get me wrong, its an adjustment. It takes longer to cook unprocessed foods but the result is SO worth it. Delicious, nutritious, wholesome foods. You have to go to the store more often because fresh fruits, veggies, fish, etc don't keep well. Yes, its a challenge at times, but so is being morbidly obese.

Yes, at times it is a challenge, but I am worth it! In 5 weeks I have released 8.4 pounds. It is a victory, it is inspiring, and it is keeping me motivated to exercise my butt off...literally.

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HAYMON 2/2/2011 10:42AM

    Hi Fathomgreen. Thanks so much for stopping by and or your kind words. Life is full of uncertainty, of victories and challenges. We are fully trusting the Lord to bring us through this storm. He is faithful and will see us through. I will pass along your kind words to my husband. We appreciate your kindness.

I hope you are doing well and seeing progress toward your goals. I'll try to check in with you from time to time. :-)

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FATHOMGREEN 2/2/2011 1:55AM

    I stopped by to see how things are going. I'm sorry to hear about your hardships, but I'm glad to see you have the strength to stay positive and rise above.

Good luck with all your goals. I wish you the greatest success in your journey, and hope for health and healing for your husband.

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HAYMON 1/10/2011 11:09AM

    Thank you so much for your kind words, my friends. Everyone has rain clouds in life and at times down pours. I'm trying my best to learn to sing in the rain.

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    Oh, Wow. I don't know if I would remain as calm as you with that news. I am just so sorry you're having to go through this struggle. You seem to have a really good grip on it, and I admire you for that so much. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NATIVE_ONE 1/10/2011 6:06AM

    Its not easy to put into words the emotions that can run through a person when their met with a closed door. You did it and you opened the window too! I am so proud of you for the changes, your attitude and your tenacity! You, my friend, are an amazing woman.

I wish you contined success with your lifestyle changes (and your bodybugg) and a healthy happy life with your DH.

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Not sure how to get back!

Monday, September 20, 2010

It's been a while since I was on Sparkpeople. Maybe because Summer was here and there are so many things to do. Maybe because my sisters and I are working on starting a new business. Maybe because I have a bizarre work schedule. Maybe because I just can't do it. Maybe...maybe...I don't know...

I know this though. I am obsessive and become very focused on the "project of the hour". I only focus on one new thought process or project at a time. When I am involved in a new endeavor, I focus completely...until another new project or endeavor comes along.

Lately, I've felt my waistband getting tighter. I can feel my thighs do a little jiggle when I walk. My midrift is getting around the corner before the rest of me and my backside is still visible seconds after the rest of me has cleared the corner. How embarassing is that!! Can anyone relate?

I went to the doctor today for my annual check-up and talked to her about my weight issue. We talked about my schedule with 16-hr days in the prison and the fact the only food available during those 16-hr days is made by inmates, served by inmates and full of fat and starch and contaminated on a regular basis. Several officers sent to the hospital last week due to contaminated food.

She is the second doctor in two years to tell me that I probably won't have any significant weight loss until I retire, which now is 5 years away. I can't stand it. I feel depressed and saddened. She told me WW works but only if you eat frequently and specific food types and exercise regularly. I told her about SP and she had the same response. She said she felt terrible that I am in a unique situation and she can't recommend a program that will work for me.

Really??? Does that mean I'm doomed to be a middle-aged fat woman...until of course I become an elderly fat woman? OMG I can't stand that thought.

Has anyone, beside myself, felt overwhelmed with being overweight and at the same time powerless to get a grip on it? I'm going to be 50 years old in two weeks. I do not want to require 6-8 STRONG men to carry me up the hill when I die.

I feel like if I am absolutely honest with myself I still have the defeatest attitude that I am just always going to be morbidly obese regardless of my situation or my efforts unless I give up every other interest in my life and focus only on my body. Which with a husband, three grown children and 11 grandkids is just not realistic.

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HAYMON 9/20/2010 10:50PM

    No, we cannot bring anything to work due to security concerns that staff will introduce contraband into the institution. We also are not allowed to leave for lunch. I am so looking for solutions. Its very hard to go 16 hours without eating, especially when you have to be alert at all times. If you think of anything, anything at all, I'd love to hear your thoughts.

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    I'm confused a bit... can you not BRING your lunch to work? Is that a safety or security issue? I don't think I could stomach eating that food, you poor gal! I wish I could think of a solution! emoticon

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    I'm confused a bit... can you not BRING your lunch to work? Is that a safety or security issue? I don't think I could stomach eating that food, you poor gal! I wish I could think of a solution! emoticon

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Seeing Improvement

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

After returning from vacation and jumping back into normal life with both feet, the scale is moving. I gained 10 pounds over 3 weeks while on vacation. Eeegads!!!

I'm back to being able to prepare our meals and eat when necessary. In the days since we returned the scale is dropping. Praise the Lord! As of this morning, I had lost all but 3 of the 10 pounds that I had gained. I knew it was temporary weight, but I also know that temporary weight can become permanent weight when one does not act.

I'm feeling the momentum of this rapid loss and sharpening my focus on living as healthy as I can.

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NATIVE_ONE 7/22/2010 9:10AM

    You have this! I have seen your determination and the 3 pounds that you have remaining isn't going to be around for long. Keep up the great work that you have been doing, taking your new bike for a spin, which btw is very nice, and you will be exactly where you want to go. I am here with you cheering you on! emoticon

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MONTY68 7/21/2010 6:48PM

You are to be congratulated. You came back home, could have gone into a tailspin, but you did not. You are so focused and determined to reach your goal and are doing exactly what you need to do. 7 pounds already released and the 3 will come shortly. In a way, it was a good experience as you now know what to do. I think a great part of that is being part of Spark.
You are excited and I am excited for you, I see success coming your way.Thank you for sharing.
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    emoticonThat is fantastic! You're doing GREAT! emoticonI'll bet you feel better physically, too, back to eating healthier things! We think we want all those other things at the time, but I think we really feel better when we're not! emoticon emoticon

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MERTAB 7/21/2010 2:39PM

  Great job getting back at it as soon as your vacation was over. This is sure to be temporary weight and with all enthusiasm you will loose more than 10 in no time!

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