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Trying to get back on track for the 5 millionth time.

Monday, March 01, 2010

Why is it I can never stick with a program? It's always a good reason to be stressed out and forget about my diet, this time my grandmother that I was really close to died and we didn't get back to the states in time to see her, and we moved into our new house finally, all in the same week. But did gaining 3 pounds by drinking wine and eating chocolate really help make any of that less stressful? And it is always something. i am just realizing more and more, it is always something. There is never going to be a time when our lives are not hectic. Maybe when we are retired or something. In another week my husband is going to go to South Korea for the week and I will be here by myself in a new house and a new country. Great excuse to drink too much wine right? He's back for a week and then goes to India. No one coming home at night to talk to or help out with the toddler just makes me lose my mind, another great opportunity to totally abandon my diet. Then beginning of April we have to go back to the states for grandmother's memorial, week after that friends coming to visit and touring wineries, at the end of April back to states by myself for the other grandmother's memorial (it's been a rough year for grandmothers.) If I am always waiting for life to be calm and not stressful to stick to my diet, I will never do it. And this is how I go month after month after month and never actually lose any weight. Lose a couple of pounds, then gain them back, over and over and over again. I am so sick of it. Being unhappy with my weight is not making life any less stressful. But how do you fit it all in? How do you stick to something that for me takes so much focus when you are functioning on autopilot? I have to stick with this until this becomes the autopilot. But how do I even get to that point when I just feel like I never have the time to even think? I'm starting with this: going to start drinking chammomile tea instead of wine (and then the inevitable chocolate after I've had enough wine) when I am feeling totally anxious. That should be something....
Oh, and does anyone know how to track your weight in pounds instead of kilograms?

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HANKSOPRIS 3/2/2010 10:27AM

    Thanks you guys for all the encouraging comments. I really appreciate it. I am definitely not good at routine, sometimes I feel like I have to reinvent the wheel every day. But it's true, at least I am flexible. I will just focus on one thing at a time now, and it's true, chammomile for wine is going to be a hard switch but I think I need to do it. Oh, nap time's apparently over, have to go....so not ready for nap time to be over already...

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IRONGRANNIE 3/1/2010 6:28AM

    I am not like my daughter and very good at routine but when I started here all the folk giving me advice said the same thing: "baby steps". Start by changing one thing, then another, then another and soon you should have changed enough to see the difference.
Changing the wine for chamomile is a start. (good luck with that LOL!). Also, if you possibly can, plan your meals ahead of time, log the food in before you actually eat it even if it is only one meal per day, then 2, then 3 and so on.
And keep blogging and logging because we are here for you.


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DEUSMACHINA 3/1/2010 4:53AM

    I'm really sorry about your Grandmother. That's really awful for you.

I know how you feel with the always starting over business. I am not a habit person. I don't form habits easily. I don't have rituals, or standard ways or a particular order for doing anything. This is great in some ways, as I can be very flexible. But it's bad in others. Every.single.bloody.day I have to be conscious of what I eat. I doubt it will ever be second nature, or habit, because I just don't work that way. It sh*ts me to tears sometimes. Literally. So I'm afraid I have no answers, only understanding. The main thing is to just keep starting over again. And again. And again. *hugs*

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KCABMI2010 3/1/2010 4:42AM

    mine is automaticly tracked in lbs....check your settings.

I read your blog because I seem to be always starting again...
If you figure out how to stay on track ...please let me know!

Debby in Ohio

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Hopefully back on track

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Okay, I'm definitely feeling better and back to tracking and walking. Yay! Now I just need to be able to move into our house and start cooking again and I will be a very happy camper.

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BUTRFLYLEH 1/12/2010 1:16PM

    Soo good to hear! Good Erica!

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Feeling better

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Still not exercising much after the flu, but back to eating normally and am super excited to have discovered the reports section, it's AWESOME!!! There are a lot of different goals to manage and check off each day I feel like, but each day I get a better handle on what the different tools are on SP and am just soooo excited I found this website! Thanks NYTimes!

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BUTRFLYLEH 1/10/2010 10:26AM

    I'm excited you found it too! I've been doing good with tracking my food intake everyday even if its bad lol! But yesterday I did good, only 1500 calories and that included a large chocolage covered pretzel and birthday cake! I think my biggest struggle is at work where i just want to snack all day!

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Super confused

Friday, January 08, 2010

We are temporarily living with my MIL and her scale says I have already lost 15 of the 20 I want to lose. I don't think this is possible. It will be another couple of weeks before we can move into our house and I can get my scale back, I guess I will just have to do the program until then and weigh myself on my scale when I can. Super frustrating though to not be able to track my progress. Although I guess I can see if my weight is going down on my MIL's scale even if I don't think the number is accurate...

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HANKSOPRIS 1/8/2010 7:58PM

    Thanks for all the advice and support everybody. The measurements idea is a really good one. I wish I had lost 10 pounds with the flu but I don't think that's it. I am feeling better though so I am really excited to get back to tracking and exercising.

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BUTRFLYLEH 1/8/2010 12:37PM

    I agree, just use MIL's scale to track pounds lost and not compare it to the number you though you were at. Plus you were just sick with a stomach flu so its very possible to lose a bunch of pounds in just a few days of not eating.

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DEUSMACHINA 1/8/2010 4:06AM

    Yeah, that's a bit annoying. But as you say, you can at least keep an eye on pounds lost, even if the actual number isn't accurate. Don't forget to take measurements, too! Often when the scales stall, you keep losing inches. That can help keep you motivated.

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IRONGRANNIE 1/8/2010 3:56AM

    It's best not to weigh too often as your weight fluctuates naturally so by the time you get your scales you will get a true reading. I think you should just do the program and wait for the surprise!!

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Thursday, January 07, 2010

Doctor told me I couldn't eat all day. The upside is I think it's safe to say I have lost weight today. Will hopefully be back to normal and back to tracking everything in a few days.


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