Monday, April 09, 2012
I embarked on my weight loss journey rather quietly last May. Just up and decided to see just how many calories I was consuming and wondering if my foot would ever heal enough to do some "real" aerobics (read: basketball) again.
I looked at my lifestyle and thought about the low fat meals I was cooking for my new spouse, thinking they still had too many carbs to keep me healthy. What to do? I also noticed that while I was at work that he ate all day long -- hiding his candy bars from me; claiming that his nutritionist said that biscotti was good for him so he'd buy an entire bag and eat them.
One day at a time and over the past year, I lost weight gradually. For exercise, I doubled my weekly pilates to twice weekly.
I began getting comments at work about halfway through. Facebook friends noticed the loss. Sibs noticed the loss.
But nothing from my hubby. I pondered this for awhile and thought: is it his competitive nature? his inability to see me? his narcissism? my inability to state it? Was his daily goodbye kiss with a "you look beautiful, my dear" a routine?
Finally .. we're at dinner at a restaurant with his daughters and one of them says, "how much weight have you lost? you look great."
"Thirty-five pounds. "
"Hey dad, did you buy her some new clothes to celebrate?"
"No", he says, "she looks beautiful without new clothes."
Later he took a look at me and said, "you were joking with Linda, weren't you? You haven't really lost that much weight. I'd have noticed."