Once is randow; twice is encouraging; third time is a pattern

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

Today marks the third time, I bought a candy bar to feed low blood sugar. Normally I gobble it down. A couple weeks ago, I was able to eat half, wait 5 minutes, then toss the rest.

Last week was the second time I was able to do this.

This morning was the third time!

  

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GEEKYGRANDMOMMY 12/7/2011 2:57PM

Way to go. Knowing how much you need helps save calories. Report Inappropriate Comment

I came so close to saying, "Why bother?"

Sunday, December 04, 2011

Yesterday I felt gluttonous. It was okay until the evening. I had just baked some parmesan crisps to take to work. One or two? Not bad. But I had 6 -- that's 360 calories. Then I spotted a candy bar under the bed. OMG, I ate that as well.

I didn't bother to finish the nutrition tracker. I was just bummed. Today seemed like it was going to be more of the same. I made pumpkin rugelach and had 2. More parmesan crisps. A ton of bacon.

It's the closest I've come to throwing in the towel.

Somehow the need to not break my spinning streak nudged me just enough to spin the wheel. Okay, I thought, let's tally it up.

Wow, the totals weren't bad. I CAN DO THIS. I certainly went over fat and sugar allotment. I was pretty surprised to see the calories in total were fine.

I CAN DO THIS!

  

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ABRANDNEWSTART 12/4/2011 6:22PM

You need to ask yourself? Am i worth it? Remember You are so worth it, so you had one bad moment, today starts a better day Report Inappropriate Comment

ML4230 12/4/2011 6:01PM

Every now and then I go on a binge. Yesterday, I decided to buy a loaf of homemade 9 grain bread. I am a carbohydrate addict and I really love homemade bread. I thought , I will just taste it before giving it to my grandson.I ate the 16 oz. loaf by the time I got home. It was so good, so then I had to cut back on all the foods for the day,since I already ate my calories for the day in bread. Why,did I even buy it; I know me. Report Inappropriate Comment

The Zen of Walking

Thursday, December 01, 2011

If you're as old as I am, you remember when everything it seemed became "The Zen of ...". For example " Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance."
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zen_and_the_Ar
t_of_Motorcycle_Maintenance

So I've been getting some work done to my body called Structural Integration. Each session ends with walking lessons.

I am enjoying the sensation of relaxing down into my feet to walk.

When I'm not conscious, I lead with my head. I tense up, my body becomes ready for something.

  

I have a carb hangover this morning

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I control diabetes with a low carb diet. I've been fortunate that this has worked well for me.

Last night I got caught at dinner time waiting for someone who was late because of heavy traffic.

My blood sugar dropped suddenly and I went across the street to the Subway. I ordered a double meat sandwich to get more protein. I planned to toss most of the bread, but the first bite of that bread and I could feel the sugar from the carbs actually moving through my system.

Yeah, that's how it is when carbs fix that blood sugar drop. I can feel something moving through my blood.

But I am truly like an addict. My next stop was the drug store for something. Long line. I grabbed a Heath bar. So delicious. Mmmm

I got home and gobbled 2 slices of toast.

When I tallied the calories, I was really only over 50 calories for the day, but my weird chemistry treats carbs strangely. I know the next couple of days will be difficult to avoid pigging out on carbs. The candy machine will beckon. Healthy whole wheat toast or candy bars -- my body does not know the difference. I'm not defenseless and I have to stop the cycle. I usually stop it by incessant munching of raw veggies.

I've never used exercise to bring a halt to the gobbling of carbs -- looks like it will be the elliptical this morning and this afternoon to see how that works.

  

Emotional mix always seems heightened at this time of year

Monday, November 28, 2011

I wonder if it's the early darkness and the late light that makes this time of year seem so gloomy and emotional. I miss my children so much more than in the summer.

I find it interesting to note that it makes me more ascetic in my eating. My desires for hot fudge sundaes remain submerged. I crave healthy soups.