Monday, June 17, 2013
April was quite some time ago. It has been that long since I have been on here. I still weigh myself often, but not every other day like I used to. Slowly I have realized that I eat well. I exercise everyday, even if it is just playing with my kids in the yard, or gardening (that can be pretty intense sometimes Hoeing is a bitch :)) I drink lots of water everyday. I allow myself to have treats but a few years ago I would eat an entire bag of chips, today a handful will satisfy me if I really want some but I would much rather have an apple or whatever fruit is in season. )
My life is turning out just the way I have always wanted it to be.
1) I graduated from college with a B.S. in Education
2) I have begun house hunting for the first time in my life
3) I am happy in my own skin
-This last one is what prompted me to be happy with the weight that I have attained so far. I feel great, I comfortably wear a size 8. I can run with the kids and feel great rather than exhausted. I have an energy and a confidence that I don't think I have ever had before in my life. I feel like I can do anything.
I did not quit on my goal of reaching 146, but rather I stopped focusing on an ideal number. It was just that, a number. For now I will work on maintaining my current weight and if the rest slowly comes of than that is great too, but I have no desire to eat like a bird, and I enjoy myself the way I am.
This feeling that I have right now is really what I wanted when I began SparkPeople.com. I wanted to look good on the outside and feel good on the inside, and I do.
Some extra's that I have attained so far are
1) my daughters are proud of their mommy, and I am invited to school events by them more often than I ever used to be. (My middle child made a comment to me that most of the other mothers are chunky-not like you mom. I was so happy inside.
2) my daughters have benefited from my weightless. They too have lost some weight. They get less pimples than they used too. And have more fun with their mom.
3) my husband enjoys swooping me up in his arms and I enjoy the fact that he can do it without getting red in the face. (our intimate relationship has gotten much, much better as well :) )
Friday, April 05, 2013
This morning the scale read 155.
I was relieved.
For an entire day my mind was on nothing but the threat of 160lbs. I literally felt like my entire world was crashing down on me.
Moving forward I will pay more attention to what I put in my mouth. Bathing suit season is right around the corner and my goal is to be toner, not fatter.
I felt a little better after I went out yesterday and bought a new dress. A ten was a smidge tight. I know it is bad but I told myself I was going to lose 4lbs before the wedding on Saturday. (insane, right, but possible, if I eat less and move more) Yesterday I consumed under a 1000 calories and walked all day. Not necessarily to exercise but I stayed on my feet, cleaning, shopping, for 12 hours only stopping to eat and drive. This morning I woke up and the scale was 5 lbs less. The scale was either messing with me or I lost 5lbs in a day. If I can handle it today, I will be good to go. I know that this is an awful way to come back but I think I need the kick in the A!#.
For the next two days I am buckling down on my nutrition and fitness then Monday I can readjust my eating habits to what they were before I goofed, even a little more stringent since my stomach should be smaller and ready to handle smaller portions of food.
My ultimate goal is 146. At 155 I have 9 lbs to go. I was almost there before at 153 before my goof.
I worry that eating under 1000 calories again today would make me suffer later, but I need this cleansing. Kind of like the two day leek diet I was on but without the leeks. yuk!
I can do this. I am on my way to trim and thin. If you asked me a year ago I would never have believed I would have come this far.
When I started Sparkpeople I used to read the success stories and only wish I had the motivation and determination to do what they have done.
Well here I am.
On the home stretch.
9 more pounds to go.
Lets do this.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
I have done pretty well these past months.
I haven't had time to commit to Spark People but have at least maintained. Student Teaching really through me for a loop. For two months I have done nothing but teaching, morning, noon, and night. I have been working all day teaching in a middle school, then I would grade papers and make copies for the next day to come home, say hello t o my family, and hide away to do my homework for the classes I take to accompany my internship.
Dinner time I came down and ate my husbands wonderful, healthy dinners. We talked about our day, then I went back upstairs to plan lessons to teach the students.
It has been crazy. Wonderful crazy, but I miss my family and am looking forward to being done.
I have two more papers due for school this week. And some online stuff to catch up on. I should be complete everything, EVERYTHING, by the end of next week.
I can't wait.
I will have time for my family again. I miss them so much.
I am looking forward to having time to scale back and enjoy other parts of life for a while.
With school being done I will be able to look for a job.
Yay! a job. A career. I will have an actual career.
I honestly believe that the feeling successfully completing my degree, and fulfilling a life long dream was the real reason that I lost 45lbs. The previous ten years of trying to lose weight always failed miserably. It was not until I stepped up to the plate and challenged myself to get my bachelors degree. One challenge made the rest seem easy.
I will continue to raise the bar for myself and strive to achieve all of the goals I set for myself. One at a time.
1. I practically have my degree in hand
2.I lost 45 lbs in a little over a year (a size 18 down to a size 8)
3. Exercise to tone my body and get rid of the flab.
To help me accomplish this I have taken over a team called "Teachers in Training"
If any of my friends are in the education field I would like to invite you to challenge yourself with me.
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