Saturday, March 17, 2007
I have to be honest and say that not losing anything last Thursday threw me off. I know that the scale is not the all important measure. But even half a pound would have been nice! Like a rebellious teen, I didn't exercise at all on Friday. It wasn't conscious. Exercise is the ONE thing I do right! I love to walk and I never miss a day. Was I just too bummed out over no progress? Or was I just going to show them! Show Who?
Whatever it was, I recommitted last night just before I went to bed. I had a little talk with myself and reminded me that this is my new lifestyle no matter what. I'm walking towards good health and inner well-being. Today has been a great day. I can't believe I've eaten dinner and am only just over 1200 calories when I had been struggling and went over my 1630 calorie budget almost every day the last two weeks. Of course, I do believe I will have a little snack tonight, but am positive that I'll stay below my maximum calories. And I'm on my 8th glass of water when I had been averaging only 4-6 per day. I did a great workout too. We got a slight blizzard yesterday, so I can't go outdoors to walk. But I did Leslie Sansone's 4 fast miles...you do 4 miles in only 45 minutes, so part of the time you're actually at a jog. Also, for dinner I cooked a healthy and delicious recipe I found here on the site. It's called Butter Chicken and it tasted really good. Dan actually helped me make it...of course, you know what they say about two cooks in the kitchen!
I felt so positive and renewed all day long. But then tonight Dan announced to me that we're going to a pancake breakfast tomorrow with our friends Doug & Kathy. I know we'll have a great time, but the first thing that came to my mind is , "Oh no! I JUST got back on track and how in the heck am I supposed to stay within my calorie budget after pancakes and all the fixins!!!!! The thing is, life happens and one of the things I have got to learn on this journey toward life-long thinness is that social events, holidays, and the like do not have to mean I throw my arms up and then throw in the towel. I can have the pancake breakfast without guilt and maybe just have a little salad for lunch. I can do this!
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Today is weigh-in. I got up this morning and felt pretty good...stepped on the scale...WHAT!!!!! I weighed the same as last week! I have to say I was hugely disappointed. I thought I'd done pretty well. I knew I had eaten a lot less than I used to. It's only been two weeks...shouldn't I be losing at least something every week????? I have to say it put a real damper on my mood. I have one of those Tanita scales that measures body fat and that went from 48% last week to 46.5%. I'm not sure how accurate those are, but that must mean something!
All I know is that I have made positive changes. I eat healthier, I log in my food tracker every single morsel (I have to admit it's been nearly impossible for me to stay below 1630 calorie goal, but I did get it to 1634 yesterday), and I FEEL thinner. I don't snack binge like I used to. I did my cardio every single day, but I did skip my strength workout. Heck, I went walking yesterday in the pouring rain!
I refuse to become a slave to the scale. This is a ONE-WAY journey. I've gone the route of losing so many times before, only to end up gaining it back and then some. I will continue on and focus on living my healthy lifestyle and feeling good. I think it's going to be a progression. There's no hurry or urgency to get to my final destination....just the success of moving forward and no turning back. By choosing foods that nourish, eating more fresh vegetables, high fiber grains, two fruits a day, and a small amount of healthy fat, there's no doubt that I will lose pounds. But I'll also gain good habits and lifelong good health.
It's a brand new week and I'm giving it my all. I've done well, but I can do even better.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
It's been one week since I started SP on March 1. Actually, I didn't seriously start until Saturday, March 3.
Today was my first weigh-in and I lost 2 lbs. I was very proud of that. Awareness has been key for me. Now that I know how many calories I'm eating, I figure I had to have eaten about 2500-3000 calories a day when I wasn't watching. Darn, it's sometimes hard to stay within my calorie limit! And even when I'm choosing all healthy foods. But I have to pat myself on the back that a couple of days this week I had ZERO snacks and desserts. That's a major milestone for a sugar addict like me....uh, I mean FORMER sugar addict. I now define myself as a person who enjoys healthy foods in moderation. I'm not so much hung up on the calories as the quality of foods. I've cut out white flour and pasta, trans fats, preservatives, and a good majority of packaged foods. I now make my own salad dressings and even granola. I'd like to completely eliminate sugar someday, but I'm happy right now that I've reduced my consumption greatly.
Even greater than the weight loss is the transformation in my thinking and emotions. Everything is pulling together. I'm doing positive things in every area of my life each day. I feel confident and optimistic.
One week, one day, one meal at a time.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
First I have to say that I'm very proud of myself. Today was not one of my scheduled cardio days, but I decided to go for a walk this morning. And it was a cold 30 degrees out...brrrrrrrrr. I felt terriffic when I got home and made some hot green tea with honey to have with an orange. I feel so wonderful when I'm living the healthy life, why would I ever do something different?
A while ago, I did a 'Clarity through Contrast' worksheet. It helps you to gain clarity about what you really want by first listing the things you don't like about your present situation. Once I listed what I wanted, I turned them into affirmations. I am committing to read these every morning and whenever I'm feeling out of sync with my goal. (When I first did this, my weight goal was 140, but since I was 14 years old the last time I weighed that, I decided to also set mid-goals. My first goal is to get under 200, next is 175 size 14, then 160 size 12. Once I've reached that, I just may go for the 140--DARE TO DREAM.)
Here's my list:
My Ideal Weight Situation Ė Clarity:
1. I weigh 140, a healthy weight according to height/weight charts (133-144 for 5í6Ē medium frame)
2. My BMI is 23 = Normal
3. My waist measurement is 25 (less than 35Ē = healthy/no risk for heart disease)
4. My Blood pressure normal: 120/80 or less
5. I wear a size 8-10
6. My body is firm with good muscle tone
7. I look fit and attractive
8. My clothes are stylish, attractive, and fit comfortably
9. I feel comfortable in summer, even on a hot and humid day
10. Itís easy for me to stick to healthy, life-giving foods as a life-long lifestyle
11. I prefer fresh fruit and vegetables over sweet, fat-laden foods. Gooey desserts do not appeal to me because they taste too rich.
12. I eat slowly and savor the flavor in the food I eat. I stay focused on what I am eating and eat consciously at all times.
13. I eat small portions. If I still am feeling hungry, I take some more. I often feel satisfied with a small amount of food.
14. I eat only for physical hunger. If I am angry, I discuss it or I dissipate it with exercise. If I am sad, I discuss it or I journal my feelings. If I need to feel loved, I ask for a hug or give out love to another. If I feel relieved or glad after getting through something tough, I reward myself with some flowers or a book. If Iím bored, I call a friend, go for a walk, read a good book or watch an uplifting movieÖor suggest to hubby we go do something FUN !
15. I never eat when Iím not feeling hungry. It doesnít matter what time it is or what everyone else is doing. I wait to eat until I feel physically hungry.
16. I stop eating when I feel physically full. I dislike the feeling of over-fullness so I never eat more than what feels comfortable.
17. I love myself and am proud of my accomplishments and choices.
18. I feel self confident. I am always willing to try new things and am adventurous and carefree.
19. I love the way I look. I make the most of all my assets and am pleased when I look in the mirror.
20. I always have vibrant energy. I get a lot of things done during the day and always have vitality and energy to spare.
21. I feel great all the time, absent from aches, pains or health worries.
22. I am happy that I am living a fulfilling life and am no longer dragged down by my weight. I live life to the fullest and enjoy all it has to offer.
23. I rarely think about food. Sometimes I forget to eat when Iím busy or having fun. I eat to nourish and strengthen my body.
24. Losing weight is a natural process when I listen to what my body needs and only eat when I am hungry. I donít have to even think about it, it just happens naturally as I am living my life in a healthy way.
25. Food is not important to me. I donít want fattening things. They donít tempt me.
26. Incorporating a healthy lifestyle makes me feel good and ensures that I always maintain a healthy weight easily and permanently.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
I am finally prepared to start this journey. I signed up in January, but had computer problems and couldn't get into the site. Then, miraculously the end of Feb. my computer got better on it's own...a real mystery to me...and I successfully got set up on March 1.
I've had fun downloading pics, joining teams, get to know others, adding friends, etc. etc. But I hadn't started logging in my food tracker until today; in fact I'm still keeping it private. You see, I've been a closet eater and full of shame over it. I have exercised just about every day for the past year. Net result is I've done a great job at maintenance...at between 216 and 213. In the past (I say that because I've decided today to change my ways) I'd have cookies and candy hid all over the house. I'd hide pints of ice cream behind the frozen veggies. My hubby had no idea!!!! I'd be great eating in front of others. But I had a dirty little secret after DH went up to bed and I was going to stay up and "watch a little TV".
Everything I've done since March 1 has lead me to here, though. Finally ready to commit and ready to lose the weight. I went for my walk around noon and came back to have a healthy salad. The only goodies I have in the house are these dark choc. chip Kashi cookies that are healthy and surprisingly good. Of course a serving size is 1 cookie, so my challenge today is to have 1 with a cup of skim milk as an evening treat.
So far, so good. All I have to do is take it one day at a time and work at raising my vibration to accept this new healthy body coming my way!
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