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Crushed

Monday, May 05, 2014

I was out with some friends tonight. And one of the guys made a comment saying how big I was. And I am just crushed. I've been working so hard. I didn't want to cry in front of friends. But I just need to tell someone that I wish I could just crawl under a rock and never come out.
It just hurts so much when you find out that everyone else has been thinking the same bad things you think about yourself. It hurts so much.

  
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LAURAKATE76 5/5/2014 12:39PM

    emoticon Some people are just jerks. Keep working at it...and try not to beat yourself up too much over it!

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NYARAMULA 5/5/2014 3:16AM

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HAPPYMENOW58 5/5/2014 2:57AM

    So sorry you had to go through this....I can feel your pain.....Been in the same situation.....Try to keep focusing on your goals and your positive changes.....You can do this....Show that idiot that you will win!

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FITWITHIN 5/5/2014 2:06AM

    I truly hate when someone does that, so how I not show that it hurt. I just say something sarcastic in a nice way back to them. It takes them totally off guard. I'm sorry that you had to have your evening ruined. You just keep up the great job and making positive progress on your journey. emoticon

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ZRIE014 5/5/2014 2:02AM

  have a good week

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The Cravings..... Oh the Cravings.....

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Yesterday was pretty rough. A new doughnut shop opened right across the parking lot from where I work. Everyone went to get them and was talking about it all day. To add to how bad that sucked my boss bought everyone pizza for lunch as a Thank You..... I don't know if I can describe how easy it was for me to turn this stuff down and at the same time how nothing I ate was at all fulfilling all day long!

And turning all that good stuff down is fine and well until I started thinking about all the things I am missing. I WANT A GRILL CHEESE DANG IT!

Its so funny how I can be just fine for 22 days and day 23 it all goes to pot. SOOOO FRUSTRATING!

I mean its not like I ate anything I shouldn't. I stuck to my guns. But I hated everything I put in my mouth because it wasn't what I wanted to eat.

Today is like whatever. I still don't really want anything that I'm eating. But today on the way to work I thought about being out boating this summer and I though ya know what self I want to look good! And its getting me through. Today I understand the idea of wanting skinny more than food. :)

The other thing that has really been weighing on me is how do I keep losing without giving up everything all the time? And I think I know the answer but I'm not really sure how its going to work out.... There is this blog I love to read. Its called "Can you stay for dinner". Darling girl, around my age who lost 100 pounds several years ago and has kept it off. She is darling and so wonderful. Anyway, she has this great thing that shows what calories look like.

http://www.canyoustayfordinner.com/2012/
05/01/what-does-1500-calories-look-like/

And everyday she eats a salad and then like meat and veggies for dinner. And I just thought you know she is moderate and still eats treats, not everyday, but that seems doable. So I think once my 30 days are up (6 days left!) I'm going to make this my goal. Salad for lunch and meat and veggies for dinner.

And you know on the day where there is donuts and pizza I'll pick one or the other and eat my salad.

Oh and since this post just keeps going on and on I might as well add that my goal is to be in "ONE"derland by then end of the summer! I want to be out of the 200# mark by August 31st! Which is 21.5 pounds. I feel like that is so reasonable but also such a challenge. How to keep losing without cutting everything out. #exercise?

So there you have it. Cravings suck! Lifestyle changes are key. And my goal is set.

Best of Luck to you on your journey!

  
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LKBRIDGE 4/27/2014 12:45PM

    Oh my gosh-to have a doughnut shop that close would be hard to ignore day in and day out-you got will power woman! You'll see your "one"hundreds soon!!

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ACHANSO 4/24/2014 12:43PM

    Yes, those cravings are so hard especially when we can't control them like at work--I hear ya on the work situation/donuts because just yesterday someone brought donuts into the workroom for everyone to enjoy. So tempting especially when it's free!

I had one, but definitely put it in my spark tracker to keep within my calorie total for the day.

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A down day.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Yesterday was really hard. I had a super negative mindset and I just kept telling myself that I would never lose the weight. It was a downward spiral for most of the day. I felt discouraged even though my clothes were a bit looser than a few weeks ago I felt miserable and like I will never reach my goal. But I stuck with the diet and this morning I am down about another .5-1 pound. It made me smile. I know that the key is being consistent even on the low days. I know that I can do this! I just have to keep at it. And soon enough I will be buying smaller clothes and smiling at the scale on the regular.

HAPPY FRIDAY!

  
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EVRLNGFOO 4/18/2014 1:26PM

    woo hoo! all the losses add up in the end. i had a pretty down day yesterday too. the sun is out so that is helping out today! keep up the great work, you can do this!

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SHEHULK86 4/18/2014 12:32PM

  Happy Friday and keep up the good work and attitude!

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 4/18/2014 12:00PM

    Way to go !!! It's hard to stick with it, but so worth it.

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GROGGYFROGGY 4/18/2014 11:57AM

    So true. It must be the weather or something. I was feeling the same way yesterday! You can do this!

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SPATTEN2001 4/18/2014 11:55AM

    You absolutely can do this!!! Discouragement will try to throw you completely off track but you have to remain positive and just go for it!!!

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DARSHAN130 4/18/2014 11:51AM

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Day 15

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

I am currently using the whole 30 as my diet method. Today is my half way mark into 30 days.

At this point the cravings have passed the weight is slowly coming off as my body adjusts and I keep thinking about how do I eat this way forever? This is my fourth time completing this challenge and at this point I am realizing it should be my everyday life style. I feel so much better when I eat the whole foods. I have energy, I don't get as many headaches and my overall well being is better.

Now that I am on the fourth go I am starting to see that I can still go out to eat with people and I can go places and pass on things and it doesn't lessen my experience of being there. When I first started this challenge I said I would keep eating this way until my roommates wedding on June 21st and I think that really will be the case. And once I have done it for 2 1/2 months I think it will be a lifestyle.

I guess I am just thinking this out while I write it down because I read a post by someone today who said you can't cut things out and keep your life that way. But I'm starting to think I can. I don't miss foods or feel like I am missing out. This time my mind doesn't even go to missing foods I just know they are not an option and that's okay....... I guess time will tell.

  


224.5

Monday, April 14, 2014

I'm still on my way down. 224.5! I'm gonna be in the teens so I can just feel it! And once I am there I am just going to keep going!!!

Sunday dinner was a bit rough. My friend invited me over for dinner, and I'm here to tell you he is quite the cook. So there were turkey steaks, homemade potatoes and gravy, scones with honey butter and basically nothing I could eat at all!!! But he was very accommodating and made me some chicken and I volunteered to bring a fruit salad. So my dinner was fruit and chicken. It was tasty but scones with honey butter are my favorite and it was pretty hard to pass on them. But I did it and that's that.

Today has gone pretty good so far. I went and tried out the new Dickey's BBQ that we just got in town for lunch with a friend. I looked at the menu before hand and found out what I could eat. It was a bit limited but I enjoyed myself and honestly brought home another meals worth because the portions were just so huge.

I've also decided to look into hiring a personal trainer. Its a bit expensive but I need someone to keep me accountable to exercise and I think more exercise will help me see faster results as well as keep me tight. I do worry a bit about having extra skin as I lose more weight and exercise should help right? I will let you know when I get my first appointment to see someone. emoticon

  
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MJ7DM33 4/14/2014 9:57PM

  Yes!!! emoticon

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BEACHCALSIX 4/14/2014 9:30PM

    woohoo! You will get to the teens, I know it :D
I worry about excess skin. So far so good. I'm gonna add some strength training and hope that helps. Good luck on finding a great personal trainer!

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