Wednesday, November 12, 2014
I am terrified of writing this blog, it feels like I am dooming my plan, but it's all superstitious really. I have tried with sparkpeople several times and quit so writing this blog brings up bad memories and patterns that scare me....but, I am doing this different this time.
Usually I am "Gung ho", I plan to never eat carbs except vegetables, and eat 6 times a day with 200 grams of protein while working out 2 hours a day and lifting 200lbs weights and then after a few days, very few, I crash and burn and run to Mcdonald's like I found my long lost child!
This time I am going about this differently. I am starting slow and committing to my small changes and then adding on.
So for 1 month I am making three positive changes and then reassessing when that month is over.
1. Drink 8 cups of water/ day
2. Exercise 20 minutes (Walk away the pounds) 6/7 days a week
3. Eat 12 servings of fruits and vegetables per day
My goals have changed too. Trust me, I still want to get into a size 6, but that isn't my only motivation anymore.
1. I want to change my relationship with food and how I view food.
2. I want to change my habits voluntarily before disease (diabetes and heart disease runs in my family) forces me involuntarily.
3. I want to do great physical things like run marathons, triathlons, climb mountains, and do long hikes which require a fit body.
Here I go into day 3 of my plan. Focusing one day at a time.
Saturday, May 03, 2014
My goals are simple yet powerful to me.
1. Lose 20 pounds
2. To change how I look and use food and exercise- making it mandatory that health comes first
3. Be consistent and accountable to myself and my team by doing every activity and posting at least once per day.
I could type so much more. I could discuss how I have been gaining weight constantly and losing and dropping the same 20 pounds for months now or how I have never stuck to a lifestyle change, or how consistency is my biggest weakness, but I am done. That was the weak me. That was the me who did not know what she wanted, what her goals or end result was to be. I am no longer that person and I refuse to live in the past. I choose to focus on the now and prepare for the future.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
There are so many things in life I have been waiting for that haven't came yet.
Love, Success, Weight loss, Me.
I feel like I am forever waiting inside my house peeking out the windows and opening the door wondering if the me I want to be has arrived yet.
I keep thinking "what if"? What if I started my weight loss journey in 2011. What if I told that guy that I liked him? What if I didn't have depression/bipolar and it didn't wreak havoc on my school life?
Then I realized those "what ifs" are exactly what has been keeping me waiting. What if I went outside and found the me I want to be? What if I am patient, knowing that I will lose this weight and achieve my goals?
What if I stop saying "What if" and make a plan of action and do those things!
Being patient knowing things will change is a virtue, being patient waiting for things to come is a crutch!
I know I will lose this weight, even if it's hard to believe fully, what I can say is I know I will workout tomorrow, I know I will drink water instead of juice, and I know that I will stop waiting for change....I'm going to make it!!
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Increasing my Freggies to 10 per day constantly has me thinking about what fruits and vegetables I can eat not leaving anytime for unhealthy food....mostly....I'm dreaming of Froyo.
Today I had the healthiest meals I had in a long time!
Oatmeal with Golden raisins and 1 apple
Mango, Banana, Green beans/ peas, Filet of sole, butter beans, and spinach
Quinoa and Avocado salad, Tuna fish sandwich, 1 apple
Trail mix, apple sauce cup, 1 Babybel, 1 fruit leather
Still up there with the calories but by the time BLC25 starts I'll be ready to go!!
Monday, April 14, 2014
So I did something I have been putting off all week, I took a nap!
It was interrupted by my roommates boyfriend playing guitar but it was a full nap and during this nap I had the greatest dream. I was showing someone I never met a before picture. To my surprise, the before picture was of me now at 240+ pounds smiling with sad eyes and hunched shoulder and then I also showed them my after picture, this time I was smiling harder than ever and I was svelte! Not just thin, but toned wearing gym clothes and looking active!
I am taking this dream as a premonition into my future. I have been going slow. I joined the BLC with my goal to be ready to be in full force eating and working out by then (April 30) so each week I have goals set.
Last week was to get into the habit of exercise (which I completed! and am itching to workout now) , to try to choose healthier options, and to track my food.
I did "meh" on the healthier options, much better than the week before, and I am proud, I've been tracking the good and bad meals and from this I am learning what my goals for next week should be.
10 fruits and veggies per day - Crazy right, that's a lot but I noticed I wasn't eating as many freggies as I thought I was, this is a tough goal but it will keep me full and healthy
No eating after 7pm- I work at 5am and usually I start craving junk right before bed (9pm-10pm) so this helps with that
Drink 6 cups of water per day- I need to ease myself back into my water drinking.
6/7 days completed reward: New water bottle! I need one!
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