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Eviction Order Executed

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Yesterday, an entry showed in my google reader "What men think about big girls". Out of habit, I clicked on the link, but before the page loaded, I clicked on the X. It took me that long to realize that I didn't care what men thought of big girls. Such a blanket statement. Men? What men? I'm so entirely sure it is not ALL men. Big girls? Which ones? Are all of us the same? How can someone who doesn't even know you exist have thoughts about you, that you should give any weight to? Just because it is said does that mean it is true?
It's strange somehow, because that one little decision of clicking that X showed me how much I've changed. How important to me it is now that I don't look to others for my definition, much less someone who doesn't know me.
I spent a great deal of my 20's listening to what "these people" said, and applying their thoughts to my life. I put so much value in what they were saying, that I tossed the encouraging, supportive and beautiful words of people I did know, figuring it couldn't possibly be true.
Tsk, tsk. One of my very first blogs on SP referred to posting an eviction notice on the negative chatterbox in my head. I'm realizing that the order has begun to be executed.
Just like SparkPeople teaches us that we should strengthen our bodies in small increments, 10 minutes at a time. I feel that this little decision is just one of many little decisions which will serve to strengthen my self esteem.

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DHALYIA 4/30/2010 4:44PM

    "Woooooooo!" Actual sound that startled my dogs and sent them running around the house looking for the cause. Lol. Thanks for the blog, I now know what it was. That cranky little voice that said I wasn't enough.

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LEOLO_1 3/26/2010 1:27AM

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YATMAMA 3/26/2010 12:25AM

    I am so proud of you. SO so so so proud of you! This is a HUGE milestone and I applaud you!!

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JOYATLAST 3/25/2010 11:40AM

    **! Wild Applause !**

When I think of the years I wasted yielding my mind to the slop of the world without knowing a single forefinger click would protect me!!!!!!!!!!!

But, we know it now, don't we?

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IUHRYTR 3/25/2010 10:44AM

    As a guy I wonder when there will be an article about what women think of big men. Glad you deleted it. We don't need to clutter our minds with garbage thoughts. -- Lou

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JESPAH 3/25/2010 6:00AM

    Yep. Don't let it rearrange the furniture in your head.

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PAYDAY10 3/25/2010 2:08AM

  We are learning from our past experiences. We can look for the positive in life or the negative. Making lemonade out of lemons is what most of us want to do. We are getting rid of the garbage inside with an effort to become beautiful according to God's purpose for our lives. Our outward size is important for good health but it what we do and how we live our lives by letting the light of Jesus shine through. This is of the utmost importance. The rest will fall into place.

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RUSSELLORAMA 3/24/2010 11:18PM

    Awesome blog! It's time to kick negative thoughts to the curb!

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Who is the most awesome person today?

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

*warm fuzzies* Have a great day! Be sure to share some of your awesomeness and remind someone else of their own!

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YATMAMA 3/10/2010 12:00AM

    Awwwww that's so cute. You are adorable!


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    You're the best!

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IUHRYTR 3/9/2010 8:18AM

    Good reinforcement message, one we need to tell ourselves over and over -- we are a unique, good person. You, too! -- Lou

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ERUPERTO 3/9/2010 7:31AM

    LOVE IT!

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JESPAH 3/9/2010 7:12AM

    Reminds me of one of my fave posters, even though it's misspelled:

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DJS-DEBBIE 3/9/2010 6:29AM

    Right back at you!
Thanks for a great start to my day!

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AAKROYD 3/9/2010 6:24AM

    Aww thank you! You're just as awesome too! Keep on being you!

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An Homage to Hips everywhere

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I haven't been writing as much as I would like to as of late. A little after the new year, I was given an invitation to write for a women's devotional - for...2013, but they do all of the editing now! (Who knew the time lapse was so long?) Well, it seems since that day, writing has been just about the last thing on my mind. Well, my inspirational writing in any case. I'm not quite sure why I do that to myself. I think it is a self sabotage of sorts hmm, anyway-
I mentioned a project I've been working on since the year began. It's a website. Now, because of my huge failure of a website that I tried to get started last year, I was very apprehensive to start anything new, but after receiving responses to the piece I wrote for an MS magazine last year, I thought, perhaps I should try to provide a place where stories could be shared.
At the very least I thought maybe I should try, so that next year 1/2011, I wouldn't be thinking - hmm, I wonder what would've happened had I started that site. It's different from the happiness site in that I don't have to write each day, and some other entries are provided by other people with MS and other disabilities. So if you have MS or another disability, know someone who has a story or you just a story to share -please, please do not hesitate to do so. Sometimes, something that you say will strengthen someone else.


Still not seeing a gigantic move in the scale, but I know there is some improvement in my fitness. An activity that took me 30 minutes to complete last December, now takes me about 5 -6 minutes. Lots of practicing as much as I can, especially my leg which doesn't like me at times.
One of my very favorite poets died last week Saturday. I've loved her writing since I was a teenager. I'll leave you with a little gem she wrote the curvy girls of the world.

Homage to My Hips

these hips are big hips.
they need space to
move around in.
they don't fit into little
petty places. these hips
are free hips.
they don't like to be held back.
these hips have never been enslaved,
they go where they want to go
they do what they want to do.
these hips are mighty hips.
these hips are magic hips.
i have known them
to put a spell on a man and
spin him like a top

Lucille Clifton

Thank you all so much for the comments you left for me last week. It was such a blessing to me to see all of the encouraging words. Very heartening, and I thank you all. I guess I didn't really have much to say, but I wanted to say hey.

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JESPAH 2/19/2010 8:55AM

    Magic! :)

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YATMAMA 2/18/2010 8:46PM

    Great job on the web site!! I roared with laughter over the hips poem. My hips feel LOTS better about themselves now! LOL

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IUHRYTR 2/18/2010 7:55PM

    You are to be commended for uplifting the spirits of those with MS and their caretakers. It is a selfless use of your time. Way to go. -- Lou

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Guess Who!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

I can't believe this is the first time this year that I'm writing a blog entry. I've started it many times, and thought somewhere in the middle - "Ill finish it tomorrow". Of course, tomorrow never comes, so I'm choosing today to write and complete, here is one of the reasons why i have chosen today - I did 30 minutes on my mini bike, 25 minute walk, 20 minutes stepping (1673 steps)!
So while I can no longer really move my right leg at this moment. Mentally, I am motivated unlike I have been a while.
One of my goals for this year is to read more than one book. Now, years ago, I was required to read one book a week for one of my classes, so this as a goal, might seem strange, to people who know me, but between now and a few years ago the tornado called MS hit me and obliterated my focus.
I ordered The Spark way back in September, and since it came the last day in December, I spent a bit of time looking at it.
I could not read more than 2 or 3 pages at a time, I could not focus enough. I resigned myself to taking the rest of the year to read it as long as I did it, and then I found out something amazing!
The Spark is also an Audiobook!!
Yes, I'd already used 14 bucks and bought the hard copy, but if I could get it digitally, and perhaps get use out of it, $10 more was worth it.
Now, I've never listened to an audiobook before, and I felt that I still wouldn't have much focus listening to it being read to me, but I decided to try it anyway... and I was right. Not one iota. I tried listening to it while exercising, listening to it while on the computer, listening to it while deep breathing and meditating. In every place I tried, I could not focus, until the kitchen. I found that when I tried listening to The Spark while I was preparing dinner, I heard and listened to everything - I was thrilled! I think it's because I don't have to think about cooking. It's second nature to me, so I can focus on what I'm hearing, and there is no danger of me falling asleep. I just completed chapter 6 and am now going to break so I can write all of my new goals and ETAs in addition to revamping my fast breaks etc. I'm really happy about it.
January and February are difficult months for me emotionally and physically, I've really been running behind my life since last year, and frankly, I'm quite tired of it. My life needs to be run by me.
I have been busy with a new venture, and it's harder than I thought, but I haven't given up or become discouraged, I'm thinking of new ideas, quite often so I'm proud of that. I have been comparing myself to other people my age, and that is NOT a good idea ever. It is the fastest way to make yourself unhappy, so I've been working on not doing that. It's so easy to slip if you aren't vigilant.
On the weight front - I lost 4 lbs, in January, but regained 3 so 1 lb loss, but it's one pound gone that I began the year with, and if I refocus my attentions, I should get on the losing train again.
I have not forgotten you guys, I miss being active in my SP community, I'll be back, I know that. Sooner than later!

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JESPAH 2/12/2010 6:54AM

    My old company makes audiobooks all the time. If you're interested in anything by Hachette Book Group, send me a PM, maybe I can have one of my buddies still working there snag it at a discount.

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YATMAMA 2/11/2010 8:53PM

    It's so good to hear from you!!! Audio books are such a blessing to SO many people. I have an elderly aunt who has always shared my love of bestseller fiction but because of horrid rheumatoid arthritis, she can no longer hold a book and turn pages. Audio books to the rescue!!! Congrats on the shed pound!! I'd faint with glee. I've been tossing the same few pounds around since November. I'm still doing what I need to do, though. It'll move in time!!


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GOSPELCLOWN 2/11/2010 6:34PM

    Blog often! They can be 10-20 words if you want.
We're out here, so keep in touch,


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IUHRYTR 2/11/2010 4:50PM

    One pound down is good. Comparing ourselves to others is not. We are who we are and only need to compete with ourselves for personal satisfaction. Best of success to you in your new business. -- Lou

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JOYATLAST 2/11/2010 2:10PM

    It is soooooo GOOD to hear from you!! My heart is singing! And such GOOD news!

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HEALTHY4JESUS 2/11/2010 1:19PM

    YES what a wonderful way to step it up! Good for you!

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CGREEN717 2/11/2010 1:01PM

    Have you considered using paperbackswap.com?? I use it and it's such a wonderful site. My husband has already received just about all of his Brian Lumley books he wanted. :)

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SUNSHINE_GAL 2/11/2010 12:11PM

    So glad you bought the audio version. It sounds like you're taking control and going forward with your journey. May you have much success!


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LAURABELIEVES 2/11/2010 12:04PM

    Come back to us! ;)
It is always good to hear from people so we will look forward to hearing from as you are able.

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What I know for sure

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

I know for sure that I don't know everything, and this is what makes life interesting. If I knew everything why would I even make an effort?

I know for sure that when I neglect SP, I lose sight of what I can do and what I have done. I lose sight of what is possible for me.

I know for sure that I need to be challenged or amused to fully enjoy something - I would've never thought of that. I consider my whole life to be challenging, perhaps I've enjoyed my life more than I thought!

I know for sure that I have qualities worth my (and someone else's) time and effort.

I know for sure that I have accomplished more than I give myself credit for, always keeping in mind that there can always be improvements and new goals to attain.

I know for sure that I will end this year (if God spares my life) a few pounds lighter than I began it.

I know for sure that I learned to recognize more and give value to my own struggles and have come to understand that even though someone may not understand it, it doesn't make it less, and it doesn't make me weaker. The people who I need to understand my struggles will not only try to understand them, they will also respect them and support me.

I know for sure that I am learning to respect the struggles of my friends and others around me.
I know for sure that I am more determined than I ever, ever, ever knew.

I know for sure that if I do not give up. I will reach my goal.

I know for sure that my copy of The Spark is in the mail!

I know for sure that I want to have a happy all year as opposed to just a happy new year.

I know for sure that I wish all of you reading this, a Happy All Year! I hope it is your best one yet!

What do you know for sure?

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LRYASUTAKE 2/2/2010 7:55AM

    Wow, Girl get it! Congrats on your lose, 20lbs. wow! Thanks for responding to my post and I am so glad I checked out your blog! Thais post rocked! I love the flow chart as well and had to show it to my husband!

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    I LOVE THIS!!!! I know for sure that you are a beacon and inspiration that we will read about in the next SP book!

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JESPAH 1/1/2010 9:16AM

    The unexamined life is not worth living.

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JOYATLAST 1/1/2010 2:35AM

    I know for sure that you are one classy lady, prized by God and poised for GREATNESS!

This is the BEST!


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YATMAMA 1/1/2010 1:36AM

    I know for sure that I've made some of the best friends a girl could ever have since coming to SparkPeople, and I know for sure that you are one of them!!



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IUHRYTR 12/30/2009 7:45PM

    I know for sure that you passed along some wise thoughts. :) -- Lou

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