Saturday, May 03, 2014
My goals are simple yet powerful to me.
1. Lose 20 pounds
2. To change how I look and use food and exercise- making it mandatory that health comes first
3. Be consistent and accountable to myself and my team by doing every activity and posting at least once per day.
I could type so much more. I could discuss how I have been gaining weight constantly and losing and dropping the same 20 pounds for months now or how I have never stuck to a lifestyle change, or how consistency is my biggest weakness, but I am done. That was the weak me. That was the me who did not know what she wanted, what her goals or end result was to be. I am no longer that person and I refuse to live in the past. I choose to focus on the now and prepare for the future.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
There are so many things in life I have been waiting for that haven't came yet.
Love, Success, Weight loss, Me.
I feel like I am forever waiting inside my house peeking out the windows and opening the door wondering if the me I want to be has arrived yet.
I keep thinking "what if"? What if I started my weight loss journey in 2011. What if I told that guy that I liked him? What if I didn't have depression/bipolar and it didn't wreak havoc on my school life?
Then I realized those "what ifs" are exactly what has been keeping me waiting. What if I went outside and found the me I want to be? What if I am patient, knowing that I will lose this weight and achieve my goals?
What if I stop saying "What if" and make a plan of action and do those things!
Being patient knowing things will change is a virtue, being patient waiting for things to come is a crutch!
I know I will lose this weight, even if it's hard to believe fully, what I can say is I know I will workout tomorrow, I know I will drink water instead of juice, and I know that I will stop waiting for change....I'm going to make it!!
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Increasing my Freggies to 10 per day constantly has me thinking about what fruits and vegetables I can eat not leaving anytime for unhealthy food....mostly....I'm dreaming of Froyo.
Today I had the healthiest meals I had in a long time!
Oatmeal with Golden raisins and 1 apple
Mango, Banana, Green beans/ peas, Filet of sole, butter beans, and spinach
Quinoa and Avocado salad, Tuna fish sandwich, 1 apple
Trail mix, apple sauce cup, 1 Babybel, 1 fruit leather
Still up there with the calories but by the time BLC25 starts I'll be ready to go!!
Monday, April 14, 2014
So I did something I have been putting off all week, I took a nap!
It was interrupted by my roommates boyfriend playing guitar but it was a full nap and during this nap I had the greatest dream. I was showing someone I never met a before picture. To my surprise, the before picture was of me now at 240+ pounds smiling with sad eyes and hunched shoulder and then I also showed them my after picture, this time I was smiling harder than ever and I was svelte! Not just thin, but toned wearing gym clothes and looking active!
I am taking this dream as a premonition into my future. I have been going slow. I joined the BLC with my goal to be ready to be in full force eating and working out by then (April 30) so each week I have goals set.
Last week was to get into the habit of exercise (which I completed! and am itching to workout now) , to try to choose healthier options, and to track my food.
I did "meh" on the healthier options, much better than the week before, and I am proud, I've been tracking the good and bad meals and from this I am learning what my goals for next week should be.
10 fruits and veggies per day - Crazy right, that's a lot but I noticed I wasn't eating as many freggies as I thought I was, this is a tough goal but it will keep me full and healthy
No eating after 7pm- I work at 5am and usually I start craving junk right before bed (9pm-10pm) so this helps with that
Drink 6 cups of water per day- I need to ease myself back into my water drinking.
6/7 days completed reward: New water bottle! I need one!
Friday, April 11, 2014
That is how I felt yesterday like there was a little person inside of me the yelled at the top of her lungs "Release the Kracken" and it came and took over my body and ate ANYTHING that was in site to help me numb my discomfort.
It started with my walk in the morning. It was healthy and the scenery outside made me thoughtful, a little too thoughtful. See I have bipolar/ depression and since I have been 18, I have been stuck in this Merry-go-round of life, doing the same things, trying to achieve the same goals: lose weight, graduate from college and neither one of them have been accomplished nor is near to being accomplished making me feel disappointed, but I pushed on and was okay.
I ate healthy, packed a healthy lunch and then I got to work and my boss told me that I didn't meet expectations on a project......
The Kracken was unleashed and it tore through crackers with dip, a whole ciabatta baguette with cheese, gummy bears, and a brownie!
I finally got control of it on my car ride home listening and singing to some old school..aka. Backstreet Boys, Journey, Paula Abdul...lol no judging on my radio selections it brought me into a better mood to the point I didn't even finish that last half of brownie that was left.
This taught me that I need to control my emotions and deal with them before they turn into this food obsessed monster out to numb the pain.
Woke up and worked out.
No use crying over last nights overindulgence! Keeping it moving...literally
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