Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Picture taken on the deck of a Mountain Yurt. The trail was either a 2.5 mile gradual climb up and around or under 1.75 straight up...we snowshoed straight up:)
This began as a response to a friends blog...
Not long after getting married and having my first child, I kinda shut myself off to everything else. Soon, I was *lost* to my small circle of friends. I spent years being bitter and angry...which made me a lousy parent and wife.
I never exercised and ate what ever I damn well wanted. I convinced myself, that my life was as I designed it...(this is how I gave myself power and felt in control) The problem is...sure I had designed my nice little cage but down deep, I knew it was weakness, not strength, that built it.
After several failed attempts at weight loss, I joined a gym. I decided, if I can give birth in front of strangers, I could certainly exercise in front of them. I did better...I got into a swim suit:)
I started out doing the elliptical and recumbent bicycles and then began Water Aerobics and Spin...You want friends, join Water Aerobics! It doesn't matter how good you are at shutting people out, they'll find their way in!
I had to leave my comfort zone, which scared the hell out of me cuz I am a control freak. I am a more patient mother and wife. I have a a group of friends that I snowshoe and socialize with. My depression still comes from time to time but I control it mostly with cardio.
I found the athlete inside me and I have never looked back.