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Dear Hanah

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Well Sweetheart I'm glad you came back emoticon!

Okay so it's been 7 days, The State Fair is over, your Hubby's birthday party is over, you have pretty much eaten all the junk that got into your house.

Remember love, how you got to Spark people, searching for answers to help depression! So we have this 1 day. Remember how the walks helped you, please don't stop. Start with 10 min, get dressed, eat breakfast and please start drinking water again. It gave you energy and lifted your mood.

One day at a time!

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JOYCECAIN 10/21/2012 6:58PM

    I can tell you, I was gone for a week, gained 5 lbs. and am having a hard time getting back into the routine of walking more, and getting on sparks. But I shall overcome.

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4KWALK 9/2/2012 8:25PM

    Come on Hannah - Let's jump back on the wagon again together. It's been that kind of week for me too.
Hoping you are smiling right now and thinking " I think I can, I think I can... and soon it will be "I know I can."

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TANYA602 8/30/2012 10:53PM

    I've been here randomly this week and I've missed catching up with you. Oh how I am looking forward to the weekend!
I hope you are staying true to your workouts - get that kayak on the water. And I have so many other questions about how your week has been. Can I just push all the school work under the rug and join you in a cup of coffee and catch up?!?!?
Hugs, dear friend. You are in my thoughts!

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DESERTJULZ 8/30/2012 10:22PM

    Hello Dear Hanah,

You can so totally create what you want in your life. :D


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A-NEW-TARA 8/30/2012 8:19PM

    Dear Hanah, I to am so glad you came back. I've missed you very much. Please don't be so hard on yourself, life is about balance and even when we lean a little too far to one side it is easy enough to to make a shift and balance things back out.

Depression is a terrible beast that does its best to keep us down in a hole of despair, but go for that walk, my dear Hanah and each step will bring you further out of that hole. Please don't run from us Hanah, we are here for you, to support you, help you, hug you, cheer you on, lift you up and to love you.

Indeed, one day at a time!

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SUNNYWBL 8/30/2012 5:54PM

    Shape up, Private Hanna!

What happened with Spark Coach? Get back on the horse and get moving.

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LINDAK25 8/30/2012 4:45PM

    Your back!

emoticon Here have a cup of coffee.

You can't go away every time you think you're doing badly! It took me forever to get away from that mindset. If I did well, it was never enough and if I didn't do well, I'd punish myself and feel guilty! I refuse to do that anymore. Stop doing that, right now! Arrgh! Don't label food as good or bad. Eat what you enjoy, just do it in a balanced way.

My sister just sent me a Sunrise Greetings birthday card that says: "The secret to an enjoyable birthday can be found in achieving balance . . . Forkful of cake, spoonful of ice cream, forkful of cake, spoonful of ice cream . . ." I don't know about you, but I found this really funny!

My other sister, who lives in California sent me a card and explained how she was having a BBQ in her backyard to celebrate my birthday!

emoticon Ah,the joys of being born on a holiday weekend!

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Dear Hanah, meals

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Dear Hanah emoticon,

I know some days my being perky makes you groan. It's okay, I still love you! Today on Spark Coach they talked about having a meal plan for all meals. I know breakfast and lunch are now pretty easy for you! emoticon

Smoothies, toast, egg, tuna sandwich or Greek yogurt. Just don't forget to eat lunch and pay attention to when your hungry. **Ignoring that hunger only makes you over eat when dinner comes.

Dinner is the toughest! emoticon But your Hubby helped planned the meals for this week, you have everything you need. Breath, they are healthy and if you eat throughout the day you will be fine, you know it!

Taco's last night, good girl! Now freeze that extra meat for another time and tonight it's chicken stir fry with Brown rice.

PS Make your Hubby's lunch for tomorrow, if he eats any more McDonalds, or Burger King he will be in the bathroom all night. emoticon

Off you go Angel Face I love you even when you don't want to believe it!! emoticon

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LINDAK25 8/26/2012 8:38AM

    Your planning meals! Yeah! I love it when my husband gets involved with all this Spark stuff. He's been such a good sport! Doesn't it make it easier to plan and have some things already prepared?


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SUNNYWBL 8/24/2012 7:11PM

    I'm glad that things are going well for you. Keep up the good work!

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TANYA602 8/23/2012 9:25PM

    The meal plans worked so well for me this summer. DH has spent the last two evenings pulling together anything he can find in the fridge and throwing it together in a salad. I am salad'd out. I like that you are freezing the left over meat for next time
I hope you have something wonderful planned for the weekend! I'll be able to spend more time on SP and catch up with you (and Pin) then, dear friend!

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A-NEW-TARA 8/22/2012 6:28PM

    Another beautiful letter, Hanah. I had to giggle out loud when I read the first line...I feel the same way some days. Great job at working on those meal plans. I find planning my whole week in advance has been very helpful to keep me on track. Keep up the great work, you're amazing!

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IMSOOZEEQ 8/22/2012 2:18PM

    Sunshine, I don't know anyone else that gets so many letters! emoticon

You are doing great! Keep up the good work!

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Call me sometime!

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Dear Hanah

Monday, August 20, 2012

Dear Hanah,
Going to a counselor is not the end of the world. I'm impressed that you walked out and then returned. You know if your having that caged feeling it's better to get to the bottom of it. So what if you need some meds for a while, aren't you tired of struggling? I am.

You did loose 2 pounds yesterday, so it does show if you do the things you need to do every day it pays off in spite of yourself.

Your Hubby wanted to give you a treat for following through on the counseling, hmm well you could of said NO. But you didn't. China Buffet, has some healthy choices, glad you had some of them emoticon!

You did have a healthy breakfast, you did exercise and today you did counseling. You have come along way baby! You didn't stay in bed.

Off you go emoticon, hang in there,

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LINDAK25 8/26/2012 9:06AM

    Sorry I didn't see this earlier! I'm thrilled that you lost two pounds!

I'm sorry you're struggling. Counseling can be hard sometimes, in fact, it feels like it gets worse before it gets better. You have to look at the things you've been avoiding and face some truths about yourself that aren't always easy to face. The thing is, it really does help. Sometimes it's only a matter of changing your focus, just like here at Spark People. You are making such wonderful progress taking care of yourself and getting healthier. You might find the medication makes all the difference in the world for you.

I've come to believe that working your way out of depression is similar to what they suggest here at Spark. Just take small steps. Set reasonable goals. This really works for me. My mental health goals started off with:

--Find something that makes you laugh in a positive way, every day. This was hard for me to do, but Spark has helped me to do this.
--Find joy everyday, something your grateful for or that touches your heart or soul. Maybe a sunset or your grandchildren laughing or your husband stopping to rub your back and tell you he loves you.
--Be kind to yourself.
--Take a moment every day to thank God, and tell Him you love him, too.

I know they sound simple, but other than the last one, these are not always easy for me to do. Hang in there!

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TANYA602 8/20/2012 10:53PM

    Hey Hanah Sunshine!
You are making some strategically strong moves. Way to go with the weight loss!
And seeing a counselor, as IMSOOZEEQ says, isn't such a novel concept. I hope you have found someone you can trust. I've been on estrogen for a year and I'll tell you - there is nothing like feeling so even-keeled.
I hope that you know we are all cheering you on in this new and next stage.
Keep the faith, dear friend


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A-NEW-TARA 8/20/2012 10:44PM

    emoticon Hanah, you are right, counselling is not the end of the world. I've had counselling myself and have been on meds before. Having a place of non-judgement to just get it all out and on the table so that I could look at it and deal with it was life saving. I'm so glad you are going so you won't have to continue to struggle, I'm proud of you. If you ever need to talk to somebody that has had counselling I'm here for you.
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EATVEGAN 8/20/2012 9:36PM

    I know a man who struggled with anger and bitterness his whole life (over 60 years) and one small pill turned him completely around. The first time he woke up not angry, he couldn't believe it, but it continues. I'm not saying that is your problem, but sometimes meds are exactly what you need. Wouldn't it be silly to wait until you're over 60 to do something? I know you won't do that. God bless you as you work this out. emoticon

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RG_DFW 8/20/2012 9:28PM

    Hang in there!

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IMSOOZEEQ 8/20/2012 9:01PM

    Dear Hanah,

How brave you are. Just remember that you aren't the only one to ever go to counseling. It is the best thing to get to the bottom of what is bothering you. You are making great progress Sunshine. Keep going!!! You can do it. There are so many of us here that love you!!!

Chin up my dear! Show me that beautiful smile!!! emoticon


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IRISHANGIE1 8/20/2012 6:53PM

    Dear Hannah,
You have had two terrific days, yesterday with the weight loss, and today was awesome for you!!!...you went to counseling, got rid of a little of that garbage that we all have stuck inside us, emoticon, so you might need some meds, big deal, you take them when you have a sore throat or a fever...just think of it as your emotions have a sore throat and a fever and need a little medicine to get you feeling better emoticon!!!

Oh, and Hannah, thanks for coming over for dinner, I just hate eating alone!!!

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BRENJET 8/20/2012 6:24PM

    Dear Hannah, I too am so proud of you. You are brave, strong and wonderful! Every day in every way make the changes that help you to REALIZE your bravery, strength and beauty! Congrats on a job well done!


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Dear Hanah, Lol I wish I could of recorded your weigh in today!!

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Dear Hanah,
You are so funny emoticon!! I was watching you this morning sitting in your chair all frumpy for going over your calories yesterday at The Steak place. Looking over your calories for the the last few days when you saw in black and white you only stayed in your calories for day 3 of the last 6 days. How you were getting down on your self for not drinking the 8 glasses of water every day. The mental argument you were having with yourself if you should weigh in this morning or not, would it effect how you followed your plan.

I watched you in the bathroom looking at the scale, wondering if you should just step on or not. Girl if I would of recorded a video of the minute after you finally got on that scale, I'd make you watch it every day!! Hilarious, I thought you might even trip, getting off and on the scale a second time!

You stepped on, looked in the mirror(Looked like you were about to give birth, not flattering at all, by the way ) took a breath and looked down, and did a double take. Promptly got off the scale, reset it and got back on 206.8. It said the same thing twice!!! LOL, was that a lil jog to the fridge to get breakfast??? Your giddy, lol!!! See girlfriend, doing what you need to do everyday, even when you don't FEEL like it pays off emoticon!!!

You recorded your weight as 207 today on Spark? Lol if that makes you feel better, room for next weigh in so be it. BUT I know the truth Missy 206.8 Lol.

I know you were suppose to start the Gym membership today. I understand the mind game with that. Why pay for something you can do at home and have easy access then to go to the gym, which you don't always have a car. Take your time with it! It's your decision! You already took 1 of those tests here at Spark, that said the gym might not be your thing? You don't have to decide today, in due time Sweetheart. You will know.

Now emoticon face, keep that smile today, you deserve it!! Can you even remember the last time the scale said 206.8???

Okay, Sweetheart use today to make your menu plan for the whole week. You can do it!! And again your worth it, YOU are worth it!

PS maybe ask Spark Coach about your strength training issues? Isn't that why you started to pay for it??

Off you go emoticon, and have a great day!! Keep that smile today!!!

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FATBASTICH 8/20/2012 6:47AM

    congratulations on the weight loss!

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SUNNYWBL 8/19/2012 9:53PM

    Congrats on the weight loss! emoticon emoticon emoticon

About the gym thing, would it help to tell you that I will not be able to afford the gym thing? Specially since I was hoping to drive us both over to the gym on most days. emoticon emoticon

I took my calico cat, Callie, to the animal ER yesterday. To make a long story shorter, I dropped over $800 there! She was having trouble breathing and on Sat,, didn't want to eat or drink either. She has lymphoma. emoticon emoticon

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LINDAK25 8/19/2012 8:43PM

    You did it! Yeah! Congratulations on your weight loss. I love your letters to yourself! I could just see your approach to the scale. I look at mine the same as I would an unexploded bomb. And I'm always surprised when I lose weight.

I haven't joined a gym. It is expensive, but there are some reasonably priced places. I have issues with other people's germs, that and going out of the house and being in crowded places and loud noises. Maybe I should wait, too. At one point or another I am going to have to do something other than walk on the treadmill and free weights, aren't I? Usually I erase half of what I write because now you can see just how neurotic I really am.

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IRISHANGIE1 8/19/2012 8:20PM

    OMG, you are way too funny!!! I loved this blog!!!!....I think we all get the jitters when it comes to weigh in time, if I could take the filling out of my teeth I would...anything to make me lighter!!!

Thanks for the good laugh and Congratulations on the weight loss, you luck girl!!!

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A-NEW-TARA 8/19/2012 3:17PM

    Another beautiful letter, Hanah! Congratulations on the weight loss! I agree with you about the gym, it is not for everybody. It isn't important where you exercise, just that you do. Have a wonderful day emoticon

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TANYA602 8/19/2012 3:10PM

    You totally have me laughing here imagining the jig onto/off the scale! Way to go!
Isn't it amazing how just a few numbers mixed about a bit can turn our moods around and get us a new sweep of motivation?!
You are doing awesome and I hope you've had a terrific end to the weekend. I'll be curious to know if you go to gym. It's definitely not my thing, either. What did DH say about karate?
Have a beautiful evening!

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IMSOOZEEQ 8/19/2012 2:18PM

    Sunshine!!! emoticon emoticon on the weight loss girlfriend!! I had one of those moments last night when I was doing my blog and I had to try on the jeans that I couldn't get into last month. Girl, you should have seen me frowning around, alking around the bedroom with those darn jeans laying on the bed. Then you would have thought I got slapped in the back of the head cause I just said to myself...You have to be accountable so put on the JEANS!!! I did and they fit!!! emoticon

See Sunshine, emoticon

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DESERTJULZ 8/19/2012 1:17PM

    Hanah, I so love reading your letters to yourself. So revealing and so encouraging. You are your own best friend!

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Dear Hanah - check

Friday, August 17, 2012

Dear Hanah, good day to you emoticon!!
Wow, did you see those responses from your fellow Sparkers yesterday?? I know you did!! emoticon I also saw how your face lit up and your smile grew! Capture that support and encouragement into your heart lil Lady! Spark People is Good People!!

You have done well so far today. Spark coach - check / walk - check / breakfast check/meds - check/ blood sugars - check/ healthy delicious meal in the crock pot for supper - check!!

Do your strength training and maybe 10 min video? Lol, I always want to push you just a tad!

I love you Angel face and you are Worth it!! Some days are tough, but you know when you look back, you'll be very grateful you did what you need to do today, so that you can do what you want another day! emoticon

Now off you go Sweetheart!

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SUNNYWBL 8/18/2012 11:56PM

    Sounds like a very good day, How did your Saturday go? I certainly hope it went well. Mine? Not so well....

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TANYA602 8/18/2012 5:27PM

    What's in the crock pot, love? I can be there soon! It's way too hot to cook here today and I can't even fathom working out. It's so good to know you are in a state of peace.

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FATBASTICH 8/18/2012 9:21AM

    keep it up!

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DESERTJULZ 8/17/2012 10:18PM

    Love it, Hanah! Nice letter to yourself. Remember in the future to come back and re-read your words. :D

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J0ETTE 8/17/2012 9:50PM

    Wonderful letter to YOU! :)

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LINDAK25 8/17/2012 8:28PM

    Wow! Sounds like a great morning with tons of things accomplished. Yeah! Don't you just love using the crock pot? It's so much easier to plan your day when supper is done except for a salad. I think I make food better choices when I don't leave everything to the last minute.

Hope you got your exercise in. I only walked 30 minutes today. I think I'm coming down with a cold. Tomorrow is ST and another 30 minute walk so I can't be sick! I think I'll go to bed early tonight.

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IMSOOZEEQ 8/17/2012 7:50PM

    Sunshine I know there are so many people out there that would love to have a Dear ____ letter like that. That is so encouraging. I love these little letters to Hanah! They make me smile.

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A-NEW-TARA 8/17/2012 6:42PM

    Another lovely blog. Are you a writer by chance? You have such a beautiful way with the written word, I could read your blogs all day. You've had an awesome day and very productive by the sounds of it, I hope your evening is just as great.

Keep those blogs coming!

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