Monday, January 06, 2014
I have had one of the hardest years of my life since I was 18. I have struggled to keep my balance and find my joy. I have worried something inside me broke with all the stress. In talking with a wise friend yesterday he pointed out I was just dealing with a new weapon in the room I was living in, one causing new wounds. He insisted I wasn't broken or unbalanced; I was learning...and it would get better. He reminded me to put important things first: Relationships with God, With Family, with fellowman, and with myself. I needed to take time for all 4 and to love without expecting anything in return. I will follow this advice. It is amazing how this new paradigm, relieves my stress level and increases my hope and joy. Today I felt more like "me" than I have in months.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
I was reading in the scriptures and found a verse about how when we have hard hearts and stiff necks we need to repent to find the freedom and joy God would bless us with. I thought how my BODY was getting stiffer and my arteries must be hardening too, due to my poor eating and lack of exercise. Inviting the Grace of Christ's love and the power of his atonement into my lifestyle changes makes me feel like I can really do this. He will help me. It's not about will power, it IS about better choices, but God can and will help me, as I invite him into this process. So, I invite the Lord into my temple...my body...to heal and cleanse and direct it. I have always felt a disconnect from my body and a keen connection with God. This new worldview feels like a bridge between the two. I will walk on the bridge and into my body.
Curves and one mile today.
Saturday, December 28, 2013
This phrase," I am full of grace and truth" has been my mantra of peace this week. I cannot control other people, their actions, reacations or feelings towards me. I cannot even always control myself, but God has promised grace to help me act, feel and react in His ways if I will just seek His help. His Truth can become MY truth as I seek to hear, see, and feel it. Often I get so wound up in others' and my own emotions that I withdraw in fear or act out rather than calmly act. I am full of grace and truth and I can weather the storms of life. I am full of grace and truth.
BTW, bought a 5 month membership to Curves today. I will make it work for me. I am full of grace and truth and He will magnify my actions toward truth and grace.
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Evenings are hard for me. I get tired and hungry. The stress of the day puts the proverbial straw on this camel's back and I want to snack on "bad" foods.
I have found that to keep my momentum, I can read SP recipes rather than reach for a bag of chips or chocolate! If I go to my laptop and scroll through recipes, I almost always find something (or many somethings!) that make me think, "Ooooh, that sounds GOOD. And HEALTHY. And it wouldn't sabotage all my work today. I'm tired and don't want to make it tonight, but maybe tomorrow!" Somehow, just reading about these healthy, yummy alternatives lessons my night cravings. I actually DO make some of the recipes, but often when tomorrow comes, I don't NEED the food, and so it goes unmade and uneaten! And in the process I find great recipes for healthy ways to prepare the food I already have in my fridge, or learn tricks to lower fat, etc. Win, win!
All of us need to find our coping strategies. This one helps me.
Monday, July 08, 2013
Wow. It's been a hard 3 months, but now with my CPAP, Thyroid medication for my totally burnt out thyroid and getting a handle (I think) on my "buddy block" problem, I am ready to spend energy and attention on myself. Every sparkpoint is a babystep towards taking care of myself. Every pound released has a lesson to teach, and I think I am ready to learn!
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