Monday, June 16, 2014
Well I did it, I just signed up for my 1st 5K run called TheGloRun in Bloomington MN. August 30th. It's in the evening and everyone looks to be in neon & glowing! I have been walking for many, many, miles and figure it is about time to push myself harder and further so committing MY FIRST 5K is a little bit scary but a whole lot of exciting.
I see others here making the leap Newbies and Pros alike (You know who you are) now I can finally say I did it too and all the research I have read says I can be in shape enough to make my 3.1 miles with in 10 weeks starting today!
Today I did 2 minutes jog 1 minute run for 30 minutes that means 20 minutes of jogging and 10 minutes of walking and I kept my breath under control so up it a little daily by week 10.
I can do this! Me? wow seems a little surreal Me!
FYI: The little glow I get everyday on my tracker seem so fitting to enter the GLO run!
Friday, June 06, 2014
After almost month of slacking without my tracking I am in Sync again and all is right with the world!! I REALLY cannot say how much I love my spark tracker it just makes me push myself a little bit more then I would without it!
My defective one was replaced and a BIG THANK YOU to EVERYONE who advised me to let the company know of the issues I was having, after a few emails I was authorized for the return and received my replacement yesterday! Yee haa back in the races!
Now I have to go finish getting my 10,000 steps completed before midnight!! OK it's sort of a love hate relationship I have with this tracker it's bitter sweet, but is so worth the glow I get when I complete my steps!
Thanks again everyone, May peace be with you! =O)
Sunday, May 18, 2014
My spark tracker kicked the bucket, I have only had it 5 months and it has kept me motivated to keep moving and shaking. Keeps me in line to continue my 10,000 steps daily forcing my to do at least 10 minute workouts daily and it has been my little motivator every step of the way and for no reason it will no longer upload any info to my computer and sadly I miss it.
I have worn it faithfully since the day it arrived, tried to download the software again, changed the battery again and Sent another email to customer service with no avail.
I will have to save up some cash, later this summer I can purchase another but my motivation took a drop along with my attitude and my food choices. I'll snap out of it and perk up soon but for now I just feel like curling up on the couch and sleeping. Thanks for listing. :)
Monday, January 13, 2014
Well I just need to get this off my chest, I know this is a bit trivial but it is very real! I am sorry how I treated myself today! I went to the doctor for a 2 year DOT physical, my health is beautiful, and all is great no meds, no bad things other than my attitude! I did not want to know my weight because of the mental games I like to play with myself and she told me my weight UUUUugg! Yes I am still losing but I was crushed when I heard 220!! I know I should be thankful at least I am going down instead of back up but I have been working out so faithfully and portion control, portion control and MORE portion control!
My jeans were getting tight at a size 20 last summer! But with a total commitment, dedication and a whole lot of walking, jogging, biking, and Yoga I'm sliding into a 14 jean now! (with a muffin top) You would think I would be doing the happy happy joy joy dance but instead I condemned myself for not weighing less!! I had to renew my CDL and that is why I had to get DOT physical, I looked at my picture and all I could see is a faceless blob tired looking sagging skin, that wonderful double chin and unhappy looking. What the hell is wrong with me that I would think only bad thoughts of myself when I should be dancing with joy!!
I Do Not look at others with such harsh judgments!! But put me in front of a mirror or see a picture of myself and I seemed to see all the negatives and I am sorry that I treat myself like this, I have no right to judge myself so harsh it makes me feel sad inside! Sometimes I just want to hide under a rock! I am not going to let the sound of 220 ECHO in my head over and over I am going to work even harder to get below the 200 mark and if any one cares I actually put my REAL Weight on my license! First time ever!! It was a moment of forgiveness to say yes that is what I weigh and I am ok just as I am to raise my hand in the face of denial and accept who I am ALL OF ME!!!!
Maybe there is something else in my heart and soul that made me take a dive downwards today but I am not staying down in my self pity for long it serves no real purpose.
I sometime just wish I could get where I want to be FASTER, I feel like I'm walking in quicksand but I am NOT giving up on myself! I am here for the long haul! I have a goal, I have determination and I have forgiven myself for the bad things I said about me today and the bad thoughts I had about myself today!! Thanks for listening!
Your body is keeping and accurate journal regardless of what you write down.
I'm going to keep on keeping on one step at a time.
Sunday, December 08, 2013
Sunday Morning reflection...
I was sitting here sipping on some coffee and realized I have had a wonderful year, I am so thankful for all that I have accomplished and how far I have come this year! It has had it's ups and downs like any other year but I put in my Goals this year that 2013 was going to be about ME and I did it!!
I actually realized I had to stop shopping, spending money! Buying unnecessary things for me and all those around me, it was almost as if I was using money I didn't have, trying to distract me from what I really wanted to achieve and that was caring about me! Appreciating who I am and valuing myself enough to take action and start showing myself that I am worth it!
Not buying things surrounding myself with stuff!!! Going on eating binges that would feed a small country! (no joke, all though it is sort of funny!) I have been on a whirlwind of craziness for years, wanting so bad to just put one foot in front of the other and get my butt moving!! Eat realistic portions not Mega super sized portions staring at my body in every disgusting pose I could find just to cut myself down and say how fat I am and ugly! People would see me smile and thinks all is well but inside I cried invisible tears!
I spend money like crazy trying to forget what my true goal was and I would go on these rollercoaster rides of self destruction splurges weather it was food or spending or BOTH! So I cleaned out the clutter! Donated anything that is taking up space and not being used! Then I quit spending! If I made a list I went to the store and bought ONLY what was on my list, I didn't get caught up in strolling down the isles buying those "extra" little things that add up to a whopping $100.00 extra bucks at the register, leaving the store with that gut sick feeling of why did I go so far over budget again...
Then swing into a fast food joint and stuff my face with what ever caught my eye or could smell in the air... Then spend another $15.00 and feel worse than I already did as if I purposely sabotaged myself to feel crappy but I think I thought I was crappy how have I let myself get so far out of control I might as well continue punishing myself to make me feel even worse.... spend the end of the day full of regrets alone in front of another energy zapper my TV!!!! MY COUCH!!! Eat more, Do less, and feel like Chit!
What the heck is wrong with that picture! Duh! It wasn't working well for me!! My mind had great plans but my body fought me EVERY DANG DAY!!! Well the change came when I was watching a show that said: Treat yourself as "IF" you loved yourself! Big step for me and a whole new concept I thought about it and though if someone I loved was living the way I do it would make me feel very sad for them and then I associated them as me and realized I have been avoiding ME!
The one person I am constantly around and fight with the most, the one person who can make a difference, the one person who just wants to be loved and accepted as she is! That person is ME! And I am no longer going to let this person treat me so bad!! I am going to treat myself as "IF" I loved myself and bam! It is all falling into place!
My spending is under control!!! My portion are in control! My butt and belly are moving and shaking! And as I soaked in the tub and seen how much smaller my belly had become I thought dang girl it's working!!
I was my own worst enemy! I have been fighting myself for years, lived in the dark hole of despair, held my head in shame and realized the only person who was really judging me was me! No more, I found myself, then said it was ok to forgive myself and began to love myself and I now remind myself everyday that I am in love with myself and it feels GREAT!
Your body is keeping and accurate journal regardless of what you write down.
I'm going to keep on keeping on just chasing my glow
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