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Thursday, July 17, 2014

I got news this morning that someone who had caused a traumatic event in 1963 dropped dead from an aneurysm.

I hope that most of their negative power over me left years ago (therapy does do miracles), but everyone once in awhile when I looked in the mirror I could still hear their voice saying, "no one will love you ever."

The event had its positive effects in my life. I made sure my children never heard that same voice; I am now teaching a grandchild the same lessons I've learned.

I was an outstanding practitioner of my chosen career.

Today, however, I am singing, "Ding-dong the witch is dead; dink-dong, the wicked witch is dead."

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EILEEN828 7/18/2014 3:25PM

    You did a great job of turning a bad situation into a character builder for yourself, not all people can do that. It's going to feel like a new era to you, a weight will be lifted, and you can continue to be proud that you overcame such negativity. I hope for continued positivity for your life going forward. Give yourself some special nurturing and attention right now, during this milestone period and then let it all go. emoticon

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Molly Shannon's Mom (Sally O'Malley) knew the truth -- you gotta move

Sunday, July 13, 2014

When Molly Shannon was on Saturday Night Live, she had a recurring skit inspired by her own mother. Its byline was "I'm Sally O'Malley and I'm 50 years old and I like to kick."

My daughter began calling me Sally because I had recently began playing drop-in basketball again. I had learned to play basketball when there were woman's rules and 6 players per side. It was a passing cooperative game. Barely any dribbling. Had to pass or shoot after dribbles.

My daughter was so amused by her too old mother relearning how to play basketball.

Last week I began teaching my granddaughter the nuances of shooting baskets. I no longer have the endurance to run the court for long, but I still enjoy the game.

I am now 60+ and I can kick!

I plan on saying the same thing in my 70's, 80s and 90's.

Thank you Sally O'Malley and Molly Shannon for saying how I feel. Even if it's humorous.


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HAWKTHREE 7/17/2014 12:44PM

    At some point, Rovers were added. 1 person from defense and 1 from offense were allowed to cross the middle line. I can't remember if Rovers were restricted to 3 dribbles before passing -- seems unlikely as it would restrict their ability.

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KOFFEENUT 7/13/2014 4:16PM

    Ah - another woman who remembers the days of 1/2 court basketball for women (offense on one side of the court, defense on the other side). Good for you for getting back out there and continuing to KICK!!!
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So very close to the 100 pound notch!!!!

Monday, June 30, 2014

I try to weigh myself weekly at the fitness center. They've got one of those scales where you first slide a weight to the 50 pound notch that's closest without going over your weight (sounds like The Price is Right).

Today I discovered that one more pound and I can move downward from the 150 pound notch to the 100 pound notch.

This small visual reminder has re-energized my resolve to stay on track.

Next weigh-in will be July 8. I really want to report that I am a 100-pound-notcher.

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EILEEN828 7/3/2014 7:49AM

    That's motivation for sure! Good luck! emoticon

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SUSIEGKORN 6/30/2014 12:57PM

    I love this! Having that visual would be so motivating! Best to you on becoming a 100-pound notcher!

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SPICEMWE 6/30/2014 10:51AM

    Congrats on your progress! That's such a great milestone!!!


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WOUBBIE 6/30/2014 10:42AM

    I think that moving the scale to the 150 notch when I got below 200 was much more impressive than just seeing the number alone. Congrats, and enjoy your accomplishment!

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JAMIRBLAZE 6/30/2014 9:51AM

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MIKA710 6/30/2014 9:14AM

    I know the feeling. That below 150 pound mark is right there for me too - I am motivated to slip below and am ramping up my exercise to get there.

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Breaking through inertia. What do I need to do today; what do I want to do today

Saturday, June 28, 2014

I'm sitting here dithering and have already wasted an hour on FB. I'm in a putting off mode and very glad donuts are not in the house. I'd be adding wasted calories to wasted time.

Some of the things I want to do today involve making phone calls to strangers. Ugh.

I need to write a report so that I'm not in hot water when I return to work on Monday. Ugh.

I need to figure out a way to get my HOA's attention to the damage done to the floor caused by heavy flooding in the area underneath me. Ugh. The management company won't give me information and they won't allow my contractor to inspect it. I haven't lived here long enough to know the names of the Board members. I need to figure out how to get into that room without breaking and entering. My floor is sinking.

I want a back massage. So that's going to be my reward for getting off my butt.

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EILEEN828 6/28/2014 2:51PM

    I've been in those shoes before: certain things are very important, they all take time effort and energy to fix, and none of it is very pleasant. My gut says to tackle the hardest most impactful, and the place to put your initial energies. That would be your report. It has to be done. Do it when you are freshest. When you are finished you are going to feel a LOT better. It will turn into a win and relieve pressure. If you find you need to play phone tag to chase down HOA, you could start them to get the process going but that is not your priority to follow through today unless you coincidentally get lucky right away and actually get immediate action. Just start to place calls there and then let it ride, chances are that's all the farther you'd get any way for the weekend. That will make you feel good that it is not be ignored but you won't get invested into chasing it down which would eat into your time to get your report done. Make yourself comfortable, make a pot of tea or whatever, and dive in. Once you start it will get better and easier as you focus on it guilt free. Pretend this easy, and present yourself as positive, and that your explanations will be received well because they will. Some times your work superiors simply need to be informed of circumstance and why choices were made. I don't know your situation but it helps to explain it as if you were telling your best friend the story believing that you already have their support. Be accurate, and try not to point fingers unless that IS what has to be done. Write with your integrity intact. Be complimentary without over doing otherwise it will look as an obvious ploy to deflect attention and it won't get far. Present yourself as best you can and trust yourself to do it well. Use the facts, write your thoughts, and review what you wrote from their perspective. Did you answer all the questions? Would rewording present it in a better light? Finesse what you can and then trust that it will be enough. This is your opportunity to clarify with out having to make quick decisions, or blurting things out that are not helpful. You can do this and once you have your attention fully on it it will start to flow and you'll be done and satisfied with how you handled it. Then if you have time left you can focus on your home needs, and not feel stressed by lack of time. The home situation is not on as tight a deadline as your work, and for now is not more important than your work. The sooner the report is done the better. You got this, listen to some uplifting background music while you work, reward yourself with evening meal however best you like to do that, restaurant, take out, or something simple and luxurious from the market. emoticon emoticon

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    Inertia is my middle name! What the heck, knock on doors til you find the management company 'guy' info and the board member contacts. I take it you bought a condo? That water damage is serious and does need immediate attention so do not be dissuade! The condo is responsible for repairing problems of certain kinds inside units and it will cost everyone more to stall off addressing this. I FEEL YA. Deep breaths, take a walk, drink water, more deep breaths.

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I'm on auto pilot this week

Friday, June 27, 2014

So I've been living with a bunch of unpack moving boxes, awaiting painters and bathroom handyman.
They finally arrived and I'm very relieved.

So I'm on auto pilot as far as fitness and eating.
Frozen soups, hard boiled eggs, and yogurt are my primary meals.

Unfortunately, due to unplanned Home Depot visits, finding a giant leak in the storage area below me, taking an unplanned 8 hour drive to fix something, I've also been eating at Taco Bell and KFC when I'm out and about. I've been sucking down Trader Joe's Fruit Frenzy bars.

I'm succeeding in entering calories and can see that I'm having challenges.

Next week will be better. Next month will be even better.

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USMAWIFE 6/27/2014 10:24PM

    Moving always comes with so many challenges but once you are unpacked and settled in it will all be worth it

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    Good for you to report an unsteady time. It's all too easy to wait for the high points and share that everything's wonderful. But life doesn't flow like that and the real journey has lots of bumps in it. You ARE eating right some of the time and you will do more, I can tell. Chin up, we know you'll make it through these challenges. That's what you do. And boy will it be sweet when you look back to see just how far you've come and accomplished!

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BERGBA7 6/27/2014 11:44AM

    Even small steps will bring you to your victory - keep being alert and mindful!
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