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Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Now I'm motivated! I started exercising again. I used to love running. I still do even though it's much harder to run with all these extra pounds on me. But I'm doing it. It just feels so good.

I haven't lost any weight yet, but my motivation is really high. Some friends of mine at work just lost a bunch of weight. Husband and wife team - they joined weight watchers and the weight really came off! That motivated another friend of mine at work to work on her weight. And little by little, she's chipped away at her weight and has lost 15 pounds so far! She looks great! I can do it too!

My goal is to exercise - mainly run - five times per week. But I also have to watch what I eat. And I've been doing that successfully for the past three days! I'm so excited! I really want to lose weight! My husband took a photo of me this past Sunday at my son's birthday party and I was horrified at what I look like now. I'm just so fat! It's time for a change.

So here I go. The journey begins with a single step...


Laying My Cards On The Table

Sunday, January 15, 2012

It's a new year and a way to start over with a clean slate. I'm going to start by laying my cards on the table. Here it goes:

One of the things holding me back is my own confidence - or lack of it. Why do I feel like, no matter what, I'm going to fail? Why do I feel like I'm not worthy?

I've had so many examples of me working and succeeding at my goals. For example, I have a great education. Thanks to my hard work, I was accepted at a great school on a full tuition scholarship. I was incredibly successful at my first job out of school I was a considered a high performer at previous positions. I've completed two marathons. I used to weigh 110 lbs (seriously!) But lately (as in the past five+ years), I feel like I'm just a failure. Why? Why do I feel this way?

I feel like this at work all the time. I feel like I'm going to fail. I look at my colleagues and I'm just as qualified as they are. But my boss yells at me. My colleagues get bonuses and promotions and I get yelled at. And the cycle continues.

And I feel like this emotional weight prevents me from losing the physical weight. I feel terrible, so I'm just physically exhausted so I don't exercise. I'm too tired to make myself some food so I grab the junk food and eat a lot of it. and then I feel bad for doing that. It's the emotional - the feeling like I'm a failure - that's holding me back. It's the chain tying me down.

It's time for me to break free. But I don't know how. And I don't know how to begin. If you're reading this and have some suggestions, please post them here.

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HARMONY_MUM 9/26/2012 7:58PM

    Thanks DukeFan and GermanIrisGirl! I appreciate your advice. I hadn't seen it till just now. I think you're both right. I'll try to follow your advice.

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DUKEFAN86 1/28/2012 9:58PM

    I like the idea of consistency that GERMANIRISHGIRL mentioned above. Start small, though, to help shift your self-confidence in the right direction. Some suggestions:

1) Pick one thing to track for a week. Maybe it's just water that you track, or just fruits and veggies. Once you're ready, build on it.

2) Get a pedometer, and wear it consistently. Don't judge yourself, just track the numbers and look for ways to increase your daily steps. That's where tips like parking farther away from the store will help.

3) Work the SparkPoints page. It really is a good way to educate yourself, and earn points in the process. Right now I'm working toward the next trophy, hope to get it by the end of the year. It's not a monetary thing, but I hope it'll pay off in other ways down the road.

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    Maybe try rewards for yourself. That helps me. The key is consistency. You need to find it, keep it, and don't let it go. Start at the top of the spark points page. I think they are somewhat in order of importance: track food, fitness minutes, goals, learn to cook, read (educate yourself), water, etc...EVERY DAY. Then reward yourself when you do it.

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Friday, March 04, 2011

I've been at this weight loss thing for over two months now and I've barely lost five pounds. I've been eating all the right foods. Lots of lean protein, vegetables and some fruit. Low carbs. I've been writing down every single morsel that goes into my mouth and haven't exceeded 1200 calories/day. I've been exercising like crazy. At least 45 minutes/day five days a week of brutal Tae Kwon Do. Been withholding the Diet Sunkist sodas, which I think makes me retain water. Yet the scale doesn't budge.

Last week I actually saw a bit of weight loss. And that motivated me to work even harder at the weight loss thing. Much to my surprise, the scale says I've gained a pound. WTF? How does that even happen? Something's not right here.

Anyone have this experience? Thoughts? Suggestions?

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DUKEFAN86 3/6/2011 2:51PM

    Sounds really frustrating! I bet that as long as you're taking car of your body, the switch will flip eventually! Meanwhile, it's good to keep evaluating your plan.

When you keep track of your food, are you plugging it into SparkPeople or something similar that keeps up with nutrition? I wonder if you're getting a lot of sodium, and maybe holding water. Just a thought!

Speaking of water, are you drinking plenty of water?

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Wednesday, March 02, 2011

I took a Tae Kwon Do class on Monday night that was filled with only black belts. I just started, so being the only beginner in a class of such experienced folk was really intimidating to me. To add to the intimidation, prior to this class, another beginner had told me she had been in a similar situation and the black belts completely ignored her. And so class started...

Turns out it was a wonderful workout and a really great experience. The Black Belts were very kind and helpful to me and I can't wait to do it again! That was Monday.

I returned on Tuesday for another kick-b*tt class. And I got on the scale this morning to see it read .5 lbs. less than the day before. This kind of progress helps me keep going.

Thank you, SparkPeople!

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DUKEFAN86 3/7/2011 7:54AM

    I've been thinking about taking up a martial art. You're an inspiration!

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MRSSCHENCK 3/4/2011 11:38AM

    emoticon I wish I had enough nerve to participate in a class!

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What I've learned So Far..

Sunday, February 27, 2011

For me, I can read it in a book, on a Web page, or someone can tell me, but I don't truly learn it until I experience it. Guess I'm hard-headed.

So I've learned two big things so far:
1. It's exercise that makes the weight come off and makes your body look better - and healthier. I've limited my food intake to nearly nothing to no effect. Gotta make the time for exercise.

2. Gotta eat BEFORE I get ravenously hungry, else I eat everything in the house! I learned that on Friday when I just couldn't eat anything until I was already past the point of starved. Then there was no holding me back. I ate EVERYTHING. OK, so now I know. Next time I'll carry a protein bar with me to eat.

I know there are more lessons to be learned. I'm on my way...

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REJ7777 2/27/2011 4:59PM

    I agree. I've found that being physically active makes all the difference for healthy weight loss. Otherwise, we have to bring our calories so low that we lower our metabolism and it just doesn't work long term. But exercise increases our metabolism and leads to... successful, long-term weight loss. emoticon

Keep up the good work!

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LESS_IS_MO 2/27/2011 4:47PM

    Great lessons! I agree too.

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