Tuesday, August 21, 2012
I'm past the halfway point of my 30-day program and I think I turned the corner. I no longer feel all the emotional ups and downs.
Most of all, I do NOT have cravings!! Really, truly, honestly!! I eat 3 meals a day. The food I eat satisfies me right up until the next meal. I don't think about food inbetween. I wouldn't have believed it myself a few weeks ago.
I'm not out of the woods yet. This is usually when I have in the past gotten tired of it and started to cheat a little here and there. So far, I haven't wanted to but I'll be on guard and hopefully be ready for it if those feelings sneak up on me.
I did have a big temptation to step on the scale last Sunday morning, but I WALKED AWAY FROM IT and did NOT get on. I had kept thinking to myself, "have I really lost weight? What if I haven't lost that much weight? Wouldn't it be nice to know if I lost a bunch of weight?" I just told my thoughts, "thanks for sharing" and I went about my day knowing that in the grand scheme of things it didn't matter how much weight I did or didn't lose. It wouldn't change anything. This is the path I'm on and I'm staying on it. Getting on the scale would have affected me negatively whether I was blown away or disappointed. My weight is what it is. All I need to know is that I'm eating the way I want to continue to eat. I'm still going by how I feel. And right now, I'm feeling really, really good!
Things can only get better because I have already gone 15 full days with NO sugar or chocolate or white flour products - zero, zippo, nodda. That's HUGE for me! When I think of how much of that stuff I was consuming before, there's no wonder that I was stuck. The more of it I ate, the more I wanted. I never felt satisfied. It truly was a viscious cycle for me. Now, my meals taste so good - it's like my tastebuds have re-awakened and are bursting for joy over wild salmon and oven roasted zucchini/summer squash.
This is good. This is really good!
The best thing is that I don't weigh or measure my food and I don't keep a food journal. I just eat my 3 meals within the framework of my program and I find myself not thinking about food at all until I'm actually hungry (which has been right around the time of my next meal). I can see where I've gone wrong so many times in the past. It's like I got a new pair of eyes with which to see everything much more clearly and it all makes sense.
I want to remember this feeling. I also want to remember those miserable feelings I had during the first 7 days because I do not ever want to have to re-live them!
With God's grace and my determination, I won't ever have to.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
It's Day 11 and I'm still going strong.
Yesterday was a little stressful for me but I still stayed the course. It was National Miche Party Day and I had a party scheduled at a local coffee house. I was feeling a bit nervous and anxious about it but it went really well. I didn't win one of the grand prizes Miche was handing out to Reps having parties, but my party was a success and everyone had a good time so I was happy.
This is a picture of me (on the left) and my Hostess. The BEST thing about yesterday was that the pants I'm wearing are size 12 - wooohoooo!
I really hope it keeps getting easier. I have to say I went through a very rough time the first 7 days with cravings, withdrawal symptoms, anxiety, mood swings, etc. It's not something that I want to go through again, so I don't ever want to go back to my old ways of eating.
My motivation is good health....not just the absence of aches, pains, and illness, but a feeling of well-being, vibrance, energy, and contentment every single day.
I have a goal to achieve a healthy blood pressure without medication. I am certain I can do it, even by the end of this year. I want to stay out of a doctor's office except for a yearly check-up - I wouldn't even do that, but I only have half a thyroid so I'm on thryoid hormone for the rest of my life.
One of the best things I've done these past 11 days is stay off the scale. I can look back now and see clearly how much it had interfered and messed with my mind in the past. Looser clothes and smaller sizes are all I need as a gague of my progress. Freedom from the scale feels really good to me.
Things have been very busy and hectic the past couple weeks too and I'm proud that I have been able to succeed at this dispite all the hurdles I've jumped. I'm hoping for things to calm down very soon and I want to be sure to carve out an hour a day to use my meditation CDs again. My focus is veering away from my weight and towards the goal of becoming a peaceful person. To me, that's a person who is calm and centered no matter what is going on around them. It's a person who listens more than speaks. It's a person who is never negatively affected by the words or actions of others and who never gossips or judges anyone or any situation. It's a person who knows who they are and is pleased with themselves without being vain (just an inner contentment of unconditional self-love). It's a person who eats nutritionally, exercises regularly, and does everything in balance and moderation. It's a tall order and may take some time and work, but that's what I am striving for.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
I can't believe how great I feel !!!!
Yesterday and today I bounced out of bed feeling raring to go. My energy level is out the roof! I went to Zumba yesterday at 9 am and the ladies said I looked like I lost weight. I know I've lost the bloat I've been carrying around the past few months but I have stayed away from the scale. I'm not even the least bit tempted to get on it.
All I need to know is that I'm 100% compliant with my program and the results show up in my mood, energy level, and how my clothes fit. The scale has so often derailed me, and it really doesn't tell the whole story so why even bother with it? I'll weigh in after the 30 days just out of curiosity and by then my habits will have been firmly rooted so I don't have to deal with any disappointment (although, I have a feeling I won't be disappointed).
It's definitely been worth the misery I felt for the first 7 days....the crankiness, the anxiety, the cravings, the fatigue, the depression & anger & even resentment. I noticed yesterday that IT'S ALL GONE. Today feels even better. Because I've been away from the toxic foods and I eat 3 meals with no snacks, I truly enjoy my meals. They taste so good and they satisfy me until the next meal. I think this will only get better as time goes on. I may even get to the point where I don't mind if the food is around me and everyone else is eating it (I don't think I'm quite there yet, although I do have enough motivation to abstain).
I am ready to change my life and not have food or weight be an issue again. I am deeply committed to making these changes permanent.
How 'bout giving me an internet high five
Friday, August 10, 2012
I decided to not wait until Day 15 to give a report on how I'm doing. This is a complete life change and I want to remember what it was like, so I'm going to try to write about it often so I can go back later and realize how far I came.
So.....Day 1 was Monday. That wasn't too bad. I was still high in motivation and full of determination, which helped me stick to it 100%.
Tuesday was a little different in that I got up feeling like a BEAR! Edgy, anxious, bothered by every little thing. I had a Miche Party to go to....I just sponsored a new rep. and I was going to help her out and bring some of my inventory. Of course, part of fun of the parties is the big spread of goodies. I made sure I had enough to eat before I left and I managed to get through it with just a bottle of water.
Wednesday I was still being a bit irritated and antsy when I got up. Two of our grandsons (the 8 yr. old and 14 yr. old) came in the morning to stay with us until Friday a.m. They are great kids and I love having them. I do spoil them though, particuarly with food (I'm just like my mom in that regard!). We went to Watkins Glen and walked the 1-1/2 miles to the top of the gorge (which is mostly STEPS!). i was tired and dragging a bit. At the top is a little snack place and they all had nachos and cheese while I sat and tried to concentrate on the view. We took a trail the 1-1/2 miles back.
We stopped at a diner for lunch. They were eating yummy sandwiches, french fries, and fried onion rings. I had my salad with chicken and vinegrette. We got back in time for me to do an hour Zumba class. I was still dragging and didn't have as much high energy as I usually do. That's a positive because I take that as a sign my body is detoxing.
We grilled hamburgers for dinner and corn on the cob. I just had a hamburger w/ no roll and steamed zuchinni/summer squash (which tasted delicious!). I cleaned up the dishes while they all walked to the corner ice cream stand to get cones.
Thursday was more of the same. I had made blueberry muffins and bought these mini cupcakes for them and made grilled ham & cheese sandwiches while I ate leftover hamburger & squash for lunch. I managed to go for my 5 mile walk in the afternoon despite how hot it was. Grilled chicken for me for dinner. DH made my favorite, breaded & fried zuchinni but I stayed away from it and ate a sweet potato and some Brussels sprouts.
This morning we made pancakes (another favorite of mine) but I had a scrambled egg with some canteloupe and blueberries.
Today is the 14 year old's birthday (now 15) and yesterday I baked his favorite cake. Another BIG victory for me is that I didn't lick the beaters like I always do...straight into the water they went! It goes without saying that I will not be eating any cake.
I am SO very proud of myself!! I am sticking to my commitment to stay off the scale for 30 days too. I have a doctor's appointment this afternoon for a check-up and I'm going to get on the scale backwards and tell the nurse not to tell me what I weigh.
Here on Day 5 I've FINALLy seemed to have gotten past the edginess and overall bad mood I was in off and on during the past 4 days. I'm feeling a little less bloated. I'm not craving sugar and bread anymore.
It's been so busy with the kids here that I haven't had the time to get back to meditating yet. I do plan to though. I think it will help me a lot when things get tougher again. My pattern has been to hit the wall even after 2 weeks of solid compliance and this time I want to be ready for it. I know that even with meditation, it takes time to see results.
The one thing I do have presently is the belief that I CAN do this and keep doing this. That's probably the most important element of success when making major changes.
So far, so good! I'll be checking back in after several more days and I am anticipating another good report. Stay tuned...........
Sunday, August 05, 2012
It starts with commitment, and I am 100% committed.
Let me start by explaining what sparked this new commitment for me. Last week I got a call out of the blue from a friend I haven't seen in over a year. She and I originally met at Weight Watchers a couple of years ago. She was mainly interested in the purses she heard I was selling and came over to see them.
She looks fantastic! Slimmer and the picture of health!! Most of all, she looked happy and content. What she told me blew me away. She had breast cancer 10 yrs. ago and went through the lumpectomy, chemo & radiation. She'd been in remission for 10 yrs. and faithfully went for her checkups. The last mammogram showed something that turned out to be a nickel-sized stage 3 tumor. She ended up having a total mastectomy. But this time, she opted NOT to have the chemo & radiation. She's working with her doctor and a pharmicist on holistic alternative treatment that requires a specific diet and supplements. She has lost 30 lbs. in the last 4 months and, more importantly, has lost all desire for the former foods that not only kept her fat but fed her cancer. She has been such an inspiration to me!
She shared her diet program with me, and ironically it is almost identical lto a plan that I had just started reading about. I have made the commitment to this plan and am starting tomorrow. There is zero tolerance for cheating. I will weigh tomorrow a.m., but no weighing allowed for 30 days. This is a plan I will not go off of. I am eating for good health and prevention of disease, with weightloss being a nice side benefit.
The plan is called Whole30. whole9life.com/2012/08/the-whole30-p
Here's just a quick summary:
. eat meat & poultry (preferably grass-fed & organic), fish (wild caught), eggs (free range organic), LOTS of veggies (the biggest component of the your diet), limited fruit (low GI such as apples, peaches pears - berries being the best selection), and good fats (EVOO, coconut oil, cashews, macademia nuts are best)
. do not consume added sugar of any kind, real or artificial - no maple syrup, honey, agave nector, stevia, Splenda, xylitol, etc.
. do not eat processed foods. period.
Even things I had always thought were "heathy" are not-so-much.
The pic is from a responsible food market that posted the sign that reads:
"Where's my Kashi?
You might be wondering where your favorite Kashi cereals have gone. It has recently come to our attention 100% of the soy used in Kashi products is Genetically Modified, and that when the USDA tested the grains used there were found to be pesticides that are known carcinogens and hormone disruptors"
IMHO, you can't trust any of the processed foods. Read labels, but better yet follow the advice of Dr. Joel Fuhrman: "The most important thing to remember about food labels is that you should avoid foods that have labels."
. do not eat grains - including corn, wheat, oats, rice, barley, even "good grains" such as sprouted grains or quinoa.
. do not eat legumes - including beans of all kinds, lentils, splt peas, peanuts (and, goes w/o saying, no PB)
. do not eat any dairy (milk, cheese, yogurt, sour cream, butter), including goats milk products
I know you're probably thinking this is restrictive and next to impossible. I'm not sure. I'll know starting tomorrow. All I can say with 100% certainty is that when disease prevention and optimal health become THE motvating force, it's pretty powerful.
I believe the object of committing to 30 days is to give you a thought process of "it's only 30 days, and I can do ANYTHING for 30 days if I know there's an end in sight". But, what I'm anticipating is that when I've been 100% compliant for 30 days, the changes in my body and state of well-being will be so powerful that there will be NO WAY I'll want to return to my former way of life. I think you have to truly experience it in order to cut the ties of past behaviors.
The print's a little small in this pic and it bears repeating: "It's true that we don't know what we've got until it's gone, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives."
I have to see my primary care doctor next week because I am currently on high BP meds. He won't renew the Rx without seeing me because I haven't seen him for a year. Hey, I'm trying my best to avoid having to see him! Yay for me because I wasn't sick for a year! I have a goal to get completely off my BP meds. They aren't curing anything; in fact, they are just masking the real problem and the cause is my diet. I don't have any medical insurance because I can't afford the monthly premium of $1000/mo., with a $500 deductible. I don't want MEDICAL insurance....I want HEALTH insurance.
THIS is the kind of doctor I want:
I'm not so delusional that I think this will be easy; in fact, there are going to be some VERY tough days ahead. But I know that I am strong. I am motivated. I am capable of doing this. One of the tools I'm going to use is daily meditation to assist in calming the anxiety and open myself up to major change.
The answers are truly within, and meditation helps to tap into your inner knowledge.
Another tool is EFT - Emotional Freedom Technique. It's like accupuncture/accupressure but is a technique of tapping on specific areas (meridians) to restore the flow of energy and remove emotional blocks, eliminate negative feelings such as anxiety, eliminate cravings, etc.
You start out by tapping on the side of your hand while repeating 3 times "Even though (insert problem/negative situation), I deeply and completely love and accept myself." Then you tap the specific points while summing up the problem in a few words.
There's a lot of good info. about it on this link:
I can also promise that IF I stumble and fall, I will get back up and go again. This is way too important to quit. It's the rest of my life and up to me how well I live it.
Tomorrow is The term 'DO OR DIE" is very appropriate when it comes to changing to healthy eating habits.
I'll check back by 15 days - my midpoint. I REALLY want this to work and am hoping to give a good report of my progress.
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